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[A/N] Happy New Year, everyone! I hope that 2014 will be an amazing year for all of you. I'm grateful that so many of you are reading my little fic here. It means a lot to me.

Today's update is dedicated to Bellice Fan. Thanks for all your support.

**12**

Learning to trust is one of life's most difficult tasks

(Isaac Watts)

I'm already damp between my thighs. In my chest my thighs. My my heart flutters in greedy anticipation of the things that are lying in front of me. It's finally Friday night and I'm on my way to Bella's house.

After paying the taxi driver, I check my reflection for a last time in the mirror. I take a couple of deep breaths in order to set my mind into the upcoming scene. Tonight is important. I want to please Bella as good as possible.

I type the code she's given me into the door lock and step inside. The entire hallway is decorated with heavenly smelling tea lights. The sweet scent of rich vanilla fills my nose as I step out of the heels I've been wearing and follow the line of candles to a living room.

Bella is dressed in a tight black leather corset. I swallow a groan when I see that she's completely bare from the waist down. Next to her, lying on a white pillow is a flogger with suede and a second one with fluffy looking fur.

My pussy tightens at the view. The days without being allowed to climax have brought me to the edge. Just the thought of having Bella use these toys on me…

"Evening, Mary Alice." The tone of her voice is thick and husky. It sends shiver down my throat. Every drop of blood in my body begins to prickle in my veins.

"Good Evening, Mistress." I whisper. "How was your day?"

A smile flickers around the corner of her mouth. "It's starting to get better." She stands up. "On your knees,"

I drop to the ground, lowering my gaze to the cream-colored carpet. Bella walks around me and smacks my buttocks.

"No panties. What a naughty girl."

I want her to lower her fingers to my dripping sex. I bet she could make me come within a minute now. Oh please, let me come tonight, I pray silently in my head.

"Focus," Bella commands. "You're not here to dream. Follow me."

When I try to stand up, she hits my ass again. "Crawl for me, sweet little pet."

I'm not fond of crawling. I'm very much interested though in pleasing Bella. In a provoking gesture I push out my ass more than it would be necessary.

It's difficult to get a good impression on Bella's house from my position. There's a lot of dark wood and glass combined with soft cream colors. It's warm and cozy. She's put some effort into making this place a home. My stomach clenches.

Try to focus, Aly.

The room she leads me into doesn't fit in with the soft-colored rest of the house. Here it is dark and red and smells of leather and citrusy wood polish.

"Get up and undress,"

I unzip my dress and fold it into a neat pile next to me. Bella licks her lower lip. I shiver when she walks around me, grabbing my breasts from behind.

"You have the prettiest tits, little pet." She mumbles, pinching my nipples hard. The sensation sends a current impulse right to my painfully neglected pussy.

"Let's see if we can make them even prettier." Bella kisses my neck, licking a sensitive spot right beneath my hairline. "I've been looking forward to playing with you all week long."

I nod my head. "If it pleases you, Mistress Isabella."

"Oh it does, sweet pet. It definitely does."

She walks over to a cherry wood cupboard and pulls a set of silver-colored nipple chains out. I press my legs together. My clit is pulsing like crazy between my thighs. I'm going to leave a puddle of slick wetness on the floor here.

Bella punches my left nipple for a second time. Then she lowers her hot mouth and teases me by scraping her teeth over the hard tip.

"Fuck," I groan, closing my eyes for a moment.

"Did I say anything about being vocal?" Bella snaps, pinching my throbbing nipple another time. "If you're having trouble with that…let's see what we can do."

I hold my breath when she returns to the cupboard and fishes a black gag ball out.

"Open your mouth."

I do as she tells me and Bella pushes the ball into my mouth. For a moment I cough and panic. It's been a while since I've been gagged.

"You're okay?" Bella whispers, caressing my hair. "Nod,"

I lower my head and try my best to focus on breathing evenly through my nose. My eyes start to water.

"Here," she says softly. "Take the bell. If you need to safeword, you drop it. Do you understand?"

My head nods yes.

Bella kisses my temple. "Good girl. Now, walk over to the couch."

The leather of the couch is cold against my skin. I lie down on my back and close my eyes.

"Keep your eyes open for me."

I moan around the ball in my mouth when Bella adjusts the first nipple clamp on me. The pain stings through me but I keep still. She smiles at me. "Good girl," Then she repeats the same teasing process of licking and biting my nipple with my second breast.

"Lovely," Bella states, admiring her work with proud eyes. Gently she pulls on the chain. Fucking Heaven…

"I'm going to taste you now." She whispers, running her fingers down my lower abdomen. "Are you wet for me, sweet pet?"

Her tongue is perfection. It's warm and moist and knows how to stimulate every crevice of my sex so good. My muscles tighten. Shivers are running down my spine. I'm close, so goddamn close.

"Are you trying to drown me in your juices?" Bella whispers, slurping on my sex. "You are so fucking delicious."

My mouth hums, I can feel myself beginning to drool around the ball but there isn't much I can do about it. Please let me come. I want to beg her but I know I can't speak anything intelligible through the gag ball.

