A/N: Here's chapter twelve I get a little angsty in this chapter. Oh and the parts where its italics it's someone's thoughts or phone conversation.
Disclaimer: Code Lyoko yea that's not mine if it was well let's say season five and a few more main characters.
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The next morning when I hear my alarm clock go off I turn it off and crawl out of bed and go get a shower, brush my teeth then go eat breakfast. Walking down the hallway like a zombie I make it to the bathroom. Where I get a shower and brush my teeth.
After brushing my teeth I change into one of my old Atlantis Academy camp t-shirts I guess I grabbed it by mistake. Because I thought I grabbed my Angels and Airwaves t-shirt. The one that has an angel on the front and a guitar on the back with Angels and Airwaves in green letters. Then I put on my black jeans and my black converses.
Walking back to my room so I can change my shirt I run into Tony but he doesn't notice me. So I keep walking and go into my room and change my shirt comb my hair and put a little bit of gel in it and spike it.
Then I walk to the cafeteria and eat breakfast before going to class but I realize I'm not that hungry and barely eat anything. Before giving my tray to Odd so I get up and go to class which is science. So I sit through science and math class then history before going to English class.
Once I walk into English class I sit in the back not willing to bother anyone just sit there and be a good boy. Class starts and Tony is trying to get my attention but I'm so lost in my own thoughts. I don't hear him but once the teacher calls my name I snap out of my thoughts.
Ms.C said "Well Tommy can you tell me what I was just saying" Tommy said "Um…I'm not going to fight you on this and admit I wasn't listing so I guess I have detention right?" Ms.C said "Yes" Tommy said sarcastically "Goodie" Ms.C said "But thank you for being honest" Tommy said "Yay go me…I think…"
Tony asked "Dude what's your deal that's the second time this week you've had detention what gives?" Tommy said "Leave me alone Tony" Tony said "No tell me what's been bothering you" Tommy said annoyed "No so drop it" Tony said annoyed "Fine" Tommy said pissed off "Good"
The rest of the day goes by and after school I go to the library to serve my detention good thing it's only two hours and not four like I thought it would be. And those two hours go by fast and I'm out of detention and off to my dorm room.
Then Tony comes to my dorm and I let him in my room. Tony asked "Dude why did you have to get detention again that's twice what's with you?" Tommy said "Look Tony I don't want to talk about it so leave me alone" Tony asked "Is it because of Justin?" Tommy said "I don't know just leave me alone" Tony said "No not until you tell me what's been eating you"
Tommy said "Please Tony I don't want to talk about it" Tony said "Tom I'm your friend you know you can tell me anything and I'm practically your brother"
Tommy said "I know that Tony but this is something I have to deal with on my own" Tony said "Then tell me what it is" Tommy said "No so just stop asking" Tony said "Dude I'm just looking out for you" Tommy said "Thanks for caring but I don't need your sympathy"
Tony said "Fine" Tommy says realizing what I just said "Wait Tony I didn't mean it like that" Tony said annyoned "No I get it now you've found out something you don't like and it's making you act different just to deal with it. Even if it means hurting your friends" Tommy said a little hurt "Tony I didn't…don't mean to act the way I am I'm sorry"
Tony shouts "I don't even know why we became friends!" Tommy said sadly "Tony I'm sorry…" Tony shouts "I don't care!" so Tony leaves my room and goes to his room and I grab my jacket. I go for a walk but not before grabbing my switchblade and putting it in my pocket.
So I walk off campus and go to the woods deep in the woods where no one would normally go unless their me. I find a tree and sit down and rest my back on the tree pull out my switchblade.
I take off my jacket and press the blade against my skin until it bleeds. I make the cut a little deeper before sucking in a breath to ease the pain that I feel inside me. My one wish is that the pain I felt wasn't there at all.
Then I hear footsteps so I wipe the blood off the blade before putting it back in my pocket. I put my jacket back on and running deeper into the woods so that whoever came out to the woods won't find or see me.
But I'm not looking where I'm going and I hit a tree and pass out hours later I wake up and its dark out. I don't know how long I've been out but something tells me I should go back to school. Unable to make up my mind I stay right where I am and fall asleep.
The next morning I wake up and feel my head where I hit the tree I have a nice bump on my head. Since it's nothing serious and I don't feel like going back to school right now. So I stay in the woods all day instead of going to school.
