Touch My Heart - Chapter 12
A/N: Hello Angels! Just wanted to let you know that I've finally found some time to update! It's about time, right? lol. Well just a little note to my Fallen Angel to thank them for once again, helping out with this chapter and for making this story so wonderful! This chapter is brought to you by, me Roxy, Mike, Jen and Christina! Love you Angels and please review to let us know what you think! Oh, and did I forget to mention that I love ketchup? lol! - Roxy
(Will's POV)
This had become routine for us; Sonny and I would leave school, come back to the Kiriakis house, we'd work on homework, snuggle a little, make out more than a little, and then I'd leave so I could sleep at my house. Despite my biological ties to my Dad, I really felt no other connection to him. Being here with Sonny, with the Kiriakis family who had learned to to rely on each other for everything, made me feel like a part of his family. It made me want to be a Kiriakis instead of a Horton. Never in a million years did I think I'd say that. But it was true. And I was happy, which is something else I never thought I'd say. Every day I prayed that life would stay this way forever. Finally, I felt that for once, luck had placed her hand on my shoulder and gave me an encouraging squeeze. My future was definitely looking up.
I hadn't slept well at all the night before. Dad and I got into it when I got home and though I tried not to focus on his insults and accusations, they couldn't stop clogging my mind all through the night. But now, being here, leaning my head back against the mattress as I sat on Sonny's floor doing homework, I felt my eyes and mind get tired...
"Mr. Horton?"
"Yes, Mrs. Jones."
"I'd like to meet with you after class."
"Okay. I have to go pick up Sonny first from his class, but I'll be right back"
"You have five minutes."
"Okay." Minutes later I returned with Sonny in tow. "Mrs. Jones, I'm back. Thanks for waiting."
"Come in and have a seat Will. You too Sonny, it's good if you hear this." We both sad side by side at neighboring desks.
"Well, Mr. Horton, you know the agreement we had near the beginning of this semester? That in order for you to pass my class, you had to write a compelling paper?"
"Yes, Mrs. Jones," Will remembered that paper very well. She had told him to write about something or someone he loved, and he did just that.
She set my graded paper in front of me, and I glanced down just long enough to see lots of red scribbles all over the front page.
"Will, I'm afraid I was not at all impressed with your paper."
I was in complete shock. I had given so much of myself to that paper, and I loved it. I thought others would love it, too. I had written about Sonny, the love of my life, my sunshine who now made my days worth living. I turned to the last page of my paper and saw in bright red marker the letter F circled in the middle of the page.
"An F?" my voice shook uncontrollably. The shock and confusion took over my body and mind.
"I'm afraid so. It wasn't a good paper. It was shallow, and ill-planned and less than heartfelt. There was no way I could give you a passing grade for this," she pointed and grimaced at my paper.
"But I gave my all...my best, Mrs. Jones! I poured my heart and soul into this paper."
"Well, I guess your heart and soul just aren't good enough. And Mr. Kiriakis," she paused to look at Sonny, "I'd think about that too. Will is a failure and he's not good enough for you. What will your family think when they find out your boyfriend's not even going to graduate high school?"
"No! No, this can't be happening..."
"Will?", Sonny must have heard me mumble and tried to distract me.
"No Sonny! I am good enough for you...please don't leave me..."
"Will", he repeated with more force and started shaking me by my shoulders. I heard my Sonny in the distance but he felt so very far away. His voice was fading, and I was being laughed at by everyone...Sonny, Alex and Joey, their Dad, my Dad, Chad and all my teachers..."Will won't be graduating", the voice in my head finally spoke the words I never wanted to hear. I was a failure. I wasn't graduating, wasn't going to college, wasn't welcomed back in my own house.
"Will!", and with one final yell of my name followed by his hands on my cheeks, I startled awake.
"Wh-what?", I rubbed my eyes and realized that they were damp. I looked at my Sonny as he struggled to understand what was happening to me. His eyes were wide, his mouth open but not knowing what to say, and his breathing was labored. Sonny looked so worried. I swallowed hard and all those horrible feelings from my dream came flooding back, "Oh god!", I buried my head in my hands.
