Chapter twelve: Stubborn
JPOV
February 28
Three weeks later
I liked the fact that she had missed me, and she was so sweet when she told me, I wanted more of that. More of her seeking my attention. In order to achieve that, I had to give her space. Now I had accepted the pack leadership, I got more than enough things on my plate. First there was the alpha ceremony, in which according to old tradition, the tribe elders placed the blessing of the warrior spirit upon me. Then there were decisions to be made regarding the tribe, the pack rules, the treaty with the Cullens… And finally there was Leah. She didn't take any of my time. Me dwelling on our last conversation however took more time than I expected. It wasn't just stubbornness that kept me away, although I'm sure a big part of it was, on her side as well, I also still believed that maybe I was right about her being jealous of Ness and I was afraid that things were not as casual between us as I told myself. That scared me. I wasn't meant for her and didn't want her to get hurt again. I never considered needing her myself, it was just sex after all, but now I'm starting to question that.
Sure I missed the sex too, I was damn horny and when my sweet Ness decided to fall asleep in my lap, I had a really hard time keeping my fantasies in check. Using my own hands is a valid alternative, in which I often indulged. But while a nice hand job can bring me to release, it never brought relief. Nothing calms me the way Leah does. Did.
And I didn't want to think about what that meant.
I arranged patrolling schedules in order to avoid her, and if pack members noticed, they were smart enough to shut up about it. I once asked Seth how she was doing, but he only answered I should go over there and see for myself.
I wouldn't do that. She ran out on me, not the other way around, if she's ready to talk, she'll come to me. Or not.
Was my ego so big that I would risk losing her, whatever she means to me?
Damn women.
At last I cracked three days ago and send her a text saying I was sorry. I was. I knew she was being protective and didn't want me to get hurt by Ness. So I put my pride to rest and took the first step.
In vain.
She never answered.
And now I was angry with myself, thinking that she would come around so easily. Actually believing that maybe she wanted things back to normal again too. I took my frustration out on the engine of the car I was fixing, laying on my back beneath it, banging on the screws and pipes loudly.
Suddenly I noticed two sneakers, belonging to a person standing next to the car. Sneakers I recognized. At last. I didn't hear her entering the garage with all my noise. I slid from under the car and stood slowly, wiping my hands on a cloth, looking at her apprehensively. She didn't look warlike, more defeated. We stood there in silence, looking at each other for a long time, neither of us moving. Finally she said softly "I'm not jealous". I nodded slowly and without warning she flung her arms and legs around me. I kissed her back passionately, pinning her against the car, hands groping everywhere. We didn't make it to the apartment upstairs, clothes were violently shredded and I lifted her on the trunk of the car and we fucked each others brains out. Almost literally, I didn't lock the garage, neither of us had any rational thoughts left. She was wrapped around me, scratching and biting and I came undone. I dug my fingers in her thighs, pulling her even closer as I thrust wildly into her. I felt like bursting and the orgasm that quickly followed was explosive. Unable to stay on my feet, I slid down with my back against the car and she did the same, sitting next to me, eyes closed.
"We should fight more often" I panted.
She didn't answer but from the corners of my eyes I saw a smile play across her face.
She turned a bit, leaning her shoulder against the car and looked at me.
"I'm sorry too."
"It's okay, let's forget about it."
"And I'm also sorry for what you will see next time you check a mirror" she grinned wickedly.
"What do you mean?"
"I might have marked you a bit there… and there…. and here too"
Her hand brushed my neck and I couldn't suppress a shiver.
"It will be gone by tomorrow…"
"I haven't congratulated you yet, oh alpha the great" She lifted her arms and bowed for me, but ruined the effect by watching me mockingly. The thought of Leah bowing down to someone is almost funny.
"I wanted to talk to you before I made my decision, that's why I asked you to come to the garage after the bonfire in the first place."
"Why?"
"Because I didn't know if you would be okay with me being your boss"
"Would it have mattered?"
"Dunno. We'll never know. Do you mind? Me being alpha?"
"I kind of always considered you my alpha, even before we ever… I never obeyed his commands, only yours, but you knew that already, I followed you when you left back then."
"You would have followed anybody to get away from Sam."
"That's not true."
"Oh."
"So, right, I don't mind, I guess, except if you're going to get all dominant now, being the top dog and all."
"I was kinda dominant just now." I winked at her.
"Yeah, you were. That was actually pretty damn hot" she grinned.
"Want some more?"
"Get cleaned up first, I'll lock the garage, meet you in the shower."