In English Class
Ms.C asks "Tony do you know where Tommy is?" Tony said "No ma'am" Ms.C asks "You sure?" Tony said "Yes ma'am I haven't seen him at all not since yesterday" Ms.C said "Ok Tony"
At lunch
Tony asks "Has anyone seen Tommy?" Jeremy said "No" Odd said "Nope" Aelita said "I haven't either" Ulrich said "Same here" Tony asks "What about you Yumi?" Yumi said "I only remember seeing Tommy yesterday he was in the woods I don't know if he's still out there or not" Tony said "Thanks Yumi" Yumi said "No problem"
Back in the woods
So Tony goes into the woods to see if I'm still there which I am but I don't want to go back to school. I need some alone time right now so when I see him I take off running he follows but I manage to get away from him so he won't find me.
Tony asks "Tommy where are you?" he gets no answer Tony said "Tommy come on answer me please" again nothing but the wind Tony said "Tommy I know you're out here" all he hears again is the wind rustling against the trees.
Tony asks "Come on Tommy this isn't funny where are you?"
So Tony keeps walking getting deeper into the woods hoping to find me and drag my butt back to school. I know he just wants to make sure I'm ok but I don't want to be around anyone right now all I want is to be left alone.
So I won't come out of hiding not until Tony leaves so I can be alone again, he just won't leave. So I'm not going to move from where I'm hiding until he goes. Tony keeps looking and looking hard but still can't find me. Then Tony trips over a rock and starts falling down a hill. I go after him just to make sure he won't get hurt.
After following him for twenty minutes he stops rolling and hits a tree so I walk over to him and he's out cold. Part of me wants me to leave him there but the other part of me wants to help him. So I help him up and take one of his arms putting it across my shoulders while using my right arm to support his right side.
When we get back to school I take him to the nurse so he can get cleaned up because he has a gash on his forehead. Along with a few small cuts on his arms and two deep cuts on both of his legs.
Yolanda said "Set him down over there Tommy" Tommy said "Ok" so I walk over to one of the beds and slowly let Tony down on one of them. Yolanda asks "How did this happen?" Tommy said "He tripped over a rock in the woods and started rolling down a hill I chased after him, but I couldn't keep up and when I found him he was lying next to a tree"
Yolanda asks "You sure that's how this happened" Tommy said "Yes ma'am" Yolanda said "Ok Tommy you can go now" Tommy said "Ok"
But I don't go back to my room I go into the woods again and try to clear my head again. I just end up cutting myself again twice before going back to school and going to my room.
My cellphone rings I answer it Tommy said "Hello" Tony asks "Tommy is that you?" Tommy said "Yea Tony it's me" Tony said "Good" Tommy asks "Why did you call me Tony?" Tony said "Because I wanted to say I'm sorry about yesterday about what I said I didn't mean it…" Tommy said "Tony its cool I know you didn't mean it" Tony said "Thanks Tom" Tommy said "No problem"
Tony asks "Tommy why where you in the woods yesterday?" Tommy said "I wasn't feeling like myself yesterday and I needed to clear my head" Tony said "Oh ok" Tommy said "It's cool Tony don't worry about me I'm just fine" Tony said "If you say so Tommy" Tommy said "Look I'll talk to you later Tony I need to go for a walk" Tony said "Just come back this time ok" Tommy said "Ok"
I hang up with Tony, grab my jacket and switchblade putting it in my pocket along with my phone I put my jacket on and head off to the woods. When I get deep enough into the woods I sit down and pull out my switchblade. I flick the blade out and start pressing it against my skin on my left arm until blood starts coming out.
Slowly I take a deep breath and start making the cut deeper until I can't stand it anymore. Once that's done I wipe the blood off the blade and put my switchblade away and put my jacket back on. So that no one will know I was cutting myself again.
I just sit there in the woods not really thinking but at the same time it looks like I am thinking. Thoughts come and go before I have a chance to grab hold of them to start pondering about them.
Before long it starts to get dark so I start heading back to school like I told Tony I would. Then out of nowhere something hits the back of my head I feel my eyes roll backward and I hit the ground hard.
Waking up hours later its dark maybe 1 am I don't know everything is a blur right now. I feel the back of my head it feels sticky and wet when I look at my hand there's blood on it. So I go back to school and go wash my head once I'm done I walk to my dorm and crash on my bed instantly falling asleep.
