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Chapter Twelve: Home and A Box

Madison rolled her eyes as Spencer once again asked the same question he'd asked her at least a million times since they'd gotten on the jet. "Are you sure you don't want me to find someone for you to talk to once we get home"?

She turned to face him feeling almost bad. She knew the only reason he was insisting on finding her a counselor was because he was worried.

"I really don't feel comfortable talking to some stranger about my problems. It just seems so pointless. I mean theres people out there whom have had way more horrible things happen to them". She stated frowning.

Spencer sighed running his hand through her hair before speaking up "Maddie sweetheart it's not a competition. I mean you don't need to compare whats happened to you to other peoples problems".

She sighed staring down at the cup of coffee that her sister had insisted on bringing her a few minutes ago. "I'll think about it okay".

To tell the truth she was totally against the idea of finding someone to talk to once she got home. She was actually tired of everyone around her. They all seemed to walk on eggshells around her.

Yes she knew that they were just worried and she should be grateful that they cared enough to worry. She was just ready for things to go back to the way they used to be. She sighed running her hand through her hair. She knew it would take forever for things to go back to normal though.

The past few days had been spent crying and trying to make sense of everything that had happened to her. She still felt unbelievably scared and she knew she would feel this way for a while. It was almost getting ridiculous though. What kind of girl was so anxious that she couldn't stand it if her boyfriend left her alone for five minutes?

She glanced over at Spencer seeing that he was currently pretending to read a book. He wasn't doing a very good job of it though. Especially since he kept on looking up from it to stare at her every five seconds.

Cassidy had been arrested an taken in this morning. She confessed immediately not giving any reason to why she'd done it. Robert was still out there though. This scared her more than anything.

The nightmares didn't help matters much. She hadn't gotten much sleep lately because of them. She didn't feel comfortable telling Spencer about them. She really didn't want to worry him anymore.

She was already sure she was becoming a huge worry to him. It almost felt like she was a burden though she knew she could never really be a burden to anyone.

She sighed managing to lay her coffee down on the table in front of her before she turned around facing the aisle. She was more than happy to have the aisle seat, since she didn't exactly want to be by the window. Her fear of heights made flying a less than pleasant experience.

Spencer stared down at his girlfriend the second the BAU's jet landed. He wasn't surprised to see that she'd fallen asleep wrapped up in his Grey sweater that she'd decided was hers a few months ago.

He sighed knowing he'd have to carry her. He just didn't have it in him to wake her. Mainly because he knew she needed the sleep. He wasn't completely oblivious to the fact that she'd been having nightmares lately. After all he had more than his share of them. He'd found that it was so easy to notice when someone wasn't having a pleasant dream.

He somehow managed to scoop her up in his arms and carry her out to Morgan's car without any help from anyone. Morgan had offered to give them a ride to Spencer's apartment since they didn't have his car right now.

They didn't have any luggage either. Mainly because Madison was in such a rush to get out of Florida. Thankfully her mother had offered to send their things to his apartment. So it hadn't been a big deal.

Her dad still wasn't talking to Spencer. Spencer had the slight feeling that he may never really be able to have a decent relationship with her father. It hurt him a little, but not because it hurt his feelings. It just upset him that her father couldn't accept that he was the right one for her and she wasn't going to leave him for anything or anyone.

He only hoped that her mother would learn to accept him with time. Mainly because he really didn't want it to be awkward if they were ever to have children. He really didn't want to have to explain to a child why it was that both of it's grandparents hated it's father.

Thankfully she'd woken up by the time they'd pulled up to his apartment complex. He was more than grateful for this. He wasn't the strongest person and it exhausted him to try to carry her.

They made it inside before he spoke "You should take a shower. I think you still have some of your clothes here so you'll hopefully have pajamas".

She nodded running her hands through her hair "Okay I'll try not to take too long. I know you need a shower too".

He nodded watching her disappear of into the bathroom before he made his way to his guest room slash office. He opened the first drawer of his desk before grabbing a small black velvet box out and peering into it. He'd bought it a few weeks before they'd left for Florida. The ring was perfect. It was simple but still quite elegant.

Of course he knew that now wasn't the right time to ask her. He had to give it some time and thankfully he had plenty of time. Gideon had told him to take his time before he went back to work. He intended on doing just that, since he still didn't feel safe leaving her all by herself.

She'd cried so much in the past few days it killed him. He really couldn't stand to see her like this. He was really hoping that with time she'd go back to being a little bit like her old self.

He jumped slightly when he heard Madison's voice "Spencer what are you doing in here"?

He automatically shoved the box back into the top drawer before turning around to face her. "I uh I was just looking for a pen, but then I realized I had one in my messenger bag".

Sure it wasn't the best excuse but it was all he could come up with. It's not like he expected her shower to be that quick. Then again who knew how long he'd been standing there daydreaming.

She raised her eyebrows "Why do you need a pen"?

He shrugged "Thats weird I forgot. Oh well come on lets go to bed".

She nodded "Aren't you going to take a shower"?

He nodded "Yes I'm going to take one, but first I need to help you look for some pajamas".

He bit his lip leading her towards the bedroom. That had been close. Hopefully he could get through asking her without completely screwing it up.