Edward's POV
I sat down, in front of her, 30 inches away, as she lifted her head up. I was worried about her. She was broken. I wanted to make her feel comfortable. I wanted her to know she was not alone.
I waited her to answer. I needed her to speak. Angels are not sad creatures- they are not quiet.
''Why not?'' She answered with a bright voice. Her voice was like magic.
Now is the time.
I stood up and held my hand to her. She watched it, with golden eyes. I could watch those once forever, even I missed her brown eyes already.
She took my hand and in that moment I knew she felt the exact same thing. She had to feel it.
It was electricity. It was love. More powerful than it had been before. Only God knew how powerful it would grow. I smiled to that thought.
''Bella, please. Let me show my perspective of this situation. I want you to understand every bit of it.'' I told her with a soft voice. She nodded. She was terrified. What I was doing?
I breathed desperately and heavily before I started, ''I wanted you to live a long, happy life. Something that humans can offer. Something I can't even think about.'' I looked at her eyes. She was in her own world for a while.
I continued, ''I did not want you to suffer. Not in any way. The change is difficult. Long process of painful hell. Human memory is like a blur. You could have been able to forget me.''
''Were you?'' She suddenly asked. I was out. What she was talking about?
''Was I what?''
''Able to forget me?'' She asked with a broken voice.
I was confused. Did she really think I could forget her? Didn't she know how much I loved her? How long she had been a vampire? She had to know we couldn't forget anything, I had told her that many years ago.
''I am sure by now you know that we are not able to forget anything.'' I answered clearly, ''Not a tiny bit.''
Bella nodded again, ''Since when you have been with Tanya?''
I was taken back. Did she really think I was with her? I had nothing to do with Tanya! She was only a friend to me, ''What? Why you think so? Bella, you must misunderstood this situation. I am not with Tanya.''
''But you-'' She started but stopped soon. She did not know what to say. She was in the dead end. I needed to save this situation.
''How should I say this? I have never been with Tanya, and never will. She has always been only a family friend. She is interested on me, but I am only thinking her as a friend.'' Bella nodded again to my sentence. I smiled a little.
''I believe you have something more to say. Sorry to intercept your thing.'' She said as I smiled. I smiled a little bit more, ''You have nothing to apologize. I have done something terrible. I left you, for your own good. But- I believe a destiny cannot be changed,'' I felt terrible. I was stupid. Fool. Coward. Something bad, ''I was a fool. What I was thinking? You'd get a contact with any vampire If you'd like to. You knew what you were looking for.'' I instantly became disappointed to myself, ''I am sorry I failed you.''
''What are you talking about?'' She asked fastly.
''I assume you never wanted this, but you still asked for it.'' I told her. She seemed to be unhappy with her decision of becoming one of like me.
''I never wanted this, yes you are right. But-'' She started. Venom in my veins became run. Run by anger.
''And I was talking truth about being vampire! And you never listened to me!'' ''Edward stop!'' She shouted as she tried to calm me down. Her touch against my skin was wonderful. I'd like to feel her touch again.
''I have always wanted this. Since I was with you. I was afraid of the changer-changed bond that could happen sometimes. But I believe I have nothing with Garrett. I just wanted to you to change me. But, a situation is a lot different now.'' She told me with a sad smile, ''I have said to you all I have to. I just not believe you never loved me enough to make me equal with you.''
I became sad, ''That is not what I think. I wanted to give you more that I could. All you desired.'' She was not speaking the truth.
''Another lie,'' She told to me, ''You were all what I ever wanted, but you were never ready to give yourself to me.''
She looked unwell. Was she fine?
''Bella. Hear me say-'' I tried.
''Stop before you start. You have done plenty damage all ready. Isn't that enough?'' She asked before she turned around.
Her hair smelled as good as I remembered. She was as good as I remembered. She wanted righteous to her. She wanted justice.
Her feet fell off.
Of course I was the fastest. I did not let her hit the ground. She was between my arms. I hugged her from behind. I did not know was it suitable for this situation, but I did it to protect her.
She sat in my lap as I sat on the ground. Her head fell again and her hands were put on her face. She was broken angel.
''Bella. You are alright. I am so sorry I did this to you.'' I said to comfort her.
Now she cried without tears. It hurted me more that hundreds of unkind words, thousands of knives in my back, saying once to her I did not love her...
''You are alright…'' I whispered into the air, ''You are alright…''
''I wish you were right,'' She told between the sobs, ''I do not know what to do.'' I felt bad for her.
''Please, Bella. Let me help you.''
''And why you would do it?'' She asked a little bit angrily. She still sat in my lap. I was glad she was in it.
''Because… Isabella. My feelings hasn't changed. They have never changed since the first day.''
''That is... hella crap. I hope you would had thought that on that day.'' She said as she stood up. I did it too.
''Why you think so? I have told you already why I left you.'' I said with a serious voice. I really did love her. I wanted to have a future with her, but what if she did not…
She did not answer to that. She just looked at my eyes.
''Please. Just let me help you. I want nothing more right now. I am only going to help you if you want the same.''
Finally she nodded with a tiny smile.
