Again I just wanted to keep parts true to the book. Sorry. To Alice-CarlykinsCullen, I hope you get better soon, I've done it many of times so I know how you feel.

Just a reminder about some spellings I know I'm crap but I am British and some spellings are different

"Well I was wondering... err, well, would you go to the dance with me?"

I was shocked and yet taken aback, what happened with Jessica. "Oh... I... I'm sorry Mike, but I'm not going to be here... Emmett's taking me home for the weekend, to see my mom." wow I really amaze myself, how did I come up with that just like that. I hated to lie but this was necessary.

"Oh... well, could you not go another week?" he asked.

"I'm sorry no, it's been booked for weeks." I started to feel bad know, how long has he been trying to pick up the courage to ask me, oh wait it's all for show, he's a small town player, as Emmett called him, and I hated to lie.

"Oh okay."

"I think you should take Jess she'd love it if you asked her." I said trying to lead the conversation in a new direction.

"Jess? You think?"

"Mike you are a simpleton at times, it's so easy to tell she likes you, but don't tell her I said that or I will have to hunt you down and kill you myself." I added not wanting to get on the bad side of Jessica, but also it would mean a lot more to her if it was him asking her off his own back.

"Oh... Jess? Wow... never thought..." he muttered with a shocked expression on his face as if the thought had only just come to his mind.

"Seriously you'll have lots of fun with Jess." I stood and collected my bags off the bench.

"Right, I think I will." he turned and walked into the boys changing rooms. I sighed and began to limp to the door out of the Gym and into the corridor, Edward wasn't there, it was still early, the lesson probably hadn't finished yet.

I limped slowly down the corridor and tried to waste time. I couldn't believe that I had gotten out of the situation before, I just had to make sure that I went to visit mom or something.

All of a sudden I was picked up, I snapped my head to the side. Edward smiled down at me, had he been listening again, I thought.

"Hello," he said, his smile turning into the crooked one I loved. But there was something in his eyes that was different.

"Hi."

"How was Gym?" his eyes held that I know something you don't know look.

"fine." my smile wavered as I replied, he noticed this and smirked.

"Lets go Emmett wants to see you before he goes."

I looked down from his beautiful face and watched as the parking lot came into view. No one was out yet just us.

"How did you manage to get out of lesson early?"

"I said I had to help a cripple before she hurt herself any further... no I finished my work early so she let me go." he said messing with me, and gaining a death glare of me.

"I was doing fine."

"Course you were, even the snails were over taking you." he smiled his crooked smile as he sat me on the hood of his car. Luckily it was dry, the day had been surprisingly clear, a few dark clouds in the sky but mainly a pale grey.

I heard the faint ring of the dull bell as school finished. It took the other's minuets to get to us, they must have been using some of their vampire speed to get here faster.

"Bell's." Emmett shouted over the crowd. "Promise me you will be careful and don't leave Edward unless you have to,"

"I promise." I was pulled into a tight hug off him, "You be careful big bear."

"I will nothing will happen to me." he said as he put me back down.

"Don't worry Bella I don't see anything like that happening, he will have a good fight with a bear though." Alice said laughing her angelic laughter.

"Come on before I change my mind... Oh good one on the Mike situation," Emmett said the last part in a scowl, I knew he wanted the fight with the bear but he also didn't want to leave me, even if I was with Edward he still wanted more of us around me. I felt bad, but not too bad, because I know he had heard what I had told Alice about my dream. "we are going to see mom now... hate to think what he'd look like when I'm finished with him... talking to my little sister about a dance... no chance in hell is she going with him" he carried on saying as he wondered off to his large Jeep.

I watched them fade out of view as we drove back to the Cullen's house in the middle of no where. My mood still hadn't darkened yet with the departure of the others. I sat in the car seat and sighed with contentment.

"How are you feeling?" Edward asked looking at me.

"I feel fine, just fine." I felt my smile drop, "You told him?"

"I had to I almost broke a table, and after that he wouldn't let it drop." he smiled his crooked smiled warming my heart and I forgot all about what he had done.

+V+

We got to his house and for once I felt safe, completely safe. Even my own house with Emmett and Charlie it didn't feel this protected. I let out a sigh catching Edwards notice.

"What's wrong?" he asked, concerned about something.

"Nothing, I just realised something."

"Oh?" he was curious now.

"Your going to laugh but... I actually feel safe here, I mean really safe." I said letting the smile climb onto my face.

"Well I'm glad." his crooked smile warming his face.

In a split second he was opening my door and pulling me out.

