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She's A Beautiful Disaster.
Never Dies
The first morning light beamed into the room, where still she slept. She slept unknowing of the pain and suffering she was putting her best friends, children and lover through. Even though this was not her fault, still the tower was cold, still she lay unmoving, still tears were shed over her rigid body and still the love for her never dies. The sunbeams danced around the room, a silent room, the only noise was a faint beeping in the very most background, the life support machine, as if it was taunting the titans, it didn't speed up, it didn't slow down, it didn't stop, it didn't get any louder or any quieter, it stayed the same, beeping every few seconds or so at it's own pace. Just like Starfire, nothing had changed; it had been months now…still nothing. But the Titan's love for her never dies.
Robin sat in silence, holding her hand, waiting for that miracle to happen, but still he waited. Sometimes he swore he heard her whisper his name in her cold sleep, or sometimes, just ever so slightly squeeze his fingers. A sign to say that she will be okay she will get through this. Everytime he told the others, he was given the same talk about he was tired, frustrated and his mind is so clouded by Starfire that he had imagined Starfire to do those things, because he wanted her to. Today was one of those days where he is just positive that carried through the air of the hospitol wing, was Starfire's sweet voice whispering his name.
"Starfire?" he said shaking her gently as he heard her voice whisper his name again. Nothing.
"I know that I heard you, wake up Star please!" he was almost begging, he didn't realise it but he began to shake her harder.
"Wake Up! Why won't you wake up?" he said, the anger levels inside of him rising. He didn't want to get angry, but it was frustrating to him that she just lay there, and there was nothing he could do.
Soon his anger clouded him; he began to shake her violently. Some wires from the machines were beginning to pop off from her fragile skin as he shook her. Still begging her to wake up. Almost blaming her for not waking from her distant slumber. He didn't mean any of that to happen, but he couldn't help but feel angry. He was at the brink of accusing Starfire for not waking up, even though he knew, this wasn't Starfire's fault. But he missed her, he missed her badly enough to do anything to get a little tiny change in the way she has been the past months.
His frustration left him when he saw how hard was actually shaking her, her arms were out at odd angles and her beautiful hair was now knotted and messed up behind her stunning face. He lay her down put her arms by her sides then sat her up brushed her crimson hair back to perfection before carefully laying her down again. What made him cry was the small frown upon her lips, as if she knew what he just did, as if she knew he just rudely shook her, and that got to his heart. He knew that if her eyes were open he would see confusion in the green, confusion about why would he do such a thing to her. Not a flicker of anger though, she would not be angry at his actions, just confused at why he would do that. And this was the thought that brought the Boy-Wonder to tears once again.
She didn't know why, but for some reason she seemed at little bit more awake but still her body slept on. Her mind awoken.
Bright purple eyes watched this happen from though the keyhole. The owner of the eyes shook their heads before entering the room and patting Robin on the back. Robin saw the grey skin, purple eyes and purple hair but was shocked that was infact Alec who stood over him with sympathetic eyes not Raven. He took after Raven a lot more than people thought. If Robin did not look at the person properly then he would have been sure that it was Raven comforting him not Alec.
"I saw what you did, I do not blame you for it though. My mom says that she wants you in the main room now. I will stay and watch Starfire, don't worry. Please go. I shall not tell a soul about your little mistake back then, unless you want me to." He said while looking deep into Robin's mask, as if he could see through the material to his watery blue eyes. That was all Alec said, that was all he needed to say. Robin nodded his head and kissed Starfire briefly before standing up and leaving the room. Alec smiled at Robin, his eyes were a warm violet, his skin a calm grey most of all his voice, strong, firm yet caring and very persuasive. Robin thought to himself 'that kid will go far'.
Pacing around the sofa, her feet softly hitting the floor each time. Her mind in a muddle, one of her children was persuading a broken man to leave the side of his death threatened wife, the other making herbal tea by the bucket load, she was drinking enough to flood the tower, her lover sat on the sofa she was pacing around trying to get her to calm down.
