April's phone dinged just after 9am. She hadn't made it to bed until after midnight and Harriet was still sleeping, so the phone woke her up. She picked up her phone to two texts. The first was from Jackson, letting her know he was still at the hospital. He was probably there for the day. He asked if he could get Harriet on Monday, which he was taking off. The second was from Arizona, saying she was on her way with coffee and danish to get the scoop on April's date.

April texted Jackson back that she was fine to keep Harriet. They had lunch planned later on in the week to go over the next month's schedule, so she assumed Jackson would make up for the days he missed with Harriet next month.

She got out of bed and threw on some sweats and put her hair in a pony tail. She checked in on Harriet who was still sleeping in her crib. Just as she started heading down the stairs, there was a knock on her door. She could see Arizona's car out of the window on the side of the door.

"Good Morning Beautiful!" Arizona said as April opened the door. "I bring coffee and danish, oh and some fruit. You bring the gossip…. So shoot. How did it go?" April followed Arizona into her kitchen where she grabbed some plates and silverware. They took everything to the dining table and started to set everything up.

"It went well," April said with a grin on her face.

"You had sex!" Arizona shouted out.

"No! Arizona! Shhh! Harriet is sleeping!"

"Harriet?" Arizona asked. "What is Harriet doing here? Wasn't it Jackson's night to have her?"

"Yes, but there was a fire and he got called in to treat burn patients. He dropped Harriet off just as Jack was leaving last night."

"Oh wow. That had to be awkward."

"No more than leaving your fiancé at the alter and running off and marrying another man." April said chuckling at herself.

"True. So Jack left after Jackson dropped off Harriet?"

"Yes, he was leaving anyway. It was late, around midnight I think."

"So - was there any sexy time?" Arizona asked.

"A little." April grinned. "Ok a lot -but it was all above the belt. I am not sure how I feel about sex. I mean, I was a virgin forever, and I have only been with Jackson. How long are we supposed to wait? I have no idea!" April said taking a sip out of her coffee.

"Oh, April, you are overthinking it. Do whatever feels right to you. You can't put up arbitrary numbers, like the 3rd date to have sex. If it feels right, just do it."

"It feels really good to be with him." April said smiling at Arizona.

"I am so excited and happy for you April. No one deserves it more than you do. Well, except for me - but I am not in a relationshipy place right now. But if that is what you want, I am so happy for you."

"Thanks Arizona. Thanks for listening to all my crazy and talking me down."

The women were interrupted by a cry.

"Ah, my little lady is up. Do you want to hang out with us today? I have no idea what we are going to do." April asked Arizona.

"Nope! You too have a great mommy/daughter day. I have a date."

"On a Sunday morning?" April asked amazed.

"Yes, a running slash walking date. I haven't told her about the fake leg yet - so not sure how much running I can handle," Arizona said, standing up from her spot at April's table. "so I am going to take off. Let me know if you hear from Jack."

"I will. Let me know how your date goes."

Arizona laughed, "I think we both know how my date is going to go." And with that Arizona was out the door.

April went and got Harriet ready for the day and cleaned up the rest of last night's dishes and this morning's breakfast. She fed Harriet and decided they should go to the late service at church and then run some errands.

After spending the rest of her weekend with Harriet, April returned the hospital with Harriet in tow early Monday morning. Jackson was going to pick Harriet up around noon from daycare and take her home. They were meeting on Wednesday to go over their schedules for the following month and figuring out who had Harriet when. It was really the only time they talked to each other these days, besides the infrequent times they worked together on a case. She had heard through the grapevine that Jackson and Maggie were spending a lot of time together. It was hard to watch the father of your child date other women. But, at the end of the day, she told herself that all she wanted for Jackson was to be happy.

She talked to Jack just about every day. Usually at night after his kids had gone to bed. He was starting to get busy with the team with mandatory work outs and conditioning. Training camp started soon and he seemed excited to get the season underway. Jack was hosting a thank you party for his offensive line and asked April to come. It was on Saturday and she wasn't certain yet, what her arrangement with Jackson was going to be given they were so off their schedule. Jack said it would be a fun night and he hoped she could make it. He explained he had made the pro bowl the following year and as a thank you for the guy who protect him, he throws a dinner party for the guys on the line and their wives. It sounded fun, but a little crazy at the same time. Jack spoke of these guys like family and she wasn't sure if she was ready to face all of that. Plus, they were still trying to keep everything hush hush. The PR person told Jack that if they go out in public, that means they are ready for people to know about them. His house wasn't out in public, but going out with other people meant more would know about them.

Her week at work was pretty run of the mill. No big trauma cases, just the usual fender benders and falls. She had lunch with Arizona on Monday, and with Owen on Tuesday to go over her protocol changes.

By the time Wednesday rolled around, April had spent some time thinking about Jackson and what he thought about walking in on her and Jack's date. She knows its hard watching the father of her child move on. April reasoned that it would be hard for a man to watch the mother of his child move on too. It was hard to guess with Jackson. He never let anyone in on his feelings. Even when they were together, there were big pieces of himself that he closed off to her - presumably the person in the world he was closest too. Now that they were done, she imagined he had shut the door on any feelings he had for. While their history was long, and tortured - she imagined that Jackson wished her well, more for the sake of Harriet than because of any left over feelings he had for her.

April arrived first for the meeting. She grabbed a sandwich at the cafeteria counter along with a soda. She had a notebook to scribble notes down in plus her phone which is where she kept most of her calendar information.