"What?", Sonny whispered, "Will, please tell me what's wrong?"
"No, no, no, no...I can't."
"Will...", Sonny pleaded with me, "Remember what you say about us always talking, communicating? You need to talk to me now...You're scaring me."
"Sonny, I'm not good enough for you. I am a failure in every way, and I've fooled myself by thinking that I've changed enough to deserve you...", I could feel the tears still streaming down my face. Sonny tried to jump in but I wouldn't let him, "I'm an asshole, Sonny, I've been mean to so many people, I slept with women I didn't care for, I've hated on my Dad for so long that's all I feel for him anymore. This is karma coming back to bite me...for all the despicable ways I treated people in the past."
Sonny tried to pull me into his arms, but I fought him. I was hysterically sobbing, avoiding his eyes and his touch. I started to get up to go but Sonny finally forced me into a hug while whispering, "It's okay Will", and "Calm down my sunshine". Those soothing, repetitive words along with Sonny's solid grasp, started to calm me. I collapsed into him, and he let me cry until I had nothing left.
He pulled me down to sit next to him on his bed, "Tell me..."
"It's too horrible, Sonny, I don't want to talk about it."
"Will, clearly something upset you so much. I love you, please talk to me."
"You shouldn't love me, Sonny. I've changed but it's not good enough. I can't fix everything I did wrong in my past, and now I'm going to have to pay for my past indiscretions."
"No, my love", he spoke those words so softly to me as he peppered my face with kisses, "You have changed. You are a good person. You deserve happiness."
His eyes met mine directly, and he leaned forward and kissed me, "I have no choice but to love you, Will. We are meant to be together."
Those were such powerful words, and this person before me was so beautiful and sweet and loving, I couldn't help but surrender. I kissed him back forcefully, parting his lips and delving inside. He moaned into my mouth, and his hands moved quickly to unbutton my shirt. He had it off in seconds and was soon lavishing caresses all over my chest. Every touch took my breath away. He was so confident, so desperate to show me that I was worthy of his love, of his every touch...
He took my nipple into his mouth and sucked, and I couldn't help but cry out in immense pleasure. I arched my hips not able to control my body as Sonny moved over me. Finally, Sonny unbuttoned my jeans and reached his hand inside my underwear. As soon as his warm, soft hand was on me, I started to see stars, "Sonny, oh my god", I moaned as I tried to keep myself from losing control.
"Does this feel good, Will?", he asked shyly, moving his hand slowly up and down my hardness.
"Yes! You feel amazing...please grip tighter Sonny...don't let go...", and I started to undulate my hips up and down into his fist.
Then without being coached, Sonny started to pump me, his tight grasp moving quickly as my moans became deeper and more desperate, "Yes, yes, Will...let me make you feel good."
"Aaahhhh...", I whimpered as I felt my climax building in my belly, rolling down my legs and into my entire body. I screamed one last time, "Sonny...", and I let it go, convulsing and burning up and crying all at once.
"Shhhh...", Sonny whispered as he held me and rocked me. "Shhhhh...everything is okay. Shhhh...I love you and nothing is ever going to change that."
"I love you too, my angel, my Sonny", I finally managed after calming down, "But you probably shouldn't."
"But I do", was his response and he pulled me into his arms, held me tightly, and we lay there for hours, not speaking a word.
(Will's POV)
I picked Sonny up bright and early this morning before heading to school. Alex and Joey decided to ride along with their father today instead of hitching a ride with us. I guess they probably wanted to give us some alone time before class. Not that I mind of course. Because I always love spending time with Sonny, and I treasure each and every single second I get to spend with him.
It has become our thing to leave a little early so we could just drive around holding hands for a little while before facing the scrutiny of the others at school. In a perfect world, we wouldn't have to hide how we felt about each other; however, this world is far from being perfect. We would be taking a risk being public, a risk getting hurt or ridiculed; but I need to be true to myself, and so does Sonny. So, I know that I have to tell our friends and classmates soon.
I thought a lot about how I'm going to make it up to Sonny for forcing him to hide our relationship. It's not that I care about what others are going to think when they find out that I've fallen in love with the autistic boy. I think it's more about how I'm actually going to tell them.
