Edit: A few tweaks nothing major. Trying to work on new chapter, Sorry.
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Ok this chapter deals with a mature topic that i have chosen to censor. I do not want to corrupt any young readers, or what ever. You guys can fill in the blanks and if after reading this you have no idea what happened, good. Some readers mentions it would come to soon but lets face it Sebastian is a demon. He would eventually take what he wanted whether it fit into my time line or not. I could only drag him along for so long. So yeah...
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Chapter 12
Celest POV
Tick Tock
Tick Tock
Was all I could hear as the days went by, the sound of time whispering in my ear. The days passed on quickly with each passing second, but to me they seemed to stand still. The sound of ticking only drifted in my ears, once I had allowed myself to hear it. Day after day, I could feel myself breaking. This life, this place, was all of if just a dream or perhaps a nightmare?
When I close my eyes I can still see his eyes staring at me with such hate, such repulsion, it sickens me. How could I ever allow myself to …
I remember the day it started, when I began to feel my own limitations. Day after day my condition only worsened. I could tell there was something wrong. Every time I attempted to do something, anything, the simplest of chorus became more intricate. In one day I had achieved more accidents then all the other servants combined. I retired to my room quickly not daring to step outside, for fear of destroying anything else. As I sat on my bed I looked out the window onto the garden bellow.
…What's wrong with me?...
I laid on the bed with my eyes closed tight, hoping this bad luck would move along.
There's nothing wrong.
Almost a whisper, the lightest of sounds but still I knew I had heard someone speak. I opened my eyes and looked around but found nothing. What I was expecting, I wasn't even sure of.
It's almost time.
Time? What did that mean? Instead of being focused by the intruder's presence, what I found myself more concerned with were the words they spoke.
"Who's there?"
Scanning the room again, all I found was silence. The voice had disappeared leaving behind my puzzled mind. Was it just me, was I just hearing things that did not exist. I shook my head of that notion and moved towards the bathroom. Splashing my face with water, the water was a nice reminder of what was real and what was not. Wasting time on mysterious voices would not do any good.
As the night sky gleamed across the horizon, I knew exactly were Sebastian would be at that precise moment. Dealing with the other servants and the young master, would leave me some time to myself before his daily rounds. I moved closer towards the bath tub, dipping my fingers in the water slowly. There was enough heat for a quick bath, I removed my hand from the water and stared untying the lasses of my dress. Deciding it would be better if I bathed myself without interruptions. As I was about to reach the last of the lace I felt a hand grab my wrist from behind. The shook caused me to turn around almost instantly, coming face to face with crimson red eyes. The way they seemed to glow were almost hypnotic and that smirk of satisfaction was never hidden from me. As we faced each other I said nothing not a single word, simply allowing him to lead me where ever he wished.
He pulled my hand slightly to turn the rest of my body. Releasing the grip from my wrist, his hand traveled ever so slightly up my arm. Sending a chilling sensation where ever he touched. No matter how many times his skin touched mine; I would always feel that cold chill run its course. His hand stopped at my shoulder, pushing aside the fabric of my dress to reveal the skin underneath. He did not waste any time and guided the other side of my dress to do the same. The dress dropped onto the floor beneath my feet. The only thing covering me now were my undergarments.
Coming back to face me, he leaned in close to me and I knew instantly what would come next. I closed my eyes and leaned towards him, waiting to feel those lips once more. But as I waited nothing came.
...time…time…time...
I heard those words repeat themselves in my head. Echoing, over and over again. I could no longer take the anticipation. Having the sensation that something was wrong I opened my eyes once more finding that I was no longer in the security of the bathroom. In fact I was no longer in the manor at all. Taking a look around me I discovered I was standing on a broken down bridge in the middle of the woods. Looking at myself I was still in my undergarments. However as I examining myself further, what I found shocked me.
Blood, I was covered in it. I tried to find the source but I could not find a single injury. The thought of it being someone else's blood caused me to become even more alarmed. Forgetting my own well being I examined my surroundings to find where I could be. Turing around completely, I come once again face to face with those crimson red eyes. However this time they weren't glowing with satisfaction, they seemed to be glowing with hatred. Looking away from his face, I could see blood. Dripping form a large wound across his chest. I moved my hand quickly trying to see what had happened but my hand never reached. Sebastian took hold of my wrist once more, this time however it was far more forceful then before. I looked up staring into his eyes, wondering what exactly happened. As if sensing my thoughts he closed his eyes and turned around walking away while pulling me behind him.
