L IS FOR LIFETIME

He remembered the first and only time his heart broke. It was a year ago now but as he promised the only thoughts he would ever have were of him…his Mello. Matt didn't ever think he would suffer a heart break, he was always so emotionally strong, he let very little bother him and yet saying goodbye to Mello was what torn him apart. His mind, body, heart and soul was shredded into pieces the day that Matt had walked away leaving behind the person he loved above everything else, but he had to, he had no choice.

He could feel the silent tears leaking from his eyes as he laid in the bed that they once shared. No matter how much it hurt Matt he couldn't leave the house that was theirs, he couldn't pull himself away from the good memories they created in that home with his first and last love. He could feel his weak body slowly dying, he knew that regardless people began to die from the moment they were born, he wasn't naïve to believe that anything lasted forever but more than anything he had wished he had at least one last moment with the blonde that he had said goodbye to one year ago.

The entire house seemed so silent, not even the chilled whispers of the draft that surrounded him made a sound. It was just him, and his thoughts. The first day they met, the first time they kissed, the first time they made love…it was all there, he kept his promise he remembered it all.

Matt reached over to the bed side cupboard and slowly opened the drawer. He hadn't been able to bring himself to touch the book that had its home in there but death made him do it. He needed to know about Mello's last thoughts.

He pulled the thick black book from its home and he rested on his chest, hugging it close to his body it still smelled of the blonde. Matt closed his emerald eyes and breathed in the scent. It smelt of chocolate, as Mello always did. It was all he had left of the man, a simple book that contained his last thoughts, his last words. His eyes slowly opened once again.

Matt pulled the book away from his chest and opened to the final pages that were written. The beautiful cursive writing was definitely Mello's. Matt had always wondered how the bossy, emotional and boisterous man could write so beautifully, but then no one knew Mello quite like he had.

He locked his gaze to the words that had been written and he read what the blonde's final written thoughts had been.

I have always been amazed by instincts. Those gut feelings someone gets when they feel something is going to happen. Like the kind I felt the day before I met Matt, something told me he was going to be coming into my life and stupidly I shook them off as if it were me imagining things. Little did I know that those instincts should have been obeyed because I have spent the last seventeen years of my life with him by my side. Matt isn't like anyone I have ever met and if he ever reads this I will kill the bastard

Matt smiled, typical Mello. He hadn't changed a bit since he had met him and he was thankful for that because he had loved Mello for exactly who he was. He never wanted him to be any different he liked his bold personality and his determination. There had been countless times that Matt had nearly lost him due to Mello's recklessness but every time the blonde pulled through because he was stubborn and refused to accept defeat and it was that attitude that had allowed Matt to keep Mello for nearly two decades

Matt is different than other people, he is strange in that I have never once seen him cry or in fact ever seen him angry and yet he feels so much with his heart and mind, I know that he loves me, above everything else even those damn cigarettes that he chain smokes and I can't stand the smell of. For me, Matt would die, he would do anything for me and I am not sure if that is selfishness on my part or his. To have someone love you the way he loves me I can't help but see it as selfish. I wouldn't want him to die for me because I need him, he keeps me strong when I become too emotional and I need him because despite of who I am he makes me feel that I deserve things like happiness and love so I suppose that it would mean I am selfish because I want him around for my own benefit and on the other side of the sword he is selfish because he wants to always feel the love I have for him, given I will always love him but it's me that he defends with his life and if I simply didn't exist, or if we hadn't met I can't help but wonder what exactly Matt would live for.

Mello knew Matt like the back of his own hand, everything that Matt was Mello knew and vice versa. They never had a problematic love life; sure in the beginning it was strange. They knew what to do , clearly both being male so they knew what would make the other feel good but there was apprehension because they were each other's first love and they didn't want to disappoint. But things soon started to become good and once their love began to grow for each other everything else seemed to slip into place.

Matt smiled as he thought about the many arguments they had over the seventeen years of being together, although they didn't seem it at the time after everything was said and done they were both able to laugh it off. They were truly pathetic when they argued with each other but put them against an adversary that didn't know them and neither Matt nor Mello would be the ones to leave harmed.

Mello was always tough and ruthless, he didn't let anyone but Matt give him hell. He would knock out anyone who thought less of him or made him feel like nothing more than filth on the street. Mello was as tough as nails but when his emotions ran high and he began to fall Matt was always there to catch him, never once letting Mello deal with pain and frustration alone.

