Chapter 12
Tobias POV
Tris does not lift her head. She does not meet my eyes. She just buries her face deeper into the pillow.
"I'll, just, um, go.." Christina says awkwardly, walking out of her apartment.
"Tris," I say. She does not move.
"Tris," I say, more sternly this time. No response.
"Tris!" I say. I do not know how best to comfort a girl. But this time she looks up. Her eyes are red, her face blotchy.
"Tris, I had nothing to do with that! I swear! Please, Tris," I look at her hopefully.
"I know, I just, want to be alone," she says.
"But Tris, you aren't alone. You have to understand that. We're a couple now, and we need to get through this together."
"I know, I'm just, new to this, OK?"
"I know," I say, "I know it's hard, but we have to do this together, or-"
"Or what, Tobias? Or we're breaking up? Things take time to adjust, OK!"
"I didn't mean it like that," I say softly, "I"m sorry."
Tris cuddles into the bed again, and sobs rack the pillow. I lay down next to her, try to comfort her. But I do not coddle her.
Tris POV
I'm being weak. I'm stronger than this. Am I? Can I, just once, break? But I am dauntless now. I refuse to be coddled; I refuse to be weak. I wipe the tears from my eyes and sit up.
"I'm sorry," I say, meeting his eyes.
"You have nothing to be sorry for," Tobias says firmly. He isn't coddling me; good; I didn't expect him to. If he had, I would be disappointed.
"Let's go... Christina probably wants her apartment back," I say. He smiles slightly; so slightly, I might be mistaken. He takes my hand and we walk out, finding our way back to our apartment. When we get there, I lay on the bed, spread out like an angel. I close my eyes. Not to sleep, but to think. Tobias walks over. I can't see him, but I can hear him.
" 'e taking up the whole bed."
"Too bad," I say.
"I'll give you one more chance," he says. I do not budge.
"Fine, you asked for it," he pushes me to the side and holds me tight, then picks me up and swings me.
"TOBIAS EATON! PUT ME DOWN!" I scream.
"Now, now," Tobias says, "No need to get angry." He smiles.
"Ugh!" I sigh plopping down on the bed. Tobias slides in next to me, but I'm facing the other way. He puts a hand on my waist. I sigh again.
"What's wrong now?" he asks me.
"Nothing. I'm just trying to think, and failing because of all your interruptions," I say, trying to get him to go away. It does not work.
"Too bad," he says.
"Ha-ha," I say, mimicking a laugh.
"C'mere," he says. I don't want to; but I do want to. Oh, I want to. I sigh, rolling over to face him. I stare into his eyes, oh those deep eyes. Hiding layers of secrets; but not from me. We stare at each other, and I wait to let him break the silence.
"You don't have to worry," he says. I lean into his chest and close my eyes. He hugs me tighter, and we stay that way for a while. I eventually drift off, into a long, dreamless sleep.
I wake up with Tobias's arms around me, but his grip is looser. I squirm around, trying to escape. Tobias jars, looking startled.
"Hey," he says.
"I'm tired. Bye-bye!" I say, squirming back into his chest.
"No! Wake up, you've had enough sleep," he says. Suddenly, I don't feel so well. I spurt of from the bed and run to the bathroom. I manage to hold it back, but I stay in the bathroom for some minutes. When I walk out, Tobias waits outside the door.
"You okay?" he asks. I nod weakly, then walk back over to the bed and lay down. Tobias lays next to me, like he usually does when I'm sick. He hugs me tightly, and I try to hug him back, but I am weak. Oh, so weak. He pulls back, just far enough for our lips to find each other. Then we are lost; lost in each other.
A/N:
Roses are red
Violets are blue
faces like yours
belong in the zoo
dont worry now
I'll be there too
not in a cage
but laughing at you
unless you review
then youll be laughing, too
