I DO NOT OWN ANYTHING TWILIGHT

"Oh Emmett." I sighed wrapping my arms around him. We stood there crying in each others arms. All in all we were doing OK, but there were those days or even moments that the hole felt so big that it took your breath. Where all you wanted to do was sit and cry. Today, was one of those days for my husband. Maybe in time we will all stop crying, but until then, we just deal with it as it came.

LETTERS pt 3

(Alice)
I was glad I got to spend the morning with Bella. She had always been, not only my sister, but my best friend, and we hadn't spent a lot of time together lately. However, spending time with Bella, meant I had to be careful what I said about Edward. I was very angry with him and how he treated her. I didn't want to be near him, as I was afraid of what I would say or do to him. I also knew that Bella had a lot on her plate, so I prayed that I would be able to just shut my mouth.

(Jasper)

We were headed home from a long day of moving. I looked over at Alice, she was holding our letters, quietly staring out the window. I knew something was wrong with her. "Penny for your thoughts." I joked patting her on the knee.

"How could that son of a bitch, be so damn mean to her?" She screamed suddenly.

I pulled the car over to an empty parking lot. "What are you talking about?"

"Edward! He doesn't know what he has and how lucky he is. They are having a baby, and he has been down right mean to her and it doesn't seem to bother him. He doesn't seem to give a damn about anything anymore!" She screamed.

I knew what she was getting at. "Honey, I am so sorry." I said turning to face her. Tears were threatening to spill over her cheeks.

"I just don't understand him. Mom told me that he had her up against the wall screaming at her." Her lip was quivering.

"Yah, I heard." I said quietly.

"Jasper, I know in my heart Edward loves her and he will make a great dad..."

"Honey, I am sorry, I guess I didn't realize how hard it would be for you to be around them." I whispered.

"She wanted me to touch her stomach."

"Did you?" I asked.

She nodded. "Yes. I guess I am just jealous." Alice began sobbing.

"Alice, do you want to start trying again?" I asked carefully, knowing this was an extremely touchy subject.

Her face fell even more. "No Jasper, I'm sorry, but I can't." She sobbed.

"Sh, Alice, don't cry. We don't have to." I said pulling her too me and hugging her. She cried into my chest, soaking my shirt.

(Alice)
I cried into his chest, this was horrible. When we were dating, Jasper and I would sit down and discuss having a large family. We decided that we would begin trying on our honeymoon.

6 weeks after we were married, I found out I was pregnant. We were so excited. I called my parents after I got home from the doctors appointment. They promised they wouldn't say anything to any one else in the family. Jasper was way over protective and wanted to pamper me all day every day. I had to pretty much force him to go to work.

Even though I was excited, I was nervous. I had cramping spells off and on that usually went with morning sickness. I mentioned it to dad and he said to keep an eye on it, but he thought it was all related to how sick I was in the morning.

At my 9 weeks the cramping got much worse, we had an ultrasound. They couldn't detect a heart beat. I was devastated. I wanted that baby more than anything in the world.

Jasper never left my side, him and my parents were my biggest supporters. I never told my siblings, I was too ashamed.

The doctors were convinced that I would be able to conceive again. We tried for two years and never had any luck. No one seemed to be able to tell us what was going on. Every month for two years I would sob. Jasper would hold me telling me he loved me. I felt like a failure to my husband.

"Please don't hate me." I cried.

"Alice Cullen Hale! Why the hell would you say that?" He asked shocked.

"Because I can't give you a baby."

"Alice stop please. I could never hate you." He insisted. He held me so close to him that I could feel and hear his heart beating.

(Jasper)
Alice was asleep when I pulled into our driveway. My heart broke for her. We hadn't talked about kids in a long time. Losing our baby was hard on both of us, but worse for her. She cried for days and shut down. Dad was the only one who helped her come out of it.

I carried my wife into the house and gently placed her in the bed and covered her up. "I love you Ali." I whispered kissing her.

I pulled out my letter and sat down on the bed.

Jasper-

You came to me tonight asking for my permission to marry my only daughter. I knew this was coming and couldn't have been happier to tell you yes.

I had always told Alice, that if she wanted to date a boy, she had to bring him to the house to meet me first. I was hoping it was scare them all away. When you have a daughter, you will understand.

She came bouncing in the house, as only Alice could, telling me that she was in love and you were willing to meet me. Of course, Emmett was dating your sister at the time and I knew who you were, I was still going to meet you.

