Heeey everybody! I know everyone thinks I'm missing, but I'm back!!! I'm sorry for such the delay, but I have super busy. I have track everyday all week and we just got a puppy. My teachers have been hounding us with homework. So sorry! Please enjoy the chapter!
Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight.
Chapter 12: Apologies:
Bella POV:
The next morning, I woke up like it was any other day. But with my head pulsing with pain, I couldn't act like it. I called Edward after I left Alice and Rose's at 10 because they were starting to annoy me. Asking me why I was drinking and why hadn't I told them I was going out. Sheesh, it was like they were my overprotective parents. They were starting to act like Emmett.
"I'm glad that you're feeling better." Edward told me after I retold him my night's puking adventure. It was filled with much of reguritating into the toilet.
"Thanks" I said, gratefully. Walking inside my house, I was greeted with a sight. Jacob was sitting on the couch with the Connie, making out. "What the hell?" I said, still on the phone.
"What's wrong? Are you alright?" Edward voice said, sending calming waves through with his voice.
"Edward, I got to go. We can hang later, alright? I'll text you or whatever." I told him in a hurry. Jacob had noticed my presence and pulled away from my stepsister's grasp. He was now sitting on the other side of the couch, as far from her as he could get.
"Bella, where have you been?" He said in his deep voice. I shook my head at him. How I loathed him.
"I was at Alice's." I said curtly. He looked at me with disgust. He hated Alice and Rosalie. He thought that they were hoes because they dated college guys. He was always such a hypocrite.
"I've been so worried, Bells." He told me with dishonest eyes. He tried to welcome me with a tight hug, but I pulled away.
"I'm sure you've been. That must be why you're making out with my sister." I retorted, looking over at Connie. She looked about ready to burst into tears.
"Well, maybe, if you hadn't been such a slut and hanging out with that ass named Edward, then I wouldn't have to." He said, practically slapping me with his words. Slut. That's what I was. Tears started to stream heavily down my cheeks. My head started to pound even more with the mixture of late partying and my sobbing.
I wasn't crying because I was upset that Jake cheated on me. I was upset with myself. I was practically throwing myself at Edward with every chance that I had. I was a slut. Jake and I both knew it. Edward probably knew too and that's why he only wanted to be friends. But somewhere inside I knew I was not a slut. Wiping the tears from my wet eyes, I decided to dump this jack-ass for good.
"Jake, I am not a slut. And you know what? I am so effing tired of you. You treat me like crap. Did you know that I graduated yesterday?" I said to him, with as much disdain as I could.
"Yeah, well I did." I continued. "After this summer, I will be going away to Dartmouth and you can't stop me. I will be sharing an apartment with my best friend. I will probably only come back for holidays, but I do not want to see your sorry face again. You are the worst boyfriend a girl can get. Now, Jake, please leave because we are over." I said as I opened the front door. Jake turned around in the doorway.
"Bella, I'm sorry. I love y—"
I cut Jake off, by slamming the door in his surprised face. Connie came up behind me, looking truly sincere.
"Bella, I'm sorry. He told me that you broke up and that he was always interested in me. I didn't know. I'm really sorry. Bella, I really am. For everything. For the way I've treated you since our parents got married and Jacob and making you do my chores. For teasing you. I'm so sorry. You like a sister to me, you know that right?" She said as real tears dripped from her eyes. My own eyes were beginning to overflow with salty tears. She hugged me as we both sobbed.
It was something that I never thought would have happened. I never thought I would be hugging Connie nor crying with her. Nor would I be forgiving for all that she and her family haddone to me. Pulling away for her arms, I ripped out my phone from my purse. I hugged her once more, before I decided that I needed to text my best friend.
Edward, can we hang soon?
Meet me at the old playground
that we always go to.
See you in 15 minutes?
-B
Clicking send, I ran up the stairs to my room. Once I got out of my dress from last night, I picked out my outfit. I pulled out a white peace T-shirt and jean shorts. (Outfit on profile.) Pairing the look with gladiator sandals and a Urban Outfitters necklace, I put on some makeup and brushed out my ratty hair. Before I was finished with my hair, I got a text from Edward.
Sounds good. Why there?
-E
I quickly responded to his text before going back to my hair.
You see, but I have to tell you
something important.
-B
Once I was finished, I grabbed an orange soda from the fridge. When I drained it of all the orangeyness, I ran back upstairs and brushed my teeth for two whole minutes just like the dentist says. I had only five minutes to get to the lonely deserted playground. When I arrived, I saw that Edward was already there, sitting on a swing. This was the place that our group always hung out at. We started a little over a year ago when we had nowhere else to go. It was always fun, but now I was scared.
I was going to tell Edward how I felt about him. I would tell him that I loved him and have every since we danced together. It would be like pulling a huge weight off my shoulders. He had the right to know if we would be rooming together this year. Then, he could choose if he still wanted to live together.
I sat on the other swing and prepared myself. What if he didn't want to be friends anymore? What would I do with myself?
"Edward, I need to tell you something."
"You know you can tell me anything, Bells" He said.
"I know, but I don't think I can this time." I told him, looking down at my feet.
He got off his swing and got down so he was squatting before me. He lifted up my chin as he spoke. "Bella, just tell me." He said.
"Okay, Edward, you're my best friend. You always there to make me laugh and smile. You're there to take care of me when I helplessly drunk. You are always protecting me from Alice's clutches when she wants to take me shopping. I care about you so much, that why I wanted to tell you that I..."
CLIFFY! How did you like it? I know I'm a little rusty. Please Review! Thanks! I'm hoping to update another time this week, but if not I hope to post another chapter soon.
Book to read: "The Pigman" by Paul Zindel. It a really good book and I personally loved it.
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