Sarah was only thirty minutes into her workout when Johnny had approached, she had noticed him lingering around the edges of the near empty gym for a while now. She smiled remembering how she had done the same thing to Roman once, she was so deep in her thoughts about the Somoan she almost dropped the weights she had been holding when the dancer had tapped on her shoulders. He flinched, taking a half step back, apology all over his face.
"Sorry," He was out of breath, probably from pacing for the last twenty minutes. "I just, I wanted to say I had fun earlier today."
"So did I." She smiled back at him, setting the weights down. The pair didn't notice Summer Rae enter the gym, probably looking for Johnny, and stop to look at them. Edging closer to here what they say, half hidden by work out machines.
"I was wondering," He seemed nervous and Sarah didn't know why. "Would you wanna do that agin, sometime?"
"Sure." She smiled again, reaching for her weights, thinking the conversation was finished. He grabbed her wrist gently, she looked up at him with wide eyes.
"Not like, just hanging out. Would you like to go out on a date?" The elder man's breathing was slow, almost holding it in.
"Johnny," She bit her lip, he blinked it was the first time she had used his real name. "I'm not really trying to date anyone else. I'm sorry."
"I get it," He released her wrist, Summer Rae was furious, if this little rookie ever eventually accepted his offer then she would replace Summer as Fandango's valet. "I know you were just being nice because Seth is my friend."
"No, no. I'm not like that, I like being nice no matter what. It's just, Johnny, I'm not saying you're not attractive or that I don't want to date you, it's just-" She trailed off, holding the man's shoulders while he looked at the floor. "I would love to still be your friend and maybe if I wasn't in the Shield I would like to consider us together."
"What does the Shield have to do with this?" His head snapped up to look at her, she but her lip again.
"They, well you see their-" She rambled, not sure if she should mention her feelings for the three men when they weren't dating. "They are very protective of me, like a sister, and I don't want them to not like you because of this." He let out the breath he had been holding.
"I'll risk it." Before she could do anything his hands clasp her sides and drag her to him, dropping to capture her lips.
She should've pushed him off of her, she wasn't interested. But what he had said made her heart clench, he'd risk getting beat up by the ruthless Shield if it meant having her. And how could she blame someone who offered her his heart and she had lied, she respected honesty and this man had given that and she had stomped on the offering with her lies. The least she could do was give him this little, and so she didn't kiss him back, but she didn't push him away. Her hands sliding from his shoulders to rest at her sides.
Neither heard the click of Summer's camera phone or the footsteps she made when she left. Johnny finally released her, and she had to admit, for a man whose partner had no participation that kiss was amazing, she panted. He dropped his hands, eyes half lidded. That was when she bolted, her heart fluttering, but her mind cursing her for her slutty ways.
The brunette ran up the seven flight of stair to her hotel room, still panting but she wasn't sure if it was from the running or the kiss. Johnny had allowed her to escape him, he was easily faster than her and would've caught up quickly and she appreciated that he gave her space. When she neared the room, fully intent on telling them what had happened, she heard a yell quickly followed by the sound of something hitting the wall. She sprinted the last few feet to the door, throwing it open revealing the three men facing the wall, a ruined phone on the carpet, slowly they turned to face her.
She didn't know how but she knew that they knew about the kiss, no one had been in the gym with them that she had noticed, but it didn't matter anymore. She had one chance to atleast attempt to fix things. "Johnny kissed me."
"We know." Roman growled after a moment, she flinched slightly but they didn't seem to care. "Did he notice you tasted like me? Huh? Did you mention that you were moaning against me not even an hour ago?" He yelled, Seth was pacing.
"I thought he was friend, I thought you were my friend- I thought we could..." He stopped and she glanced at him hopeful.
"Yeah?"
"It doesn't matter anymore!" He suddenly yelled and Sarah had to back away. "You strung us along, for what? Power? A push? Some sick childish game? You need to fucking grow up!" Sarah was near tears, she looked to Dean- surely he would listen to her side.
"Fake tears don't work on us." His voice was quiet. "You're sick, pathetic, trash. Nothing but a child trying to be an adult."
"You guys, please listen. I didn't know he liked me like that! He asked me out and I said no and he kissed me and I just let him because I felt bad about it!" Tears fell now and she felt pathetic and weak for it.
"So you punch me when I kiss you, but when Curtis does it, you're all for it!" Seth screamed, moving closer into her face, she released a sob before glaring meekly back at him.
"At least he told me how he felt! That's why I let him kiss me! Pity and honesty! That;s it! I don't want him, if I did I wouldn't have come running back here!" She fell back against the door. "I fucking ran back! I was gonna tell you the moment I say you and then beg for forgiveness!" She slid down to the floor.
They didn't believe her, she could tell by one blurry, glance towards them, they thought she was faking. "When we get back you and your shit had better be gone, you're out of the Shield. But for now we're gonna go have a talk with you're little fuck buddy." Dean sneered at them, her eyes were wide and she sobbed loudly, hiccuping. As they shoved past her she begged them to forgive her, to believe her, to reconsider. Seth only glanced at her from the corner of his eye before slamming the door on her face "Slut."