I looked over to my right to see what he's doing, and I see his gorgeous eyes staring right at me, and I knew that whatever way I decided to tell people, things would work out for us.. And that is because I have the most amazing boyfriend in the entire world who will be by my side the whole time.
"I love you, Son", I said to him as we reached the parking area of the school.
He didn't say it back though. But that's okay, because I know that he loves me just as much as I love him. However, he's been really quiet today and that's got me a little worried. Alex told me that it's normal for Sonny to keep to himself at times. He explained to me that this is his way of shutting himself off from the world when he's either feeling scared or anxious. I can't help be wonder if I'm part the reason for him feeling this way today.
I parked the car at the far left corner of the school where no one usually parks, so that I could have a few minutes to talk to him before we went inside. I stopped the engine and turned towards him, "Hey, you okay, baby?", I asked, hoping he would tell me what was going on in that pretty little head of his.
"I'm fine", he answered looking away from me.
"Hey, look at me", I said as I pulled his face gently back towards me and lifted his chin up slightly, "Don't lie to me, Sonny. You're not fine. Tell me what's bothering you."
"It's nothing; I'm just a little tired, that's all."
"Alright, if you say so", I answered, but I knew he was lying. Something was clearly bothering him and I felt helpless because I had no idea what it was, "You ready to go inside?", I asked.
Sonny nodded and went to open the car door when I grabbed his arm, "Are you forgetting something?", I smiled and wiggled my eyebrows at him.
"Will, people might see us", he sadly admitted.
"No one is going to see us and to be honest, I don't care. I am not going inside until you have properly kissed me", I smiled and pulled him towards me.
Sonny smiled widely and leaned in to kiss me. Our lips melted together as they had done so many times before. However, it didn't take us long for our little love pecks to turn in to a very heated, full-blown, make out session.
Suddenly, we heard someone whistling and quickly pulled away from each other. I looked out the window and saw Joey walking in our direction.
We both laughed and got out of the car to meet up with him halfway, "You two looked pretty occupied in there", Joey smirked and looked over at Sonny, "Hey little brother. You're the last person I expected to find making out in the school parking lot with his boyfriend this morning."
Sonny was blushing like crazy over getting caught by his brother.
"Jo, would you please stop picking on your brother?", I asked, hoping this would stop Joey from making Sonny more uncomfortable.
"Yeah, I'm not picking on him. Just pointing out that anyone could have walked by and seen you two together."
For once, Joey was right. What if someone saw us together? How would I even begin to explain myself if somebody asked? Or the real question was… am I ready to explain myself to people when they start asking questions?
I looked over at Sonny who was still standing a few steps behind me. He was smiling and looking right at me and realized that I already knew the answer to those questions. He was so worth it.
The answer is yes.
"You know what, Jo? If people were to find out about us, then I would tell them just how much I love him and how much I don't give a damn what they think about us."
Sonny smiled at my answer and reached down and laced his fingers with mine. I mouthed the words "I love you" to him before we all headed inside for class.
As we slowly walked inside the school together, I noticed there were balloons, streamers and banners painting the wall with our school colors of gold and navy blue.
"Wow! I wonder what everyone is so excited about?", I turned to Sonny who smiled shyly as he pointed to one of the banners in the hallway that indicated clearly why everyone was acting so cheesy. There it was, in dark blue bold letters trimmed with yellow gold, the reason why; PROM. Joey smiled, "It's Prom time you idiot! Tickets go on sale this morning!"
"Oh, I didn't know that", I admitted and felt like a fool for not remembering.
"Seriously? Where have you been for the last few weeks? Everyone's been talking about it!", Joey asked.
"Guess I wasn't really paying attention to what was happening. I've had more important things on my mind than prom", I implied as I tightened my grip on Sonny's hand. I never really thought about prom or even going to prom for that matter. Guess it never really was than important to me before. I smiled as I watched Sonny looking at all the decorations around the hallway and it got me thinking. Was Sonny thinking about going to prom and would he even want to go with me? It was something we never talked about actually. To be honest, I wasn't even sure if I actually wanted to go to prom myself.
"You're going aren't you?", Joey asked and waited for my answer.
