Both Roman and Dean got back a couple of hours ago and Roman was lying in bed, depressed. He hadn't said a word when they got back from seeing his place. It was completely gone. Everything. Was gone. Everything he owned in the last 10 years plus...just gone. There was nothing left to save except one small picture of him and Dean from their high school days. But everything else, was compeletely and utterly gone.
Dean let him be by himself in his own guest room. It seems so foreign now. Nothing was his. Nothing. Not a damn thing was his. He feels nothing will ever be his again. Yes, he can start over, but why? When everything he had blew to smithereens. What's sad, is he even called his parents about what happened the last couple of weeks. Not one word back. No. A . Single. Word. That made him feel even worse. Like nothing mattered anymore. Yes, Dean was there, but in his mind, he wondered if he is only there cause he needed to be, or wanted to be.
"No, its because he wanted to be, not because he felt like he had too...right?" Roman thought as he shook his head. He knows deep down that Dean cared for him. Why else would he be this insitant on him taking care of him? "Ugh.." he thought as he gets out of bed and walks over to the window, staring out to the darkness with the bright moon shining through. For a bit, he felt so lonely, like he had no one.
But he did, he had Dean there for him. More than anyone ever has been. He couldn't be more grateful, but at the moment, he felt like his world has fallen apart. First he gets shot, then he loses his apartment, what more can go wrong? It seems like he is being punished for something and doesn't have any clue as to why. All he knows is that he wants to get person who shot him, then find out why his place exploded.
He was so in thought, that he didn't hear the door open. Dean was looking in to check on him when he saw Roman standing at the window. Not to startle him, he spoke up softly.
"Ro? Are you okay?"
Roman closes his eyes, fighting back the single tear that threatened to fall, opens them back up, still looking out the window, spoke up.
"Not really, but it's not your problem right now..." coming out a little harshly then intended, making Roman feel bad the moment he said it.
"Okay, sorry to bother you..." Dean said as he goes to shut the door.
"Dean, wait, please, I'm sorry. Shouldn't have said that, its just...I feel so alone right now with everything that has been going on. Please forgive me?" he asked in a cracked voice as he looks down, fighting back the tears that started to fall.
Dean walked over slowly to Roman and turned him to face him. Knowing Roman needed to let his emotions go, he leans in and puts his arms around him, which Roman finally let loose. He sobbed hard into Dean's chest as he grabs him to hold him tightly. Dean guides Roman over to the bed and gently sits him down as he sits down with him. He holds him tightly, letting Roman cry for as long as he needed to while fighting his own tears from falling. He knows Roman is hurting and he can't seem to help him. He feels like he is failing him in this. Like he should have protected him somehow.
"Let it all out baby. Dont' hold it in anymore. You have been though so much lately that you haven't had the chance to really conceive what happened to you." he says as he caresses his hair and shoulders as Roman sobs starts to calm down some. "I'm sorry baby, I should have protected you like you did me. Please forgive me..." he asked as he continues to hold Roman tightly, slowly rocking him back and forth.
Roman finally let his sobs subside enough to let go a little. He sat up as Dean released him, wiping his nose on his shirt. Dean reaches up with his shirt and gently wipes Roman's eyes with such softness that he didnt' think he touched him. He looked up at Dean's, whose own blue eyes showed sorrow, smiled weakly.
"You have nothing to be sorry for. You took care of me when I treated you like shit. I am the one who should be sorry..."
"Then we both are sorry. But know that I am not going anywhere. I am gonna be there for you no matter what. When I almost lost you, it was like literally losing Seth all over again. I really don't know what would have happened if you hadn't made it. You are such a huge part of my life and nothing would have mattered if you wouldn't have survived..."
Roman puts his hand on Dean's cheek, making him close his eyes at his touch. He gently takes his finger and traces his face down to his lips, which Dean opens automatically. He leans in and places his lips on Dean's, slowly slipping his tongue into Dean's hot mouth. He moans as Roman brings him in closer as he continues to ravish his mouth in desperation.
Dean brings up his hands and places them in Roman's hair, moaning into the kiss that turned hard as if it was the last thing they were doing. Sultry, sexy, desire, desperation, needy...some of the ways to describe how they were feeling now. Roman finally breaks the kiss due to oxygen and places his head on Dean's, who was also trying to breath some air back into his lungs.
Roman then takes his hands and slides them down Dean's side and grabs his shirt and slowly pulls them up. Dean tries to stop him..."Don't Dean, not now, I need you. We won't do anything strenuous, but I need to touch you, all of you...please dont' deny me this...please..." he begged as he continues to pull his shirt up and over Dean's head, after Dean lets go.
Slowly, he pushes Dean on his bed and straddles him. He carefully bends over and kisses Dean with so much passion that Dean started getting a little dizzy from the feelings. He slowly breaks away as Dean tilts his head more for access to Roman's lips. He then places the lips on his neck, slowly sucking the pulsing vein that is sticking out, making Dean groan lowly.
"Oh fuck..." was all Dean could muster out when Roman planted kisses from his neck down to his chest. Licking around the pink nipple on one side, making Dean arch back and his hands on Roman's ass, squeezing it hard, which made both of them hard.
