Songs: Never Enough by Jump5 and Stuck by BTR

A/N: LONG CHAPTER! BE READY! Thank you for all the Get Well wishes! I was hit by a car in downtown Chicago! It was scary! I got a pretty big cut on my head and a lot of cuts and scrapes! The guy ran a stoplight hitting me and another girl!

I sat strumming my guitar putting the finishing touches on my new song I sung it through,

So many times I wondered what is enough?

It always happened with you

We're always up and down

we've been through so much

I come out wanting you

I've always been the one who had to let go

When I can't take anymore

But when it comes to you

I'll never say no

For all I've waited for

And now I know for sure

Never Enough

This kind of love

I always wanted more and more

no matter how much

Thinkin' of you when it comes to this kind of love

It's never enough

Always be looking for somebody like you

Someone to open my eyes

Now that I found you the searching is though

And still not satisfied

When I look into your eyes

Never Enough

This kind of love

I always wanted more and more

no matter how much

Thinkin' of you when it comes to this kind of love

It's never a minute, a moment

I swear I won't let time just slip away

Even if we're together every second till forever

It'll never be enough

This kind of love

Never Enoooooooooooooough!

Never Enough

This kind of love

I always wanted more and more

no matter how much

I'm thinkin' of you when it comes to this kind of love

It's never enough

This kind of love

I'm always wanting more and more

no matter how much

I'm thinkin' of you when it comes to this kind of love

It's Never Enough

So many times I wondered what is enough

It always happens with you

Pleased with my work I shut my spiral clapping came from the hall and James walked into the back room.

"Hey." I said smiling.

"Hey good song." He said.

"Oh thanks." I said tucking a piece of hair behind my ear.

"I'm sorry about Logan…" he said.

I shrugged, "It's cool. How are you and Sky?" I asked.

"She told me she wasn't 'emotionally ready' for a relationship." He said doing air quotes.

I giggled, "Sorry inappropriate I know." I said.

He shrugged, "I still think you should go on a date with me." He said raising his left eyebrow.

I laughed, "Keep dreaming." I said patting him on his shoulder.

I started to play my guitar James sat and watched me;

I started to sing one of BTR's songs.

There are so many things

That I never ever get to say

'Cause I'm always tongue-tied

With my words getting in the way

James joined me in my singing…

If you could read my mind

Then all your doubts would be left behind

And every little thing

Would be falling into place

I would scream to the world

They would see you're my girl

But I just keep getting stuck, stuck

But I'm never giving up, up

In the middle of a perfect day, I'm tripping over words to say

'Cause I don't want to keep you guessing

But I always end up getting stuck, stuck

But I'm never giving up, up

It's the way that I feel

When you do what you do to me

That keeps you running through my mind

24 hours a day, 7 days a week

And if you've got the time

Stick around and you'll realize

That it's worth every minute that it takes

Just wait and see

I would scream to the world

They would see you're my girl

But I just keep getting stuck, stuck

But I'm never giving up, up

In the middle of a perfect day, I'm tripping over words to say

'Cause I don't want to keep you guessing

But I always end up getting stuck, stuck

But I'm never giving up, up

I'm over the chances wasted

Tell me, it's not too late

It's only the nervous times

That keep me bottled up inside

Keep getting stuck, stuck

But I'm never giving up, up

In the middle of a perfect day, I'm tripping over words to say

'Cause I don't want to keep you guessing

But I always end up getting stuck, stuck

But I'm never giving up, up

'Cause I don't want to keep you guessing

But I always end up getting stuck, stuck

But I'm never giving up, up

James smiled at me and hugged me. Sky and Claire came into the back.

"You guys sound AWESOME together. Your voices are like perfect for each other" Claire said.

A tinge of jealousy flashed over Sky's face.

"Oh thanks." I said.

James was smiling at me.

"You ready for the show?" Sky asked.

"Oh yeah I got to go get ready. See you James." I said grabbing my guitar and heading out of the bus and into the concert location.