"Can I listen to you play?" I asked looping my arms around his neck. As he carried me to the house.

"Sure."

+V+

I had made him play many songs that night but I begged him to play the lullaby one again. I love it so much, the sounds that were made as he ran his fingers over the keys were so incredible that nothing could compare to its beauty, other then Edward himself.

"I take it as you really like this one?" He asked watching my face as I smiled and nodded unable to speak, my eyes closed and I sighed. "This is your lullaby."

My eyes snapped open and I was staring straight into his. "What?"

"I wrote this when I first met you, I was inspired by you." he said softly looking deep into my eyes, some times when he did this I was so sure that he was looking at my soul, reading it and learning what I am.

"I... inspired you?" I whispered, this had shocked me, I knew I heard him say it before, but I was so tired that I thought I had made it up, but know hearing it from his mouth as he looked at me and I was wide awake was something completely different. I was shocked yet happy, confused yet astounded. How could something so beautiful be inspired by me, a plain and ordinary girl.

"Yes, the first time I saw you I was amazed, hours later when school had finished I was listening to some classical music when all of a sudden I could hear what it would sound like, the notes that would be right enough to compare, I was thinking of you when I composed it." his eyes never left me, letting me know he was telling the truth, "When I first saw you sleeping I felt I had to make it peaceful to help you, you sleep very restlessly."

I couldn't reply, I just sat there for seconds, minuets even stunned at what he was saying. He was thinking about me, about me. He composed a song whilst thinking about me. What could I say?

"I'm pleased you like it." he said turning away from me.

I still couldn't find my voice but I had to show him that I was gratified to no end. I lent on his arm and closed my eyes, "Thank you," I whispered when I did finally find my voice, "I feel so insignificant."

The music flowed to a soft ending and I was amazed yet again at how peaceful it was, how it calmed me and sang it's tranquil melody.

I felt a cool finger on my cheek and I opened my eyes, they were watering lightly. I was crying and he was wiping them away with his fingers.

"And so the lion fell in love with the lamb." he said tenderly. I couldn't begin to explain how I felt when he said this, was it that he was declaring his love for me, or was he just saying something quoted in some book? No the look in his eye was telling me the first thought was right, but how could that be. I was thrilled at the word.

"What a stupid lamb." I said silently.

"What a sick, masochistic lion." he replied sensitively. The back of his cool finger ran down my cheek. He raised his free hand and placed it gently on the side of my neck. My blood started to race, I wanted it to slow, I didn't want to make him uncomfortable with the thudding of my pules in my veins. And I was sure he could hear it.

"I have said it before but, the blush on your cheeks is lovely." he murmured. His hand moved up and he held my face. "I wish you could feel the... complexity... the confusion... I feel. That you could understand.

I looked at him letting him read my eyes, letting all the love I held for him to show in them so he could see it and not make me tell him. I was a coward, I didn't want the hurt when he told me he only loved me as a friend, so I will just show it and let him make what he wants of it.

"I've told you the hunger, the thirst... that, deplorable creature that I am, I feel for you, but..." his smooth fingers touched my lips and I shivered at the closeness of his touch. "There are other hungers. Hungers I don't even understand, that are foreign to me."

"I understand that."

"I'm not used to feeling so human. Is it always like this?"

"For me... No, never. Never before this."

"Like when Mike asked you to the dance, it took every inch of self control to stay in my seat, Emmett noticed what I was doing, he held me down asking me what I heard, once I told him he was in the same state, I had to tell him that it would never happen, even though I still had that doubt that just maybe you'd say yes to him... for the whole lesson I was anxious to get to you... when I heard your response I couldn't tell if you truly meant it or were you just doing it for your friends sake."

"You were jealous?" I asked shocked.

"Yes." His thumbs brushed my cheeks delicately, "I don't know how to be close to you... I don't know if I can... I keep trying, but I don't want to hurt you."

I leant into his hands closing my eyes. "This is enough." and with that he let go of my face and pulled me onto him, my cheek pressed on his stone chest, I could hear his breathing and nothing else. He put his arm around me and pressed his face against my hair. "Your better at this then you give yourself credit for." I noted.

"I do have human instincts, buried deep inside, but they are they."

We stayed like that for a bit before he moved, it was a small movement, like hesitation. I pulled away and looked at him. His face was hard to read, but there was something there that I just couldn't make out. His eyes on me and his hands on my waist from where I had pulled back.