I didn't plan on becoming a cock sucker, fag, homo, what have you but to think if I had turned away that day he kissed me it would have been my greatest regret and I was thankful that I had trusted my instincts when I kissed him back because I tell you, the man, that frustrating, laid back, lazy, pain in my ass red head that I love with enough fire to melt the thickest and strongest of metal, can make me feel as if I were in Heaven. Sadly, as my instincts have never steered me wrong I cannot help but feel that soon myself and Matt will no longer be together and it is not because we don't love each other or that we have become bored with one another it is because I am going to die soon and it will be death that separates us.

Matt could feel the tears begin to form in his eyes once again. Mello knew it all along and he had wished that the blonde had said something he would have never let Mello leave the house if he knew that it was going to be the day that he died.

Matt could feel his heart burn, the tears that streamed down his face cut him deeper than a knife and the open wound in his chest bleed profusely. Mello was the love of Matt's life and the fact he had to watch the blonde die the way he had was a pain that did not compare to anything else. Even when he had got his name tattooed across his chest, the anguish of losing Mello was the worst thing the red head had to feel. When he lost Mello he lost himself and no one could fill that hole that was in his chest and it was that heart ache that Matt was feeling that was now killing him.

He closed the book and rested his hand on the cover. He needed to find that happy thought, the happiest day of his life. He wanted to remember Mello for the good times that they shared not the bad; he didn't want his last dying thought to be something sad. Life with the blonde was exciting, interesting and fun and the greatest day of Matt's life…was the day that Mello had said that he loved him

Matt could feel a persistent nudge in his ribs, half hurting and half tickling. He didn't want to wake up he knew that it was finally the day he had been dreading, his twenty first birthday and the last thing he wanted was for Mello to drag him here, there and everywhere making him go to places he didn't want to go and probably get him blind drunk that he would even be able to remember his own name.

The red head curled his body up into a tight ball. In all the seven years he had been with Mello the blonde never once annoyed him but he was being so damn pushy and without actually saying anything

"Come on Matt it's time to get up you know what today is. If you don't wake up I will kick you so hard that you will be spending your birthday in the hospital"

The cheery baritone voice said into his ear. Mello was all about threats; he seemed to like threating people with pain, luckily for the red head Mello never once acted out in violence towards him. Matt was sure there were probably times where Mello did want to kick the crap out of him or punch him but somehow he refrained and often just ended up knocking someone else out whether it be a stranger that looked at the blonde funny or someone else he knew that pissed him off. Mello was extremely sociable so he knew plenty of people that he wanted to beat the shit out of anyway.

"Jokes on you smart ass, if you did that you will be subjected to giving yourself a hand job tonight because I would not be in any condition to make love to you" Matt replied with a smile

He turned over and looked at the man sitting beside him. His persistent nudging and finally stopped.

"Arggh why do you have go and say shit like that for? be a man, it's fucking. I know you love me and all but don't go getting all mushy on me just because old age in creeping up on you. So come on get up, get clean and get dressed we are going out today whether you like it or not and tonight we are going to get shit faced. You're a big boy now Matt, time to put those big boy pants on and stop being such a hermit"

Matt groaned but as he looked up at the blonde and could see those "please" puppy dog eyes that Mello had mastered so wonderfully when he wanted to guilt trip the red head Matt could hardly say no to his lover of the past seven years.

"Fine, I will go out with you today but I am not getting drunk at some seedy bar with a bunch of aging perverts if you are insistent that I must get shit faced we are doing it here" Matt said

"Alright on one condition"

Of course there had to be a stipulation, there was always a damn stipulation.

"What is it then?" Matt asked knowing it would be probably something outrages, the blonde never did anything on a small scale. Everything had to be bold and flamboyant, just like him.

"We will get blind drunk here together, without anyone else if you can refrain from opening your present I got you. I won't tell you what it is but I will tell give it to you now but if you as much as shake it I will be dragging your sorry ass to a bar and I will even go as far as telling those perverts that you are single and you're looking for a sugar daddy and you know I will do it so don't fucking push me kid" Mello said

Matt smiled, that was it? He wasn't allowed to open his present. It was too easy ,Matt was a master at patience; he could wait out anything but then again if he knew Mello he would find a way to try and tempt him and if there was one thing the couple knew was that Matt could not say no to the blonde. It was impossible. Matt sat up and ran his fingers through his hair and then massaged his tired emerald green eyes.