"Fuck, fuck fuck..." as Roman continued his assault on Dean's other nipple, sending shock waves to Dean's member, making him start leaking precum. Roman sucked on each nipple, making sure they both got the same attention, all the wild, Dean was keeping from screaming his name at the ministrations that Roman was doing to him. If this is how foreplay was going to be with Roman, he couldn't even imagine how the actual sex was going to feel like when the time comes.
"Patience baby...patience..." Roman wanted to feel Dean...all of him. So he continued licking down his abs, and did he ever love his abs. Nice and muscular stomach. Like he has been working out a lot more than usual. "Ro..I dont' think I can hold out much longer. My dick is about to kill me right now..." he grasped as he started to buck up while Roman stops at his waistline, causing Dean to curse a bit.
"Fuck Ro..please, don't make me wait anymore." He begged, and he HATED begging, but Roman was driving him nuts with his lips and tongue. Even sex with Seth was never this torturous. It was great, but with Roman, it was different.
Roman chuckles as he licks his area before pulling down his shorts. He wanted to savor the taste, the touch, the smell of Dean. It was so damn intoxicating, him period. Dean was grabbing the sheets the was beside him to keep from losing it with Roman by wanting to grab his hair.
Roman slowly pulls down the shorts while Dean lifts up his ass to help him pull them off. Roman's hands feeling his legs as he finally pulling his shorts completely off, showing Dean's dick, standing proud and tall. Making Roman lick his lips in anticipation at the sight of it.
"God, so beautiful Dean, so fucking beautiful..." he said as Dean tries to find his breath after the slow and tourtous play Roman is demonstrated. He looks down just as Roman slithers up his legs with kisses, making Dean hiss at the touch.
"Ro-FUCK!" he tries to say as Roman places his tongue at the bottom of his ball and his hand wrapped around his dick, sending Dean into oblivation, cutting off all words that was wanting to come out of his mouth. He had no idea that Roman's tongue would have felt THAT good on him. No way would he traded his time with Seth, but deep down, he wished he would have tried with Roman sooner. But he is glad that he waited, he could appreicate him more for it.
After licking his balls and tugging on it a bit, his takes his tongue and glides it up on Dean's dick, making his literally scream his name. Loving the sound Dean was making, is making him want to cum right there, but he wanted to show Dean how much he means to him. When he finally takes him in his mouth, Dean bucked up hard, making Roman deep throat Dean with no problem. Roman grabbed his hips and held them down so that he could suck up and down, including the slit that was covered in precum, making him wetter. Dean had no idea what to do, no one, not including Seth, has ever made him want to cum right there, and he was about to lose it, big time.
"Shit Roman! Damn that feels good, fuck..." he grasped as he continues to try and buck, but Roman held him down so tha the can continue to suck him off, hard. "Roman, I am gonna cum if you don't stop...please.." he pants as he tries to keep from letting loose. But Roman wasn't having it. He kept his mouth on it and bobbed it up and down. Dean was withering from all this touching. Roman's mouth should have been classified as a lethal weapon, no shit, his mouth made Dean melt into a puddle of goo.
Suddenly, he heard a 'pop' as Roman's mouth left Dean's dick, making him moan in frustration, watching as Roman takes off his shorts, revealing his massive dick, making Dean stare appreicatively. But he still was rock hard and frustrated, that is, until Roman's lips found Dean's as both their dicks started rubbing together, causing some massive friction that was building up inside both of them. Dean started moving his hips to match Roman's rythum as their kisses intensified and Dean bringing Roman closer to him, with his arms around Roman's neck and Dean wrapping his legs around Roman's waist.
Roman thrusts his dick onto Dean's as they both get ready for their release.
"Roman, I am so close, fuck..."
"So am I Dean, so am I...need you to cum with me baby..so need you to cum with me.." he whispered in between the hot and sweaty kisses as he continues to rub his with Dean. That was caused Dean to scream out Roman's name again as he came...HARD between him and Roman, with Roman cumming soon after Dean did. Cum was all over their stomach and chest as they continued to pour out. Roman laid on Dean, trying to breath as both him and Dean come down from their climaxed high.
Roman finally rolled over next to Dean, who was finding his own air. Neither even knew what the other was thinking at the moment. Until Dean spoke up...
"Damn Roman, where the hell did you learn to do that?" Dean asked as he tries to get up.
Roman laughed at little. "Well, I had some practice you know. You weren't the first dick I sucked."
Dean looked at him funny but had to ask. "Who else did you suck?"
Roman looked at him, trying to laugh at his expression. "You really want to know?"
Dean thought for a moment, then shook his head. "Nah, you can keep that a secret. Just know that mine will be the last one you suck. But I need to go get us a clean cloth so we can clean up our mess. How is your stitches?" he asked as he leaned over to check for any blood.
"I'm fine, nothing hurts at the moment." he said as he smiled at Dean, looking content.
"Good. By right back" as he gets off the bed and into the bathroom to get the stuff cleaned up.
Dean comes out and helps both him and Roman clean up. "Stay with me Dean? Please?" he softly asked as Dean puts the cloth in the dirty clothes hamper.
Dean looks at Roman and smiles as he gets into bed and lays next to Roman, who snuggled up to Dean. "Thank you for tonight, it meant a lot to me."
"No need to thak me, I will always be there for you Ro, don't forget that..."
Roman smiles as both him and Dean drifted off to dreamland.
A/N: this was my first attempt at a love scene between Ambreigns so hopefully I didn't disappoint! Let me know what you think! :)
