I am back, and I think its time I told you guys something-
HELL IMPORTANT!—I have chapters ready, further chapters. I will keep updating if I get 5 reviews per chapter.. :D that's because, I get discouraged if I don't and I really really am ecstatic over what you guys have to say. And believe me, I read each and every thing you say.
As for the ones who reviewed :)
Lauren- hehe, I like Will too! I hope Clary chose one fast (not going to happen tho). And thanks for the concern, it really makes me feel like I have a friendly relationship with you guys! They went really well (and tomorrow is the result, fingers crossed!). Keep reviewing! :*
Lindsayhonaker- (would you mind if I tell you that every time I see this name I think of Lindsay lohan? :P) Yup! She is definitely eating brains over here! Love your reviews! Keep reviewing! :*
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Clary's POV-
No. No. No. This wasn't good. I cant love! But I have to admit that a part of my consciousness is all like- whoa! Was that even real? The butterflies? The heartbeats? The sweat? The feels? Damn- I know it isn't real though. I am a broken person who has nothing but one night stands and case solving capabilities, well also the rune drawing but yea.. just that. I don't want Will to think like I love him, like I want him. But it would be pretty stupid to just go upto him and say these things after all we have done. I don't know, Will is a nice guy. He was the first one who met me in the school, maybe there can be a special place for him in my heart, like away from the place where Sebastian has made a huge hole, way away from that.
'Clarissa?' the professor suddenly asked. 'What do you think about it? What does the poet wants to convey to his readers?'
Oh shit! I am in English class, physically. And definitely not in it, mentally. Though, you know me right (wink wink) I am a topper.
'The poets wants to sort her feelings out, though she doesn't know them herself actually. She says she wants to study but she wants to help her mother in household too. Both the options are perfectly fine and makes her content. All wants to do is choose one which she cant.' I said.
'Very good, Miss Fray. You may sit.' Said the professor.
Suddenly I saw myself in the place of that maiden, the poet. Having two options, perfect and content. Jace and Will, the two options in which I cant choose one. This isn't fair though, the maiden from the poem is not a broken hearted, orphan that has to stay undercover for the rest of her life.
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'So..! Whats going on with both of you?' Isabelle asked me as soon as I came in the cafeteria and sat down.
'What?' I asked innocently. I looked around, Will wasn't here. Only, Isabelle, Jon, Jace and Alec.
'Oh c'mon. the kiss is going viral! You get so sexy with each other.' She said showing me a 10 second clip.
'What the actual fuck! They already have a clip made?' I asked, widening my eyes. Also noticing how my shirt was slightly up, enough to show skin.
'Yup! Apparently you both are the meaty talk of the school.' Isabelle squeaked like it's the best thing in the world. Oh no!
Suddenly Jace got up. I could see rage pouring from his eyes, even though he did nothing but walk out of the room as quickly and casually as possible.
'Umm Izzy, I will be back in a minute.' I said and starting rushing after him.
'Oh but Clary! Remember to come at my house at 5!' she shouted from behind.
'What? Why?' I asked.
'To get you ready for the prom of course! No excuses!' she said turning around and sitting down. Oh okay then, will think about this later. Jace first. Oh and I swear I see a smirking Jon from the corner of my eye. Gosh!
'Heyy Jace!' I yelled. 'Wait up!'
He stopped turning round. We were in the parking lot, practically. He stopped and looked at me like he was about to shatter. I didn't know why I ran after him, it just looked like a good idea then, not so much now. I didn't do anything but stare at him, we were almost a foot distant from each other.
He suddenly put his hand forward and on my cheek. Tucked some of my fiery red loose curls back at my ear and touched my cheek in the most intimate way possible.
'I love you , Clary.' He said sighing, sounding as if it's a disease he couldn't cure. 'I love you so much it hurts. And I am not exaggerating when I say that i think about you all the time.' He said closing his eyes
I? I did the most awesome thing next.—stood there, staring.
He took my hand and said. 'I want you to be with me, but I know you cant and that surprisingly don't stop me. Neither does the fact that you are dating my best friend. Will loves you, no doubt about that but so do I? is it so hard to believe that I cant love you?' he was whispering. Trying for the words to sink in as much as they could.
'You cant love me.' I said, misery pouring in my eyes. 'I am the last person on Earth to give you what you deserve.'
'Don't ever say that! That's not true, you are the only one who make me feel like I belong. That night we had together.. even though you were drunk, I knew it meant something to you. Cant you see how much I can do for you?'
'Jace, I am the broken hearted orphan girl in those little romcom movies and serials. The ones people think its better to stay afar so that she doesn't hurt them and spread her lonely diseases.' I said, believing every word of it.
'Clary you have to stop thinking about yourself like that. You are not that awful girl. Even though you have been through several different things and barriers from your life, you are one people like to talk to you. You are smart, cute, not to mention amazingly attractive. But you can crack jokes and have amazing art skills. You are an amazing shadowhunter too. You were the one to arrive at the silent brother's distress call alone on the bike, not knowing what will happen, not caring for naything but helping them. You are brave Clary. And you are perfect for Will. I just want to pour my heart out.' He said cupping my cheeks with both his hands as he touched his forehead to mine. This feels so amazing!
'But Jace, I have secrets and tons of them. I am not good for anyone.' But I didn't say that out loud, it was the reply roaming around in my head as I enjoyed the feeling of his closeness.
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Byeee! :*
