Detention in Potions (part 2)
How could this happen to me? How was this even happening? I was supposed to be the best student in the whole school. I was supposed to be better then... I sighed. Earth to Rose. Earth to Rose. I wasn't a superhuman with abilities to make everything perfect. Faults was the reason humanity existed. My fault just happened to be a subject in school that were important. It didn't matter how hard I studied. No one could make me understand and even my mother had tried to explain. She who were one of the brightest witches alive. Even she could explain why it was necessary to turn the potion clockwise. It was just 'something the instructions said'. I needed reasons and with that as an explanation it never got right.
The worst of all this was that Scorpius Malfoy found me in my moment of weakness - in detention after my conflict with the teacher. I had been hiding the fact that I was horrible at Potions for years but I had stayed away from detention and extra classes... until now. I hated it that he was the one who found out. I hated that I couldn't be that perfect image that he painted up. I wanted so bad to be good at everything that it was frustrating.
"What do you say? Do we have a deal?" I could almost have heard him saying: 'Like... deal-or-no-deal.' but Scorpius was very serious about this. His grey eyes were almost glued towards me. He wouldn't let me go. He had waited for this opportunity far to long. I thought about laughing just to lighten up the situation but something in his eyes told me that I couldn't talk myself out of this.
"You... want to go on a date with me?" I couldn't believe it. That was what he wanted? He could have named anything like me having his homework done for a month but... one date was his price. I looked unsure at him. It was to good to be true. Was that all I needed to to? Spend time with him?He nodded. His head movement made his blonde hairstyle more chaos. "Yes. You heard me correctly. I help you with this potion that you're making and then we go on a date on Sunday."
"You're blackmailing me?" I swore I saw a ghost of a smile on his face but he was to good person to admit something like that. He shook his head almost in panic. He didn't want me to think that he did this to please himself in a wrong way. It was to please himself but Scorpius was a gentleman.
"No.. what.. no.. I would never.. it's more like a deal. You get what you want and I get what I want." I let my hair hide my face and turned around. How could I look at him after he said that. He wanted me? Did he.. really, truly, mean that? His voice got just a little bit lower when he said that last sentence. How could he control his voice that good? He sounded innocent and also had this meaning undertone. He moved a bit closer, made me face him. I couldn't bargain with him in this matter. I swallowed. My heart were freaking out. I turned my head away but he just grabbed my chin. His delicate cold fingers were like a drug to my skin. I couldn't get enough.
"Okay." It was words only in whispers. It was the only word that came to my mind. I was okay with it. No, I was more then okay with it. Scorpius Hyperion Malfoy had finally, successfully, asked me out. My father was quite harsh about my relationship with Scorpius but after what happened during our third-year even my father seemed to come around. My father understood that Scorpius was to pure for all the shit he been trough. He was too pure for me and I didn't mean blood. I hadn't said no to him because I didn't think we matched together. I had said no for his own good. It didn't take away the fact that... against all my resistance - I liked Scorpius. He had never done anything to make me dislike him. Yes, he had been quite annoying during the first-year. Towards the last year I felt just pity towards him but I never disliked him. He had always thought about me. He had always done everything for me. I had never imagine that a human being could be like that. Scorpius were silent and nodded for himself with his thought in another world. Then he seem to get what I was saying.
"You.. you mean it?" His words were whispers too. I hoped he could break the tension but he made in increase. He let out his breath and for the first time he showed me a smile only the luckiest man on the planet could make. I had never seen anyone get so happy before after something I had done. He almost jumped up and down but got soon back to the ground. He tried to look as cool as he could but it was when he didn't try that he succeeded. I enjoyed that about him. When Scorpius looked at me again his joy came back and he grabbed me. I weren't ready for it. His hands fit perfectly on my body and he pressed me towards his strong chest. He spinned around with me in his arms and had his face towards my neck. How long had he waited to do just that? It felt like he had planned for this to happen and that the next step was to carry me over the doorstep to our new dreamhouse.
"Say it again," My face were the same color as my hair. Oh, no. I couldn't do this I... I opened my mouth to say that I didn't have a chose but... I didn't want to destroy his happiness. I didn't want to destroy the only one who liked me even with all facts in his hands. The facts that I only thought about myself and that I didn't believe in love. I believed in few things. I believed in facts, absolutes and... in him. Was beliving in him tha same as beliving in love?
"Yes." Yes had a strong meaning. It wasn't a 'Okay' that was close to a maybe. It was a strong 'Yes' that other could go back to and blame you for. I wouldn't blame me for this. This wasn't a mistake. Anything that had Scorpius as a variable was never a mistake. He held me closer - how that now was possible - and just pulled his face centimeters from mine. His heart was pouring out everything he had ever felt.
"Wow.. I mean.. yes... okay... Do we kiss now or anything?"
"Don't take it that far, Scorpion King. Not yet."
