It was completely unexpected; the day just came out of the blue. "Adam?" Kim bought him out a cold drink. He was mowing the lawn and had sweat running down his bare back and it glistened in the sun and he had some music keeping him company. After a few weeks of surrounding themselves with peace and quiet now he needed music and noise to distract him. She'd watched him from the kitchen window for a while and had been surprised at the feelings that suddenly washed over her.
"What's up?" He tugged on his ear buds and gratefully took the glass from her hand.
"I need to talk to you."
"Sure." He shrugged and followed her back up onto the deck, grabbing his shirt from where he had thrown it over the railing and using it to wipe his sweaty face and chest and Kim's eyes followed him until he sat down. "You okay?"
"I am." Kim twisted her hands together tightly but she suddenly couldn't look at him. "I was watching you from the window."
"Okay?" he looked a little bemused but he was hoping he had got the gist of what she was trying to say. "You like what you see?"
"Yes." Suddenly she reached out and grabbed his hand. "I did."
"Kim, honey." He cocked his head to the side and smiled sweetly. "Spit it out Darlin'."
"I miss you."
"I'm right here."
"No, I miss you." Her eyes were pleading with him. She had no idea why she was embarrassed to tell him that she wanted to talk about having sex again. In the past neither of them were backwards in coming forwards. Sex was never an issue for them, from the moment he knocked on her door that night they knew it was meant to be and their sex life was pretty damn spectacular. It didn't sit well with Kim that it was a big issue now, so perhaps she needed to force it along little. Adam wasn't going to push her, it wasn't one thing he never did but if she told him she was ready he would help her get there, hopefully. "Like, really."
Was that a little blush he saw? "Are you hitting on me?"
"Yes… No… I think so." She stumbled finally settling on 'yes'.
"Okay." He was finding her nervousness very appealing; actually he was finding it extremely sexy. He leant back in his seat and made sure she could take in the full view of his bare torso.
"Like not right now, but maybe soon."
"How soon? After I shower, tonight, tomorrow, next week? How soon?"
"Oh, I don't know. I just want to know what you'd think about it?"
Instead of answering Adam reached forward and pulled her up out of her seat and into his lap before slamming his mouth into hers and Kim was a little stunned. "When you are ready, I will make sweet love to you."
"I'm scared though."
"About what?"
"That I'll enjoy it and it will make me happy."
"And that's a bad thing?" Adam smirked at her. "Do you want me to be terrible at it so you don't like it? I don't think I am capable of that?"
"Well sometimes Adam, it's not always great now is it?"
"It's never terrible." He tried to look hurt but Kim could see right through him. He was enjoying the banter and it was making her more comfortable with every passing minute. It felt normal, like slipping into a favourite pair of sweats at the end of the day. It felt like them.
"Remember that time, you know when you were sick and just about passed out from a fever." She screwed up her nose and shook her head playfully as she patted his cheek. "It wasn't great Baby." Her seriously never got sick of hearing her call him Baby and he never took it for granted, not anymore.
"I had a fever of 103."
"You should have said no."
One thing he did like about this conversation was how much Kim seemed to be enjoying it. She looked, dare he say it, happy. "I will never say no to you, not while I have blood flowing in my veins and I'd been at work all week, you were prancing around the bedroom in a thong, what they hell was I supposed to do?"
Kim pushed him lightly in the chest. "I was not prancing, nor was I wearing a thong, that was your delirium. I was hot because you were sweating like a pig beside me and refused to sleep in another room."
"Prancing." He corrected her. "I thought it would take my mind off it."
"What? Your 103 fever, which you so kindly passed onto me."
"I like sharing things with you."
"Sometimes I wish you wouldn't."
"Anyway." He lifted her off his lap and pushed her down in the corner of the outdoor lounge before he knelt over her. "Getting back to our original conversation. I was turning you on?"
"No." he kissed her neck. "Well a little bit." Kim let him go for a few minutes, even returning his kisses.
He made the most of the few minutes they spent getting closer before he sat up and flipped Kim's legs over his own and started running his hands up and down her beautiful legs. "So you are scared?"
"I don't want to forget Leo, do you think doing this is wrong?"
"This is not forgetting Leo, this is the two people who love him more than anything, who created him loving each other, comforting each other and finding a little bit of joy."
"So it's okay?"
"Yes Darlin', its more than okay." Kim watched as Adam traced a love heart on her leg with this finger. "Do you want to talk about anything else? Anything else scare you? Other than my awesomeness of course."
Kim patted his cheek playfully and the twinkle in her eye made him so happy. "No." she shook her head. "You should get back to the lawn though. It won't mow itself."
"You just want to watch me get all hot and sweaty again don't you?" He winked, running his hand up her thigh and under the hem of her shorts.
"Maybe, just a little." He kissed her nose as Kim stretched out on the outdoor sofa and he went back to his chores. She had enjoyed the flirting and was glad she made the effort to come outside rather than hide away and try and push the feelings away.
