"Of course we are," Jake nodded and I blushed. "Well I want to, if you want to. But only if you wanna," I felt a ramble coming on but I wasn't able to get all the words out before I felt Jake's lips against mine. I slipped my eyes shut and felt a rush starting to spread within me; the tingles running through my entire body. I felt Jake's hold on me tighten as we kissed; it was my first kiss and I was so happy it was with Jacob. There were so many thoughts running through my head about him, memories too from our past.

I wasn't entirely sure if they were just my thoughts and memories or not because some of the pictures running through my mind were of me…and I can't exactly see myself…so they had to be Jake's memories. For the first time in my life, I felt truly complete when I kissed Jake; it was like something completely changed within me. I blushed during the kiss and pulled back from it, my hand had cupped his cheek during, in the moment of passion.

"Now you know how I see you…what my heart feels every time I look at you…" Jake whispered and brought one of his hands up from my lower back to the back of my neck; it was a strong grip, a passionate one. I blushed heavily from this and chewed on my lower lip more roughly than I probably had all that night.

"I want you to know, too…" I whispered and closed my eyes while my hand was still upon his cheek. I started to show Jake with my 'gift' what it felt like in my heart to see him when I was a little girl. The excitement I'd have to do fun things with him like go fishing with him and Grandpa Charlie, or go camping up in the mountains with him and Uncle Emmett and Aunt Rose.

Then as I got to be a little bigger, the trips we'd take as a family. Mom and Dad, me and Jake, we'd go to big cities like London, England, or Paris, France…only when the weather was going to be particularly nasty of course since Mom or Dad couldn't be out in direct sunlight…vampire's sparkle like a million diamonds when exposed.

Then I started to show him the last year or so and what it felt like to go out to dinner with him almost every Friday night…to be spoiled by him as if I was the only girl in his life that mattered. I was showing him the development in how my heart reacted to looking at him like a big brother, somebody fun to do stuff with, then a best friend….and now tonight. When I started showing him what it felt like for him to leave me last night and then to see him for the first time this evening, I felt Jake's hold around me tighten.

I continued showing him everything I felt: from being at the movie theater together, to when we were in Billy's driveway, to sitting out here by the bonfire with everybody else. It had all felt so intimate and personal to me and now…now he'd know exactly what he meant to me, there would be no questions about my feelings for him anymore.

"Now you know…" I whispered and brought my hand down from Jake's cheek, letting it rest on his chest instead. I felt him grab that hand, holding it there in a tight grip as if I were going to disappear. I blushed from the contact and he opened his eyes, gazing right into mine. Part of me felt as if Jake could see into my soul right then.

"I never thought you'd feel this way for me, Renesmee. I fucking dreamed it, but I never thought it'd happen," Jacob murmured and I let out a soft laugh, "well I do, so you'd better get used to it…mutt," I teased and slowly pulled out of his arms. I was going to go grab me another s'mores before the fire went out, but I couldn't move all of a sudden… "Jake," I let out a soft moan as his arms wrapped around me from behind, his hands running over my bare stomach beneath my shirt.

My body shivered because it was somewhat ticklish near my stomach, my back arching and my lower half pressing against his. I tried to ignore what I felt with my behind when I pressed into him, it made me blush incredibly heavily. The thoughts swirling in my head were completely indecent and I knew they were, but I couldn't stop my mind from running rampant.

"Renesmee," he groaned quietly into my ear and I immediately reached behind myself, tangling a hand up in his dark hair. My other hand was upon his arm, the one that was around my stomach, digging my fingernails in. "Jake… not on our first date, I can't feel this way on our first date," I mumbled in a soft voice, hoping he wouldn't be angry or disappointed with me. I just… had morals and I knew my mind-reading Father had them, too. Not to mention my future-seeing Aunt…

"I'd never… on our first official date, I respect you more than that, Renesmee," he whispered into my ear, letting his hot breath hit my lobe again. I dug my nails that much harder into his arm, then he began digging his nails into my stomach. "You have a curfew and I'm going to respect it… I won't mess this up just because I don't get you home on time after the first date," he continued to speak in a low hushed voice.

"I'm just doing what… what felt instinctual in the heat of the moment," Jake said softly as I felt his warm lips graze over my neck. "It-it's feeling pretty instinctual for me too," I whimpered and felt his lips turn a bit into a smirk against my neck. I tugged a little more roughly at his hair, hearing him let out another soft mewl. "I know… you're projecting your thoughts…" he groaned right into my ear and my body shivered almost violently.