"Rae…Rae…Rae…Rae…Raven!" Beastboy said, his voice getting a little louder each time, as she just ignored his calls, kept pacing and kept drinking the herbal tea Hayley was making her. When he shouted her full name, she stopped, put the cup down and turned sharply to look into his face. Her nose millimetres away from his own.
"What?" she hissed through her teeth, her eyes glaring into his. He was slightly scared at Raven when she was so frustrated, it scared him. He gave her a weak smile and planted a short but loving kiss on her lips. She suddenly fell from her feet into his open lap. When they broke apart Beastboy noticed all anger, and frustration had left her eyes. He smiled and held her close.
"Stop worrying. We have to tell Robin this, no matter how hard it might be. And maybe you should lay off the herbal tea. If you drink much more you will become a herb!"
"Okay you're right we need to tell Robin…"
"Oh yeh, I'm right! I'm right!"
"But…I will not turn into a herb if I drink more herbal tea, it's impossible"
"Good, I don't think you would look as good as a herb, deffinatly not as pretty" he said while flashing her his biggest grin. She smiled but shook her head in distain.
"Pass me my tea please." She said while hugging him a little tighter, and snuggling into his neck. A sudden wave of his aftershave filled her nostrils, it was a pleasant smell, so she snuggled deeper into his neck and took a small sniff then smiled. Smiled at the nice smell, but she mostly smiled at how stupid she felt for sniffing him. Beastboy was sure that Raven just sniffed him but he said nothing, he just held her a little closer and reached over to where her steaming hot mug of herbal tea was placed. Raven slid off his knee but sat very close to him, and waited for Robin to enter the main room. Every few moments she took another sip of her tea.
Alec was attaching the few wires Robin had dislodged in his attempt to wake Starfire from her coma. A small pitter-patter of feet came towards him. He turned to see no one; he narrowed his eyes and put his superb ears to listen for any sound. Someone breathed from behind him; he spun quickly on the spot to find Kim standing behind him, with a large innocent grin on her face. He opened his eyes fully from behind his sweeping indigo hair to study her appearance. Wearing some simple dark jeans and a black and red stripy turtleneck jumper, she looked stunning. Her face was sweet and angelic, she took after her mother but also the hint of Robin was clear in her facial features. Her lips were in a large grin but her eyes were sad. They missed their twinkle; he knew that the twinkle would not return until Starfire opened her eyes.
"What are you staring at? Do I have something on my face?" she said, for Alec had been peering at her for quite a while now and her cheeks were flushing pink. Alec shook his head and attached the last wire before sitting down.
"There is only one chair, would you be a gentleman and let the lady have the seat?" she laughed playfully, Alec smiled, raised his eyebrows and pulled her down onto his lap.
"Nope, I got the chair first"
Soon enough the two children were laughing.
Blackness is all she could see, but laughter filled the air around her. She tried her hardest to move but couldn't she couldn't even smile at the joy.
"Robin, sit" Raven sternly said, but still she looked at him with caring eyes, Beastboy stood up and offered Robin his seat. He chose to ignore this gesture from Beastboy, as he just sat down as far away as possible.
"Robin, we can't hold on much longer." Raven sighed.
"I will not let Starfire go. I heard her call my name again this morning…twice! Please Raven!"
"She has made no improvements Robin, she has stayed the same, I don't want to do this Robin, I have to do this"
"You don't have to do anything of the sort! You have to believe that Star will recover!"
"I gave up believing in things I knew wouldn't come true. Your trying to wish upon a star that isn't there!"
"My star is there Raven, my star is Starfire lying in that bed fighting for her life. I don't have to listen to this. Im going back to her." he sneered before getting up and walking briskly out of the room.
"He is falling, and falling hard," she muttered before leaving for her room. Beastboy was left alone, so he went into the kitchen to keep Hayley company and help her to wash the dishes.