"What happened?"
He did not stop choosing to ignore my question, we continued to walk further. The distance we traveled was in no means a walk around the block. It seemed we were quite a ways away from the manor. But how exactly did we get there? The last thing I remembered was that we were standing face to face in the bathroom. The amount of time that had passed as my eyes were closed was not enough to travel so far and yet we had.
Once again I choose to end this dreadful silence.
"Where are we?"
And again my question was simply ignored. He still held my wrist in his hand, never releasing that iron grip. However I was tired of receiving no answer. I pulled my arm roughly causing him to stop in his tracks. He turned around to face me; the anger in his stare had disappeared and all I could see now was discomfort.
"If you dislike my company so much, I think it best to make our way back to the manor separately."
He turned his face away from me, staring ahead just like before.
"You are all alike."
Alike? Who was?
The day's events only continued to confuse me further. He pulled on my wrist once more just as roughly as I had done. Pulling me along just like before, we continued to walk as if our little conversation had not occurred. Time passed quickly and still we appeared to be getting nowhere. Looking up at the night sky it was still dark; we had a few hours before day light. Not seeing where I was going I failed to notice the tree roots coming out of the dirt. My foot caught on a root causing me to fall, before I could hit the ground however I bumped into something softer then dirt. I didn't have to see his face to know he was displeased.
I lifted myself from his chest slightly. Chills, those same cold harsh chills I always felt were still present as he held me close. Without waiting I leaned forward as quickly as I could and captured his lips this time. I could tell he wasn't amused, trying his hardest to control himself. I felt almost cheated, as I tried to coerce him further.
I was too late however; he grabbed a hold of my neck pushing me closer to him. Deepened the kiss with every breath. His other hand wandering from my back, with each second that passed; traveling further and further down. Until I felt his cold hard skin touch me further than I expected.
Sebastian POV
Staring deep into her eyes I couldn't resist the urge to touch her, to feel her, to taste her. Closing the gap between us so effortlessly, we each took a few steps closer to one another. Having her only inches way excited my senses beyond recognition. I could see the doubt in her eyes but there was also something stronger. Her own feelings, her desires, hidden behind everything. The blood soaked clothes and ripped attire could not contain us any longer. I placed a hand around her neck, pulling her closer to me. I was not about to waste time with any appropriate actions. Nothing would delay us now; nothing would stop me from making her mine.
Crashing my lips onto hers, our lips seemed to move together almost playing with each other. Tantalizing our urges, as demonstrated with each movement we made. As we broke for air, I could see the slight embarrassment on her face. Whether she had any prior experience in this matter did not concern me in the slightest. She was with me now and I would be sure to make her every heart beat skip, have her catch her every breath, and by the time we were at an end she would be screaming out in ecstasy.
Wrapping my arm around her waist I pulled her closer. Closing the gap between us, the warmth of her mouth was like nothing I have ever experienced. Taking every possible opportunity to deepen the kiss, increasing our own desires with every step. Moving from her mouth I started placing soft kisses down her neck. My hands never stopped moving, as one hand was placed on her hip pulling her close to me.
Our kisses had become much more intense, urgent even. I wouldn't make her wait I had no patience for it as well. Moving one of my hands gently up and down her body I could feel her shivering at my touch. She stopped the kiss only momentarily not only acknowledging what we were about to do but encouraging it. I continued to look into her eyes as she began to remove the front of her corset herself.
I could feel that same grin apparent on my face, I moved in further kissing down her neck, down and further still. Her moans echoed in my ears. Walking slightly until her back was firmly placed against a tree. I had to admit it was quite a convenient location, we found ourselves in. There would be no one around for miles to hear the moans escaping her lips or the screams of pleasure as she fell even further. There was nothing left between us.
Her skin was so smooth, her lips soft and the look on her face was wonderful. I moved my hand down slowly leaving a trail, gaining a small yelp from her. However a small yelp would not be enough for me that was only the beginning. With every opportunity we merged our bodies together as much as possible. The moans became louder and louder as time went on, finally pulling away from her I noticed that smile.