"Well, I don't know", I said as I lifted my arms up in the air, "I'll have to think about it."
"Well think fast because I need to find myself a date."
"You're not even graduating this year", I pointed out and laughed at Joey's eagerness.
"I know that, but thirty-four beautiful ladies are and I'm sure that one of them would just love to take this hot piece of man to prom with them", he said pointing to himself.
"I would count on it, Jo!", I smirked.
"Whatever man. I'm going to prom even if I have to pay someone to be my date! Catch up with you two love birds later", Joey said and walked away. I laughed as I turned over to Sonny, "So, do you think that..." I tried asking him if prom was something he would like to attend when I was interrupted by Gabi, "Great!"
"Hey Will."
"Oh,hey. How's it going?", I asked to be nice.
"I'm great! So, I was wondering if I could talk to you for a moment. Alone", she pointed out and gave Sonny an odd stare. Sonny's face cringed as I felt him move closer to me, wary of Gabi. I could really see that Gabi was having a negative effect on him, So I squeezed his hand in reassurance so that he wouldn't feel like he had the leave, because I would never leave him alone, especially not with or for someone like Gabi.
"I'm sorry, Gabi. But I'm watching Sonny today and whatever you have to say to me, you can say it in front of him."
"Sonny?", she questioned, "This is the boy you've been taking care of right? I though his name was Jackson?", she asked curiously.
"Yeah, his name is Jackson, but he prefers that we call him Sonny. And I for one think that the name fits him perfectly. Don't you Son?", I asked, trying to make him feel like he was a part of this conversation. The last thing I even want is for him to feel left out. Sonny simply nodded and hid himself behind me.
"He seems shy", Gabi noticed, "Hello Sonny, I'm Gabi", she said, her nose pointing upwards trying to, talk down to him.
Sonny peeked out from behind me and gave her the Kiriakis death look, as I call it. I chuckled, "He's not shy, he's not used to having other people around us that's all", I informed her, "And he doesn't like to be talked down to. He's not stupid Gabi; he's actually a very smart young man."
Sonny beamed when I called him smart, "You alright, Son?", I asked to make sure he was okay.
Sonny nodded and laced his fingers tightly around mine and tried to pull me in the direction of his class room, "In a minute", I told him and turned back towards Gabi only to find her staring at our linked fingers.
"Sorry Gabi. But Sonny is kind of in a hurry to get to class…so what was it you wanted to talk about", I hinted, to get the ball rolling.
"Yeah, right. Well, it's actually about prom. Since Cameron and I broke up a few months ago, no thanks to you of course…I was wondering if you maybe wanted to go to prom with me?"
I took a deep breath and thought hard before answering. I looked at Gabi and then glanced at Sonny. No matter what my answer was, someone was bound to get hurt. I like Gabi as a friend. And yes, I did sleep with her back when I was confused about my feelings and about who I was, but there was never any real attraction there whatsoever. I really didn't want to come out and just tell her that I wasn't interested. She's a lady after all and no one deserved to be
treated the way that I've treated her in the past. And then there was Sonny; my Sonny who's done nothing but love and care for me; and treated me much more special than I deserved.
"Look, Gabi. You're a very nice girl, but...", I paused when I noticed Sonny was pulling away from me, "I'll think about it, alright", I said to her without being too obvious that I had no intentions of taking her to the prom. If she knew me as well as she thought she did, then she would know that if I said that I was going to think about it, then the answer was clearly a no.
"Sonny?", I asked when I saw him slowly walking backwards looking like he was about to faint, "Sonny? Answer me, what wrong?", I asked him again and still no answer.
I could see him gasping for air, and I started to get worried when I heard his plea, "I'm dying...", he was barely able to croak out before falling to his knees on the ground, "What's..."
I hurried to grab him before he fell so he wouldn't hurt himself.
"Will...", he said in between pants, "I can't breathe..."
That's when I knew that Sonny was having a panic attack. I rubbed circles on his back and tried very hard to keep him calm, "Breathe in Sonny, breathe out. Follow my voice. Sonny, focus on me..."