She laughed out loud when he started prancing around the backyard, wiggling his shorts lower on his hips and shaking his ass so she could see his butt crack. "You actually think you are hot?" She yelled across the yard.
"So fucking hot Darlin', I'm burning up."
Kim jumped up and grabbed the hose. "Let me cool you off."
"Don't you dare." He warned her playfully. "Don't you dare." But she ignored him and turned the hose on full bore and sprayed him.
Adam ran straight at her and Kim squealed as he picked her up around the waist and grabbed hold of the hose and drenched them both completely. "Not so funny now, huh?"
"Adam." Kim giggled and squealed in his arms. "I'm wet."
"Really?" he asked suggestively. "Let me see."
"Get your mind out of the gutter." She wrestled the hose from his hands and his resistance was non-existent. If he really wanted to keep it away from her he could have. He was so much stronger than her, not that Kim was a lightweight but it wasn't a battle of wills or strength. It was having fun, something that they both missed. She blasted him in the stomach and he reached for her again and in their battle for control of the hose the full stream of water copped him straight in the nuts.
"Fuck." He let her go and clutched at his balls and dropped to his knees.
"Oh God Adam." Kim couldn't stop laughing as she patted him on the back as he was on his hands and knees sucking in some deep breaths. "Are you okay?" she spluttered.
"Stop laughing."
She crouched down in front of him, trying desperately to stop herself laughing at the sheer look of agony in his eyes and his overly dramatic reaction. "Do you want me to rub them better."
"Yes." He moaned and when she reached out her hand he swatted it away it from his painfully throbbing balls. "No Baby, they are in my throat."
When Kim laughed out loud he pushed her backwards so she fell on her back onto the grass and he quickly crawled over and pinned her to the ground by straddling her hips and pinning her arms above her head. "Am I hurting you?" He asked seriously.
"No."
"Good." Adam lowered his head and started blowing raspberries on her neck. Kim squirmed and squealed beneath him and it was the happiest they'd both been in a weeks and without saying anything they were both willing each other to continue.
"Adam. Stop." Kim begged him and he stopped and looked up at her and loved the look of happiness on her face.
"Stop? You want me to stop?"
"Yes, No."
"What is it? Yes or No." He blew another raspberry on her chest.
"Yes." There was a faint twinkle in her eye and when he let go of her arms she pushed him off her and was on top of him in an instant, pining him to the ground, which Adam willingly allowed.
"Don't hurt me?" He placed both his hands over his man berries and was pleasantly surprised when Kim wiggled forward so that his knuckles were pressing into her a little. He turned one hand over and stroked her through her wet clothes. It was just a subtle move of his fingers and Kim closed her eyes for just a moment and Adam watched her face and then she moved her body away and he let her go and neither of them said a word.
"I'd never hurt you." She reached for the hose when he was distracted and managed to give him another soaking blast "But I will fight you." Again Adam turned it on her when he wrestled control until they both conceded, laughing hysterically and lay side by side on the back lawn, dripping wet.
It was like one of those days, when it's been overcast and miserable weather for weeks and then one day you get up and there is a break in the clouds and the sun is shining. That's what today felt like, a break in the clouds.
Adam jumped up and reached for her hand to help her up and wrapped his arms around her. "I'm happiest when I am with you."
"Me too."
"Let me take you out for dinner?"
"I'd like that."
Adam whistled when Kim came down stairs in a dark green halter neck dress. He was standing in front of the mantle staring at the painting, his hands shoved deep in his pockets as he rocked on his heels and a strange mix of longing and love on his face. Kim stopped and watched him for a moment, he was often here looking up at it, before she let him know she was there and he turned around. "Well look at you. Are you trying to make this hard for me?"
"What?"
"How am I supposed to keep my hands to myself?"
"Maybe I don't want you to?"
Adam didn't look too bad himself; he was wearing suit pants and a dark blue button down shirt. With her heels on Kim didn't have to reach up to kiss her husband as he snaked his arms around her waist and pulled her tight against his body. "Good." He ran his hands down over her ass. "Because I have no self control when it comes to you."
"Do I look okay?" Kim pulled away and smoothed her dress over her stomach, which was still a constant reminder and hadn't quite disappeared yet.
"You look incredibly beautiful, sexy as hell and more than anything, you are with me and every other man…" he nodded his head and smiled. "…or woman can eat my dirt."
Kim patted his cheek. They had managed to keep the joy they'd found that day alive. "You are sweet."
"I am and I am also just completely in love with you."
Dinner was quiet and romantic. They watched the world go by and giggling like teenagers. Adam had always made her laugh and she knew she'd made it hard for him over the last few weeks to know when it was okay to make a joke and when he was best to keep his mouth shut so tonight Kim focussed on just letting Adam be Adam.
"I am not sure I am quite ready yet." Kim rubbed her hand up and down his thigh on the way home. "But maybe I am ready for…" He peered at her when she stopped talking, chewing on her bottom lip.
