So here's chapter 12. I hope you enjoy it.
His broken and you're the reason why
I walked back into my apartment seeing the guy standing there looking back at me. I didn't know what to do or what to say. I walked into the living room and slumped down on the sofa. He sat on the sofa opposite me. I still couldn't believe Nathan accused me of cheating. I would never do that, not after what happened with the whole Lucas and Peyton situation months ago. There was silence in the house and I could hear my heart breaking still and it wasn't stopping.
Then he broke the silence, but my eyes were still on the wall "What happened Brooke?"
"He thinks I'm cheating on him with you" I told him
"Did you tell him who I am Brooke?" He asked "Besides that is disgusting"
"I know and he didn't give me a chance and anyway what is the point if he doesn't trust me Clay. There is no point in it" I responded
"Brooke I'm sorry" Clay apologised
"For what?" I looked up at him finally.
"For coming here and ruining your relationship with him" I didn't want him feeling like that. He means everything to me and he being here is amazing. So I jumped up and slumped next to him on the sofa.
"It's not your fault Clay" I assured him "I'm happy your here. I missed you a lot. I really have"
"Talk to him Brooke" Clay advised me
I said nothing after that. I knew Clay was right. I knew I had to talk to him, but I wasn't doing that tonight. No way in hell am I going to call him and sort this stuff out. I just thought I'd wait until school tomorrow morning instead. School that is it. School where everything once looked alright and then Nathan ruined it. He ruined everything not me.
Clay was still sleeping when I was up getting ready for school. All I could think about was Nathan and what he had accused me off last night. I was ready in an hour. Haley hadn't come home last night, so I'm guessing she was with Lucas or something. I grabbed my car keys and bag and headed out for school.
When I parked in the student parking space that I normally park in, I turned the engine off and waited. I don't know what for, but I did. I just sat in my car like the whole world would stop around me and I would be the only one active. I finally found the energy to move from my car. I opened the door and climbed out. I then headed for the school double doors and straight to my locker. I didn't want to see him. He accused me of cheating and that was not cool.
I turned and saw Nathan standing at his locker, he saw me. I looked back at my locker and looked at the picture of us. I couldn't stand it anymore, so I shut the locker and headed towards Nathan's locker, but instead I went to walk pass him when he stepped in front of me which stopped me. I didn't look up at him, I didn't want to because I didn't want to get lost in his eyes like I always do.
"So what'd you do last night after you walked away? Did he hold you in his arms and comfort you?" Nathan said spitefully "Did he kiss you and make everything better?"
What the hell? He stopped me so he could have a go at me just like last night. I don't fucking well think so. I shot my head up at him and I didn't get lost in his eyes like I thought I would, but he saw the anger in mine.
"You're kidding me right? Nathan you don't understand and you don't get it" I responded
"No I think I do understand Brooke. I think you're screwing that guy who I saw you jump into his arms last night. I think that you just wanted me to feel for you so you could break my heart. I knew you would do it. I knew you would break my heart. I just knew it" Nathan ranted on.
I Brooke his heart really. I don't think so. He broke my heart "Actually Nathan you don't know anything. I am not screwing Clay. I did not break your heart. You broke mine when you accused me of cheating on you with him when I wasn't. You wouldn't give me a chance to speak and even if you did you don't deserve to know anything about him or who he is because you hurt me more than Lucas had when he cheated on me with Peyton" I stood there trying not to cry. He didn't deserve my tears and I wasn't going to cry over him.
"So he has a name then. Clay huh?" Nathan said looking down at me.
"Yes he does and to what you're thinking I don't care" I looked away from him for a moment fighting back the tears with everything strength I had "You could have let me explain instead of accusing me Nathan. Clay means everything to me and for him to be here is amazing. I missed him a lot and for you to say I'm sleeping with him is out of order and wrong on all levels" I went to walk around him when he stopped me again and pulled me in front of him.