(Sonny's POV)
"Wh...what?", I said as I bring my hands up quickly, to cup my face. I rub my eyes in confusion. Did I just hear Will say he would think about taking Gabi to the prom? My boyfriend with another person at prom?
I start to feel this pain begin deep down in my chest and it gets more and more intense. It feels like my heart is being ripped right out of my chest. I bring both hands up to cover my heart; I feel it beating a million miles a minute beneath my hands. I bend over slightly, I think I'm going to be sick, the pain is so intense.
"Sonny?", I faintly hear in the distance, but all I can concentrate on is this insistent ringing in my ears and this incredible pain in my chest. I don't know what's happening to me, so I try to turn away to run, but I can't move.
"Sonny? Answer me, what wrong?", I hear it again, but I can't answer him, I can't move, I can't speak, I can't breathe. What's happening to me?
The pain in my chest is replaced by numbness everywhere. Like a button was switched off, the pain went. I start to gasp for air, but I can't get in enough to satisfy my burning lungs.
"I'm dying", I croak out. My knees go weak and I fall to the ground, still holding my heavy chest, "What's...", I try to ask but nothing more will come out.
"Will...", I pant out, "I can't breathe...", I finally manage to stutter out.
I drop my head down and count backwards from ten, when I feel something rubbing up and down my back, "Ten...Nine...Eight...", I start but I'm panting so hard that I'm not sure I can talk any more. I just want this to stop.
"Breathe in Sonny, breathe out. Follow my voice", I faintly hear, but I can't. I can't breathe, doesn't he understand that?
"Sonny, focus on me", My head is pulled up and I open my eyes to see if I can figure out what's going on. I'm staring into something blue and I know that this is something that should help me, but I think the touch and sight of his blue eyes is making me feel worse.
I try to stand up, still gasping for air, "I...I have to...", I try to say as I finally make it up to my unsteady feet. I turn and try to run, but my feet aren't helping me. I just need to get out of here and breathe.
"Sonny?", I hear again, "Are you okay?"
His hand is back on my shoulder and that's all I need to get me moving.
I start to run. I don't know how far I run or where I should run to but I know that I need to run. My body is trembling now and I'm still not breathing right; but I need to run.
"Sonny!", I hear someone yell behind of me, but I can't deal with that now, I have to get away, "I'm dying", I say again as I start to fun faster.
"Sonny! Wait!...Sonny!", I hear heavy footsteps behind of me, chasing me down the half-full hallway.
I feel a hand on my shoulder and it stops me from running. Then I feel two strong arms around my waist. I have to get loose, he's trying to kill me. I start to claw at his clasped fingers around my waist and scream. I start to kick my feet, anything to get free.
"GO FIND ALEX OR JOEY", I hear someone scream in the distance.
"Breathe, Sonny, Breathe", I hear again.
"I...I can't...", I try to say, I'm not sure how clear it comes out.
"Follow my voice... Breathe in", I try with all of my might to breathe.
"Hold it in...One, two, three, four, five. Let it out", And I do.
"Breathe in...hold it...One, two, three, four, five...Let it go", I hear, I'm trying with all of my might to follow these instructions but it's so hard. But I do.
"That's it Sonny, Breathe in...hold it...One, two, three, four, five...Let it go."
I start to relax into his hold. His chin comes to rest on my shoulder.
"Sonny? Can you hear me?", he asks.
I nod, my voice failing me.
"I think you're having a panic attack. Right now, I need you to calm down and breathe for me, babe. Can you do that for me?"
I nod.
"Breathe in...hold it...One, two, three, four, five...Let it go."
I realize the voice and arms belong to Will.
"Will?", I say with a fat, heavy tongue, "What's happening?", I start to sob.
"It's a panic attack. You're okay. Just breathe with me babe, just breathe."
I start to finally slow my breathing and his arms start to relax more around of my waist.
"Sonny!", I hear Joey scream, "Will, what happened?", he asked Will again.
"I don't know, one minute I was talking to Gabi, and the next minute he couldn't breathe. I think he had a panic attack", Will said, still not releasing me from his grip.
"Sonny? Breathe for me", Joey said slow and calm, "Remember the Tortoise and the Hare?", he asks me.
