Chapter 12: Realizations
I couldn't sleep the rest of the night. I just laid there, listening to the sound of the girls' heart monitors and the commotion happening outside our room. Nurses were running around and doctors were talking to patients. I tried my best to concentrate on all of their actions. I even stared out the window. The only view I had was of the parking lot. It was pretty empty, but I did notice a nice sliver Volvo parked. My distractions were useless because in the end, all my thoughts were back to Edward. I felt really bad for sending him away. God only knows how much I wished he would have put up a bigger fight to stay with me. But I'm thankful he listened to me. I'm glad he understood how much I needed him to leave. It is all for the best.
I just couldn't get his face out of my mind though. He held so much pain in his eyes when I forcibly told him to leave my room. I wonder what he was truly thinking at this moment. I wonder what he truly thinks about me. I mean: Did he really like me? I know I was his first kiss and that should mean something. But what if it didn't? What if he just saw me as some charity case?
These thoughts were killing me and I'm thankful to see that Alice was stirring awake.
She looked at me and smiled. I smiled back. Then she looked around the room. Confusion spread her face.
"Bella, where's Edward? He usually leaves around 7:00am" Alice asked
That brought the smile off my face. I looked down at the floor.
"I told him to leave last night" I whispered. Tears were threatening to pool out my eyes
"Why would you do that?" she asked
"I don't want to put him or his brothers in any danger Alice. I know what HE meant when he told me to 'cut him loose or I will'. He means to hurt Edward if he continues to see me"
"Did you explain that to him?" Alice asked questionably
"Yeah, I told him it wasn't safe for him to be around me" I looked at her confused
"So…he knows you wanted him to leave for his safety?" she cocked her eyebrow at me
"Y-Yes, I dunno I think. What does that have to do with anything?" I stared back at her
"No, just curious is all" she laughed
"Alice. What are you talking about?" I was starting to get angry. Clearly she's hiding something
"Oh Bell relax wont cha? I'm just glad he knows you broke up with him for safety reasons," she exclaimed chipper
"Why is that a good thing?" I asked annoyed. What on earth is going on in that pixie's head?
"Well, he might have left for good thinking you didn't like him or something. Instead, you told him it was for his own safety. MEANING…he's not really going to leave!!!!!" She yelped.
"How did you come up with that Alice? Where is that logic coming from?" I had a puzzled look on my face
"B-Bella! Come on! I know you're not that dense!" She took a deep breath. "If you told him you didn't like him, then he would have easily left you alone for good. Thinking you didn't return the feeling he felt for you. Which you obliviously did, might I add. But, since you're doing this for his and his family's safety, he's going to know that you like him and want what's best for him." She explained that little rant to me like she was talking to a child
"But Alice. I want him to leave for good" I told her
"No you don't! Liar! I know for a fact that you don't really want him to really leave you alone." She exclaimed triumphantly
"That might be true, but you're neglecting one fact. You know? The reason why I'm doing this. HIM!" I yelled
"Yeh, I get that Bella! Obliviously. I mean, I'm in the bed right next to you, remember?" She motioned her hands up and down her body were she got shot. "I know what He's capable of. And so does Edward. If he's willing to put himself through that, then don't stop him. He's a big boy and can take care of himself. AND…he has two really hot brothers there to help him along the way!"
"I don't want anything bad to happen. You're not going to change my mind on the situation so drop it please" I begged her
"I'll drop it all right! But you're the one that's going to have to remember that when he has his hands on you tonight for our session." She wiggled her eyebrows at me
"Oh I forgot about that. We are going to have to ask Carlisle to get us different trainers."
"Oh No. WE. Are. NOT! I really like my partner!" She complained.
"I know but wh-"
"Enough. You heard what Carlisle said yesterday. There is going to be more security around the hospital. We'll just have make sure someone is outside our door and window when we're with the boys."Alice suggested
"I don't know Alice. It all can't be that simple"
"But it is my dear sister. You're the one making things too hard" She laughed
"I wish I could look at life like that" I exclaimed
"I know. It's a gift!!" She sounded really bubbly
"What are you girls talking about?" Rose awoke from sleep
"Oh nothing. Bella broke up with Edward, but that won't last long." She winked at me. "And we are going to ask for more security when we are doing our sessions with the boys"
"Sounds good to me. I really can't wait to see Emmett again. I mean, did you see those arms on him. Hmm, and I'm not even going to talk about his ass…yum" Rose said with an added lick on her lips.
