Chapter 12 (Ana's POV)
"Now baby tell me what bothering you and who did that to you neck?" I look upset him and my eyes fill with tears. Can I trust him? I feel so comfortable around him like I've known him whole life. Maybe it meantime be between us... Just maybe. Hope fills deep inside me. I have to tell him.
"I met up with him... My biological dad.." I say quietly and the guilt fills up in me and tears run down my checks.
"No ones knows... No one, I feel so bad because I didn't give him a chance, because of what they did to me."
He tenses a little then holds me tighter. He smells me then relaxes again. I lift my head from his chest and look at him again.
" Do you hate me because I didn't give him a chance?" I ask what if he doesn't like me anymore because of what I'm about to say... What if he tells me to leave! I stare in his eyes with plea that he doesn't reject me. He looks back at me alarmed about what I just said to him.
"No, baby, how could you think that? Any person who does that to their flesh and blood doesn't deserve a chance at all. Why would I hate you? It want your fault they did this to you.." He finishes off looking worried. I start to cry again.
"It wasn't his fault... His daughters did it to me... They said I wanted him for his money... But I never wanted or needed money... My dad gives me an monthly allowance of 20,000 dollars, do you think I need money? My college and uni have been paid for... All from my parents... I did nothing and I don't deserve it. I have so much of it, I hate have I ever done to deserve or even get that money? Nothing! ..." I sob into his shoulder holding him tight. I hate that I was born into money. I will never know the feeling of working for something and feeling great about it because I can say I did that and look at it proudly.
"shhh... It's okay baby, I will sort it out" he coos rubbing my back in a rhythm. Suddenly, my eyes get heavy and my crying stops. " I will make everything better for you, you will never have to worry about this again baby, I promise you" he says whispering into my ears and I believe him, with all my heart. I can't sleep here though he works here. I lift my head and look up at him. He carries on rubbing my back and looking down at me lovingly. I reach up and run my hand down his face slowly. He kisses my lips, softly.
" Thank you, for listening to me. For being my boyfriend" I smile and he smiles back. " I have to go now though. I haven't slept in 30 hours and I have been living on 4 hours a sleep for the last 2 weeks or so... I need to go. I will call or text you later, okay?" I whisper to him softly. His eyes go wide with concern.
"Baby why haven't you been sleeping?" I shrug
"I couldn't I was so depressed..." My voice trails of as I think of myself in the last couple to weeks, I wasn't myself.
"Baby, I have been restless without you as we'll... I couldn't sleep either. Please come to my apartment...we can sleep together and I know I will sleep better with you" he says nuzzling my cheek. My eyes go wide I can't go home with him! I've never slept with a man before either. He looks at my face and softly chuckles.
"I promise not to touch you until we are both ready for this" he says kissing the tip of my nose then my fore head.
"Okay, but lets be quick I'm going to gall asleep any minute now" I say tiredly.
"Lets go baby" he lifts me up with him and kisses my lips again.
"your lips are so soft when you cry. but no more crying for you I want you happy always." He whispers to me. All I do is nod. I wiggle out of his arms and fix my dress and blazer. I find my balance with a little help from Christian and get ready to leave. Christian gets his phone out and he calls some one.
"Taylor I will be leavening now" is all he says before hanging up. "Come on baby lets get you to bed." He says holding me from behind and kissing my neck.
"I need to use the rest room" I say with a blush.
"That way baby" he says pointing to another door in his office. I walk to wards there and lock the door. I look at my reflection in the mirror. My eyes are so red and puffy they almost look busied. My neck looks terrible already. I want to start to cry all over again but. Don't have the energy anymore. I wash my face with cool water and remove the make that had ran down my face. I feel better already. I dry my face and I look at my reflection in the mirror again. My eyes look like they have gone down a little. I sigh and leave. Christian is on the phone again. when I enter he puts the phone down and walks me to the door kissing my face the whole way there and I giggled.
"I love your giggle baby" he whispered in my ear as we stepped out of his office.
"Andrea I will see you tomorrow" he gives her and the lady beside her a little nod before facing away from the woman who are starring with wide eyes and open mouths. We get into the elevator and I lean against him. I feel so drained emotionally and physically.
We step out the building and enter a SUV that's waiting there for us. We get in and I put my head and hand on his chest and he holds me close constantly smelling my hair. I'm so close to falling asleep that my eyes are not even open anymore. I am aware or what's happening around me but my eyes are closed and it feels impossible to open them.