I look up into his brown eyes, "Slow...and steady...*breathe in* wins...the...race...*breathe out*", I say.
"Slow...and...steady...*breathe in*...wins...the...race...*breathe out*", I start chanting. This gives me something to focus on.
"That's it babe, slow and steady breathing, good job", I hear Will cheer me on.
Finally, I am able to breathe and Will eases me down to the floor. I rest my head on his shoulder and he starts to run his fingers through my hair.
"Joey! Will!", I hear Alex scream as he comes running down the hallway.
He drops down to his knees and rests his palm against my shoulder, "You okay baby brother?", he asks.
I nod.
"Will thinks he had a panic attack", Joey whispered.
"A panic attack?", Alex asks.
We all nod.
"I'm breathing...I'm okay...I'm breathing...I'm okay", I start to chant.
"Yes you are babe", Will says as he reaches down and pulls me up into his arms and kisses me right there in front of everybody.
Heaven, I think I've died and went to Heaven. I hear a collective gasp and open my eyes. Will breaks the kiss and leans his forehead against mine and smiles.
I smile back, "Did you just...", I say and smile bigger, "Kiss me?", I exclaim and wrap my arms around his neck. I am back to myself and in love with this beautiful man in front of me.
"Yes, I did. I won't let anything hurt you ever again", he says as he kisses me yet again.
I look up to find a hallway full of people, gaping at us. A few have disgusted looks on their faces, but most are just in a state of shock and surprise.
"Uh, Will?", Alex says unsure of the situation.
"It's okay Alex. It's about time the school knows that I'm in love with this amazing man and I will do anything to protect him", Will says, never breaking eye contact with me. I beam up at Will and small happy tears begin to form in my eyes, "I love you Sonny Kiriakis", he says to me.
"I love you too", I say. He leans in again and kisses me as he helps me stand up straight. His lips never leaving mine until I'm steady on my feet. I wrap my arms tighter around his neck and he tightens his hold on my waist.
"Well now that's settled, let's move it people. Get back to class. Show's over", Alex begins, making shooing motions with his hands.
"That's right, you heard him, march people. Back to class", Joey chimes in.
"I love you", I whisper to Will, "Thank you for helping me", I say with a blush.
"I love you too Sonny, and you're very welcome. But the way I see it, you just helped me", he said as I nod towards the people slowly leaving for class, "You helped me do something that I've been afraid to do, you gave me strength to let people know that I'm gay. So, Sonny, thank you", he said and kissed me once more, "Ready for class?", he asks.
"Yeah, I'm ready", was my answer.
(Will's POV)
Right after taking Jackson to his class, I headed on over to my locker and saw that Gabi was waiting impatiently for me to finish our talk. The first thing that came to mind was to turn around and run the other way, without looking back. However, that's not who I am anymore. I'm Will. Sonny's Will, and I'm not about to run away at the first sign of trouble. So I took a deep breath and marched on up to her, "Look Gabi, I'm sorry about earlier, but..." I tried explaining, but she cut me off mind sentence.
"When were you planning on telling me that you're gay?", she fumed.
"I was going to tell everyone soon, okay? There is no need to get angry with me", I tried to keep it cool and not make a scene.
"There isn't? Really? So how long has it been, Will? Tell me!"
"How long as what been?", I asked as I opened my locker and pulled out my book, not getting what she was trying to ask me.
"How long have you known?", she asked making it sounded like a plea.
"It doesn't matter, Gabi. Everyone knows now. So, just drop it", I said as I closed my locker door and started walking towards class.
She followed right behind, "Well, it matters to me. Were you just stringing me along this whole time?"
I stopped in the middle of the hallway and turned to her, "Listen, Gabi. At the time, I was confused. About my feelings and about who I was. I never meant to hurt you or anyone else for that matter."
"What makes you believe that you're not confused anymore? Maybe this is just a phase or something", she went on.
"No, Gabi. This isn't just a phase. I'm gay and I'm not ashamed to say it out loud anymore."
"And Sonny? He helped you realize that...that you're gay?", she questioned.
"Sonny help me realized that I can be a good person. A person that is worthy of being loved. He taught me that I don't have to be ashamed of who I am and that I can be proud of being different."