You showed up at the house looking scared, but when you realized it was just the two of us there alone, you looked scared shitless. I couldn't help but laugh to myself. Honestly, that day, I had nothing prepared, so I had to think fast. I think I did pretty good if I do say so myself.

I knew that your dad wasn't around, so decided that if you were going to date my daughter, we would need to spend some time together. We found fishing was our favorite thing. I enjoyed those weekend fishing trips. I think my favorite was when I called Alice telling her that you weren't allowed to date her and that she would never see you again as you some how disappeared. Though, I knew I had gone to far when she started crying. We had a good laugh at that though.

I remember the day that I sent Esme flowers, just because I love her. You watched Alice's face and how she smiled. It was like you could read her mind and knew that she wanted someone to do that for her.

I wish you could have seen the look on her face the day a dozen roses came to the door. She thought they were for her mom, but when she looked at the card, tears filled her eyes and she whispered he does love me.

For along time now, I have thought of you as a son. You are a great young man. I felt honored the first time you told me that I was like a dad to you. I am sorry yours wasn't around,
but in a lot of ways, I am glad I got to be the one to fill that void for you.

I expect that you will love, honor, and cherish my little fire cracker. If you don't, not only will you have to deal with Emmett and Edward, you will have to deal with me. She is my daughter and the only reason I will allow her to marry you, is because I know you will take care of her.

I love you son,
Dad

I closed the letter, there was so much going through my mind at that point. He was the best father I could have ever had. I loved him so much.

Rose and I had tried to find our biological father a few years ago. Dad was supportive, but I could tell it bothered him. We never had much luck on our own.

After trying to find him with no luck, I gave up. Rose on the other hand struggled with it.

(Flash back)
I had gotten a call from dad, saying that he wanted to meet Rose and me for dinner. I called her and she agreed as long as I could pick her up.

I got to her and Emmett's that night and Emmett let me in. "Hey Rose, you ready?" I asked.

"Hold your horses. I'm not moving to fast these day." She said waddling over to me. Emmett picked Chris up so she could kiss him. She kissed Emmett and we left.

"How are you feeling?" I asked pulling out of their driveway.

"How do I look like I feel? I'm due any day now, my back is killing me, my feet are, and swollen."

"You look beautiful." I said to my older sister.

"You just better home my water doesn't break in your car."

"I reached over and patted her stomach. It will be over before you know it." I said.

"Good God, you sound like Alice." She groaned.

When we got there dad was standing by his car. He hurried over and helped Rose out of the car. "You look beautiful."He said.

"Not you too! I look like a beached whale." She protested.

Dad looked at me and shrugged. I couldn't help but laugh.

Once we were in the booth and food was ordered, dad looked at us. "Have you had any luck finding William?" He asked.

"No!" Rose exclaimed. I was hoping this evening would go well and the queen would be able to control her hormones.

"I'm getting to where I don't know if I want to find him." I replied.

"Well, I knew you were looking, so I had my connections help. I have something for you and you can do with it as you please." He said handing us an envelope.

Rose took it and opened it. "William Hale." She gasped.

I took it from her." William Hale of Jacksonville, Florida." I read.

"Are you serious?" Rose asked, hurt and anger flashed across her face.

"This is him. My connections found him, but he doesn't know you are looking for him." Dad said gently.

"Jasper, do you want this?" Rose whispered.

"Not really. Do you?"

"Hell no! I hate him! He walked out on us. It was stupid of us to even consider looking for him." With that she tore up the envelope. "Carlisle, you are my dad." She whispered.

"That means a lot to me. I love you guys too and to be honest, he doesn't deserve you."

After supper, dad walked over to Rose and hugged her. "He missed out on a wonderful daughter and an amazing grandson."

"Thanks dad." She said.

"Jasper, he missed out on a great son." I hugged him.

(End Flashback)

We never regretted tearing up that envelope and I knew deep down dad was happy, even though he would have never said that.

I looked over at my sleeping beauty and hoped I could be the man for her that her dad was. I hoped in time she would call me when she was having a bad day like she did her dad. I wasn't jealous of their relationship, I just knew she would need someone.

(Alice)
I woke up the next morning alone. There was a note on Jasper's pillow. "Alice, I had some errands to run. I'll be back soon. I love you."

