I am so so so so so so so soooo sorry! My workload has gone sky high since January exams have been getting closer and I am literally dying. It took me like two weeks to write this chapter even though it is shorter than the others. Waay shorter. I am sorry :( it ain't my best either in my opinion. I'll let you read it now :P

I don't own Beyblade (if I did, I wouldn't be revising)


Chapter 12

The hallways were empty when I left the classroom. I headed to the toilets to fix my hair, keeping up appearances is important, especially if I want to pull again. I work hard all the time so I deserve to have a little fun. Speaking of fun, I haven't talked to Ash in a while; I wonder how he's doing. I scrambled around in my bag searching for my phone.

'Hey Ash, guess what? I painted an elephant in my room and it's really nice and colourful. Oh! And I figured out what I want to do in the future! I am going to travel the world, like England and Africa and Antarctica and Australia and did you know that I have really big muscles? So I can walk and walk and walk for ages-' I was cut off by Ash.

'Hey, Fifi!', his voice sounded panicky, 'I want you to listen very carefully okay? You are manic right now so I need you to go to the Emergency Department in hospital, okay? Or wait, is there a friend close by?'

'Nooope I'm in the toilets. And I am not manic, I'm just having a little fun. I work and work and work but nothing comes out of it so I'm just going to enjoy myself from now on. I feel great, seriously. You know those horrible pills the doc gave me make me feel sad. I can't believe they give them out on purpose.' I complained while Ash was trying to get me to shut up.

'Find Kai right now', he demanded.

I rolled my eyes at the phone and decided to listen to him. Ash was still on the other end as I roamed the hallways looking for Kai.

'Well, someone's looking happy today', Tala appeared round the corner. 'You on happy pills or something?'

'I was on sad pills but I threw them away and now I am feeling goooood', I twirled around in a circle but stopped when I heard Ash yelling on the phone. 'Alright alright blondie, chill I'll find Kai' I yelled back at him.

'Pssht, men.' I said to no-one in particular.

Tala looked at me with a strange expression on his face; it was a mix of confusion, worry and surprise.

'Are you… crazy?' he looked at me in disbelief.

I snorted, 'no. Everyone says that but screw them, they don't know everything. I have to find Kai or Ash will get mad. Bye bye!' I cheerfully danced around him and continued down the hallway.

'Take her to the emergency department and they will decide what to do with her. She's only hypomanic at the moment, not full blown mania as far as I can tell so you still have some time to take her. It'll be much harder if she's fully manic.' Ash explained to Kai over the phone.

It took me twenty minutes to find him with Ash shouting at me and telling me to hurry up. He was in a physics lesson which I interrupted and dragged him out. The teacher didn't look too happy but hey, who cares. Physics sucks anyway.

I stood behind Kai and put my arms around his neck while Ash talked to him. I rested my chin on his shoulder and started humming a random tune while tapping my feet repeatedly on the ground. He smelled really nice; like peppermint. I ran my nose along his neck, inhaling the fresh scent while he struggled to keep himself upright with my show of affection and talk on the phone at the same time.

I moved my hands from his neck to his waist and began placing light kisses near the back of his jawline. He instantly turned around and grabbed my hands to stop me from continuing. His eyes were dark and his face was serious. I looked at him with crocodile tears in my eyes after which his expression softened and he placed his hand on my head.

'Will do. I'll talk to you later then', he shut off the phone and gave it back to me. 'Time to go'.

'Where we going?' I asked him playfully. 'Let's go to your house. We can have some fun', I winked at him suggestively.

He turned away from me, a determined look on his face. I grabbed his hand and placed my head on his shoulder. He didn't shrug me away and I stayed like that until we got to his motorbike.

'She lives on her own', Kai told the doctor while I sat on the bed and played with all of the instruments in the room.

'I think it is best if she is admitted into hospital. She has a history of severe manic episodes so it would be wise to prevent her from potentially harming herself or others in the future.' the doctor explained to Kai.

He merely nodded in response.

'Okay Miss Phoenix. I am admitting you into hospital because there is a chance that your manic episode could get out of hand and we are here to keep that under control. Do you understand?' The doctor said.

I looked at him angrily, 'There is nothing wrong with me! Don't you idiots understand? You just don't want me to be happy. I hate you! I hate all of you!' I screeched loudly with reaching out for an instrument to use on the doctor.

Two nurses suddenly appeared and tried to calm me down while Kai was forced out of the room in case things turned sour. I screamed and thrashed around while they tried to hold me down which wasn't very successful.

After half an hour of fighting with the nurses, I eventually calmed down and was led away to my room in the hospital. Kai was told to collect some of my belongings from my apartment and bring them back here so that my stay could be as comfortable as possible.

Mania is the flipside of depression. So it's basically when you have a seemingly endless amount of energy; so much that you can't think straight. Your thoughts are all muddled up and the words that come out of your mouth can't catch up to your thoughts so nothing makes sense. Sleep also becomes less important and another symptom is hypersexuality where the person engages in numerous sexual activities without thinking about the consequences. Hypomania is the less serious version; before going into a full blown manic episode, people will usually be in a hypomanic state for a while. The time of each episode depends on the person.

I remember my worst manic episode, well, I remember what I've been told about it. There are blank spots during that time where I have no idea what was going on. I started having hallucinations which I remember vividly. I saw Conrad everywhere I went even though he was dead. My thoughts rushed around so fast that it hurt just to think. Nothing was going right; no-one could understand what I wanted because I couldn't get it out. After that episode I promised myself I would never let that happen again, I couldn't let it happen again. It was like being chained in your own mind, you have no control. I told myself I would take care of my mental state and I did for a long time.

This time though, I let it slip. I was too comfortable with my surroundings. I wasn't alert enough and this is what happened. I needed to find a way to live with this illness; I needed time to compose myself forever. I needed… to find a way to just deal.


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