Intermission #3
I know I just wrote one of these, but I want to explain my absence. My computer has crashed, so I had no way of typing this up the way I wanted to. Since I only used my computer for typing, it was hard for me to justify buying a new one. Eventually, I found a good used one to use that fits what I need. So here we are.
Now, to talk about Gwen's fears. I had written down what they were before I even thought about typing this up, but I lost the paper it was on. So, I had to come up with something on the fly. The first one you see in the fanfic is fear of being a disappointment. That was tough to type up. It's kind of a real fear of mine. Not being good enough and everyone you know turning their backs on you because of it. It's an irrational fear; no one is real life that is worth knowing will leave you because you don't measure up.
The next one was loud noises. I don't know if that was very obvious in the story. Loud noises can paralyze Gwen because it makes her stop thinking. And by doing that, it scares her. She doesn't like the notion that she can't constantly be thinking. Her thoughts were the only thing she could control; the only thing that was hers. So, to lose that, makes her feel empty.
Now, how will she overcome those two obstacles? That's what the next chapter will be about.
Thanks for sticking with me. This new computer is a netbook, so there might be some typos. I don't like to re-read what I write. It causes me to re-do parts. I like to free-write. Say what I'm thinking in the moment. I will use the spell checker, but anything else will stay. I hope it's not too hard to read!
Have a great day