"Fuck," I uttered the word out loud for probably one of the first times in my entire life. "I hate showing you what I'm feeling when I'm most vulnerable," I admitted and growled a little in frustration… I was more than frustrated, in more than one way in fact. "Don't think I'm not having those same thoughts, Ness. It'll be hard for me to get a wink of sleep tonight," he murmured and I gasped from the sound of his voice, tugging at his hair again.

"If you think I'll get any, you're crazy, wolf boy," I whispered and let my eyes close. My thoughts circled around what it would be like, for him to take me right then…right there. How it would happen, how wonderful it would feel to be 'completed' in that way. I was a virgin; I had never thought of sex a day in my life until tonight but it wasn't like I didn't know how it was done. I was a vampire and I did have intellect others at my age probably shouldn't.

"Renesmee," Jake let out a loud groan into my ear and it caught me off guard… "You're projecting your thoughts again…and I gotta say, I like them, a lot," he chuckled softly and I blushed extremely heavily, finally embarrassed enough that I was practically throwing myself out of his arms completely so we weren't touching. I bit on my lower lip and looked at him, feeling like I was naked in front of him or something.

"It's okay," he reassured me. "It was nice to see… your thoughts on the subject. I've got different ideas on how it'll happen though," Jacob said with an arrogant smirk and I raised my brow at him. Part of me wanted to see how he imagined it but the other part of me liked just guessing. Guessing almost made it more fun… it gave me something to dream about later tonight, that's for sure.

"I think we'll let that be enough for tonight," I said softly and blushed, walking over to the almost put-out fire and began roasting another couple marshmallows to put some more s'mores together. "Check what time it is," I told him while I put them together. "Shit. A quarter to one," he sighed when coming back down to reality.

I threw the s'mores together quickly and we started to leave the beach, headed for where Jake's car was parked in the driveway of his house. "I hate that tonight is over already," I said quietly and swallowed a bite of one of the s'mores. "I know, Ness, I hate it too. Just think about all the nights I've spent with you before it meant anything romantic," he chuckled, amused at the idea.

"Now it means something completely different so Edward would have a cow, or even worse," he teased and we slipped into his car. "I think he'd probably gut you if he knew what we were just thinking a few moments ago," I admitted, half-way teasing and the other half of me…not. "We'll just keep those particular thoughts to ourselves, hmm?" Jake asked and I nodded immediately.

"Unless we want to die, yeah," I bit on my lower lip and ate another of the s'mores. "Emmett would probably enjoy them," I admitted, which sounded so utterly wrong. "He's always been a bit of a freak, hasn't he?" Jake questioned and I giggled, "Just question Aunt Rose sometime. The stories she has…" I laughed just thinking about them.

A little idle chit-chat later and we was outside of the large home we Cullen's share with one another. I waited in the car while Jake got out and walked around, opening the passenger side door for me. I smiled and got out, starting to walk up onto the porch. I blushed when I felt Jake's hand take my arm which surprised me, to turn me to face him once we'd reached the top.

"We may have eyes and ears on us," I projected into his mind. "I don't care," he voiced out loud and wrapped his arms around my waist. Naturally in response I threw my arms up around his neck and pulled him that much closer, nuzzling my head into his neck. I breathed in his scent as if I were never going to smell it again. I listened to his heartbeat as if I'd never hear it again.

"I'm going to miss you tonight," I whispered against his warm flesh. "I'll miss you more," he murmured into my ear which made me dig my fingernails into his neck. "I'm not entirely sure about that, Jacob," I murmured right back into his ear, pressing a very gentle kiss to his pierced ear lobe. "I've never felt like I'll never see you again, the way I do tonight. I know it's irrational to think it, to even feel that way, but I do," I admitted my hearts deepest confession in that moment.

I felt his body shiver in my arms and it made me smirk, knowing I still had that control over him from earlier. "Calm down there, wolfy," I whispered and ran my fingers through his hair slowly, pulling my head back from him to gaze up into his chocolate brown eyes with my own.

"You aren't the only one who feels that way, Ness. I feel like that this is going to go so well, and then it's going to be ripped away from me, somehow, someway. I've wanted, no, I've needed this for the last five years to feel complete, and now I've got it…" his voice trailed and I couldn't stop myself from smiling ear to ear.

"Should we… next Friday maybe?" Jake asked to change the subject a bit; his eyes, they looked so much like a puppy dog's eyes as he asked that question. "Another date next Friday," I finished the question and he slowly nodded. "Sounds like a plan," I grinned rather largely and then so did he…that infamous Jacob Black grin.