Johnny was still in the gym when the Shield arrived. Leaning again one of the treadmills deep in thought, when he saw them he sighed walking over to meet them. "I know I shouldn't have kissed after she rejected me, but I couldn't help it. After you beat me up can you atleast tell her I'm sorry?" Seth ignored him, sending a hard punch towards him.
"You were my friend and you kiss the only girl I've ever loved!" He hissed out, shoving the man to the ground, kicking him in the face. Johnny scrambled back, eyes wide with bewilderment.
"Woah she said you guys were protective of her, I didn't know she meant you liked her!" Roman grabbed him by the hair and slammed his face into the treadmill, the smaller man tried to struggle out of it but Dean and Seth started kicking his shins. This continued on for some time, battering him down, refusing to believe him when he said Sarah didn't kiss back.
"What the fuck did you do to her!" It was Natalya's voice that made them stop, the beat down. The blonde was followed by Phil and A.J., the former had a black eye forming and both women had what looked like scratchs on their arms. "She's a sobbing mess up there! She's tearing up the hotel room, screaming about she a slut! Mu God what did she do to get called that!? I left Kahli with her because I was afraid she'd kill herself eventually!"
"Did you call her a slut?" A.J. screeched, not caring that she was half his size she still shoved her face in Roman's. "And instead of comforting her you're here beating up one of her friends!"
"What the hell happened?" Phil was the only one no yelling, the Shield men looked between ech other. Johnny used the distraction to scramble away from them, A.J. and Nattie coming to his aid.
"Summer Rae sent us a picture of them kissing and- we thought she was playing us." Dean said weakly, now that his anger was gone he realized the full weight of his actions, as did his companions.
"Summer Rae? The same bitch who told Stephanie about you guy's crush on her?" Phil said, and they felt stupid for it. "Why would believe anything she said over Sarah? Who prides herself on honesty and trust!" He lunged at them, catching Dean with a Superman punch. "The girl is an orphan! That's why Steph and Hunter adopted her! That's why she has to always touch someone! That's why she has abandonment issues! And you three just left her in a hotel room after telling her she was out of the Shield and telling her she is a slut and a liar!" With every other word her punch the man.
Dean shoved the man off of him, not roughly but enough to stop the assault. "She is covered in bruises and cuts and her own blood!" Nattie shrieked. "She's throwing herself at the walls and smashing her hand through the TV and attacking anyone who come near! She shredded her clothes, scratching at her skin, and the whole time screaming at the top of her lungs 'fucking slut, just fucking die slut' you broke her now go fix her!" She released Johnny to step close to them, if looks could kill. "And so help me God if this wrecks her permentantly, if she dies, I will kill all three of you slowly and feed you remains to your family!" She shoved Seth, the man weakly fell back, dazed at this information.
The Shield looked at each other, Roman had tears flowing down his face and Dean was gritting his teeth trying to to sob. In an instant they took off, as one unit but something was off. They felt empty without her running up the stairs and down the hallway with them. They had hurt their best friend, and she may never forgive them- that thought nearly killed them.
Kahli was covered in bruises and cuts when they arrived but still seemed concerned for the young girl. He glared viciously at them ready to punch them, but left the room in slinece. Seth felt bad for him, to see this side of Sarah longer than any of the others and not be able to do anything.
Natalya hadn't exaggerated about Sarah's condition, the TV was smashed in and thown against the wall, the couch completely destroyed, several holes in the walls and door, door knob ripped off, small amounts of blood smeared against the wall from her bloodied hands and knees. She had ripped the shirt off, several cuts and bruises along her ribs and back, her shorts were mostly intact but her feet were bare and bruised from kicking in the walls. There was a large gash across her forehead and blood trickled down her face along with tears. Her fists had shards of glass from the TV and pictures she had punched, but despite the fact there was glass and they were split wide open she continued to slam her fists into the wall. The whole time she didn't pause, not aware of their presence, screaming 'Slut' so loud.
"Sarah, Baby-Girl!" Roman tried, voice cracked and weak from crying, tears still falling she paused, frozen fist still raised to hit the wall. "We're so sorry!" The brunette slowly turned to face them, eyes wide with terror.
At first when she had lunged towards them they thought she was gonna attack them and they were okay to let her pound them until she grew weak. But she let out a choked shriek and tried to run past them for the door, Seth was the first to realize what she was doing and tried to grab her. She shoved her off with a sob and the other two caught on to what was happening, she was trying to leave, like they had told to earlier.
"No, no, please! I'm sorry I wanted to leave but Kahli said no and he wouldn't move and I tried- I swear I tried! Please I'm so sorry! Please no!" It broke Dean's heart to hear her sounding so fearful, of them.