"There's something I would like to try." he said looking me in the eye once more. He cupped my face again and I couldn't move, it was like in the meadow, when he moved close to me, so close we almost kissed, but sadly interrupted, even though I felt that he was doing it to see if he could be close to me in that way, this proved it, all of them times he touched me, held me, was close to me was helping him desensitize, I was overjoyed that he had been doing this, even if it had taken me forever to work out.

His eyes locked on mine, the burning passion in them sent my heart wild, I needed to stay calm before something goes wrong.

So softly his lips touched my top one, only a slightest touch but enough to melt my insides, and I caved, my eyes closed and I wrapped my arms around his neck knotting my fingers in his bronze hair and deepening the kiss, breathing in his wonderful scent. As soon as I did, I instantly thought I had pushed him to far.

His hands held my face and he still didn't move away, maybe I was wrong. He pulled me closer as his lips moved against mine, then all to soon he broke away sharply. I was happy that it wasn't only my breathing that was heavy, he was as well. He looked into my eyes and I could see the fresh wave of excitement slowly fading in them.

I knew that at that point that had been to much for him, but I loved every second of it. As our breathing slowed he managed to unlock his fingers from around my face only to wrap them around my waist and pull me to him.

"I'm sorry." he said with such sincerity.

"What for?"

"Would you understand if I said I was only human." he asked, he was on about pulling away, so he did mean it but it was just getting to be too much. I was relieved, he dose like me in that way.

"I'm sorry for pushing you, well actually no I'm not truly sorry." I admitted winning a chuckle of him.

"I think it's time to feed the human." he said softly, something cold touched my head and I wanted to turn and see but I thought otherwise, it must have been his lips and that thought made me weak at the knees.

He pulled me into his arms and held me close as he ran at his speed to the kitchen. He stopped and placed me down on one of the stools, his face was confused and he blinked looking around the room.

"I'll do it." I said knowing that he had no clue as to how to cook. I made do with toast, saying I wasn't that hungry when he protested and made a fuss over that wasn't enough for me.

"So..." he said after few moments of silence.

"So, what?" I prompted.

"When are you going to introduce me to Charlie?" he was looking right at me now, I stopped chowing the bit I was eating and swallowed hard. What was he on about?

"He already knows you." I said back confused.

"As you boyfriend, I mean."

I stared at him with suspicion. "Why?"

"Isn't that customary?" he asked innocently.

"I don't know." I admitted. My dating history gave me few reference points to work with. Not that any normal rules of dating applied here. "That's not necessary you know. I don't expect you to... I mean, you don't have to pretend for me."

His smile was patient. "I'm not pretending."

I bit my lip and looked at the bit of toast left on the plate.

"Are you going to tell Charlie I'm your boyfriend or not?" he demanded with his crooked smile evident in his voice.

"Is that what you are?" I asked not looking at him. He reached across the table and lifted my chin with a cold, gentle finger.

"Yes... There will have to be an explanation as to why I am with you all the time. I don't want chief Swan to put a restraining order on me."

"Will you be?" I asked suddenly anxious, "will you really be with me all the time?"

"As long as you want me." he assured me.

"I'll always want you," I warned him. "Forever."

He walked slowly around the table, and , pausing a few feet away, he reached out to touch his fingertips to my cheek. His face calm and relaxed. He smiled as he let his fingers trace the line of my jaw and under my chin before dropping his hand.

"Why don't I show you where you will be staying, it's quite late." he said letting his face light up.

I stood and let him lead me up the stairs to his room, this confused me, they had got me a bed in Carlisle's and Esme's room, unless they moved it. He opened the door and my jaw dropped.

There stood in the centre of his room was a large four poster bed, soft gold coloured netting hung from the top of the four posts creating a golden canopy above the bed, the frame was black, gold vines twisted their way up and around it. It was remarkable.

"What the hell is that?" I asked completely chocked, why was there an enormous bed in the middle of his room, when he didn't sleep.

"That is a bed, you sleep on it." he said chuckling at me as I gaped at it.

"Why have you got a second bed when the one Esme got was perfectly fine?"

"Well it kind of broke." he said scratching the back of his head, something I never seen him do.

"How?"

"Well we were moving it when I got a bit angry." he admitted looking sheepish at me. I couldn't help keep the smile from my face.

"Angry?" I asked trying not to laugh.

"Alice was teasing me and then she saw something and I got a bit angry." he looked at me, oh God them eyes, I lost all train of thought, he was doing this to me.

"Stop it." I said tearing my eyes away from his.

"What?" his face anxious as he pulled my face up.

"Dazzling me." I blurted out without thinking.

"I dazzle you?"

