Beautiful Disaster

A/N: I loove you! You're the best ones of the best ones! Okay so this chapter has some happiness, you'll have to read to find out! It's in Edward's POV, but I'm glad you liked the third person POV I might try it again in this story...maybe. Anyway reviews are sexy love! and everyone needs some that sometimes ;) Love ya!

EPOV

One...Two...Three.

I know how many times her heart beats in an hour. Her fingers...even if she didn't put them that way...have been tangled in my for the last twelve days. Her hands are cold. And I miss her warmth. Because her hands used to be so warm. Especially when she held mine. Or when she touched my face. It was around nine p.m, Bella has been in this coma for fourteen days and I can't believe how much I miss her. I closed my eyes trying to sleep, and burried my face next to her hand. God what has she done to me? I hate hospitals. I used to go there to help my father, and because I was a kid. After my mother got sick I never wanted to come into a hospital again. See everyone here in Forks thinks Esme is my mother and that Carlise is Alice's father. And that's allright, because they are the one that raised us. But my mother died when I was five and Esme's husband left her after Alice was borned. They met two years after my mother died, got married and moved to Forks. I'm convinced that we keep the only secret in Forks. After I loose my mother and after that I never got attached to anyone because I can't afford to loose another person. And then along came Bella. God I think my head hurts. Something's poking. Um...?

"Edward..." I heard a raspy whisper pronounce my name with such clarity "Edward..."

I lifted my eyes. I was convinced I was dreaming. But I wasn't, her brownish eyes were too real for a dream. She...

"I'm thristy."

Oh right...water..water...where? Oh. There it was, the glass of water the nurse left everyday in case she woke up. I grabbed it and slowly helped her to drink some water. She closed her eyes and smiled then opened them again. She was worried.

"Rosalie...Where's Rosalie Edward? Did she get hurt? Did she...?"

"She's okay Bella...calm down. She's perfectly fine...She went to your house to take a bath and eat something."

She closed her eyes and her head fell in the pillow, she sighed out, and suddenly tears started falling, running in her cheeks. I immdeatly got up and hugged her...she burried her face into my chest, and her cold hands found mine. She tangled her fingers in mine. I could feel her tears getting my t-shirt wet. "God Edward...I was so scared..." she said as she sobbed, she pulled me closer " I woke up in the middle of the road...and I couldn't feel my legs...and Rosalie was..." she sobbed "she was...unconsicious..." she lifted her eyes, they were full of pain " I thought she was dead...I said terrible things and I..."

"Shhh...Bells..."

Immedeatly she pressed her lips against mine, and I couldn't hold her back. Her sweet lips moved against mind and I had forgotten how sweet she felt, her breath was intoxicating me.

"Edward..." she moaned "Edward..." I felt her fingers tangling in my hair.

"Mhm?"

"I'm glad you're here..." she pressed her lips against mine again.

"BELLA!" Rosalie hysteric voice screamed behind me and I immedeatly pulled apart from her, Rosalie jumped directly to the bed and hugged Bella, she started sobbing immedeatly. "Bella oh Bella I'm so sorry!"

"I'm sorry, for everything I said, I'm just and idiot! I love you Rose."

"I love you too. I'm so happy you're okay."

"Don't cry Rose...God..oh I'm hungry..."

"I'll get the nurse, and the doctor! We gotta get you out of this place!"

"No no. Rose..." Bella muttered, Rosalie turned " I want you to go home, get a good sleep, Edward will stay with me tonight..."

"No Bells I..."

"Go...tomorrow I'm probably going home and you'll have to help me to do everything."

"You didn't broke a leg, girl!"

"Well, But I am in the hospital." Bella giggled "Go Home..."

"Okay...Edward you better take care of her."

"Yes ma'am."

Rosalie left the room quickly and Bella smiled. God I had missed that, she looked at me and moved a little, then pointed the space she had made for me in the bed, beside her. I walked slowly towards her and lied down. Grabbed her hand and tangled her fingers in mine.

"I have a neddle!" she exclaimed, all the colour was erased from her face.

"You look like you've seen a dead person Bella."

"Oh my god, Edward take it away!" she covered her eyes, I grabbed her hand and cover it with the blanket

"Better?"

"It stills hurts."

"Well at least you don't have to see it."

"Thank you...Hold me?"

"Of course."

A minute passed.

"Bella..."

"Mhm..."

"Why did you and Rosalie fight about?" Her eyes shot open

"Stupid stuff."

"Bella."

"It was about you...actually it was about me, ignoring my cousin good intentions and saying hurtful things."

"Do you want to talk about it?"