I can feel my legs beginning to shake. When Bella pushes two fingers inside me and curls them up, I'm lost. I panic because I don't want to come without her permission. I can't mess up during our first play weekend. Fuck…

"Come. Now." Bella growls against my pussy before she sends me over the edge with a quick flicker of her tongue over my clit.

Lightning flashes through me. I tremble and feel tears pouring down my cheeks as my climax rocks through me. I come and come for what feels like an eternity of pulsing and throbbing.

I drop the bell, not because I need to safeword but because my hand is shaking so much. The bell makes a loud buzzing sound when it drops to the wooden floor.

Instantly Bella unlocks the rubber-band around my head. "What's wrong?"

"N-n-nothing," I stutter. "I'm sorry for dropping the ball."

Bella doesn't seem very convinced. She strokes my head very lightly while she tries to catch her breathe again. "Hold your breath," she whispers, opening the clasp of the left nipple clamp. The blood rushes back into the numb nipple and I moan.

"You really can't be still. Can you?"

Bella licks over my nipple. Her breathe is cold against the warm skin. I press my lips together to suffocate the noises in my throat. She takes off the second clasp and drops the chain to the ground.

"See you can be silent if you try hard enough."

She fishes a Kleenex from a box standing next to the couch. She wipes my mouth and jaw before she pulls me close to kiss me. Her tongue and lips taste like pussy juices. She licks the inside of my cheek and thrusts her tongue against mine. I love her kissing me so much.

"More?" Bella whispers, licking the edge of my mouth. "Do you want more?"

Always, I think, my heart pounding against my ribs. "If it pleases you,"

Bella smiles at me. "Part your legs and roll over to the side."

The moment she sinks down between my parted thighs and rocks her drenched sex against my pussy I almost climax again.

"I love how your body feels against mine." Bella moans, moving her hips forward against my pelvis bone. "I think about feeling your cunt against mine so much. You're always so fucking wet. I love it."

I throw back my head and enjoy how she uses my body to bring pleasure to both of us. Her hands grab my hips with so much force that she's going to leave permanent marks in my skin.

"Suck my nipples." She commands. I close my mouth around the pierced tip of her breast. The metal is warm. Her skin is even warmer. I hum and suck eagerly.

"Harder. Suck harder, Mary Alice."

Her sweaty body is slapping against mine. I can feel she's getting close. Her milky skin is flushed red. Her breathing is heavy now. I bite her nipple in my mouth and she screams. Her clit throbs against mine. I can't hold back. "Come with me," Bella moans, moving her hips at a fast paced speed. Coming like this, with her pussy quivering against mine, it's divine.

"My perfect little pet," she whispers breathlessly, pulling me tight against her chest. "You're so fucking beautiful when you come."

Bella kisses my hair and strokes it softly. "One could fall in love with you."

My heart explodes. It's too much emotion. I can't help but burst into tears like the sappy idiot I am.

"You cry too much."

"I'm sorry." I sob. "I'm trying to hold back."

Bella wipes the tears from my eyes. "I don't want you to hold back. I want to know how you feel and why."

She snuggles closer against me. It doesn't feel like mistress and sub. With Bella those lines are melting together into something new. New things scare me. Do I want to be her lover? Is she like this with all her subs?

"Your left temple pulses a bit when you're thinking about something. Did you know that?"

I shake my head. "I'm sorry. I'm trying to hold back my emotions but it's difficult."

Bella smacks my thigh, once and then a second time, much harder. "I told you I don't want you to hold back."

I take a deep breath and sniff. "I love you. I mean I really love you. Not like a Sub loves her Mistress."

Bella kisses my temple. "See, it's not that hard to tell me how you feel. Don't ever think I care less about you than you care about me. I've waited so long for you."

She runs her fingers through my hair and sighs deeply. "I never had a Sub tell me she loves me. With you everything is different."

Bella gets up and returns with a white silk robe that she wraps over my shoulder. "Come with me. I'll show you the rest of the house now. You're going to cook dinner for us later."

I follow her, admiring the way she walks around half-naked with so much confidence. She's a strong woman. I love her for everything she is that I can never be.

"This is your room," she states, pushing a closed door open. "You can decorate it however you wish to."

I step inside, followed by Bella who wraps her arms around me from behind. "Do you like it?"

The room is small but light with two huge windows letting in the rest of the afternoon sun. I walk over to the right one and press my forehead against the glass.

"You don't need to give me a room while I'm here. It's unnecessary."

"Leave it to me what's necessary." Bella states in a strict voice. "I rather have you here instead of in this shithole that you rented."

I hate that she's so right about the apartment. I'd hate it even more if she'd find out the reason behind me moving there.

"Thanks for the room," I whisper. "It's lovely."

"You are lovely." Bella whispers, kissing my neck. "I enjoy having you here a great deal."

She hugs me against her chest. "Stop holding back. You need to start trusting me if this is supposed to work. Trust is everything."