I fell the car stop. I'm expecting Christian to wake me but he doesn't. He carries me in and up an elevator and up some stairs... Then I hear a door open. I'm slowly put down on a really soft and comfortable bed... Then I feel his hands on me... He takes my heals off, relief floods me, they hurt. Then he slowly takes my blaze off and dress. I stiffen a little... Was this his plan? To use me? Before I can make anymore conclusions I hear Christians voice.
"Relax baby I want you to be comfortable while you sleep" he kisses my forehead and then covers my almost naked body with a silk cover. I then hear Christian getting changed I want to watch him so bad but I'm too tired to lift my head and open my eyes. I hear him leave the room and then he comes up close to me.
"I'm going to put some cream on your neck baby. This will sooth the pain and make it go away quicker" he says softly kissing my cheek. I feel him slowly put the cream on my swollen a and brushed neck after kissing it a million times.
Then I feel him get into the bed. He pulls me towards his bare chest and it feels so good. The heat coming off his body is amazing and I instantly relax into his touch. Not long after I let darkness take me, peacefully.
I feel hazy and my head hurts. I lift my head but I instantly regret it. I slowly open my eyes and take in my surroundings, it's dark. Christian house... Ow yeah. I was tired. I feel heat all around me like a radiator has been stuck to me. I turn to my left and see Christian, he's sleeping. I let a breath out he hasn't left me. I slowly get up, not wanting my head to hurt anymore, and make my way to the bathroom that's in Christians room. Wow. It's massive. Two sinks and a bath tub the 4 people can fit in easily and I thought I had a big bathroom.
I use the toilet and when I get back I notice Christian has turned over to my side and is hugging my pillow for dear life... Aw baby I wouldn't leave... I slowly sit on the edge of the bed and lay down on the little space that's available for me.
I feel Christian move and then he lifts his head up. He then moves a little back and pulls me to him. He rests his head in the middle of my breasts then moans. I look up at the alarm clock it's 5:00am the usual time I get up at. I look down at Christian and he looks so peaceful. I start to run my hand through his smooth hair, massaging his scalp. In response he snuggled up closer to my neck and starts tickling me and I start to giggle, I'm a ticklish person. I holds me down by putting his whole weight on me. I try to wiggle free but he just keeps on snuggling in my neck which is very sensitive at the moment.
"Good morning beautiful" he hums in my neck making me laugh and try to move again from his hold.
"Good morning handsome" I say between laughs he won't stop moving.
"Christian... Please I can't breathe" I gasp. He finally lifts his head up and looks at me with a big smile.
"but I really, really, like your laughing and giggles." He says with a pout. I can't help but lift my head up and kiss his pout. He chuckles and starts kissing my nose then my head and cheeks and eyes.
"Beautiful..." He breaths.
"Christian...um.." I look up a bit embarrassed.
"Yeah, baby what's wrong?" He asks shifting his weight of me slightly so I can breathe better. Then my stomach growls and I turn a beet red colour. Christian starts to laugh, really laugh, till he has tears running down his eyes. I can't help but join, it's infectious and such a beautiful sound. He turns over and takes me with him so that I'm on top of him now.
"Is it to late to mention that I'm hungry?" I ask innocently.
"Yes it's definitely too late baby... But we have been sleeping for almost 17 hours. We want to bed about 12 noon yesterday and now it's 5 on a monday morning." Christian says with a sigh and he gets up lifting me with him.
"Lets shower and have breakfast. "He says carrying me to the bathroom. He puts me down and takes his pj bottoms off just as he's about to take his boxers off I turn around and slowly undo my bra then my panties. I hesitate at first but I trust him. I then feel Christians strong arms around me and his member pocking my back... Omg I want it somewhere else... I blush just thinking of it I've never done anything like this before. Christian chuckles and kisses my cheek from behind me.
"Come on baby your hungry and you have to eat." He says moving away from my back. He turns the shower on and gets in. I follow him in and let the warm water run don all over my body. I run my hands trough my hair and down the sides of my neck... Mmm feels good. I then feel Christian start washing my body. He washes me everywhere leavening me spotlessly clean. Then I have an idea.
"My turn..." I whisper in a low sexy voice and Christian moans. I put body wash in my hands and start washing his body all over... He stiffens when I touch his chest but all he did was put his hands on top of mine and guided me... I finish cleaning him but Christian still has his eyes closed.
"Christian are you okay?" I whisper at him. He opens his eyes and stares at me with wide eyes before pinning me against the shower and kissing me passionately. I want to do this with him but I need time. We stop kissing and start gasping of air.