Mello went to get up off the bed and Matt suddenly gripped hold of the blonde's wrist and pulled him back.

"Where the fuck do you think you're going sunshine?" Matt asked looking down into the aquamarine orbs that smiled at him.

"Fucking hell Matt are you senile or what I just told you I am getting your damn present you fucking geriatric old bastard" Mello growled

The comment made Matt smile seeing as Mello was one year older then Matt and they were far from being old.

"Kiss me and I will let you go" Matt said

"Let me go and I won't punch you in the face"

Matt let out a short laugh and shook his head. He released Mello's wrist and the blonde quickly rushed off and returned a short time later carrying an oddly shaped present. Matt had to admit it was rather intriguing looking and he could tell that Mello had taken the least amount of care wrapping it since it was enveloped in newspaper and duct tape which told Matt that whatever was underneath all that paper and duct tape was something either very expensive or ,the unlikely, something sentimental.

However the shape was what threw Matt off it looked somewhat what would happen if a frog and a duck mated. It was short and round with two large sphere shapes up high with a long bill shaped point protruding from it and what appeared to be wings on the top.

Mello handed Matt the crappy wrapped gift with a big and mischievous smile on his face. He placed his hand against his boyfriend's cheek and placed a forgiving and warming kiss against his lips.

"Happy birthday Matty" The blonde said as he pulled away from the kiss that was very kindhearted and adoring

Mello had called his red head Matty whenever he felt like being affectionate, it was something that started when they were kids, the met when they were fourteen and fifteen and it was love at first sight. They were completely inseparable. They got themselves in to trouble more times than they could count and they were probably each other's bad influence but they made each other shine, they were the best people they could be because they had someone to be the best for.

"Thank you beautiful"

Matt placed the gift on the bed side cupboard, wrapped his arms around the blonde and held him close to his body. He would feel Mello grip hold of him like his life depended on it, his hugs were always like that, it was how Matt knew that he needed and wanted Matt in his life. Even though Mello hadn't said I love you to the red head, Matt didn't need to hear the words because he could feel all the love in the word when Mello hugged or kissed him.

Mello had ended up dragging Matt everywhere that day and somehow they ended up with a trunk full of clothes and God knows what other crap Mello ended up finding. Matt was forced to go shopping , stop and eat, shop some more, stand around for an hour while Mello spoke to some random that knew him from somewhere, shopped some more, ate again and then finally by night fall they were back out the house and Mello had decide what better way for Matt to get pissed then with tequila.

Mello had made sure that Matt was eating throughout the day because he knew all too well on the adverse effects of alcohol on an empty stomach. They were five shots into their "let's get smashed" night and both of them were near on intoxicated it wasn't going to take much more and they were going to be beyond drunk.

The blonde poured them another shot, it was somewhat lucky that they had both been plastered because they probably would not have known what either was saying

"Did you enjoy ya birffday Matty?" Mello asked as Matt quickly tipped back the tequila his beloved had poured

"Yeah it weren't too bad although why the fuck was we standi' around talkin' ta some guy that I didden even know?" Matt asked

Mello thought about Matt's question for a moment

"Ya know what, I have no fuckin' idea, I dun even 'member who tha fuck he was. Prolly some dude who had tha hots fer me or somethin'" Mello replied

Matt somewhat pouted

"Well that's juss what I wan'ed ta hear some fuckin' strangerrr has tha hot's fer my boyfrien' well that's just….gay" Matt replied

Mello laughed at the red head

"Youra pretty funny drunk Matty, look we nearly finish tha bottle"

Mello said holding up the bottle and looking at the small amount of clear liquid. Clearly that had a lot more than they realized. Matt pulled himself up off the floor and stumbled over to Mello on flopped down onto the couch. He rested his back against the rest and slouched himself into the cushions.

Mello moved about and after a few unsteady tries he finally managed to straddle Matt's lap. The red head instantly placing his hands on Mello's hips.