When I wake up the next morning I'm in Sissi's room how I got in her room I don't know because I was definitely in my own room last night. Tommy asks "Sissi what the hell?" Sissi said annoyed " And that's the thanks I get for helping you" Tommy said "The only help I need is to figure out how to get rid of you"
Sissi said "Tommy how dare you!" Tommy said "I didn't mean literally I was joking chill out" Sissi said "Oh" Tommy asks "Yea again how the hell did I get here?"
Sissi said "I brought you here" Tommy asks "Why?" Sissi said "You head looked like it was going to get infected. So I brought you to my room to clean you up and I stitched up you head and put a bandage on it"
Tommy said "Oh thank you Sissi I guess I better go back to my own room before GI Jim comes looking for me" Sissi said "Ok and your welcome" Tommy said "If I find anything missing or…well you know what I mean" Sissi said "Don't worry Tommy I left that part of you alone" Tommy said "Good it wouldn't like you anyways"
I walk out of Sissi's room and go back to my own room where I lie down on my own bed and fall asleep until I hear my phone ring. But I'm thinking it's in my dream so I ignore it. But it won't stop ringing so I wake up a little bit grab my phone and answer it.
Tommy said "Ello" Tony asks "Where are you?" Tommy said "I'm in my room what is it?" Tony said "Get your butt up and get to English class before Ms.C finds out your not here again I'm not covering for you again"
Tommy said annoyed "I didn't plan on you covering my ass and screw her let her think whatever she wants I don't give a shit" Tony said "Tom please just come to class please and I know you don't give a shit but she does so get your ass here"
Tommy said even more annoyed "Um she can kiss my ass I'm not coming to class screw that besides I don't feel good so if she comes looking for me I'll be waiting in my sleep so good day" Tony said "But Tom" Tommy shouts "I said good day!"
I hang up on Tony and go back to sleep I can't help it if I feel like shit right now I'll go to class when I'm damn good and ready to.
English class
Ms.C asks "Does anyone know where Tommy is?" Tony said "He's not feeling good he hasn't been in school all day" Ms.C said not believing him "Really he 'doesn't feel good' good one Tony"
Tony said "I'm not making it up he really doesn't feel good" Ms.C said still not believing him "Prove it" Tony said "Ok but don't take my phone and give me a detention for it" Ms.C said "Ok Tony"
Back in my room
Stoopid phone stop ringing can you see I'm sleeping!
Oh wait phones don't have eyes damn…
Who the hell is calling me?
Eh better answer it
I grab my phone and answer it Tommy said half asleep "…Ello…" Tony said "Hey Tom" Tommy shouts "Look if Ms.C doesn't believe you then she can bite me!" Tony said "I wouldn't say that too loudly Tom" Tommy said "Oh crap don't tell me your calling me from her class and she's standing right in front of you right?"
Tony said "Yea I am and she kinda is" Tommy said "Great…let me guess she wants to talk to me otherwise I would be in dreamland right now" Tony said "Yea she does hold on while I give her my phone" Tommy said "Otay" Tony hands his phone to Ms.C.
Tommy asks "What?" Ms.C asks "Are you really not feeling good or are you skipping for fun?" Tommy said "No I'm not skipping for fun but that does sound entertaining I'll try it sometime and yea I don't feel good honest"
Ms.C asks "Really?" Tommy said "Yea I got hit in the head last night in the woods I woke up at 1 am. I tried to clean the spot where I got hit but I didn't do a very good job of it"
Ms.C said "Then how come you sound like your faking?" Tommy said "I don't know…" I drop my phone grab my trashcan and empty my stomach contents after I'm done I wipe my mouth and pick up my phone.
Tommy asks "Was that enough for you?" Ms.C asks "What where you doing?" Tommy said "Let me explain again" five seconds go by I'm still holding my phone and I empty more of my stomach contents into my trashcan again.