The smile on her lips was as clear to me as the hollow trees that spread across the woods. Celest had once again changed, that sadistic grin only fueled my fire, taunting me asking for more and I would hate to disappoint.
Holding on to what she had left, I moved my lips to capture my prey. Delicately exploring her every being, she shivered at my touch. But I did not stop, standing face to face with each other I could see that same taunting smile, she wanted more much more and I was willing to give it to her. Grabbing her hand and pushing her right up against the tree. She only looked up at me with those black colored eyes. She was mine and I was going to prove that now. Her hand griped onto my shoulder wrinkling the fabric. When it finally came her screams echoed further than I had anticipated. Exhausted her head had slumped to rest on my shoulder.
Deciding that a change of scenery would be more beneficial. I lifted Celest up in my arms and started a quick pace back to the manor.
Once we arrived I jumped up trough her window and into her awaiting room. Laying her down on the bed; I looked down at her now, she was beautiful. Noticing that her eyes had returned to their stunning crystal shade. I knew that there was no taunt, no game. She was fully enjoying every moment. The satisfaction of knowing she only desired me was a boost to my own ego I must admit. She looked up at me with those eyes, holding no judgment only desire. Bringing her hand to my face caressing it gently, she pulled me down so that our lips would meet once more. Her screams fuelled me further; the friction of our bodies becoming one was all I needed to move forward.
Celest is one of a kind. Perhaps my only experience with one of her kind but it was a memorable one.
Lying on the bed as the sun's rays began to shine through the curtains, she was even more desirable. As she slept I found myself unable to take my eyes from her. She was entirely mine; there was no mistaking it now. She belonged to me and only me. Taking one last look at her I allowed her to sleep today, after all she needed her rest. Closing the door gently as to not wake her I made my way down the hall, today's preparations were already behind schedule.
Celest POV
The day had come and gone as I remained in bed. No one had bothered to come and check on me. Was there no reason to or where they ordered not to? I turned to my side looking out the window staring at the beautiful day I was missing. Wishing not to see it any longer I closed my eyes turning away from the bright light. The curtains closing soon after.
A bath perhaps, I never did finish that bath or rather never started. Looking back on it I never discovered what had occurred yesterday. Once I was in Sebastian's arms, his lips capturing mine all thoughts on the previous events were far from my mind. I walked towards the bathroom not bothering to dress myself.
Once I walked in everything looked exactly like it had been before. Even the water was perfect still, as warm as when I had left. As I watched the water's surface, I failed to notice the reflection in the mirror.
Smiling, a smile I knew well to mean more than just mild happiness. Finally catching that grin in the mirror I was horrified to see her.
In reality I should say me; it was my reflection after all. The person I'm seeing now is me. Somehow that notion was of no reassurance. Our appearances were the same yes however there were slight difference between us. One of which was her hair; white as snow a complete opposite to mine. Her eyes were the darkest orbs I had ever laid eyes on. As I examined our features she continued to grin at me, knowing full well how I disliked it. Her expression was that of an insulting gesture. Steeping closer to the glass I found that my reflection did not mimic every move I made. It was as if it had a life of its own.
"Are you done yet?"
"….."
I said nothing simply continued to stare at this other me. What could I say, no words came to my mind. I was having a conversation with my own reflection. However this seemed to be more than just my own reflection. Was this really a whole different person or was this just me.
"I asked you a question."
"Who are you?"
"Who am I? Pathetic."
"…."
"You're starting to piss me off, you know that. First you get thrown down to this hell hole and then you can't even remember your own damn name. For goodness sake."
"You know my name?"
"Your name no, our name."
"Our name?"
"This is becoming annoying. You really shouldn't hold back."
"I don't understand."
"Of course you don't. I'll tell you one thing though; last night was something I wouldn't mind doing again."
"You were watching?"
"Not just watching, I got to say he really is talented, even for a demon. The next time you decide to jump into bed with a demon be sure to make him know whose boss."
"I don't understand."
"What the hell is wrong with you? Don't just stand there like an idiot. Look at me. You know full well who I am, who we are. Next time don't hold back."
Staring at the mirror was all I could do; I had absolutely no idea what the hell she was talking about. Holding back? What was I holding back? I don't believe that I held anything back last night, to my dismay. I'm sure someone must have heard my screams last night.
"Or do you like him being in control? He he ... Could you hurry this along I'm sure their looking for us and I for one don't want to get caught."