"If he means everything to you then there must be something going on Brooke No one means something to someone and there not sleeping with them" Nathan smirked at me and I have now had enough of him and the shit coming out of his mouth right now. He was frustrating me and I was about to explode. How dare he do this to me? How dare he accuse me and how dare he put me on the spot like that "Who is he Brooke? Is he an ex boyfriend or an ex fuck buddy? Who is he?"
The questions where shot at me like bullets from a gun. I looked at him and saw nothing, but questions written all over his face. I couldn't stand this anymore. Clay was not an ex boyfriend nor was he an ex fuck buddy of mine.
"His" I stopped for a second and looked up at him.
"Who is he Brooke?" Nathan repeated
"HIS MY BROTHER NATHAN" I shouted at him and his face dropped "HIS MY BROTHER OKAY. YOU HAPPY NOW?" He let go of me and I circled round him and a single tear fell down my eye as I turned the corner.
I didn't get a phone call from Lucas last night even though I was mad as hell with Nathan and Clay was there, but I still noticed that he didn't ring me at all I didn't even have a miss call or texts from him or even a voicemail. So I was kind of worried. I still cared for him after what Peyton had done. Yeah he hurt me, but that was in the past now and I have forgiven him for it. I might not have forgotten, but I forgave him and it was strange that he didn't ring me. So I went looking for him.
I walked all the way round school and I found him nowhere, but then I remembered I never checked the gym. I remember that when we were together and he was upset or angry he would go to the river court, but we were in school and the nearest court were in the gym. I headed there and as I expected, Lucas was shooting hoops with anger and sadness on his face. I slowly walked over to him with the clatter of my heels on the tiles. He obviously noticed me when he heard my heels walking towards him.
He turned around and I smiled at him and he gave me a little weak smile that looked hard for him to do. I feel for him, I really do. I miss how our friendship was before we dated. Lucas and I were really close. We would tell each other anything and everything. We were the closest anyone has ever been and I admit I miss that. Then in junior year we started getting closer like more than just friends close. We would go everywhere together and do everything together. Lucas was my first kiss, my first proper friend and yes he was my first love. One day after school he had come over in junior year to do homework. We had just finished and my parents were working out of Tree Hill, so it was just me and him in the house. He kissed me which surprised me, but I liked it and that's when we changed our friendship and began a relationship.
He then looked away and shot another ball through the hoop and I clapped this time getting his attention again. He looked at me and that's when my heart broke for him. He looked so helpless and tired "Hey Luke" I spoke first walking closer to him.
"Hi" He just managed to say.
"So you never called me last night?" I said softly not wanting to upset him anymore "You okay Luke?"
"I was yesterday after I talked to you. I was just copping that I lost the one girl I really love" Lucas then realised what he had said and his face looked apologetic "Sorry Brooke, I love you too, but not in a romantic way anymore"
"It's okay Luke. I understand. I love you too and always will, but not in a romantic way" I assured him "Carry on. What's wrong?"
"I was okay Brooke yesterday and then I thought I would try and talk to Peyton and sort all this out because I can't lose her. I love her Brooke more than anything, but then I got a picture text from an anonymous person. I opened it not thinking and there she was at the river court kissing someone else. I thought she was actually sorry. I can't believe her. I thought she loved me like I love her, but I guess I was wrong" Lucas now had a tears streaming down his face. I have never seen him like this throughout the years we have known each other.
"Oh Luke I am so sorry" I went in and gave him a hug "I really am sorry Luke. Who was she with, in the picture?"
He pulled out his phone and opened the text message. I looked at it carefully not believing what I saw. She was at the river court kissing none other than Felix. I froze and looked back down at Lucas in my arms. He was so broken, more then I was I think. He was torn and that bitch done this to him and who the hell does Felix think he is. This was all messed up, but I had to be there for Lucas. More than ever. I wanted out friendship back and I was going to get it. I had to help him, we were once bestfriends. I wasn't going to let him down now.