Tommy asks "Better?" Ms.C said "You didn't have to do that" Tommy said "I think I did otherwise you wouldn't have believed me and your shoes would have spaghetti and meatballs on them either that or pizza" Ms.C said "I didn't need the mental picture"
Tommy said "Well I hope it's burned in your head and stays there until I make it go away" Ms.C asks "What side of the bed did you wake up on?" Tommy said really annoyed "The only where you can suck it"
Ms.C said "No thank you" Tommy said in a sarcastic tone "Oh that's right you only like little boys with little jimmy's my bad" Ms.C said "Well at least they have more respect than you"
Tommy said in a really sarcastic tone "Nope I still have respect for you but my Jimmy doesn't it doesn't like stuck up teachers from hell sorry" Tommy said really annoyed and in a sarcastic tone "Oh by the way my Jimmy is way more fun than a little boys or at least the one you suck BURN!"
Tommy asks and shouts at the same time "What's this no snappy come back? Well I'm glad that's settled I'm going back to sleep so GOOD DAY!" I hang up and go back to sleep hopefully I won't be disturbed this time.
Back in English class
Tony said "I'm sure Tommy didn't mean that he sometimes says weird stuff when he's sick" Ms.C asks "How would you know?" Tony said "I've known him since I was four so I know for a fact that he can sometimes say things he won't mean" Ms.C said "Just take your phone and sit down Tony" Tony said "Yes ma'am"
In my room
Tony asks "What the hell Tommy?" Tommy asks "huh did tahw ouy yas" ("huh what did you say") Tony said "Speak correctly Tom" Tommy said "ot tnaw t'nod I" ("I don't want to") Tony asks "What?"
Tommy said "Eh sorry about that I was still in dreamland" Tony said "Oh" Tommy said "So I'm guessing I'm in trouble and have detention sound about right" Tony said "Surprisingly no but I can see it happening" Tommy said "True"
Tony said "But that took some serious balls to say that stuff" Tommy said "Yea I guess it did I don't know why I would say something like that though it's not like me to snap like that"
Tony said "You're not feeling good it's ok Tom" Tommy said "Maybe I should go apologize" Tony said "Don't just get some sleep Tom that's the only thing you need right now"
Tommy said "Yea I guess your right" Tony said "Good" then Tony sees my left arm with a bunch of cuts on it Tony asks "Tom how'd you get those cuts?" Tommy said nervously "Um I…uh tripped…when I was coming back to school"
Tony asks "You sure?" Tommy said "Yea" Tony asks "Really Tom?" Tommy said "Ok fine I didn't trip I uh…" Tony said "Please don't tell me you've been cutting yourself Tom" Tommy said "I would be a liar if I said I haven't" Tony said "No wonder why you've been acting weird"
Tommy said "Yea" Tony asks "How long have you been doing this?" Tommy said "About a week but I didn't start cutting myself until a few days ago" Tony said "Oh"
Tommy said "Don't act like that I'm not Emo I've just been lost in myself lately" Tony asks "Is it because of Justin?" Tommy said "Damn it Tony and yea it is" Tony asks "Why?"
Tommy asks "Did you ever hear about the crash?" Tony said "Yea" Tommy said "I could've helped Justin but I didn't I left him to die it's my fault he's gone" Tony said "Don't blame yourself Tom for what happened to him"
Tommy said "But I practically killed Justin without meaning to" Tony said "No you didn't don't beat yourself up like this I don't want you to hurt yourself again"
Tommy said "Ok I promise I won't beat myself up if you can get me out of detention" Tony said "Not gonna happen Tom" Tommy said "Fine" Tony said "Alright you win I'll see what I can do"
Tommy said "Thanks man" Tony said "Your gonna own me one Tommy" Tommy said "I know I will just get my butt out of detention first" Tony said "Ok" Tommy said "Good" Tony leaves my room to go get me out of detention I hope it works too I don't feel like having detention again.
With Ms.C
Tony said "Um hi" Ms.C asks "What is it Tony?" Tony said "It's about Tommy he was just wondering if he was going to have detention after what he said earlier" Ms.C asks "Really?"
Tony said "Yea" Ms.C said "I'll think about it" Great I love it when she says that Tommy's so in trouble now Tony said "Um maybe he shouldn't have detention he hasn't been himself lately. He might take it the wrong way and he might do something he doesn't want to"
Ms.C asks "Why would he do that?" Tony said "Because…well…it started after Justin died he started acting weird and he hasn't quite been himself lately he's done something he wishes he hadn't"
Back in my room
Maybe I should go talk to her maybe I can fix what I've done
Then again maybe not it could be too late to fix it
But what if it's not too late?
