...Well you've been warned.
Port Angeles
I was still in a daze from being in Edward's presence for so long. When I'm around him I am whole but when he is gone it's like he took part of me with him. His scent fills me when I'm around him and when he's gone I feel like I am under water and deprived. It's quite unhealthy to feel so attached. To feel so helpless without someone but I'd hate to think about not seeing Edward even if it was only in my way too real dreams. Lately all I find myself thinking about is Edward. When he'll talk to me next, see him next, look my way next, smell him again, what he's thinking. So many thoughts built around a certain angel. Now that I think about it I don't remember the last time I've hung with my friends. Which means it's a good thing that I'll be with Angie and two other girls from school.
Even though it's a good thing for me to get out I have this bad feeling. It's a deep scary feeling. In the pit of my stomach, trying to make it's way to the surface. Then there's the voice in the back of my head yelling at me, telling me not to go. I couldn't do that to my girls though there dying to see me. And deep down I'm dying to see them too. They must have tons of questions and I have tons to say. So no matter what I'll go, what's the worse that could happen anyway? It's Port Angeles.
Angie eventually pulled up and apologized for being ten minutes later. I told her it was perfectly fine since I needed some thinking time anyway. She smiled and shook her head. She knew I spent way too much time thinking about everything and beating myself over it all. In the back Dez and Ashley were going over each others make up. They shared how they witnessed my performance, each detail more exaggerated then the next. I sat quietly for the most part just enjoying being out, only occassionally adding in. We made it to the little hip dinner all the teens went to in less then two hours. The place is called The Sparkling Gem.
All the girls were still chatting while we entered the place. It was most certainly sparkly. The floor were a deep blue with sparks of silver making it look like a night sky. The ceiling was all mirror and it reflected the beautiful tile. Mini disco ball lights hung above each table, so perfectly private. The chairs and tables were retro with their glossy white shine. All the elements mixed well, even the techno-ish music in the backround.
The waitress led us to a table by a window. She handed us menu's that looked like disco balls. Everything on the menu had hip names, even th drinks. We were all ready to order by the time the waitress returned.
"What would you like?" The cheery waitress asked.
"The funky nuggets and fries sounds good." I said. She turned to Dez.
"Ooh I'll have the same." She smiled. Angie turned to us.
"Why would you get something you can just get at a fast food place?" She mocked us. "Anyway, I'll have the kickin' key west chicken with a ceasar salad side, please."
Next to Ashley. "Hmmmmmm. Well I think I'll have the Bangin' Burger Bonanza with the sauce on the side. Pleeease." She gave a big grin.
Sometimes my girls were as serious as stones but a other times they could be so immature. Each unique but when it came to play time they were the same little kid. Especially when it came to boys.
"So Kayla, did you ever sleep with Edward?" Dez asked with shyness. Angie's mouth popped open.
"Desiree! How could you believe those lies!"
"Well, I was just seeing if it was true." She hung her head down. Ashley just sat there giggling.
I decided to chime in. "No Dez I didn't but don't feel bad I would ask the same thing if I was in your situation." Her head sprung back up.
"Too bad, that Cullen boy is fiiiiiine!" We all busted up laughing at Ashley's sudden comment.
By the time we all calmed down and stopped stating different sexual innuendoes about Edward, the waitress returned. She brought us out food on a platter that looked like it was mad from a million different peices of mirror. Its was the same color as the floor. She passed out our food one by one. Everyone dug in, I was surprisingly hungry. We ate in silence but as soon as we were all stuffed as pigs the chatter began again. I gave a step by step description of what happened on Tuesday in the cafeteria. I even went into detail about the sound her nose made when it snapped. Everyone was laughing at how I reinacted Jess's face.
The girls started to talk about boys they like and I didn't wanna have to explain my feelings for Edward so I told them I was going to the bathroom. Instead I stepped outside. It was late now and you couldn't see much outside except the occassional person and street lamp. I saw a group of people walk into a nearby alley. By the looks of it they were men, and it didn't look to good. It even appeared that they were dragging someone along. I wasn't sure though because the darkness shadowed what they were doing.