"Frequently." I admitted. "So what about this bed?"

"Well Alice and Rose helped me, I had no idea what I was looking for."

"This is for me?" I asked even more shocked, I hated presents.

"Well dose anyone else here sleep?" he asked raising an eyebrow and smiled his crooked smile.

I was speechless, I couldn't even fight back, he had learnt quickly how to get his was by dazzling me.

"Why don't you have a shower and get ready for bed." he said smiling.

+V+

I did as he said I had a shower and took as little time as I could, but I couldn't rush the part I let my body relax and loosen up. Once I was dry and dressed I made my way out the bathroom. I limped across the landing and caught my foot wrong, my ankle twinged painfully and I stumbled into something hard. I looked up Edward was holding me securely in his arms.

"Are you all right?"

"Yeah, just caught my ankle a bit."

He lifted me gently in his arms and carried me to the bed, sitting down with me still in his arms, he sat me on his lap and hummed my lullaby. Cradling me like a baby I was soon feeling tired but I still had a few questions for him.

"Mmmmmmm..." he breathed.

"It seems to have gotten easier for you... to be close to me."

"Does it seem that way to you?" he murmured, his nose gliding to the corner of my jaw. I felt his hand, lighter then a moth's wing, brush my damp hair back, so that his lips could touch the hollow beneath my ear.

"Much, much easier. I was wondering.."I began again, but his fingers were slowly tracing down my neck and across my collarbone, I lost all train of thought at this point.

"Yes?" he breathed across my ear,

"Why is that..." I whispered shakily.

"Practice and mind over matter." I felt his cool breath on my neck.

I pulled back sharply, he froze, not one part of him moved, he even stopped breathing. Gradually after a few seconds he relaxed and looked puzzled at me.

"Did I do something wrong?"

"No... the opposite, your driving me crazy," I explained.

He considered that briefly, and when he spoke he sounded proud, "Really?" a grin spread across his face. "You see I have been building up to have the courage to tell you and each time I came near you when you first came, was like a blast at me. Your scent was so strong it took all I had to act normal... I was quiet because I wasn't breathing most of the time."

This stunned me.

"As time went on it didn't change, but my feelings for you came more and more profound that I couldn't and didn't want to stay away from you. I thought that the more time I spent with you the less your scent would bother me, it was hard, harder then I ever thought not knowing if you liked me a small fraction of how I liked you back, and not being able to read your mind made me more anxious to know." he picked up one of my hands and held it to his face.

I was once again speechless, how could what he was saying be true? And about me. It just didn't seem real.

"I would... I could never..." I had never seen him struggle for words before... it was so human. "I swear I could never hurt you." he said with a serious face. After a moment he smiled.

"You seem more... optimistic then usual." I observed, "I haven't seen you this happy before."

"Isn't it meant to be like this?" He smiled. "The glory of first love and all that."

"I think so?" I was jumping in side when he said that, did he love me?

"You say it like you don't know, am I not your first love?" he asked eyeing me.

"You are the only person I felt and have ever felt for, I have never been in this situation before so I wouldn't know."

"Really?" It was his turn to be shocked.

"Never."

"Not even at home with your mother?" he asked very confused at something.

"No." I looked down, "I never dated, no one caught my interest and I no one else's."

"That is hard to believe." he mumbled but before I could retaught he cut me up "Especially when I have to hear Newton's thought's, and every other male in or school that sees you... I have been alone for almost ninety years or so, walking around mine and your kind and never once finding what I was secretly seeking, all the time thinking I was complete with myself... all because you weren't alive yet."

"That hardly seems fair." I stated quietly.

"No, you only have to risk your life every minuet you spend with me." he cradled me closer to his body and with his free hand brushed my hair from my face looking me in the eyes. A small smile on his lips. "Would you like me to sing you to sleep?"

"I'm not tired yet." and the traitor yawn forced it's way out, I was like a little child that was trying to stay up later then what it's parents had said.

"Really." he chuckled as he shifted around me, I felt the mattress of the bed under one side of me and the thick covers being pulled over me. I was tired no matter how much I tried to tell myself otherwise. Then Edwards cool arm was around me, under the covers, his lips at my ear. "Sleep, dream happy dreams." he breathed making my eyes slide closed, "You have a very floral smell, like lavender... or freesia... it's mouthwatering."

"Yeah it's an off day when I don't get somebody telling me how edible I smell." I forced myself to say.

He chuckled and then sighed, he began to hum my lullaby in my ear; he had the voice of an archangel. I slowly drifted to sleep in his cool arms, perfectly content.