AN: Well I hope you all are enjoying the story :D Oh and I don't own Twilight and all that stuff if you don't know it by now...well silly you then, eh?

Songs to listen to:

"Thunder" By Boys Like Girls

"With Me" Sum 41

"When You're Gone" By Avril Lavigne

"Moment" By Aiden

"What About Now" By Daughtry

"Desperate" By David Archuleta

"Tears and Rain" Be James Blunt

"World So Cold" By Three Days Grace

"All That I've Got", The Used


Summer went on as beautiful as always, I mean how could any day with Edward be a bad day?

Even with the death of his parents we were still blissfully happy. though I was a little irritated how much we went to see my parents. I knew he missed his mom and dad so I never pushed the issue. I knew he had regrets and he didn't want me to have the same regrets that he had. His brow wrinkled up and I used my thumb to brush the wrinkles from his forehead as his eyes had misted over in thought.

He glanced over at me and tilted his head and his brows scrunched together again we were just coming back from seeing my parents.

"You know of all the people I've known and met you are the only person I look at and I can't tell what they are thinking...its like your face is a blank slate...",He said with a sigh. He told me this all the time so as on cue I smiled and shook my head.

"I was just thinking about asking what you were thinking...", I said honestly as I always did.

"Well...I was just thinking about what if you or I got the Spanish flu...I'd probably well I wouldn't be able to live with out you", He said in a soft tone as he grabbed my hand as we headed in and up to our apartment.

"I already decided that If You die I will follow you...as hard as it is to think...I don't believe for one moment the Spanish flu killed your dad....I think he gave in to be with the person he loved most...",I said and at the that moment Edward stopped on the stairs His eyes were full to the brim, his lips were tightened in a straight line as he nodded agreeing as he softly stroked my cheek. I knew he was picturing if it had been him and I. For the first time I seen Edward cry. Then I found my self hugging his waist for a moment then just as he did with me, I softly brushed his tears away with my thumb.

"Don't worry love, they say the Spanish flu isn't spreading any more so don't worry",I said gently as I leaned onto my tip toes and pressed my lips to his.

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However they had lied, that fall the Spanish flu spread like wild fire it was much worse than it had been early that spring and when Edward came up with a temperature, the doctors in the emergency room swore up and down it wasn't the Spanish flu. then again I'm sure that's what their boss told them to say to prevent panic. I never left Edward's side. I sat in the chair and slept with my head propped on the side of the bed praying it was just the flu, the plain old, nothing to worry about, flu.

My head whipped to the side as I heard yelling in the hall and went to the door way and seen Carlisle there arguing with the orderly as to why he hadn't been informed that his patient, which it stated on the chart, was ill. I'd never seen Carlisle angry, to look at him made a shiver run down my spine as the orderly now cowered. he sighed and recovered himself when he seen me in the doorway.

"Carlisle",I said weakly as I ran and hugged him glad to have him here.

"It's ok, Edward will be ok",He said as he rubbed my back. We went to Edward's room together. He was sleeping but we sat there with him. his face was pale and his eyes had deep circles under his eyes that looked like he had two bruised eyes. His face nearly matched his pillow as he often shivered. I would often crawl up on the bed, despite his objections, to 'keep him warm' as he shivered his way through a fever. He only grew worse now. He was sleeping more and eating less as the flu revenged his body. Finally I knew the worse was coming, his face was white and he shivered frequently and I knew what was coming. That night as Edward tried to talk to me, he couldn't. I had been considering it and now was time to take action.

I took our car, I think I wrecked it, but I drove to Carlisle's house. I only knew where he lived since being a klutz Ive had to go to his house a few times rather than his office. I knocked on the door and he opened it having heard me pull up. Tears were running down my face at the thought of what I was about to ask.

"P-Please save him carlisle....Please make him like you...I couldn't handle it if...if he...",I said but I couldn't bring myself to speak those words.

