IDENTITY CRISIS
CH. 12 Plan of a Trip
by: moonlightbear
author's notes: ok so i didn't get those 10 to 21 reveiws i wanted but i did get inspired... so be happy! AND REVIEW MORE! and thank you to those of you who did review! kisses!
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When dramatic changes happen, most people don't see the side affects(or they may see some but not all) right away. They sneak up on you, scare you, and sometimes you feel horrible you didn't see it coming... You get depressed, sad, angry at yourself! You also learn more about yourself then ever before. Some of it is scary, some of it you need help with, and alittle of it you can carrie on your own shoulders...
...i know this from personal experience...
--in general-- dramatic changes include--
moving major new information
having a baby divorce
a break-up & etc.
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It has been three days since Alan returned home. Three days of quiet from Alan's room. For Alan, three days of laying down, in a lounge chair, watching the veiw from dawn til dusk. For Alan, three days of thinking and sunbathing. For his family, three days of worry... For John, three days of failed attempts(sometimes John would get a smile from Alan, but that was the closest). For Jeff, three days of thinking, working, and IDEAS...
He had an idea that might just work. He could keep a closer eye on Alan and Alan can still be schooled by teachers, rather then a computer. Not to mention the benefit of spending quality time with his youngest child. Jeff knows this may pull on both his and Alan's part for the simple fact, he normally holds off alot of work when he's home and works over time when he's on his away trips to the company. In the end things will turn out right, its for the best, and will hopefully bring Alan's spirits up.
Jeff walked down the hall to his son's room, he knocked but there was no answer(Alan hasn't answered anyone these days). Jeff decided to walk in, as he did he looked around the room to find the balcony door open and a lounge chair occupied. As he walked outside he noticed Alan's eyes were shut.
"Alan, are you awake, son?" He asked, laying a hand on his son's shoulder.
Alan stirred, raising a hand to shade his eyes, he peeked out. "Yeah, just thinking..." He said mildly.
"Why don't we go inside and talk, son. The sun isn't good for you all the time, come on, let take a break..."
Alan sighed and slowly got up, "Sure, why not." He replied. As they went inside Alan went into the bathroom for a moment and came back out, and sat on his bed. Jeff had taken a seat in Alan's comfortable moveable computer chair. "So what do you want to talk about?" Alan asked, with an emotionless expression on his face, the same he had been wearing the last few days and Jeff does not like it...
"Well I've been thinking about everything recently--"
"Sorry..." Alan mumbled, as he lowered his head to look at his hands.
"Alan! You have nothing to be sorry about! Look at me son..." Jeff told his son, as he used his hand to bring his son's head up. Alan did not resist and when Jeff saw his son's face he saw the same lost child from a couple of months before, the same lost child who didn't know who he was... Was he back? or did he never leave and i just didn't see it? Jeff thought... "Oh Alan..." He said moving on to the bed and gathering his son in his arms.
Alan couldn't hold the tears back... "I'm sorry..." He sniffled.
"Don't be, don't be... Its okay, everything is going to be ok..."
"I was doing so good... should have stayed in the sun..." Alan sighed.
"What do you mean, Alan?" Jeff asked, slightly confused.
"Third time, or in this case third days a charm, right? John has talked to me, but I didn't change, or cry, like this... nothing happened... Then you take me inside and I do cry... Should have stayed in the sun... Its easier..."
"Alan, it may be easier, but its not healthy for you to bottle things up... Truth be told I can't imagine how hard it must be, but i know there are other ways to make it easier and healthy for you... what do you say to starting tomorrow we spend one week together---"
"But I have school work..."
"Well you can take one week off from that, considering since you don't have a deadline from the school saying it must be done in two weeks, so we must go by what the online course tells us, which gives you an extra 2 weeks to finish the semester..." Jeff replied, and was happy to see a small smile on Alan's face.
"So where are we going?"
"San Fransico, CA we--"
"You're starting the new branch there. You'll be working." Alan replied, the frown returning...
"Some of the time yes, but there's still more for the contractor's to do then myself. Maybe one full day at the most for me... I was thinking that since I will be spending more time this coming semester in San Fransico, I figured we could check the city out. You know the movies, shows, restaurants, shops, the 4400 center, you---"
"4400 center? There's one there?"
"Yes I saw it in one of the pamflets one of the agents gave us when we were at NTAC. I thought you knew? You're normally on that website..."
"I knew there were a few, but I only really looked at the ones in Seattle and New York... That's cool, I'd like to go to one and check it out!"
"So its settled? we're going?" Jeff questioned.
"Promise, only one day..." Alan said, looking at his father with a serious expression.
"I promise, Alan. We could also check out the schools--"
"NO. I wanna be home schooled." does my dad know how to ruin the good moment or what! Alan thought to himself.
"Alan, you know I don't like hom--"
"You were willing to let me just after spring break, why not now? What's different now?"
"Alan we could come home most weekends, we'll be closer to home... You could have the best of both worlds..."
"Maybe the best for you, you think... but its not the best for me!"
"Ok... ok... No schools, but will you still come to CA with me?"
"No Schools?"
"No schools."
"Then fine, yeah, we'll have fun!" Alan replied with a half real, half false smile. He made his way to his closet, coming out moments later with his suitcase. "I'm gonna pack." He told his dad. Jeff got up from the chair and left the room, hoping good things will come...
--end chapter--
author's notes: life comes at you fast... i'm going through alot of stuff/issues... but you don't want to hear that... REVIEWS ARE A THING OF GREATNESS! PLEASE REVIEW! PLEASE! IT HELPS TO WRITE! GETS ON KNEES AND KISSES FEET OF REVIEWERS! LOL LOL LOL!