"I'm really sorry if I gave ya a shitty birffday but I hope ya will fergive me when ya see what I got ya" Mello said

"Oh shit, yeah I fergot 'bout that"

Matt suddenly wrapped his arms under Mello's ass and somehow, probably by the thought of invincibility he was able to pull himself up off the couch along with Mello who wrapped his legs around Matt's waist and he wobbled towards the bedroom. Mello started laughing almost uncontrollable

"Matt wha' the fuck ya like carryin' me? Do ya even realize tha' is what ya are doin'?"

"I'm takin' ya to our sleepin' quarters my princess I'd be a pretty fuckin' shitty prince if I couldn' even do somethin' simple like this and stop laughin' if ya piss on me…well I dunno what I'll do, just don't piss on me ok princess" Matt said

"Wha' kinda princess gets wasted at a twen'y thirst birffday party?" Mello asked

"I dunno what kind?"

"I dunno I was askin' ya cause I don't havea answer ta that quest'on I know I am smart but I ain't that smart"

They finally managed to reach the bed and Matt had tossed Mello down on the bed. They both fumbled to take off their clothes and boots and they had climbed under the covers and what started out as kissing and heavy petting soon escalated but because they were both completely hammered, somewhere between Mello straddling Matt's hips and leaning into Matt, kissing his neck and Matt jerking Mello off they had both fallen asleep.

Matt had roused with a splitting head ache. He was never going to drink again, all he wanted was to get up drink as much water as his body could handle and then have a cigarette. He rolled over and noticed Mello was still sleeping with his face buried in the pillow. Matt shook his head and gently shoved the blonde

"Mel' wake up you'll end up suffocating if you sleep like that" The red head said quietly

The blonde moved and turned his head towards Matt.

"Is it just me or does the light in here seem a lot more brighter than usual?" Mello asked

"It really does, do you want me to close the blinds?"

"Yeah"

Matt stood up still completely naked and closed the blinds on the windows before going back to bed and relishing in the dark room. He hadn't even realized that he still hadn't opened his obscure looking present from Mello yet. He sat up and grasped it from off the cupboard

"You still haven't opened it yet?" Mello asked

"No, I guess I must have been too drunk last night and forgot"

Mello pulled himself up and draped his arm over Matt's waist before leaning into his chest. Matt pressed a kiss against Mello's forehead and then sat back up straight so he would investigate what Mello had got him. It was only after that he began to unwrap it that he had realized most of it was filled with Styrofoam packing that Mello had craftily shaped to disguise the small object that was wrapped in white paper with a rubber band around it. Matt didn't even seem to care that most of the packaging was now on their bed and in Mello's hair.

He grasped the small object that was no bigger than an average sized cookie and removed the band and paper. He smiled widely and felt his heart thumping he unfolded the paper and read what had written on it

Let me be your rock too, with all the love in the world plus a fuck load more, happy birthday Matty, love always Mello

Matt looked at the rock that the white paper had been wrapped around and he had noticed it was heart shaped. It was the most endearing thing he had ever seen and the note, the note finally had said that Mello had loved him

"Do you like it?" Mello asked

Matt smiled and placed another kiss on the blondes head

"I made it myself"

He made the red head laugh. It was the most incredible thing he had ever seen and the amount of happiness he felt in his heart was completely euphoric.

"I love it, thank you darlin' but where on earth did you find a heart shaped rock?" Matt asked

"Well…I would like to say that I searched a million beaches for it but that would be a lie, it was in our front garden, I guess I never really noticed it before. But I figured you would like that a lot more than anything else I could have got you" Mello replied

It was hard to believe but that rock and that paper became Matt's everything, after Mello.

"This is really amazing Mello, I could not have wished for anything more"

"There's something else"

Mello pulled himself away from Matt and sat up looking into the sparkling green eyes that were filled with love and happiness. He smiled sweetly, if Matt liked the rock and the little note then was going to love what Mello had to say even more

"There are times where I feel like punching you, there are times where I just can't get enough of you and even though those feelings changed from day to day there is one thing that will always remain the same. Matt you have been be my side every step of the way and if it wasn't for you I wouldn't be the best person I could be. You made my life better then great and I hope that we will be able to make it the rest of the journey together. Matt, I love you more than I can ever explain and even though it's a day late because we got too pissed I will tell you this now; I simply don't exist without you. I love you Matty, I always have"

Matt could feel his heart explode with joy. It was hard for him to contain himself. He wrapped his arms around the blonde and embraced him tightly. It had been seven years in the making but it was the first I love you he had ever heard and there was no way anything was going to top that. He pulled away from the blonde and kissed his mouth passionately, that was the happiest moment in his life. Hearing the man he treasured above everything else say that he loved him was his greatest joy. Mello had made him the happiest man alive and it wasn't just because of those three words it was just the blonde in general. He was his everything.