I stepped into wardrobe and Cat was in there with Carlos.

"Hey guys!" I said smiling and setting my guitar down.

"Hey Nat. How are you?" Cat asked.

"I'm fine why?" I asked.

"Well, we heard that you and Logan had a bit of a situation" she said.

I sighed, "Carlos can you give us a minute?" I asked Carlos nodded and walked out of the room, shutting the door as he did so.

I watched him close the door and then I sat on the couch with Cat.

"I don't know what to do. I mean I LOVE Logan but I'm not going to let a girl get hurt in the process." I said looking at my friend.

"Look, you can't help the way you feel. Logan's a great guy who means well he's just like you though, in love and hurting." She said.

I sighed, "I really miss him, like a lot." I said tears forming in my eyes.

"Oh hon." She said wrapping me in a hug.

"I'm so confused and frustrated!" I said.

"Just go back with him then." She said shrugging.

"No I'm not going to let a girl get hurt because of me." I said.

"Well then I'm not too sure what to tell you then Nat-Nat. All I can say is that he feels the same but he loves you more than anything." She said shrugging again.

I sighed, "I just want to kiss him again and hug him and know that he's mine." I said a few tears falling down my cheeks.

Cat wiped them away with her thumb.

"You need to just talk to him. He's an understanding guy and you really hurt him today and confused him when you fell asleep in his lap. "She said.

I sighed and the door opened and Logan entered.

Cat got up, "I know you'll do the right thing, good luck." She said and exited the room.

Logan stood there for a minute focusing all his energy on the ground.

I got up and got my outfit and started to get everything ready to change when Logan spoke, "I'm sorry." He said.

"What?" I asked with a small amount of annoyance in my voice.

"I'm sorry for hurting you and betraying you." He said.

I sighed, "Logan, thank you." I said.

"For?" he asked.

"For apologizing." I said looking at him right in his dark brown eyes the same ones that could make me melt in two seconds.

I just wanted to run into his arms and kiss him and tell him I loved him and that everything was going to be okay but I stayed put where I was at.

Logan stepped closer and put his hand around my waist and placed his forehead on mine.

"I will always love you Natalie Rose sawyer. Forever and always." He said in a low sexy voice.

My heart jumped to my throat and then dropped to the pit of my stomach it was jumping and racing all at the same time.

"I…I… I know." I said finally.

I was wanting to tell him so badly that I loved him but I couldn't.

"Please Nat you are killing me, just be with me." He said picking his head up.

"I…I can't you got a girl and I'm not going to let a girl get hurt in the process." I said.

He shook his head, "I broke up with her." He said.

"What? Why?" I asked.

"Because, my heart belongs to someone else." He said looking at me.

I was speechless no guy has ever left someone for me.

I sighed and looked at the boy that I loved.

"No. Sorry." I said.

His face dropped and a tear fell from his eye I could feel my heart breaking.

I wiped the tear away and lifted his head to mine and I couldn't help myself I kissed him so deeply and passionately.

He ran his hand through my hair and rested it on the back of my head pulling me more into the kiss.

I wrapped my arms around his waist and continued kissing him.

I pulled away and looked at him; "God, you're so amazing!" he said and kissed me again.

Claire and Kendall walked in on us kissing.

"Ew! Get a room!" Kendall said.

That made me and Logan laugh and he pulled away from the kiss and turned to face Kendall.

"So?" Claire asked.

"So what?" Logan asked.

"Are you guys okay?" she asked.

"It's going to take time but for right now, yes." I said looking at Logan.

He seemed somewhat pleased with that answer. He smiled at me.

"Thank God!" A voice from behind Kendall and Claire said. It was Cat's.

I smiled and blushed.

Logan placed his hand around my waist and pulled me into another kiss.

"I can't take it! I'm leaving! Tell me when you guys are done." Claire said and exited the room with Kendall, Cat and Carlos in tow.