"Caught? Is someone chasing me?"
"Tick Tock, Tick Tock."
My reflection began to fade away leaving nothing behind but me. The me I knew or at the very least that's what I believed. Washing quickly I didn't want to spend any time lingering, for fear of my thoughts drawing back to that conversation. I walked back towards the bed, deciding it would be prudent to at least have something on. I walked over to the dresser and dressed in simple attire. Taking the time to add on several layers did not appeal to me in the slightest. I laid back on the bed just like before, the sun had fallen and the manor was once again silent except for one individual. One that would soon be coming to knock on my door.
The thought of what occurred last night ran through my head. Leaving delightful and embarrassing memories behind. I do not regret my actions, I truly wished for it and I know he did so as well. But the same questions I once had upon arrival was again plaguing my thoughts and the conclusion that I encountered was real.
I do not belong here.
Sebastian POV
The day's work was done, the other household servants and even the young master had asked about Celest. Their worry over her was not at all surprising, but I reassured them that she was only resting for today and that she would be back to work tomorrow. I hoped that those words would be accurate, if tonight was anything like last night however, there was a possibility that they might not be. Finally reaching her room I turned the knob slowly, walking in without a sound.
Even if I left no sound behind she always had a way of knowing I was there. I found her exactly where she had been before. Still resting on the bed however she laid on her side staring out the window towards the night sky. It appeared that she had cleaned herself and acquired some clothes. Although they would not be on her long.
In an instant I was beside her wrapping my arms around her body. Resting one hand along her thigh and the other around her waist. She was not displeased by my action, although I could see that she was deep in thought. Deciding that her attention could use a new outlet I began to kiss her neck slowly traveling downward.
"May I ask you something?"
"Of course."
"Would you dance with me?"
"That would be acceptable."
Picking her up in my arms I walked towards the window, jumping through it and up towards the roof top. Placing her on her feet, each of us taking a traditional stance. She placed one hand on my shoulder and the other within my hand. While I place my own hand on her waist, and guiding her with the other. Slowly, rhythmically, we danced. We had no need for music as we swayed from one side to the other. Leaning in closer to her, whispering what I wanted in that moment.
"Sing for me."
She never raised her eyes to meet mine however I could see the smile on her lips as they began to move.
Tú Llegaste a mi vida para enseñarme,
tú, supiste encenderme y luego apagarme,
tú, te hiciste indispensable para mi y... y...
Y con los ojos cerrados te seguí,
si yo busqué dolor lo conseguí,
no eres la persona que pensé, que creí, que pedí.
Mientes, me haces daño y luego te arrepientes
ya no tiene caso que lo intentes
no me quedan ganas de sentir
Llegas cuando estoy a punto de olvidarte
busca tu camino en otra parte
mientras busco el tiempo que perdí
y hoy estoy mejor sin ti.
Voy de nuevo recordando lo que soy,
sabiendo lo que das y lo que doy,
el nido que buscaste para ti y... y...y...
Y el tiempo hizo lo suyo y comprendí
las cosas no suceden porque si,
no eres la persona que pensé, que creí, que pedí.
Mientes, me haces daño y luego te arrepientes
ya no tiene caso que lo intentes
no me quedan ganas de sentir
Llegas cuando estoy a punto de olvidarte
busca tu camino en otra parte
mientras busco el tiempo que perdí
y hoy estoy mejor sin ti, y hoy estoy mejor sin ti.
Llegas cuando estoy a punto de olvidarte
busca tu camino en otra parte
mientras busco el tiempo que perdí
y hoy estoy mejor sin ti,
y hoy estoy mejor sin ti,
y hoy estoy mejor sin ti.
The words she spoke were undeniable. Words full of sorrow, full of regret. Had she chosen this song for a reason or was she changing again, changing to the point of no return. I didn't question her, deciding to continue our dance under the pale moon light.
Once she finished she wrapped her arms around my waist leaning her whole body against my own. Her voice was quiet, as thought she did not wish for me to hear her words at all.
"Thank you Sebastian….. good bye."
She leaned up and kissed me. The ferocity of her kiss was something new, however alongside that ferocity there was also longing. Wrapping my arms around her, pulling her closer to me. She vanished in a single moment.
Song: Camila- "Mientes"