It was exactly ten years to the day that Matt had lost Mello. It was an accident. The blonde had been on his way to work that morning and nothing seemed out of the ordinary. Mello seemed to be his usual self, although slightly grumpy because he didn't particularly feel like going into work since he and Matt had been up all night re-celebrating Matt's birthday because once again they had got too drunk from the night before. He had kissed Matt goodbye as he had always done and he left the house.

Matt had become domesticated and took it upon himself to start cleaning up the bedroom since they had made a mess of it. It was only a few hours later that he was answering the phone and a voice down the other end, a police officer had said that Mello was taken to hospital.

Matt didn't even care that he was dressed in a pair of boxer shorts and a long sleeved shirt, he just bolted to the door and drove to the hospital as quickly as possible.

His heart had been split in two when they had told him what had happened to Mello. A car had collided with Mello's motorbike and the blonde had been critically injured. They had told him there and then that he should make funeral arrangements because there was little chance Mello was going to be able to survive the deadly head injuries he had received along with the damage to most of his vital organs.

They had let Matt go in and see the blood who was in an induced coma. Matt could feel the tears pour from his eyes as he looked at his boyfriend just lying there, unable to breath and unable to speak. The red head sat beside the bed and took Mello's hand holding it tightly

"Mello, darlin', can you hear me?…please wake up" Matt said, the tears breaking up his voice

"You have to wake up ok, I need you to wake up. Please Mello, please don't let this be goodbye. I promise I will always think of you, I'll do whatever you want me to do just please stay with me, I need you Mello, I need you, please don't go."

Matt couldn't stop the tears from falling from his eyes, his whole entire body was being ripped apart and if had known that the last thing he was going to do was kiss Mello he would of kissed his lips instead of his forehead.

Matt had gone home that night, alone. He was never going to see Mello again and he didn't even get a choice, he had to walk away. He had his heart ripped out and pulled apart as he watched the blonde's life support get turned off. Mello would have never wanted to become someone who couldn't use his brain anymore; he would have hated Matt if he had kept him alive like that. Matt did the one thing he didn't want to do but knew it was better for the love of his life.

He sat on the bed unable to even speak or move. He was completely paralyzed, he didn't know how to feel or what to think he had just lost the one person that had always been by his side, the only person that he had ever loved and knowing he would never touch, hear, kiss or see Mello ever again tore at him like a million daggers.

Matt wiped the tears from off his cheeks. Ever since he had lost Mello a year ago he had been dying inside and even he was surprised that he had lived so long but Matt knew it was coming to an end for him and as he promised his last thoughts were going to be of the blonde.

Matt pulled himself off of the bed, he took the journal Mello had kept and along with his heart shaped rock and the little note that he kept on his beside cupboard, he went out into the garden where the blonde had found the rock that he had given Matt for his twenty first birthday.

He sat down in the grass and breathed in the night air. He placed the rock beside him and opened up the book once more to read the final bit of Mello's last entry.

To my beloved Matt, if you are reading this it probably means I am no longer with you and if I am not there is one thing I need you to do for me. I need you to be brave. You have always been so brave and so strong that is what I love most about you, that you can get through anything. I don't know how many years have passed that you will end up reading this but know this. I have loved you every day and I will continue to love you even after death. I knew I was going to die Matt and it was probably just my time to go and I know how much that sucks, I mean just think how sexually deprived I am going to end up being. I don't know if there is anything for us after we have died, I suppose I will know when I get there. But what I do know is there is no Heaven, I know this because no place could possibly be as beautiful, as loving as wonderful as my life was with you and to me that was Heaven. Matt, I can't tell you how to continue to live the rest of your life, I can't tell you what you should or shouldn't do but I hope that someday you will be ok, I hope one day your heart will mend and maybe you could fall in love again, who knows maybe I'll be lucky and end up being reborn and we will reunite in some way or another. But I will say this, if you do manage to fall in love I know for certainty that no one will ever love you like I did and you will not love anyone like you loved me. There is one last thing I have to write before I say goodbye and that is I love you Matty, I love you so very much. I'll be waiting for you on the other side where ever that may be"

Matt shut the book and rested it in his lap. He never knew that it was possible to die from a broken heart but that was how he was going out. He closed his eyes and thought of his blonde, someone he never once replaced. He calmed his breathing as he felt his heart being to disintegrate.