"Okay enough of that." I rolled my eyes. "Alice I need you to give me Governor Goodman's number. I promised Jake I would send him our new address."
"Yep! One sec" She went to her dower and got the number out.
Since all three of us were kind of far away from one another, we were left with a bit of a predicament. How was she going to transport me the paper when she's on the other end of the room?
"Totally got your back Bella" She got the book inside the dower and stuffed the phone number in the book. She threw it at me and it landed on the end of my bed. I grabbed the book and got the paper with the phone number out.
"Thank Alice, you're a genius"
"Oh yeah. Real geniuses I have here with me. Tell me….why didn't you just yell the number out to her?" Rose stated
We all looked at each other and through our heads back in a fit of laughter. We didn't even consider that option. My side hurt from laughing so much. Once we all stopped I grabbed the phone and dialed the number
"Hello?" a female's voice filled the receiver
"Yes, hello. My name is Isabella Swan and I was wondering if I could speak with Governor Goodman?" I asked. Even though it feels weird saying my whole name. I never really liked it too much
"Isabella Swan. Why does that name sound familiar? Oh right! You part of the three girls that got shot about a month ago?" she asked
Great question! I sarcastically thought to myself
"Yes that was me" I pinched the bridge between my noise and eyes. I guess I got that stress habit from Edward...
"Sorry, I didn't mean to upset you. It's just, Elijah said that if any of you girls called that I'm suppose to put you on the line straight to him. You know, not leave you on hold for too long" she explained
"Yes, I understand." I told her. Rolling my eyes at Rose and Alice who were watching me.
"Okay, here he is" she hung up the phone
"Isabella is that you?" a big man's voice boomed in the phone
"Bella please. And yes it's me"
"Of course Bella. What do I owe this great honor?" he asked
"Well, I was wondering if you found a house for me and girls yet?" I wasn't sure if this is working right or not. Maybe he forgot about his promises
"Oh yes I have young lady! I have the address right here if you want it. I was going to surprise you and the girls today actually. You caught me a litter early here." He laughed
"Oh, I'm sorry"
"No need to be dear. Actually, you are saving me a trip you know" He chortled.
He gave me the address. We were going to live in the town of Forks. Really close to Forks High.
"Thank you Governor. I really appreciate all you help" I really do. This is really nice of him
"No worries. I'm glad I can help you girls during this ruff time in your lives. But I don't need to tell you that all I can take of is the house and electricity payments. My office is small and we could only do so much. So, I afraid you three are going to need to get jobs as soon as you can to make utility payments"
"Of course. We'll look into it as soon as we leave here" I told him
"Yes and that's going to be soon from what Dr. Cullen has told me." Governor Goodman explained
"I hope so. Well thank you again and we'll see you soon" I bid farewell to him
"Yes. I'll see you girls soon. And be careful now" he hung up the phone.
"Well," I looked at the girls. "Looks like we have a house" I cheered
We all started jumping up and down our bed. Cheering and yelling to one another. That is probably the best news we all had in a long time.
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We spent most of the day talking about what we wanted to do to our new house. This is the first place other than the orphanage that we could call home. Alice and Rose argued on what color they wanted to paint the living room. Next thing we knew, nurses came into our room to change us for our sessions
Once we were wheeled into the room my heart started pounding out my chest. I saw Edward there with his brothers. They weren't laughing like they did last time I saw them and that made me sad.
Edward approached me.
"We should get started." With that he grabbed my wheelchair and led us to the end of the room
I looked back at the girls and they exchanged hugs with their guys. Emmett actually planted a kiss on Rose's cheek. Jasper brought Alice a signal flower and took her to the other end of the room as well.
"So how was your day?" I looked up at Edward. He didn't even make eye contact with me.
"Fine."
"Good. Now I want you to try and get up on your own, okay?"
I motioned to get up. I did a great job until I stood to walk away from the chair and I slipped almost hitting the ground. He grabbed me in time.
Our bodies were really close. I could feel the electricity radiating off him. I couldn't help the shiver that ran up my spine. I noticed that he held on me for one too many seconds. Reluctantly, he let me go and I stood between the railings.
"How was your day?" I asked him
"Not too great. My back has been killing me all day" Edward answered
"What's wrong with your back?"
