Hey guys sorry I disappeared on you. I lost my Internet connection at my house and have been reduced to bumming Internet time at my roommate's sister's house lol. Still there's been other things going on and I just wanted to say to those of you who are even still reading this story that I'm very, very sorry.

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Chapter 12

"Elizabeth wake up…please" Jason had never felt so terrified as he did right now at this moment as he helplessly held an unconscious Elizabeth in his arms. He had absolutely no clue what happened. One minute she was up going to the kitchen and the next she was falling towards the floor. He'd only barely reached her in time before she would have crashed onto the hard floor of his pent suite. He'd called her name, urged and begged her to wake up and so far nothing had helped. He reached into his back pocket and took out his cell phone about to place a call for an ambulance when her lashes started to flutter. He placed the cell phone to the side and used that hand to tenderly caress her face until her eyes fully opened to gaze up at him.

"Hi." Jason couldn't help it, he grinned down at her when she whispered that one word up at him. He'd never love one word more than that small one she'd just uttered. His fingers danced across her forehead to brush back a chestnut lock of hair that had fallen to cover one of her eyes. She was so beautiful, and so fragile. He'd forgotten that somehow. Over the past couple years he'd allowed her to fool him into believing that she was as strong and capable as she appeared to be. To an extent she was, but Elizabeth was the type of woman who made you ignore all her protests to the otherwise and treat her like glass.

"Hi yourself. You gave me one hell of a scare are you all right? Do I need to call the hospital?" Elizabeth smiled up at him and shook her head slightly afraid of what her body might do with too much movement. She could read just how badly she'd scared him, it was written clearly all over his handsome face. Her hand rose to trail shaking fingers along his strong, stubborn jaw. "I'm alright just feeling a little week I guess. I don't know what happened. I promise I don't have fainting spells often." She smiled weakly hoping to ease the worried tension on his brow. Apparently her words didn't comfort him in the least.

"So then maybe there's something else wrong otherwise you wouldn't have fainted. I'm going to call the for an ambulance anyway I don't think we should just over look this when something could seriously be wrong." With that he reached for his phone and pushed to dial when her small fingers closed over his and halted the process. Frustrated he looked over to her only to be confused by her laughing blue eyes. He personally didn't find anything funny about something being wrong with her health. He was about to say just that when she beat him to it.

"I know you worried Jason but I promise you nothings wrong. If it will make you feel better I'll call Kelly tomorrow and see if she can do an early check up but I promise she won't find anything wrong. I think I'm just tired and stressed over everything. It wasn't easy leaving the apartment. I worked so hard on making a home for me and Cam there and no matter how defiled I feel like it is now, there were some good memories there too. I just never expected things to end up the way they did ya know? I was supposed to be married to Lucky forever. We were supposed to raise a family, grow old together and somehow, somehow I lost all of that and I don't know how to get it back" she didn't realize she'd been crying but when she felt his fingers brush the moisture away from her cheeks she sighed.

"I'm sorry Jason, I know your going through your own crap right now and you don't need me constantly crying on you, especially after I nearly give you a heart attack. I am sorry about that though." She smiled sweetly at him though then her grin turned impish as she teased. "Nice catch by the way." She winked and her smile only brightened when his deep chuckle vibrated through her and she realized she was held securely in his arms. A light blush caressed her cheeks as she quickly tried to sit up only to fall back as a wave of dizziness set in.

"Easy I got you." And he did, in so many more ways than one. Jason understood how Elizabeth was feeling probably better than anyone else ever could. He'd had those same hopes and dreams with Sam. He'd allowed himself to let Sam in, to believe that he could have a life, a real life with her. They'd even tried for a baby but he was grateful now that their efforts hadn't been fruitful. He believed that Sam would have been a wonderful mother to his child, and that she deserved to have children of her own someday just not his, not now. Every time he looked at her now, all he could see was Ric with his hands on her and Sam eagerly accepting his kisses. He was sure Elizabeth felt the same about Maxie and Lucky. That didn't stop the love though or the hurt that their dreams were shattered. But maybe, just maybe this baby he was going to share with Elizabeth would grant them new dreams.

Gently he eased both himself and Elizabeth into a standing position with her leaning back against his chest. His hands rested on her shoulders to help keep her steady when she leaned away from him to stand up on her own. He watched her carefully for a moment, worried that any moment she might pass out again but when she stood firmly on her own two feet and turned to give him a reassuring smile he felt himself begin to slowly relax. Peaking around the corner he chuckled as he saw the mess Cameron had made with the spaghetti while the two adults had been occupied. Spaghetti sauce was all over his hands and his face as well as noodles on his shirt. He hadn't a clue what had happened around the corner and for that both Jason and Elizabeth were grateful.

Elizabeth curious at what had suddenly enthralled Jason about the living room she peaked around him to spy into the large room and gasped horrified at her sons table or in this case, coffee table manners. "Oh no Cam" she sighed as she rushed forward taking in her sons sauce covered appearance as well as the noodles on the floor and table around him. "Jason I'm so sorry. Cam you know your supposed to wait for me to cut the noodles up for you." She admonished as she came to kneel by her grinning soon. She was reaching for a napkin when Jason came into the room.

"But I eat by self. See Mommy!" he had such a proud expression on his face that Elizabeth didn't have the heart to point out that more of the spaghetti was on his shirt than in his mouth. Instead she smiled brightly at him as she rubbed the napkin on his face to wipe up as much of the sauce as she could. "I see that baby and mommy is so proud of you, but how about next time you wait till mommy cuts up the noodles and then you can eat by yourself?" at his eager nod she smiled tenderly and leaned forward to brush her lips against his forehead. She ruffled his hair before she looked around for a knife or fork then remembered she'd gone to get the silverware when she'd passed out.

As if reading her mind Jason held up a hand to halt her from rising. "I'll get it, I don't want a repeat of your last attempt." He teased before turning and heading towards the kitchen. The scene he'd just witnessed between mother and son touched something deep within Jason that he hadn't expected. He'd witnessed Carly with Michael and Morgan, even Alexis with Christina and Molly but nothing had packed such a punch as watching Elizabeth with her son. Perhaps it was because she was pregnant with his child and soon she'd be doing that same act with their child or because somehow he'd always felt like had circumstances allowed, Cam might have been his son. If he hadn't allowed pride and Sonny to get in the way of his relationship with Elizabeth and if she hadn't been so scared to love anyone but Lucky.

They had messed up so many times in the past he had to admit that he was worried they wouldn't do it again now but he couldn't help but think that this time was different. There was still Lucky and now there was a Sam too along with a whole lot of hurt, but there was also a closeness that hadn't been there before and a closeness that had never left no matter what had happened to them in the last few years. This time there was hope for a future that neither had ever dreamt of all they had to do was reach for it.