"I want you so bad baby" he almost whimpers. I look down at his reaction... And it looks sore and uncomfortable. I sigh.
"I'm not ready, Christian, we just met" I whisper looking up at him with pleading eyes. Then it came to me, an idea. I know what to do.
"I know baby I'm sorry. Lets get out of here we are getting wrinkly." He says softly. Then turns around getting ready to get out. I grab his arm and turn him back around. I kiss him passionately then drop to my knees. Then I take him in my mouth.
"Ana, baby, what are you doing?... Ahhh... Yeah... That's right baby... Like that" I start sucking harder.
I don't even know if I'm doing it right but judging from his reaction I am. He is now holding my head encouraging me to go deeper, and I do. I go all back.
"ahhgg... How deep can you go, damn baby... I'm coming Ana stop if you don't want me to come in... Ummm... Ah... Your mouth!" He practically screams. I don't know what he means until a warm salty liquid fills my mouth I swallow some quickly then I suck him dry. As soon as I'm done he picks me up and kisses me passionately.
"Wow. Have you done that before?" He asks a little unsure if he should have or not. I instantly shake my head no. Then he smiles and shakes his head in disbelief.
"Well you were amazing" he says... He looks like he wants to say more but holds back.
"Lets get out baby" he says kissing my forehead.
Ana just gave me the best blow job I have ever had... I have never came that hard before! She didn't even have a problem swallowing everything down, without gagging. I was really happy when she told me it was the first time she did that... It made me feel like it was just ever going to be me... But then I thought about the other men she might have slept with... I wonder how many there were. If only I knew I would find each and every one of them and kill them with my own hands. Ana is mine.
I wanted to ask her how many times she's slept with another person but I didn't want to seem rude... I mean you don't ask that to a girl that's just gave you a blow job.
I get out the shower and put a towel around me, grabbing one for Ana too. I wrap it around her and she giggles. I can't help but grin back. I kiss her lips and lead her to my bedroom. I don't have any cloths here for her... I look around to find something for her but she beats me to it. She picks up my t-shit that's on my bed and puts it over her head. I let her find some cloths while I put track suit bottoms on. I turn around to find Ana in one of my white t-shirts that go up to her thighs and a pair of my boxers. She looks so good in my cloths... It makes me want her more. I put a t-shirt over my head and I go up to her and kiss her lips.
"You look good in my cloths baby." I whisper to her forehead. I pull her to me and we make out way down to the kitchen. Ms. Jones is already up and cooking, I can smell it before I see it. I slide on a barstool and so does Ana, next to me.
"Good morning Ms. Jones." I say, making her jump. She turns around and she gasps.
"Ow... Mr. Grey sorry I was busy making pancake mix. Ow and good morning." She's starring wide eyes and in awe at Ana. It's probably because she's never seen me so comfortable in my own home or with anybody else...
"Yes , pancakes sound good. By the way this is Ms. Steele, Ana this is Ms. Jones." I say. Ms. Jones smiles at Ana.
"Pleasure to meet you Ms. Steele." She says with a massive smile.
"Hey, please call me Ana and nice to meet you too" Ana says politely back. Ms. Jones goes back to cooking and I snuggle closer to Ana. I bury my face in her neck, taking in her sent. She giggles, my stubble is tickling her because I haven't shaved yet. I can't help but smile at her as she try's to hold her giggles probably because Ms. Jones is here with us, I don't care. I snuggle one more time and move away by kissing her neck.
We are waiting for breakfast so me and Ana are looking at the daily newspaper. Then I hear a ringing noise. Ana's eyes go wide and she looks panicked before she jumps of the stool and runs up stairs.
I start to panic as well... Why did she run upstairs? Does she not want to be here? I jump off the stool and run to my bedroom where Ana is sat on the floor on her phone.
"No, sorry I didn't call you... Yeah the interview went well. He wasn't that bad Kate." She then giggles.
"I will be leaving tonight, I have to get ready for my finals.. Okay... Bye" she turns her phone off then she faces me. She instantly comes up to me and hugs me tight... After a couple of seconds of shock I wrap my arms around her and bury my face in her her.
"Your leaving me..." I breath into her hair.
"Never" she says against my chest. She moved away just a little so that we can see each other. I look into her eyes and they are watering.
"I don't want to go but I have my finals in 2 weeks and I have already missed a lot of lessons because of... What happened.." She chokes at the last part, my heart aches for her.