I left Lucas about 10 minutes ago. I was going to castrate that bitch and then do the same to Felix. This was out of order. Peyton can't just do this and expect people to deal with it. She had thrown away the one thing that was good in her life. She is a slut and a hoe. She knows that and so do I. She hurt me and Lucas all in the same year. I was going to deal with that bitch once and for all. I was going to knock her off her feet and then kill Felix the same way. I flew through the corridors trying to find either one of them. I didn't care who I found first I just wanted one of them. Then I saw her walking down the corridor with Haley. I was a bit surprise that Haley was with Peyton when her bestfriend is in pieces. Yeah I knew Luke first, but Haley and he are close too.
I stormed up to Peyton and stopped in front of her. She was smiling and I just glared at her. What the hell has she got to smile about? Nothing that's what. I was fed up of her walking round thinking she can hurt people when she bloody well can't.
"Oi bitch" I called out to her even though she was in front of me. POW. I hit her with one swift move "What kind of person are you Peyton? Like seriously, do you like screwing people around or something because you don't know when you have a good thing and Lucas was that good thing, but yet again you fucked it up and I mean for real this time. You're not gonna get him back now, or ever"
"You can't talk to me like Brooke" Peyton sighed
"And you can't walk round like you can hurt people when you can't and I'm serious" I spat at her "You're a fucking bitch and everyone will hate you one day, just you wait and fucking see" I stepped closer to her "You're a whore and a slut and I hope you're alone because you brought it on all yourself"
"Whatever Brooke" Peyton smirked
"You smirk all you like you little whore, but when Lucas don't want you after what you did last night, you'll know what it feels like to be alone and have someone taken from you" I told her shaking my head "Because he doesn't want you, he was gonna give you another chance after you screwed god knows who last night, oh wait I do know who" I laughed.
I then turned to Haley "What kind of friends are you Hales?" She looked at me "Lucas is broken and you're here with the girl who has caused it all"
"I didn't know he was so hurt by her sleeping with Nathan" Haley replied
"It isn't because of Nathan Haley" I told her
"You're right I am a bad friend" Haley admitted "I don't even know why my bestfriend is broken"
"Haley just go be with him and tell him I'll be back when I deal with Felix" I instructed her.
She circled me and the stopped "What does Felix have to do with anything?" She asked
"Don't worry about it Hales" I replied trying to save her from heart break.
"No tell me what does Felix have to do with anything?" She insisted to know "It's not like he slept with Peyton last night" Haley laughed slightly
"Haley I'm sorry" I spoke and saw Haley's eyes go cold.
"No Brooke he can't have, he was with me" Haley had hope in her voice and I didn't want to, but I had to.
"Haley what time did Felix come to you?" I questioned
"About 9" Haley replied "He was meant to come at 7, but said something came up and he would be late, but Peyton wouldn't do that to me. Would she?" Haley looked at Peyton then me. Peyton turned away and Haley knew.
"I'm sorry Haley" I then saw tears run down Haley's face "Peyton don't care about anyone, but herself. She did it to me and Nathan now she did it to you"
"Brooke's right Peyton. You're a bitch and I hate you" Haley turned round and headed for the gym with tears streaming down her cheeks.
I was still standing there with Peyton looking at me. She had tears running down her face, I think she realised she lost everyone, but right now I don't have any pity on her. She done this to herself, by sleeping with whoever whenever and losing Lucas, Haley and myself. I looked at her and shook my head; I had nothing more to say to this bitch, so I turned around and went to walk away when I heard her voice.
"I'm sorry Brooke, for everything" Peyton whispered, but I heard her.
"You should have thought about that before you did all this Peyton" I then walked away leaving her standing there b herself,
I walked into the gym and my heart broke when I saw hale holding on to Lucas tight and they were both crying. To anyone else it would look stupid, but to me it was heart breaking seeing him and her broken like they were. I don't know what was going on between Haley and Felix because hale wasn't home last night, but it must have been something to hurt Haley like it did and to make her hate Peyton as much as I do. I slowly walked over to them hearing the noise my heels where making. I stopped when I got to them and sat opposite them.