"I can't wait to see what you come up with," I admitted and ran my hands down his arms slowly, taking his hands into mine and lacing fingers with him. "I'll try and surprise you with something good, I promise," he replied and I bit on my lower lip. "A repeat of tonight would be fine with me, Jake. I don't need elaborate or expensive," I whispered and stood on my tippy toes, placing a soft kiss upon his lips.

Before one of us could get too absorbed in it, I slowly pulled back and as I let go of his hands, I projected to him the ache in my heart for him to go. "You'll see me again before Friday, I promise you. We just won't go on our date until Friday," he said softly and I grinned, a bit happier to know that I'd see him sooner than that.

"We'll watch a football game together this week or something…or go for a walk in the woods, I don't know. But I'll come over and we'll do something before Friday, I promise," he once again reassured me and I giggled, pulling him back to me and kissing his lips again very lightly. "I believe you, Jake," I mumbled against them before once again pulling away and placing my hand on the door knob to the house.

"Goodnight, Jacob," I said it as softly as I could and he grinned as he stepped down a few steps on the porch. "Goodnight, Renesmee," I could hear the happiness in his voice but at the same time, my ears picked up on his own ache for leaving me.

I opened the door to the house and stepped inside. This time…there were only two sets of golden eyes in the foyer when I walked in. I smiled a bit, "I'm sure you've already read my mind," I said to my Father and walked towards the living room. "Actually," my Dad started as he and my Mom followed close behind me.

"Your Mom and I talked about that and I promised her, I wouldn't read your mind after a date with Jacob." I was quite surprised as I sat down upon the sofa to hear that. "I like the idea of privacy," I laughed a bit and my Mom gave a soft laugh as well as she sat down next to me and pulled me into her arms like she did when I was a much younger child.

"That doesn't mean that I don't want to hear all about it, though," she coaxed and I nodded. I started telling her all about the movies, and then going out to La Push and being on the beach with all the wolves. Seeing Billy, talking with Emily, Sam, and Leah; the wonderful Chili Emily had cooked and even the s'mores. I just left out the very vivid details of how romantic Jake and I had been… and of course the things that we'd projected into one another's minds.

"Emily said you used to be a fan of her Chili, too," I said softly and Mom nodded. "It feels like forever ago that I've had her food…human food in general…" I could hear the almost misery in my Mom's voice. "I miss veggie burgers and Chili, French fries," she stated and my Father gave a chuckle. "Figures the only thing you'd miss about your humanity is the food," he teased.

"I also made some plans with Leah, to invite her shopping with Alice and I the next time we go," I admitted. "She's kind of…well, lonely and hating that she hasn't imprinted and being a girl, she might not ever imprint like Jake has…" my voice trailed off as I explained.

"My little Nessie is growing up!" I heard Alice's voice as she sprang into the room. Guess she must have heard me say her name just then. I laughed as she was suddenly on the couch with my Mom and I like some overbearing sister. "Geesh, Alice, even I'm not that excited," my Mom commented, which I knew she wasn't being serious, she was just teasing Alice for being the way that

Alice has always been.

"Oh hush. Now, I told you he'd love that outfit, didn't I?" Alice said with a grin and I nodded, "yeah, yeah. You're to be thanked Aunt Alice." I giggled and she huffed, expecting more enthusiasm out of me. "Fine then, I won't tell you about your second date then," she jumped up off the couch and before I knew or could protest, she was out of the room in one of her huffs. It wasn't a real huff though, I knew Aunt Alice well enough to know that.

I rolled my eyes a little in play. "Going out with Jake is the most normal my life is ever going to be cause living here, it sure ain't normal," I commented almost in a sing-song voice. "Not one of us Cullen's have actual normalcy in their personality… except maybe Grandpa Carlisle and Grandma Esme," I pointed out.

"Oh, why, gee, thanks, I've always found myself relatively normal," commented my Father and I shrugged. "Well, you sure don't have it in your personality, Dad; you fell in love with a human, the others didn't," I pointed out as if it were obvious and my Mom nudged my arm. "If it weren't for that, you wouldn't be here," she pointed out as if I didn't know.

"I know. That's what makes yours and Dad's love story the best ever…next to mine and Jake's," I said honestly and stood up off of the couch, stretching. "Oh so you've got a love story with the mutt, huh?" Aunt Rose chimed as she came in and I smirked. "Maybe not yet, but I will." I said rather egotistically and started to leave the room, to go upstairs to my own bedroom and try to get some sleep. Try would be the main word in that statement…