Author's Note: Thank you to everyone who has stuck it out with me on this journey. I decided to write three entries for the wedding day but split them up, so we have the morning(which is below) then we will have after the wedding, and FINALLY the part everyone has been waiting for the wedding night! Special thanks to Mrs.J Elizondo, Johanna, Veve, and CharlotteKutaway for your AWESOME reviews! You ladies rock!


Clarisse Confesses Chapter 12: The Day of Mia's Wedding

Clarisse sat on her sofa trying to enjoy a cup of tea after taking a quick stroll through the gardens this beautiful morning. However regret rushed through her veins, for the harsh words she uttered just two days ago. Her eyes turned watery and red as the hurtful moments were brought back to mind again. Looking up to the heavens her lips moved wretchedly in prayer, imploring the gods to have mercy on her today.

Clarisse knew she only had about two hours before her ladies maids would arrive to help her dress for Mia's wedding. Shaking her head, she tried desperately to shake the agonizing feeling of guilt and shame that now consumed her.

Dear Diary,

Today is the day Mia is to marry Andrew. Today should be a happy day; I should be happy that my granddaughter is getting married but is my heart swelled with happiness? No. Quite the contrary, today I'm a mixture of feelings: angry, guilty, but mostly scared.

I'm angry that Joseph walked away from me without giving me the chance to explain. I'm angry that although I desperately searched for him yesterday he was nowhere to be found.

I'm feeling guilty, because I should have went after him that night, I should have made him listen to me… No, I should have just given him the answer my heart pleaded with me to give instead of allowing my head to make the decision.

I'm scared that today of all days I might 'lose it' in front of everyone. I haven't seen Joseph since he walked through the doors of the ballroom that night although I know he was watching me this morning, as I made my way through the garden. My body could feel his eyes boring into my soul but I couldn't bear to look up at him standing on the balcony, it would have been my undoing.

I desperately hope that I can keep the mask in place today but I fear that will not be the case.

Laying her pen down as she heard the knock on the door signaling that her ladies maids had arrived, she hurriedly wiped the tears away that had cause a permanent stain on her cheeks the pass two days. With a heavy heart she stood making her way to the door.

~tbc~