Robin barged though the door, to find Kim and Alec in fits of giggles. This was not the best time to anger Robin, and the children laughing did indeed anger him.
"Have you two forgotten about the situation we are in here? I have you both lost your minds? Laughing and playing will not help Starfire…" he began but Kim narrowed her eyes at her father and snapped back at him.
"Neither does taking your anger out on every one else and constantly being moody and staying by her side 24-7 and totally obsessing over her. Raven was more than her best friend and you won't even let Raven have a few moments alone with mom…your just being selfish. This has affected the rest of us you know? We all love her!" she shouted, Robin just looked shocked before hanging his head to the floor as if almost in shame but that was just to catch his breath. He looked up and gritted his teeth and breathed very loudly, looking sternly at his daughter.
"You have no idea how much this is hurting me, you could not even imagine the pain. So before for snap at me, think about that" he shouted back but he almost hissed each word, clenching his jaw, you could hear the gritting and clicking of his teeth from across the room, before he turned right around, tear in one eye before he rushed his way up to the roof.
Kim felt a pang of guilt but she was still glad she told him that, he needed to know. But she couldn't stay in the presence of her mother, still with the frown upon her lips. She got up from Alec's lap and shot him a glance before looking onto her mother with water filled eyes, before running out to her room.
Shouts echoed through her mind, but she could do nothing but think about it. Her body still numb…her mind far from it.
Alec sighed took one last look at the monitor and left to find his mother. He was sure that she would love the time alone with Starfire.
The same, just like she expected but still she had the tiny bit of hope that she could have improved nothing like always. She sighed loudly and sat on the chair next to Starfire, held her hand and squeezed it slightly. She had recently been looking up on a spell that could possibly let her talk to Starfire. It was risky, if it wasn't done properly, Raven could end up inside Starfire forever, but she was willing to risk it. She stood up grasped both of Starfire's hands and began to chant. She felt her soul leave her and enter Starfire. So far so good.
Inside Starfire's Mind.
Grey, that's all that faced her. She had sort of expected pink, flowers and fluffy bunnies but when she remembered what Starfire has been through, she wasn't surprised the poor girls mind had faded to the dull grey it was now. Raven stood there, knowing she had not got much time looked around. Grey. That's it. She saw no sign of anything. Then some thing in the distance shadowed against the grey.
"Starfire?" she shouted over. A quiet but distinctive moan replied. Raven flew over to the figure to find Starfire. She wore a simple black dress, and was dissolving in the grey. The outlines of her figure were distorted into the background but she could tell her arms were high above her head but they had been dissolved into the grey already. Her face tear stained, the only real colour in this world was Starfire's trademark hair and eyes, and Raven's clothing.
"Oh Starfire, you have got to come back the tower is not the same without you."
All Starfire did was moan quietly and she hung her head to the floor, fresh tears erupted her eyes but they just splashed on the grey floor before like everything else was soaked into it.
"You have to fight the fading. It's amazing your still standing, fight just that little bit harder." Raven said. For in the book it said that the person should really be lying down and fading not standing. But Starfire's head looked up at Raven. She then pulled at her arms as hard as she could. Raven helped to try and get her arms from inside the grey. When they were free Raven noticed lace was attached to each wrist. She followed the laces path up to an amazing sight. For on each lace, there were twenty other laces attached. At the end of each to the other twenty laces was a raven. She now knew that the only thing holding Starfire up was the forty ravens attached to her wrists. Twenty to each arm. Her head hung limp, as the sight before her purely amazed Raven. If she could get Starfire back to the portal where she entered Starfire's mind. She just may save her. But time was not on Raven's side; already the pull was dragging her back to the porthole. Starfire just looked at her with sad eyes and let her arms and ravens be absorbed by the grey once more.
"Starfire!" she screamed but all Starfire did was look down at the floor and cry a little bit more, as her body was being absorbed. Starfire knew that if she dropped to the ground, she would be absorbed immediately for it was only the ravens that kept her in a coma for this long.
Back To Normal Again.