"I love you too Mello" He whispered into the wind.

The sound of the alarm had bought Matt out of his sleep. He yawned loudly as he turned his head and looked at the alarm clock. He couldn't believe he was late again; he was surely going to get fired this time. He pulled himself out of bed as quickly as possible and threw on the clothes closest to him. He rushed out the door and up the street, his boots hitting the pavement as hard as possible and he was completely out of breath

"This…fucking…sucks!"

He tried to yell but his words were cut off from the panting. He didn't even pay attention to where he running and found himself head first with a large telephone wire pole. His body hit the concrete and he could feel his nose beginning to bleed. He hated the fact he was so damn clumsy.

Matt bunched up the sleeve of his black and white shirt and pressed it up against his nose to try and stop the bleeding. He sighed out loudly, he figured if he wasn't already fired he would be now but at least someone was always looking for a cluey IT guy so he knew he wouldn't be out of a job for long.

He was suddenly greeted by someone crouching beside him. He looked up and his emerald green eyes connected with the aquamarine ones that were staring at him. Matt had never seen someone so beautiful, sure it was a man but he was stunning, he was sure that he had seen him from somewhere before.

"Are you alright? There's a fucking pole there" The blonde said as he helped Matt off the ground

"Yeah thanks, I'm alright. I suppose worst can be expected when you run face first into a slab of concrete" Matt replied

The blonde laughed at him and extended his hand. Matt took it and shook it firmly but almost lovingly, as if it was natural. He wasn't sure what it was but the blonde was so familiar to him but he would have remembered if he had met someone like him before, he know he would have.

"Mello"

"Matt"

"Nice to meet you Matt, This is probably going to sound a little pervy and maybe a little fucked up but do I know you from somewhere?" Mello asked

"I'm not sure but I get the same feeling, almost as if we have met"

The blonde smiled and had a slight inquisitive look on his face.

"I would have certainly remembered you if I had met you before though, that much I am sure of. I don't think I could ever forget you" Mello replied

The red head shrugged his shoulders.

"Maybe it was a lifetime ago then, but I feel that I know you too" Matt replied

"Do you want to go get some coffee or something and maybe some ice for your nose?"

Matt nodded and the two began to walk side by side. They had gone to a local café and that sat down and began to talk, almost if they had been friends for years. Mello was so completely captivating it was hard for him not to take his eyes off of the blonde. They had been sitting there for hours and they seemed to instantly connect. As the morning turned into the afternoon Mello had looked at his watch and stood up

"Not that I particularly want to be I have somewhere I need to be, this is probably a bit forward of me but do you want to go out again sometime. It's kind of hard to ignore the fact it feels like I know you better then I know myself" Mello said as he reached into his back pocket and retrieved business card

"It's not forward at all, I would love to see you again"

Mello handed Matt the card

"Don't go breaking my heart Matt, I expect you to call me" Mello said

Matt was slightly surprised when the blonde gave him a kiss on the cheek and started to walk away. Matt couldn't believe his luck, Mello was perfect for him he was the most amazing person he had ever spoken to, in fact probably the only person he had a lengthy conversation with. As Matt watched Mello walk away, he smiled and reached into his pocket and grasped his phone. He dialed the number on his card and watched as Mello had stopped at the end of the street and retrieve his own phone

"Mello"

"I don't know how to tell you this but I think you may have accidently taken my heart with you" Mello said

He could hear the blonde slightly laugh

"Oh that was no accident Matt, but don't panic I think I have left mine with you. You can keep it, I'm sure you will keep it safe"

"And you can keep mine. I will see you tonight; I don't think I can wait until another day"

"Alright, it's a date"

"Bye darlin'"

"Bye Matty"

Not they knew it but no matter how many life times they lived they were always going to end up together. Matt and Mello, not even death was going keep them from being together, no matter how many lives that had to live they would always find a way back into each other's arms.

Possibly the hardest chapter I have written so far but I wanted to end in on a good note. As always big thank you to Candy, K and Nazlyn. Also thanks to my other favorites/followers