Then I should do something about it
Go do it then
I get out of bed slowly get up and put a shirt on and some jeans then my sneakers I walk out of my room and head to Ms.C's classroom. So Tony won't have to get me out of trouble like I wanted him to do.
With Ms.C
Tommy said "Um Tony I think I need to settle this don't you think?" Tony said "Tommy…what are you doing here?" Tommy said "I finally decided that I shouldn't have my friends fight my own battles I should do it by myself" Tony said "Good point I'll catch you later Tommy" Tommy said "Later Tony"
Ms.C said "Well look what the mouse dragged in" Tommy said "Very funny look about what I said earlier I really didn't mean honest sometimes I tend to say stuff that I don't mean when I'm not feeling good" Ms.C said "Tony already told me that" Tommy said "I figured he did and I'm sorry about what I said before I wasn't myself when I said that stuff"
Ms.C asks "Really prove it" Tommy said "Fine" I flip my left arm over which reveals three big cuts across my arm. Two have faded and are starting to go away but the third one looks fresh still.
Tommy said "That enough proof for you" Ms.C asks "Your Emo?" Tommy said "No I'm not Emo I only did that because I blamed myself for Justin's death that's why I have the cuts on my arm"
Ms.C said "Ok I'm glad you're not Emo" Tommy said "Yea me too" Ms.C said "Ok…" Tommy said "I get it your still mad about what I said earlier I'll go I know when I'm not wanted and I probably have four hours of detention right?" Ms.C said "Just go" Tommy said "Alright"
I walk away and pull out my switchblade flick the blade out and press it against my arm until it starts to bleed and the first drop hits the ground. Then more drops start to fall hitting the ground until I fall to my knees take a deep breath and make a new cut on my arm.
Good thing I was far enough away from Ms.C so she couldn't see what I was doing and I was turned around. So it just would have looked like I fell to my knees and not cutting myself again so I put my switchblade away.
I keep watching my arm trickle out blood until it stops. I get up and go to my room cleaning the two new cuts I have and bandaging them.
Sitting on my bed wondering why I'm doing this to myself having no success on that I fall asleep but I don't hear my alarm clock go off. Still sleeping I hear a noise that might be my phone. Then again I really don't want to wake up right now.
Stooooopid phone
Wait is it my phone?
I don't know maybe opening your eyes would help
Negative to tired
Fine don't see what's making that noise
Eh….but it won't stop…make it go away
I can't
Why not?
Because you can only make something go away in your dreams
You're no fun you know that
Yes I know that
Gah!
I open my eyes fumble for my phone grab it look at it then answer it. Tommy said half asleep "…Why must you wake me from my slumber….?" Tony said "Because if you don't get up some English teacher of yours is going to eat you" Tommy said "…Eh no care and if I did then I would be awake right now but I'm not so good day"
Tony said "I'm sick of covering your ass this time you're on your own!" Tommy said "…Eh…fine…leave me be…and let me sleep…" Tony shouts "You're hopeless!"
I hang up and drop my phone get out of bed and grab a black t-shirt and a pair of black jeans along with my shoes. After putting my shirt on then my jeans grabbing a pair of socks putting them on then my shoes.
I grab my jacket and switchblade and I go to the woods so I can be alone. Once I find my usual spot I lean against the tree wondering what I'll do this time. But I just stand there wondering if Tony will come looking for me again like he did the last time I was in the woods.
Hours go by nothing happens yet I feel like I need to pull out my switchblade but I don't I just leave it in my pocket. I guess it's a good thing I don't have my phone with me. Because I can bet Tony is looking for me but what he doesn't know calling my cellphone won't help him one bit.
Back at school
Jer asks "Tony have you seen Tommy at all today?" Tony said "No I haven't I wonder where he could be why?" Jer said "I think Xana might be attacking I'm sure I'm gonna go to the factory to make sure I'll call you if he is" Tony said "Ok Jer"
Odd asks "Tony do you know where Tommy is?" Tony said "No I haven't seen him since yesterday" Odd said "Oh ok later" Tony said "Later" I wonder where Tommy could be? I hope he isn't in the woods again.
Tony leaves school and goes to the woods I hear him coming so I take off running. Hoping Tony isn't following me but if he is I keep running just in case he is. Not looking where I'm going I fall down a hill and I start to roll down it once I'm completely down the hill I hit a tree and blackness consumes me.
Tony shouts "Tommy!"
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