I got up and headed into the bathroom. I looked like hell. I took a quick shower. The warm water running over my body felt good. I couldn't believe that I had a melt down the night before.

I went back in the room and got dressed. The letter from dad was sitting on the dresser. My hand shook as I picked it up. I sat down on the bed and read the letter.

Alice-

Today, you have graduated high school. You danced across the stage smiling from ear to ear. It's hard to believe that you are all grown up now.

When your mom was pregnant with you, you were a very active baby. You moved morning, noon and night. I took her for her ultrasound to find out if you were a boy or a girl. You crossed your legs and wouldn't let us see. Your mom was convinced that you were a boy.

A few months later, I got a call from your mom saying that she wasn't feeling well and wanted me to come home. Emmett was running around all over the place and I knew she wasn't able to control him that easily.

I got home to find your mom lying on the couch with Emmett sitting on top of her giggling. I quickly removed Emmett and asked what was wrong. She said that her back was hurting extremely bad. I told her to relax and rest.

At 4pm, she got up to move and her water broke. Her contractions started immediately and were 3 minutes apart. I called the neighbor, who came over right away

Your mom's contractions got to a minute apart and she was in a great deal of pain. By the time we pulled into the hospital parking lot, you were coming out. I parked quickly and ran over to her side of the car just in time to catch you.

You had a massive head of black spiky hair and a smile on your face. We were shocked to see that you were a girl. We gave you the nickname of Lil Firecracker right there in the parking lot.

Now eighteen years later, you have turned into an incredible young woman, who still lives up to her nickname. You don't let anything keep you down and have a wonderful outlook on life.

I have a feeling that you and Jasper will be married soon. As your dad, it's hard to watch your daughter fall in love with a guy, but Jasper is a great guy who, I know will take good care of you. You two make the perfect couple.

I can't wait to see what all life has in store for you, but I know it will be amazing. It has been great to get to be your dad. I love when you have a bad day and you call me or come to my office at the hospital just to talk. Remember, my door is always open.

I am so proud of you my Lil Firecracker.

Love you so much,
Dad

My dad hadn't called me that in years. I always thought the name fit me perfectly. I loved the fact that I was born in the car, they thought I was a boy and I ended up being their only daughter, and that I just basically surprised them in everything I did. The letter had made me smile.

I missed having my dad last night. Had he still been here I would have called him, but I had Jasper and he was so supportive of me. I was close to both of my parents, but I was without a doubt, a daddy's girl.

"Alice, I'm home." Jasper said poking his head into the door. I put the letter down and went to him.

"Jasper, thank you for being there for me last night." I said.

"Alice, I know it wasn't the same as having dad there."

"No Jasper, I love you and I was glad it was you. I miss dad, but was glad you were there." I said stretching up on my toes to kiss him.

"Lets eat breakfast." He suggested taking my hand and leading me into the kitchen.

There on the table were two dozen roses. "What is there for?" I asked taking the card. I opened it and started reading.

"Alice, I got you these to tell you how much I love and how proud of you I am. I know these past few months have been very hard, but I am honored to get to stand by your side. You are an amazing wife." I love you my Lil Firecracker.

Tears were streaming down my face. "I love you so much Jasper." I put my arms around his neck.

"I love you too."

"Do you realize no one has called me that in years and then today, I read dad's letter and he mentioned it and you mentioned it in my card." I replied.

"No honey, I didn't realize that." He leaned down and kissed him tenderly. I was so thankful that I had such a wonderful amazing husband.

He picked me up and set me down on the counter. Our kissing deepened, tongues battling for dominance. I ran my fingers through his hair. "Oh baby." He whispered. I wrapped my legs around him. He reached down and placed his hand between my legs and began rubbing me through my pants.

"Lets skip breakfast." I moaned. With that he carried me into the bedroom practically throwing me down on the bed. We removed our clothes quickly.

He climbed on top of me, holding his weight on his arms. "Please Jasper." I begged. He leaned down and kissed my neck, slowly moving his mouth down to my breast. He took my nipple in my mouth, sucking, licking, and nibbling.

"Oh God Jasper!" I moaned. He thrust into me, our eyes locked on each other.

"Alice, your so tight." He groaned.

"Harder please." I panted. I knew my release was coming quickly. I wrapped my legs around him tightly causing him to go deeper inside of me.

"Ah Jasper!" I screamed as I came. He followed quickly yelling out my name. He collapsed down on the bed sweating and trembling.

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