Title: The DiNozzo Diaries: Hangin' On The Telephone
Author: rekkidbraka
Rating: T
Pairings: Tony D. and Ziva D.
Category: Romance; Angst
Disclaimer: No infringement intended.
Spoilers: None
Summary: Tony's most private thoughts and desires revealed, chapter by chapter
-------------------- The DiNozzo Diaries: Hangin' On The Telephone ---------------------
OK, let's start at the beginning, Ziva... Page one. I guess. Page one that isn't charbroiled.
"... is a strange man. I have never met anyone like him, anywhere, in my many travels. A part of me does not want to allow myself to grow close to him but I cannot help feeling an attraction that I have no control over. I do not understand this. I do not trust this feeling. And I do not like it.
J has assured me I can trust this man, and the others, as completely as I trust her but I cannot be sure of that. Not at this time. AS must be handled. I am not certain I can control him or his actions. It is obvious he let his personal feelings complicate his original mission in some way and now he cannot separate his anger -- at her -- from what he is tasked with accomplishing. I feel as if I have not fulfilled my obligations to him. He has been left alone without direction for too long and has lost his way.
This man is not the AS I know. No longer, anyway.
J promises all will be taken care of. I can trust this man, she says. J has never lied to me. I trust her with my life and I must now do so again.
This man despises me already, however. I am no replacement for her. This much I know. That is understood. She is special to this family. A great loss.
What has happened to AS? He was once so loving, so protective...
I miss such security. Perhaps I will again find it. But until then, I must..."
PHONE! Ziva! Thank God...
"Ziva? ZIVA?!!! DAMMIT, ZIVA, TALK TO ME! WHERE ARE YOU?!!! LISTEN..."
No... NO... NO!
SCREW this! I'm callin' back...
Ringing... Ringing... COME ON, DAMMIT, ZIVA, PICK UP! COME ON! YES!
"Ziva, it's Tony. Don't hang up. Just hear me out, OK? Look, Ziva... Ziva? [silence] Who's there? Hello? [silence] Who is this? [click]"
Oh, God...
It's not her.