"Hey Luke" I smiled at him when he looked up at me "I'm back"
"Hey Brooke" He sobbed
"I know she hurt you Luke, but you'll get through this trust me I know. I got through it and now you can too" I assured him.
"Promise"
"I promise Luke" I hugged him and he held me tight.
"Hales I don't know what you had with that jerk Felix, but I will find him and deal with him since I know him, well thought I did anyway" I turned to Haley when Lucas let me go from his grasp "I promise"
"Thanks Brooke" Haley hugged me and I felt so good being able to help them and forget about me and Nathan for a while.
"No problem anything for you two" I smiled
I was sitting in English; I only had Nathan in that class which I hated after our confrontation this morning. We haven't spoken since and I hate that. I love him, I do, but if he can't trust me then what's the point. i opened up my book that I found on my desk when I entered just before class begun when I found a note. I looked at and could tell it was Nathan's hand writing. I then read it and smiled.
Brooke, baby girl
I love you and I'm sorry that I over reacted when I saw you in the guys arms. I should have let you explain and I shouldn't have said those things to you. it was wrong of me and I understand that now. I don't want to lose you Brooke. Your my everything. your properly thinking how I got your note book. Ou dropped it when you stomped off earlier and I thought I'd leave you this note on your desk before class.
I know what I did was wrong and I shouldn't have jumped to conclusions, but I promise that will never happen again. I do trust ou Brooke and I love you more than anything. You're the most precious thing I have that had gone right in my life. Forgive me please.
Love you always. Nate
I turned the page in my book and begun taking down the notes that the teacher was saying. All I could think about was Nathan and how I was going to kill Felix when I found him. I was too wrapped in everything going through my head that I didn't hear the bell ring until I saw loads of bodies getting up and walking out around me. I packed away my things and saw Nathan walk out the class room. It was lunch time and I had to find Felix, but I needed to talk to Nathan before that. I walked out of the class room and saw Nathan standing at his locker putting his book away.
I walked up behind him and stood there for a few minutes breathing in his smell thati loved so much. I tapped him on the shoulder and when he turned around I leaned up on m tip toes and kissed him softly on the lips. He was shocked at first, but then he kissed me back and I could have fallen into his embrace, but I had to find that son of a bitch Felix.
"I forgive you" I whispered when we parted. I then walked pass him and went to find Felix. He had to be her somewhere.
I looked everywhere, but I couldn't find him. He was nowhere to been seen. Haley said she hasn't seen him since this morning. I checked the library, quad and class rooms, but he was nowhere. Then I decide to check the gym. I walked in and there he was shooting hoops just like Lucas was doing earlier. I walked over to him and pushed him so he missed the shot. He turned around and glared at me "What was that for Brooke?"
"What the hell are you playing at Felix? I get that I rejected you for Nathan, but Haley liked you and you go and fuck it all up" I screamed at him "What is it huh? Are you scared because you've never been in a relationship or is it because you like to fuck girls over?"
"What are you talking about Brooke?" Felix asked playing dumb.
"Don't act dumb with me Felix. I know you're not that dumb" I shook my head at him and then he went to the Felix I used to know "You fucked Peyton last night then you fucked Haley too"
"Brooke you don't understand" Felix muttered "I was the river court shooting hoops, I was going to the hotel that Haley had booked for us because she didn't want you finding out and being mad at her. Then Peyton showed up and started flirting with me, one thing led to another and it just happened"
"You disgust me Felix" I turned to walk away "The old Felix would never have gotten between someone's relationship" I then turned back to him "Stay away from me, Haley and Lucas Felix and I mean it because if you don't I will ruin you in this town. Do you understand me" Felix nodded and I headed out of the gym.
I hope you like the chapter. Please review and let me know what you think. Thanks xx