"Baby I don't want you to go either but you need to do well at school and it's almost over..." What else can I say? I can't just ask her to move to Seattle for me when we have just met. Ow fuck I don't care how long we have met each other, it feels too right and I never want her to leave me again. Here goes everything...
"Ana, baby, move here to Seattle with me... I know we have known each other for a little while but it feels right and I don't ever want you to leave my side." I say like a nervousness wreck... She sates a little before laughing... Full on laughter... What's so funny?
"What was funny about what I said?" I ask in all seriousness.
"Aww Christian that was the cutest thing anybody has ever said to me but me and my room mate, Kate, have already decides to move to Seattle after we graduate" she says wiping her eyes. I try to pout and pretend I'm upset but it doesn't last long because I'm so fucking happy she's moving here. Ana starts laughing again and kisses my pout away... I wonder what else I don't know about her...
I pick her up and carry her back to the kitchen where Ms. Jones has put two plates with pancakes and bacon on. We eat in a comfortable silence and when we are done we move to the television room. She snuggled in next to me but I pull her on my lap, it feels better this way.
Ana picks a film but I don't care because I'm too busy studying her that watching a film. I notice the way she smiles when something funny happens and the way her eyes swell with tears when something dad happens... She also snuggled closer to me when she is upset. I take that opportunity and kiss her head and take in her smell. The film finally finishes and she look up at me with a shy smile. I want to know everything about her... Where do I start..
"Hey baby you know when my PA introduced you she called you Anastasia... Is that your full name?" I ask interested.
"Yeah, my full name is Anastasia Rose Steele but I prefer Ana... Nobody calls me Anastasia" she looks up at me innocently and I kiss her forehead.
"Okay baby... So what have you to planned for after graduation?" I ask. She smiles at me before answering.
"well have already applied for a couple of publishing houses and I hope to hear from soon... I lied to my friend and said I came for an interview this weekend but actually I came for something else..." She hesitated and didn't carry on.
"What did you really come here for, baby?" I ask I'm worried about her... She's said she hasn't told anybody about her meting her dad... That can't be good, right? Sh frowns and moves away a little.
"I... I told you I came to meet my biological dad..." She looks like she is hiding something but I don't know what.
"I want you to tell me everything because when we were in Georgia you Said you were with your dad and now you are telling me about meeting your dad for the first time, whats going on?" I ask confused. Then she sighs.
"When my mom was in her death bed she told us that I wasn't Rays, who brought me up like his own daughter, and that my real biological dad lived in Seattle... I wanted nothing to do with him but my mom made me promise I would tell him that I existed because he never knew about me...I had to come and tell him; I didn't want to tell anybody about it because I didn't want to bother any one with my problems... But he has 3 daughters that are all older than me... I think they are adopted because mom said he couldn't have kids due to something genetic. When I told him who I was he wanted a relationship and I felt like owed it to him to try to play father daughter... His daughters didn't like me and that's when they threatened to kill me if I didn't leave their daddy alone. He didn't see what they did though. He was so upset when I was leaving that he was crying... I felt bad for him but I am never going to that house again" she finishes allowing her self to sob and I hold her close to me.
She went through all that in less than a month... No wonder she's under so much stress... She will never ever see that man again if that's what she wants... I will keep in away with my life if I have to...
"I'm sorry baby... You will never see him again and I promise you that." I state calmly and kiss the top of her head again. She finally finishes crying and looks up at me. She looks sad.
"Christian... I... I have to leave because I have to study for my finals then I have to start packing. I don't want to g though..." She says looking down shyly. My heart breaks that we have to separate once again but this time it will be different. This time she's my girlfriend... This time I know where she is and how I can reach her.
"I don't want you to go baby. But I promise I will call every day until your finals are over and I will promise not to visit because I will not want to leave and it will hurt and distract you from you studies all over again. I want you to study full on and I will come to your graduation, promise..." I state firmly. I want my baby to have no regrets in her life even if that means staying away from her for a while.
"Christian... We need to do this interview because Kate will kill me if I come back empty handed" she giggle and I can't help but chuckle. Then her face falls in realisation... What happens... What did I miss? She sits up and looks at me straight in the eye.
"What baby? what's wrong?" I ask panicked.
"Its us Christian... How could we be together?" She says tears running down he face.
My frozen heart shatters into a million prices and I take in a sharp breath... She doesn't want us? What was I thinking when I thought this girl was for me? How was she meant to save me and bring me into the light?why would she ever want a sick fuck like me anyway?...
This is a nice long chapter for all of you lovely babes! Ow God what's going to happen between them now? Let me know what you guys think :)