I smiled into our kiss and Logan pulled away.

"So does this mean you are mine again?" he asked pulling me closer and lining my hips with his.

"I don't know…" I said.

Logan let go of me and a frustrated look came over his face.

"GOD NATALIE!" he yelled.

I was taken aback, "You know what? I'm done. Fuck you." He said and he left wardrobe slamming the door as he did.

I was freaked for a second and then I continued to get ready.

I was about to get dressed when Logan reentered to room, "You know I'm madly in love with you, I broke up with a GREAT girl for you and you are still not giving me a chance!" he yelled.

I didn't speak he continued, "You want to play little kiddie games fine. Go ahead but do it with another guy's head and NOT MINE!" he said.

"You are the one that didn't tell me that you were going on tour and then you got a new girlfriend!" I yelled.

"Sorry if I was considerate of your feelings! Oh and the Kaila thing wasn't intended I met her we started talking and I was looking for someone to replace you. The girl that I love." He said throwing his hands up in anger.

"How do you think I felt when I saw you with her? I thought you wanted to get back with me and I was willing to give you another chance but no! You went and got someone new! God! Logan I've liked you for over a year! When I first met you and you were new to everything and I saw you go from this shy young man to this strong, confident guy I see here today!" I said.

"Yeah strong key word. That means I can just walk away from this if I wanted to." He said.

"Fine go ahead there's the door you're not going to hurt me more than you already have!" I said pointing to the door.

"God Natalie how do you not see that all I want is you. I want to share my life with you. You've had my heart for over a year! Even with you being with Justin I still liked you and Camille was just there just like Kaila and I walked away from Kaila and Camille well, we don't talk about that." He said.

"She cheated on you get over it!" I said.

Anger grew in his face, "I love you Natalie I love you so much it's crazy! But you're so stuck on the fact that I didn't tell you about me leaving! Why? Why can't you just get over it?" he asked.

"You want to know why? Because everyone in my life has walked away from me, my dad my mom died and none of my family wants anything to do with me! You and the others are all I have!" I said.

"You left home on your own!" he said.

"No, I left because my dad was abusing me! If I did something wrong I'd be punished by having to sleep outside or not eating for days on end! My siblings want to leave but they can't I got money from my mom's death so I paid for a lawyer and got emancipated and then I left." I said.

Logan was speechless.

Hot tears ran down my face I never wanted anyone to know about my life.

"There happy? Now you know!" I said through sobs.

Logan stood there, mouth agape.

I sat on the couch and buried my head in my hands.

"I…I'm sorry Natalie. I…I didn't realize…" he said sitting next to me.

"Yeah now you do." I said. He rubbed my back still in shock.

"Baby, please, be with me and I will make sure nothing bad ever happens to you again. I promise." He said

"You can't promise anything nothing is ever promised." I said wiping my tears away.

"Well I'm a genius and I CAN promise because I know that I will protect and love you. I want to take care of you and be there for you." He said.

I laughed and I looked at my best friend and worst enemy.

"You're amazing." I said and leaned on to his shoulder.

"I love you baby. Forever and always. You're my one I want to be with you for the rest of my life and yes I know it's too early for anything but I can promise you I'm never going to leave you and will always love you." He said.

I lifted my head and looked at him.

"Logan, you're a great guy but I'm still hurting from everything you did to me." I said.

"It'll take time I realize that and can deal with that but I got to know that your mine so I can do this all the time." He said leaning in and kissing me passionately and deeply.

My heart started racing and jumped in my chest.

I closed my eyes and accepted the kiss.

He pulled away, "I…I Love You Logan." I said.

He wrapped me in a hug, squeezing me.

He pulled away and tears where streaming down his face.

"What is wrong?" I asked.

"You have no idea how happy I am to hear you say that. I Love you Natalie." He said kissing me again.

It felt good to tell him that.

I wanted nothing more than to be in this moment, right here, right now.