Raven's eyes snapped open. She had to find that book as quickly as she could. She needed to find out the significance of the ravens. She had a bad feeling that they were only things keeping Starfire the same.
"Why?" Robin asked into the night, half expecting it to reply. He had been on the roof for a good few hours now. Beastboy came up with a few blankets at the nights air was brisk and cold. Robin thanked him for the blankets, wrapped one round him and continued to look upon the stars that twinkled so brightly. If only his Star would twinkle again.
Page after page…nothing. Next book…nothing. Books, diagrams and pieces of paper littered Raven's floor as she looked desperately for the reason for the ravens. And what would happen it they went, and just anything on the ravens she could find.
Her eyes fell upon a book, it was old, it had no title but a large black jewelled raven on the front cover. She smiled, she hoped and finally she found. There was a very old sketch of a girl standing exactly like Starfire did. She smiled at the luck…but as she read on about them, her smiled quickly disappeared. The Death Ravens they were called, original she thought to herself but focused on the matter at hand, they will keep a person alive…barely, until they fly away. As soon as they decide to leave the person and they drop to the floor…they drop dead. They only flew away if they were needed somewhere else or they spend over 8 months with the same person.
She looked at the calendar on her wall and flicked back the pages until she found what she was looking for, but she didn't like what she saw that it was 8 months ago Starfire was in a coma. She bit her lip and sighed at the chances, but apparently, the world was against Starfire today.
With a flick of her slender fingers her room was tidied and she was out of the room as quickly as she could, she had only an hour to get everyone together and to Starfire's side. She would not explain to them what she saw, they would either not believe her, or just not be able to take the news. She rounded the children up and put them in the room with Beastboy. She whispered to Beastboy that Starfire was going to die tonight, before leaving. Beastboy's face dropped as he looked over at the seemingly peaceful Starfire.
Too late, give up, the ravens fly tonight.
Robin found himself in a large black bubble. He frowned at Raven who was levitating him downstairs to the medical wing. Raven knew this was the only way to make him come downstairs. They all crowded around Starfire. The minutes ticked by so slowly. They stood in silence; only Raven and Beastboy knew what they were waiting for.
The ravens flew.
The life support machine stopped beeping. A straight line formed across the screen as everyone was looking in silent shock. Each face that looked upon Starfire had tears streaming down their cheeks. From her head came a black cloud, well what looked like a black cloud but to Raven she saw it was forty black ravens flying from her head, the laces dangling behind them. This made Raven cry even harder. Robin was silent. He would not look at anything but the dead face of Starfire. A waterfall came from each eye. He reached forward and touched her cold hand, before collapsing to his knees and crying into her side. Raven ushered the others from the room and took one last look at the broken man before sniffing hard and closing the door.
The funeral was private, Teen Titans only, and their children of course. The Titans East came over. All devastated by the news. They also all brought a small gift for Robin, they knew he taken this hard. Every time he tried to keep a straight face, his emotions would be too much for him and he would cry silently.
The glass rose she was bought while she was pregnant with Kayle was placed on her bed. Her room stayed exactly the way it was. It was cleaned regularly by Robin, and always the glass rose lay on her pillow, that way it made sure the memory of Starfire, Never Dies.
Robin visited her grave every night with Kim and Kayle. Every week the rest of the Titans would visit and Robin bought her a fresh bunch of red roses each week. Her grave was clean and simple. White marble and gold lettering. Only two words described Starfire that they all agreed on. Those words were stamped into each of the Titan's hearts. But it was branded permanently into Robin's.
Here Lies Starfire R.I.P
A Beautiful Disaster.
--Sniff-- how sad? Im sorry to end it on a sad note but that's the way this story goes! So what did you think? Please review! All welcome! Even if you thought it was rubbish! I want to know! Well I think I will be starting a new story soon, maybe some one-shots first though. Well hope you enjoyed reading my story, I enjoyed writing it. REVIEW PLEASE! Thanks!
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