Foolishly, I followed them, but the voice in the back of my head made me stop before I was too close. Then like a howl, a scream erupted from the alley. It wasn't loud enough for anyone else to hear but me. Another muffled cry erupted before my feet started to charge. I reached the alley blinded, I couldn't see anything but silhouettes. I could see the outline of the four men standing over something on the ground. It was whimpering, I guess it was a woman. When I realized I was in trouble it was too late. I turned around to run but the fifth man was standing behind me. He grabbed me, knocking the wind out of me with his strong grip. The thing that was on the ground got up unharmed. Apparently it wasn't a victim it was a trap to lure me into the alley. Fearful tears welled up in my eyes. I was going to be raped with the possibility of murder.
I wouldn't give up. Not now when I had Edward to look forward too. I tried to wiggle away from the big man that held me.
"Ah, a fighter. I like that." His vile voice and breath hit me. Coated in the scent of whiskey.
The other men began to chatter amongst them, probably devising a plan. I frantically kicked and pushed against him with no such luck. I didn't even make him stumble a little. His grip tightened even more and I stiffled a yelp. He wants me to hurt to be scared. That's his thrill. But I couldn't help the fear. His hands burned my wrists. Just the feel of his disgusting hands on my skin was enough to make me sick. The other men stopped talking and lurked towards us. Two of the men went to stand by the mouth of the alley. There was no way out anymore.
"So who's going first?" The man's voice made my legs go weak at the realization.
"Shh. It'll be over soon." The man closest to me who wasn't restraining me tried to soothe me. I hadn't notice I was shaking and whimpering.
"Let's get this over." Obviously the leader said as a cue to the big guy holding me.
The man through me on the ground and kneeled beside me. I started kicking and throwing my arms. I must have looked like a stubborn baby.
"Get her arms and legs!" He grumbled. The others did as he said.
With a swift motion the big man's hands were all over me. Rubbing and pulling at my pants. I cryed and screamed with no hope left. His hands were rough and scratchy. I closed my eyes hoping I wasn't actually hear.
"Please no!" Escaped my mouth as my panties left my body. The combination of his hands and the cold made me shake violently. Then the most disgusting sound floated in the air. His zipper.
"No, no, no, no." I kept repeating over and over as the man above me invaded me. Rough and painful. I screamed and yelped but the man put his hand to my throat and continued. I was losing air and consciousness as he continued. It felt like forever, the man never let up. Ripping my insides I was sure. He grunted each time, I felt so disgusted. I wasn't even blessed enough to pass out. Suddenly his hand moved from my throat.
"Scream for me." He panted. When I didn't comply he smacked my head against the cement. I yelped at the stinging that took over.
"I said scream bitch!" I couldn't find my voice so he hit my head again. Warm liquid trickled down to my neck. The same liquid that was running down my thigh. The smell of rust and metal swirled around me. Blood.
"Such a stupid girl." He cooed his voice sent shivers down my spine.
"You really were to easy." The other said. They all laughed. At me.
After what was surely a life time of the man crushing into me he changed pace. I felt like my bones would crush as he held onto my hips and pushed with urgency. My head bange against the ground at his force. His rough hands cut into my skin as he pushed. I could feel more warm liquid run down my thigh but it wasn't blood. I sobbed even more violently. He pushed again with even more power and let out another grunt. Then he left me on the cold ground.
"Who's next?" He cooed. But then I heard more footsteps and a growl.
"GET AWAY FROM HER YOU SAVAGES!" The voice was so powerful it hurt to listen.
"What are you gonna do?" One of the foolish men said. Another growl roared and something loud banged against the wall, all the men scurried away. I pulled my legs up to my chest and sobbed. That's when I felt the cool fingers wrap around me pulling me into a cool chest. I flinched away at his touch and sobbed more. I wanted to be alone.
I looked up whe I knew for sure it wasn't another attacker. I saw my angel through teary eyes. It only made sob more for him to see me like this. Dismantled and used.
"Oh Edward!" I cried out and clinged to his chest.
"It's okay, it's okay. I'm here it's all over." His voice was pained and broken with an undertone of fury. It wasn't the same velvet I was used to and it scared me.
He took his jacket and wrapped it around me. We sat there. He let me cry on him until I couldn't anymore while he stroked my hair lovingly. Although I wanted nothing but death deep down I wanted to stay and be with Edward. But he would never want me now.
I cried because of the rape, I cried because Edward couldn't possibly love me now, and I cried because I had been so stupid as to leave the dinner in the first place. After I cried it out darkness overwhelmed me. It wasn't peaceful at all. It was the crime scene all over again, Edward was there watching with disgusted eyes that were set on me, it was stuck on replay to remind me that I'm no good.
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A/N; See it wasn't that bad now was it. Now here's a lollipop come again XD