"come on in...this isnt something rash to decide",he said as he guided me into the house, I couldn't see through my tears. he sat me on teh couch and he sat on the coffee table and held my hands in his cold ones but the comfort the gesture brought was more than to be expected.

"Turning him into a vampire isn't something to be taken lightly. its more than just one lifetime...he would easily outlive you and that's another thing...him remembering you is, well not too likely. his memories will be fuzzy and slopped together. This brings us to another topic...that you wont be able to see him ever again it will take him at least a century to just manage his thirst.",He said and my eyes fell. I knew there would be a catch but I couldn't imagine a life where Edward died from a disease instead of old age. I sighed and nodded. this was something definitely to think about.

"We dont have much time",I stated softly.

"Well I will come by the hospital in the morning...ok?",he said and I nodded. he gave he a ride back since the car wouldn't start. That night I crawled up beside him and wrapped my arms around him as I brushed his haired from his pale sweat covered brow and just watched him sleep in silence. He was so at peace when he slept. I held his hand close to my heart as I toyed with his wedding ring, twisting it around his finger.

The sun woke me, and I stirred lightly and Edward was awake.

"Edward...we need to talk as Carlisle will be here shortly.",I said not sure how to tell him. He couldn't really talk so I did most of it.

"Edward do you remember the night that I came back tot he hospital with my neck bruised?",I asked and he nodded yes.

"Well that night I was attacked...",He grew tense and I shushed him to calm him.

"I was attacked by James", and I watched the anger light up in his eyes even in this deep sickness he still found energy to get angry.

"James wasn't normal, he was incredibly fast, strong and almost indestructible...Carlisle he saved me...",I said but I could see the confusion in his eyes.

"James is a vampire...he kills people and feeds on their blood...Carlisle is vampire too but he drinks animal blood and does everything he can to help people its why he's a doctor", I told him and I seen something in his face shifted as he nodded understandingly.

"Love you have a choice to make...You don't have long left, I'm sure you can feel it...but there is an option. Carlisle has agreed to turn you...to make you immortal...",I said but I didn't mention that he wouldn't be able to see me ever again otherwise he wouldn't of shaken his head yes. besides I doubt he'd remember this...

Carlisle walked in and when he seen Edward awake he knew I'd spoken to him. he asked him if he was sure and he nodded.

"we will take you to the morgue then sneak you out and take you to my house...", he said and we did just that. we disconnected the IVs and took him down tot he morgue then Carlisle carried him to his house and got him comfortable before returning for me.

"You can stay for most of the change but when his heart stops you will have to say good bye.",he said to me and I understood. I couldn't watch Carlisle bite him, the smell of blood made me want to vomit. I heard Edward scream and soon was left groaning in pain as Carlisle came out with blood on his face and was removing his shirt and wiped his face off. I went in and sat next to Edward and talked to him softly as I told him what a long beautiful life he would lead. I stroked his bronze hair back and sighed as I placed my lips to his forehead. He shook and writhed as the venom coursed through him. I held him close and talked to him. as I laid with my head over his heart listening to it thrum wildly. I called Carlisle. He acknowledged the change was almost complete. Edward though pale had certainly recovered some color. his skin was flawless and he now looked almost god like. Three days had passed almost too easily. I sobbed softly as I spoke in his ear.

"Good bye Edward, I love you, I always will. you are my life.",I said just as his heart gave a few feeble beast and Carlisle nodded at me so I left. never to return. I would never see my beautiful Edward again. He would forever remain 18, but he was alive and that alone was what mattered most. I went home to my parents I couldn't go back to our apartment, too much history. I told my parents he had died. I felt a piece of me die but I managed to put it on ice with the thought of him still being alive. maybe when I'm 100 years old I'd get to see him again. Good Bye Edward....


Ok so that's chapter 11 but keep tuned in there is more... lots more. We still have Bella and We will join Edward as a Newborn in the next chapter. Oh and dont forget about James. Please remember to review!