"Nothing really. It always hurts whenever I sleep in my car" Edward told me nonchalantly
"Why were you sleeping in your car?" I didn't understand. Doesn't he have a bed at home?
"Aren't you full of questions today." He chucked to himself. "I didn't want to leave you this morning, so I slept in my car right in front of your window. The view wasn't too good, but I could see enough; you know, just in case someone else tried to get in there."
He stayed. Even though I told him to leave he didn't go home. Awe…
"Do you drive a sliver Volvo?" I asked, remember the one I saw earlier
"Yes I do. Did you see it?" He asked
"Yeah. I was looking for some…distractions this morning. So, I looked out my window"
"Why didn't you just sleep Bella? It was really early in the morning." He looked confused
"I couldn't sleep" I whispered
"Why?"
Oh he just had to ask
"I felt really bad for what happened between me and you" I told him without looking up toward him
"I know what you mean. I felt really bad about it too" he confessed. I didn't notice how close we where until that moment. My back was leaning on his chest as we walked around the room. Ignoring the spots were the boys and girls were of course.
"I'm sorry if I made you feel bad" I told him
"Does that mean I'm out of the dog house?" he laughed
I laughed too.
When we took a few more steps I spoke up again.
"I still don't think it's a good idea Edward." I looked at the floor
"Does it make any difference if I told you that I insist on me staying with you?" He grabbed me and turned me around to look at him
"No."
He used his index finger to pull my chin up, so I could look in his eyes.
"Bella. I'm not leaving. If you say no, all it means is that I'm going to be sleeping in my car. It doesn't mean I'm going to stay away." He had such determination in his eyes. "And trust me; my chair in your room is a lot more comfortable then my car…plus I like the view from inside" He whispered in my ear.
"Ed-Edward I don't know what to do" I whispered back
"Let me stay with you and we'll work this out together" He begged
"Okay Edward. But please be careful where ever you go. I have a feeling this isn't the last threat HE is going to give."
"Trust me Bella. I can take care of myself." He pulled me in for a hug
I couldn't help but put my arms around his neck to pull him closer. I really missed him today. I missed his phone calls or his lunch breaks with me and the girls. I pulled away just enough so I could kiss him on the lips.
The kiss started off slow, but soon we deepened it. This feeling is incredible. I love kissing Edward. Just the way our lips moved in sync with one another. The way his mouth felt against mine. I wanted him to feel how sorry I really was without using words. I wanted him to know how much he means to me. And he seemed to be conveying the same feelings back to me. I felt his tongue graze the inside of my bottom lip and I was about to grant him access to my mouth when
"Hm, cough cough" Emmett faked clearing his throat
"Yes Emmett…" Edward hissed at his brother
"Sorry to interrupt the, um, make out session, but it's getting late" Emmett winked at me. I blushed
"I know you two didn't notice the time, but we have to get to bed" Alice informed
"Oh wait. Do any of you boys have a cell phone with the internet?" I asked. I desperately need some distraction from the cloches of Emmett and Alice
"Yeh, I do. Why?" Edward handed me his Iphone. Wow, expensive phone
"I need to e-mail our new address to Jacob. Governor Goodman told us where we're going to live after we leave the hospital." I explained while e-mailing Jake
"Who's Jacob?" Emmett asked
"Bella's boy-friend" Rose informed
"Oh, Bella I thought you were single" Emmett looked at me confused
I heard Edward clench his jaw behind me. I had to put him at ease…again
"I am. Jacob is my best friend from growing up. He's in the army right now and just got his time off release approved. He wants to spend his time with me and the girls. Okay Edward, here's your phone. Thanks" I handed him back his phone and kissed him on the cheek.
"You're welcome" He smiled down at me.
"Alright guys, we have to get home. I can smell mom's cooking from here!" Emmett rubbed his muscular tummy. "See ya later Rose" He gave Rose a chaste kiss on the lips
"Bye Alice, I'll see you tomorrow" Jasper kissed Alice on the cheek. I heard her giggle against his lips
"I'll see you later tonight Bella" Edward kissed my lips one more time before setting me down on my wheelchair.
We watched our boys leave the room before we left for our room. I had a really great day. Me and the girls got a house, the therapy session went painless, and I made up with Edward.
The only thing that could go wrong is getting another phone call from HIM. I took a deep breath as I approached our room.
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