"No, no Kitten, we aren't mad! We were wrong we should've listen to you." He cooed in her ear, but she just kept struggling. "We know that you'd never do that, and we shouldn't have called you those names. They were untrue, please, Kitten. We're so so sorry." He hugged her tight but this only made her panic more, she didn't seem to even hear him or the others and their apologies. She was having a panic attack but refused to raise a hand towards them.
Seth shoved the other two off of her, grabbing and flipping so he laid on his back and held her to his chest tightly facing him. Tears were falling and when she saw them she struggled alittle less violently. He sobbed burying his face into her neck, she stopped moving panting from exhaustion. "My beautiful Puppy," He choked out weakly. "I'm so sorry, I never want you to leave us. We were wrong, but seeing that picture, and just after we decided to ask you to be ours. It- It broke something in me, in us." She glanced at Dean and Roman who were kneeling beside them, both crying openly.
"You- You wanted me?" Her voice was hoarse and Dean flinched alittle at how sad and young she sounded.
"Yes, we always wanted you. We still want you." Roman rumbled, hiccuping slightly. "If you want us that it..." He looked at her expectantly, hope on his face.
"I was so scared," She sobbed, burying her face in Seth's chest he stroked her hair. She scrambled away from them, needing space. "You left me and told me you didn't want me. And you called me.. a slut." She was standing looking down at the three of them and they could see a spark of anger in her eyes. Which was better then this empty, sorrow she had before, she was returning to normal. Now she paced angerily in front of them. "You yelled at me, refused to believe me, told me to leave without a second thought. You called me horrible things, and all I've ever done is try to make everyone happy. And you took that as I must be playing you! Fuck you! I've been left alone before! I know what it's like to be played! To be lied to! To be a sucker! I would never do that to someone and fuck you!"
She lunged at Roman, he caught her easily holding her still as she thrashed in his arms. To weak from her wreckage and tears to be much of a threat anymore- even her endless temper couldn't fuel her enough to make a decent punch. Seth hummed and nuzzled her shoulder, Dean stroking her hair and whispering 'Sorry, Kitten' into her neck, Roman just rocked her -and the others- beck and forth. Finally Dean said in a hushed voice.
"Hate us later," He smiled gently at her. "Let's get you cleaned up."
It wasn't the first time she had been bare to them but it was the first -and hopefully only- time they didn't enjoy it. She sat naked on the sink counter, the bathroom left untouch from her storm of self-loathing, as Dean filled the bath with warm water. Seth was pulling out all the medical supplies they needed. Roman grabbing as many towel and wash rags as he could.
Sarah hissed when she slipped into the warm water, the cuts and bruises begin to smart and ache. Seth gave her a couple pain pills he had to help but it took little of the edge off. Slowly began washing and cleaning the cuts on her back and shoulders. Roman carefully removed the shards of glass deeply embedded in her knuckles, she flinched slightly but didn't complain. She had to lean her head back and expose her throat to allow Seth to clean up the dried blood on her face, which was fairly un marked excluding the cut on her forehead.
Roman gave her a kiss on the cheek as he wrapped her in a towel, but soon she was uncovered again as Dean and Seth began smearing neosporin over the wounds before bandaging them, after they finished one would they would place a gentle kiss over the bandage. When she was finally cleaned and wrapped she glanced at the still full bathtub and almost lost her lunch, it was so much redder than she had expected and it terrified her, Dean sensed this and ushered her out of the room.
Seth helped her dress in a tank top and underwear, not wanting to disturb the injuries, no one had spoken a word since entering the bath room. When the pair returned to the living area the damage had been shoved to the far corner and all the blankets and pillows in the hotel room had been piled together against one wall near the door. Roman was already laying down on his back while Dean set the thermostat to cold for the late evening. Sarah glanced out the window, when had it gotten so dark?
It took a few minutes to find the best place for everyone, finally they ended up with Sarah laying on top of Roman's chest, Dean closest to the door an arm thrown over her, and Seth closest to the window his arm also thrown over her. And they slept like that, warm in the frigid room, peaceful amongst the chaos and destruction.
They awoke almost at the same time at the sound of the door clicking close. Blinking sleep out of their eyes, they could make out three figures, standing at the door. Roman sat up quickly, sending Sarar sliding into Seth. It was Vince, Stephanie, and Hunter, looking over the sad hotel room before turning to the pile of Shield.
"Sarah has to quit the Shield."
A/N I'm a bitch when I'm tired, well to much pepsi (I blame CM Punk) and too much sugar (Jeff Hardy) makes for some late night insomnia inspiration. So this is the result and guys I literally cried writing this, so y'all bitches better have cried reading it. But seriously guys, there are tears on my keyboard and I had to punch the wall that's how emotional I got in this. Also in lighter new Dean Ambrose follows me on Twitter! I fangasmed! And he retweeted and responded to some of my tweets. But not my favorite was -and I quote- 'Only one twitter follower but it's Dean Ambrose so it's okay! #LostMyTwitterVirginityToAmbrose' so yeah I need sleep.