Jackson arrived soon after, carrying take out from the Chinese place across the street.

"Hey," he said as he sat down across from April.

"Hi Jackson," April responded. "How is your day going?"

"Fine, the burn unit has been super busy since that fire over the weekend. Two parents and five kids with severe burns. They didn't have a smoke detector." Jackson said, opening his take out container.

"Oh God, why are people so stupid." April took a bite out of her sandwich.

"Seriously. You have checked your smoke detectors?"

"Of course." April said, adding "and you do too I assume?"

"Yup. After seeing what that fire did to those kids, I check it daily."

April and Jackson continued eating their lunch, making small talk about the hospital and their cases.

Jackson continued. "By the way, Thank you…. For Saturday night."

"Of course. We are doctors. It happens." April responded.

"I am sorry if I interrupted your…. date? Jackson said. April wasn't sure if it was a statement or a question.

"No problem. Jack was leaving anyway. We just had dinner and watched the game."

Jackson shook his head. "So, are you two a thing? Nevermind, its none of my business."

"Jackson, it is your business. Someday we are both going to find people to be with and those people are going to be in Harriet's life. She may have a step mother and step father down the road. You absolutely should know who is in my life, and I should know who is in your life. Its just part of our situation."

"Ok." Jackson nodded. "Then, maybe we should set some ground rules as to when we introduce Harriet to people we are dating."

"Well, she isn't even two yet. She calls the mailman daddy sometimes," April joked.

"True. But I don't think either of us want her getting attached to people who aren't going to be a permanent part of her life."

"You are right. Jack and I have just been on a couple of dates. I have met his kids obviously, but I am not ready for him to spend time with Harriet. But if we get there, I will let you know."

"Thanks." Jackson said putting down his chopsticks. "I will do the same."

"So, its settled," April sighed. "Is there anyone you are seeing? You know since you know about me, its only fair that I know what is going on with you."

"No. I have been too busy with the hospital. I work whenever I don't have Harriet." April wasn't sure she believed that given the gossip mill in the hospital was filled with rumors about him and Maggie.

April changed the subject since she knew Jackson wasn't willing to tell her anything.

'Speaking of which. You have some time to make up with our daughter. How do you want to work the next month?"

Jackson and April pulled out their phones and hammered out the schedule for the next month with Harriet. Jackson got a few more days than April, but all in all, it worked out pretty well. They each got two weekends with their daughter. April mentioned that she would like to take Harriet to Ohio for a summer trip to the farm in August. Jackson was fine with it, which she was thankful for.

"Ok, well, I think we are done here," April said, cleaning up her spot and putting her phone back in the pocket of her white doctors coat.

"If you need to change anything, let me know." Jackson said as he stood up with his garbage.

"I will."

"April," Jackson called out as April turned to walk way.

"Yes, Jackson?"

"You know… I just want you to be happy. I just want all of us to be happy." Jackson stared at April for a long time.

"I know you do." April said nodding her head a bit, trying to hold back a tear. "And I know you thought the divorce would make you happy. Has it? Has throwing us away, made you happy Jackson?" April asked.

Jackson just stood there staring at April.

"I left Harriet's bag in your office. Text me if you need anything."

And with that April walked away. She headed to the attending lounge to try and pull herself together. It was moments like these that really shook April to the core. When the "what if's" swarmed her mind. What if she hadn't have gone to Jordan the first time, or the second time. What if Samuel had been ok. What if she had convinced Jackson to fight. Where would they be right now?

She believed Jackson thought divorce would lead to happiness for him. But it didn't for her. Even though they were divorced, April held on to a sliver of hope that Jackson would eventually forgive her. That raising their daughter together would show him what a great team they could be. After Montana, she was convinced of it. However, Jackson didn't budge. He used her that night because he was hurting. Because he wanted to forget about his dad. While it hurt her immensely, that last night together was what she needed to finally close the door on her relationship with Jackson.

April made it to the attending lounge and threw herself down on an overstuffed chair that backed up to a window, lost in her thoughts.

Just then Alex came in.

"Hey Kepner. I hear you and the football player are a thing. Let me know if he passes you any free tickets."

"Alex, first off, you are the last person I would give tickets to, and secondly, who told you that?"

"Jackson. Its all he could talk about while we were working on those kids from the fire. He said he thought he walked in on your the quarterback going for the touchdown."

"Ewww. Alex. You are so gross. We weren't going for the touchdown. We just had dinner. That's it."

"well, you should know whatever it is, Jackson clearly wasn't happy about it."

"He seemed just fine now," April countered. "And I am available to date anyone I want because he didn't want me."

"April, for someone who is so smart, you can be incredibly dense. Jackson has no coping skills. His dad left him and he thinks everyone is going to leave him. His dad did. You did when you went off to that hell whole in the middle east. He was afraid that if he let you back in, you would just leave him again. So he left you first. He ended it first so you couldn't leave him again."

"He told you this?" April asked.

"Of course not. He doesn't even know it yet-but any idiot watching you two stumble through life can figure it out. Look - its not my business. I am just telling you so you know. When you get serious with that football player, I think Jackson will realize that you are the one. And you have to be prepared. You have to decide now if you are going full in on this relationship with the football stud. You can not leave another guy at the alter over Jackson."

With that, Alex walked out the door leaving April dumbfounded.