"She told me you would end up breaking my heart..." I held her tighter towards me "And I freaked out and told her I was sick of her talking about you all day long...and that she didn't have to watch out for me anymore...and then..." she sighed "I told her she was jealous because for the first time she had to settle with second best. And she told me to take it back and then...we crashed against something...when I came back the car had fell into the woods and Rosalie had passed out, and I...I...couldn't feel my legs..." a sob came out and I gently kissed her forehead "It was so horrible...I thought Rosalie was dead, I was delirious because of all the blood I had loose and when I noticed the huge spot of blood in my shirt was my own, I got even more scared...I tried to stay away, Rosalie had landed out of the car and she was safe...no blood pools around her...I was waiting..."

She paused for a minute and took a deep breath.

"I was waiting for her to wake up...because I know that you shuoldn't fall asleep when you're loosing blood. But I was trapped...I couldn't move my arms to stop the bleeding and I couldn't crawl out of the car...I waited two hours...or two minutes...but it felt forever...Rosalie didn't wake up and every second that passed by I was more convinced she was dead. I was crying, my vision was blurry, it was dark, in the middle of the woods, and I couldn't feel my legs...my cellphone was crashed and Rosalie's was too far for me to reach it...of course I was going to die..."

I held her tighter. I couldn't believe she was strong enough to smile even after all she had been through.

"And still...all..." she sighed out "You're going to think I'm a phsyco..."

"I would never think that, Bella."

"All I could see was your face...the last minutes I was awake...I heard your voice...singing that song you always sing when you think I'm asleep. I thought my cousin was dead and that I was going to die, and I was so scared. So terrified but the thought of you, of seeing you before I die...it calmed me somehow."..."I'm such a physco."

"You're not."

I leaned down and kissed her, and for a moment the only noise in the room was her crazy heartbeat and her shallow breathing. Because I'm pretty sure I wasn't breathing. I can't describe my happiness in that moment. Bella was altered. She was messy and confused and what made me happy was that she had the exact same feelings for me that I had for her. No matter how much people who loved us and that had been with us during our entire lives tell us to stay away from each other, for different reasons of course, we can't help it. She was completly altered as me, for someone we had met three months ago.

"Edward..." she whispered breathless.

"Yes?"

"Wait...what is this?"

"It's called kissing." I chuckled

"No, silly. I mean...what is this what we have..."

"Well...what do you want it to be?"

"I..." her eyes drifted away from my face...she seemed to be looking for something to stare at..."I think we..."

"Yes?"

"I think we should try non-exclusive dating?"

"Excuse me?"

"I mean we are with each other but we..."

"No, no. I know what, non exclusive dating means..."

"Oh."

I removed myself of her and lied by her side again. She looked at me...and even if it was dark I could see that I had hurted her. But I couldn't say anything. I couldn't believe that after giving me illusions that she might have the same feelings she said something like that. See it's not the fact that she doesn't mind me with someone else, it's the fact that she might want someone else. Someone better. Because deep down I knew Bella could do SO much better than me. Everyone did, that was the reason why people told her to stay away. Because even if I knew it, I was too selfish to let her go. I was about to pour my heart out and she says something like that?

"You're mad." she said. It was a statement, not a question.

"No, I just... I didn't think you were the non-exclusive type." Liar

"I'm not...I just need to know if you're serious about this..." she pointed herself and then me "...about us...look Edward I know I like you, a lot. And I trust you, but...you have a reputation. And that didn't come out of nowhere. And I can't afford getting hurt, Edward. I just want to make sure...that you can give up being a manwhore. For me."

"Bella..."

"I know. I know. But I just...I need to know that I can still be friends if I see you with another girl because...I really like being your friend."

"And when were we friends, Bella?"

"Well...there was that time..." I smiled again and pressed my lips against hers "Okay...we weren't."

"That's what I thought."

"You're so annoying..." she laughed

"Shh..there are sick people here, they need to sleep."

"Okay...So we're friends with benefits, kind of, right?"

"Well yes..." I answered and smile

"Well, friends with benefits can do this..." she smiled playfully and placed her hand in my lower back "...right?"

"Oh you're evil." she giggled "Mhm...you're going to pay for that."

"Mhm..." she laughed

The dark room was suddenly filled with light, when someone opened the door. We immedeatly stopped kissing and we both turned to see. To my unhapiness my dad was there, looking at us, dissaproving with every single blink he gave. And well, me on top of Bella, as we kissed in bed, doesn't look like something innocent.

"Bella should get some sleep, Edward."

"I promised Rosalie I would stay."

"In the couch...she needs to sleep. Tomorrow we have to do a full control."

"I want him to be here, Carlise." Bella interrupted and smile, the blushing of her cheek was obvious even with the poor light

"Get some sleep." he finally stated and closed the door

"Well that was embarrasing..." she sighed "Okay bed-time."

"Mhm..." I said I burried my face in her hair and placed myself by her side "You smell like freesia."

"Do not."

"Do too."

"Okay...Goodnight."

"Goodnight."

"Edward..."

"Yes?"

"Sing for me?"

I sighed, and let my lips pressed against her earlobe.