"Darlin'?" he teased her. "Do you want to make out with me?"
"A little bit."
"Yay." He clapped his hands together. "You rock."
Kim giggled. "It sounds a little teenage doesn't it?"
"It sounds just a little bit awesome."
It was a perfect end to a perfect day, the best day they'd had for weeks and they let the calm of that day flow into the next.
They slept late, went out for brunch and went to a farmer's market and enjoyed being together.
"Hi." Adam was in the shower having been out for a run. Kim had been asleep when he went out. She seemed to have taken to having an afternoon nap lately, not that Adam thought that was a bad thing. He didn't like that Kim told him she did it because it was the only time she didn't hurt.
For him, running did the same thing. It was the only time he was able to completely switch off his mind.
"Hey." He jumped a little; she was still asleep when he crept back through the room and hadn't heard her come in. He was standing with his eyes closed, face tilted up to the showerhead and let the hot water wash over him. "You okay?"
"Yep." She looked a little nervous. "Is it okay that I'm here?"
"What? Yes."
"Just checking." She flipped the lid of the toilet down and perched herself on the edge. "I thought maybe we can do something next weekend too? Maybe go away?"
Adam would take her wherever she wanted to go if it made her happy. "Where did you have in mind?" He reached for the shampoo and squeezed some of it in his hand and Kim frowned a little. "What?" he looked at her quizzically.
"Adam you have hardly any hair and use three times as much as I do? No wonder I have to buy so much shampoo."
"But it makes my hair smell nice." Kim was mortified with what he did next. He grabbed the bottle again and squeezed out some more into the palm of his hand. "I wash my pubes with it too."
"You are feral."
"Well come in here and stop me."
"Would that be okay?" Kim looked down at the floor. When she finally looked up because Adam didn't answer her he was holding out his hand to her.
"Come here." He whispered. Adam waited while she quickly undressed and joined him. "Are you warm enough?" He made sure Kim was under the stream of hot water; it was still something that bothered him. He hated the cold; he hated being cold now and he was obsessed with making sure Kim was always warm.
"Yes."
Adam was exceptionally gentle; he grabbed some of her body wash and lathered up his hands before running them over her back and arms, massaging her shoulders before working his way over her chest and stomach. He felt her stiffen just a little so he kissed her shoulder and neck. "You are incredible." He didn't stop moving his hands. "I love you so much."
"Don't stop."
"I won't, I'll never stop loving you."
"Good to know, but I meant what you are doing."
"Same thing." He spun her round and crushed his mouth to hers. Adam wound his hands through her hair as he kept kissing her. Kim's hands were suddenly on his back, pulling him closer and she felt him relax and he moaned a little and Kim could tell how much he liked it.
She didn't know how to stop what was happening, or if she wanted too. He had the ability to make her mind go blank and some times she didn't know which way was up and that's what he was doing right now.
Adam reached for the shampoo bottle when Kim eventually backed away from him. He didn't like that she did it but he wasn't giving up either. "Do you want me to wash your hair?"
"Sure." Kim actually really did love it when he did this. Tough cop? Not as far as she was concerned and she closed her eyes and let the sweet sensation spread within her. "You want me to shampoo your carpet?"
"No thank you. I do not need you to shampoo my carpet."
"Pity."
"Adam." She sighed a little breathlessly.
"Just breathe Sweetheart, close your eyes and breathe. Tell me when to stop." He just kept making her feel good, he touched her, kissed her skin and told her how much he loved her. Kim didn't know if Adam had always been an incredible lover or whether they just worked together so perfectly but she was often just putty in his hands that he could ply and bend to his will. She often drove him wild as well and more often than not they both seemed to know when it was the right time to take it slow and make it last, to get in and out and satisfy a bit of an itch or let go of the reins and take a wild ride.
Adam was slow and gentle, he was patient and even when Kim moved away and indicated that she wasn't ready to go any further he just kissed her sweetly. "Okay Sweetheart." He rested his head on her shoulder. "its okay."
"I'm sorry Adam."
"For what?" He wrapped his arms around her. "I am here with you, I don't care about anything else."
"I know you want more." That much was obvious and Adam made no attempt to disguise it.
"Kim, I don't care. Seeing you smile again means way more than having sex. This goes away." He bucked her hips into her a little. "I never want your smile to go away."
Even though things were a little awkward again once they got out of the shower Adam tried hard to show Kim that he didn't care that she'd pulled the pin and he was surprised when they got into bed that she rested her hand on his stomach and her head on his shoulder. It wasn't that which surprised him it was the slow and steady movement of her hand as it crept lower.
"You feel tense." Kim whispered against his neck.
"I'm just not sure what you want me to do?"
"I want to feel loved by you."
Adam was gentle and sweet and Kim was left with no doubts about how he felt about her.
Those two days were the eye of the storm, the calm amid the chaos.