"So, you love him?"
"I do, Gabi. I really do love him", I smiled, "He's the best thing that's ever happened to me and a very long time".
"Then I guess if you love him so much, you should ask him to go to prom with you."
"You're right! I should ask him", I paused and thought about something very important that I needed to be before asking him if he wanted to go with me, "But I'm not."
"You're not?", she asked and looked rather confused.
"I want everything between me and Sonny to be perfect. So, before I ask him to be my prom date, I'm going to ask for his father's permission to take him. I know that sounds cheesy and old-fashioned, but Sonny's special and he means the world to me. I just want to do everything right with him."
"Wow! Who would have thought that Will Horton would become such a gentlemen?", she giggled.
"Yeah, tell me about it. So...You're not angry at me for not telling you straight-out that I wasn't interested in you?"
"No, Will. I'm not angry. I'm just relieved that you didn't choose another girl over me. It real is a relief!"
We both laughed at the last comment, "For what it's worth, I'm really happy for you Will. I hope he makes you happy."
"He does, and I promise that someday soon, you will find that special someone and you'll know that it's meant to be."
"Thanks for saying that, Will. Good luck with asking Sonny's dad for his permission. Sonny's a very lucky guy.", she said as she walked away chuckling.
"Thanks, I'm going to need it!", I murmured and headed off to my first class.
(Alex's POV)
Sonny and Will are happy. I know this because I see the way they look at each other, like the way they are doing now. I decided to stay away from the cafeteria today; but I got extra hungry, so I went to get an order of fries. And there they both were…smiling at each other with their eyes. I should be happy for them; I am happy for them…but I know that there is something stopping me from being as happy for them as I should be. I am jealous. Joey hit the mark on that one. I am jealous that Sonny…introverted, special never-wanted-to-be-touched-anyone-until-Will-Horton-showed-up had someone so special in his life that he finally sprang loose from his shell.
I know I should be ecstatic about this; and I am. But like Joey said, there is something getting in the way of my being truly happy for my youngest brother and Will Horton. I don't want to think about it; not now. I am a little afraid of what the real reason is. I have far too many things to worry about. I worry about Sonny. I worry about my school work and about all the organizing that I am going to have to do, like prom. I worry about my future. I worry.
I obviously wasn't looking where I was going because in my haste to get out of there and back to my sanctuary in the Student Council's office I felt a rather impressive thud on my shoulder. I looked down at my fries, the carton was intact and none of the fries had escaped; at least there was that. I looked up to see who I ran into. I was pretty sure that whoever it was was okay, because that person felt pretty solid. It was Chad DiMera. Great!
I had to look up to meet Chad's eyes, because he was a little taller than me. He didn't seem perturbed that I ran into him. In fact he looked like he was a little embarrassed himself. I found that funny; an embarrassed DiMera was a rarity in this town. I almost laughed out loud but I didn't; thank goodness.
He actually looked as if he wanted to talk to me. Chad and I didn't talk much; different circle of friends. And he was a DiMera and I was a Kiriakis. Our worlds hardly ever collided. I must have let my suspicions show on my face because he frowned at me, "Look man, I just wanted to let you know that I happy that you are not interfering with Will and Sonny. As a big brother, especially with Sonny's situation, you could…and you didn't…so thank you."
I was about to say a cursory, "Your Welcome", but my eyes flicked towards Sonny and Will again and I felt a tinge of jealousy come at me once more. Chad must have seen it on my face. (I really have to practice my emotionless-poker-face more) because he took a hold of my shoulders and shoved me into a ore private corner and whispered, "Look Kiriakis, Will is one of my best friend's. He deserves to be happy, and so does your brother…"
That was a little too much. No one, but especially not a DiMera is going to tell me what should be best for my brother. I straightened up, puffed my chest out and tried to feel and look as big as I could, "No you look DiMera. If anyone is going to judge what is best for my brother, it's going to be me. I am happy for him; for both of them. I just don't want my brother to get hurt."
Chad just looked at me for a long while, as if he were assessing me; judging me. He then smirked and said in a rather condescending tone, "Are you sure that's all it is Kiriakis?"
I had just about enough of this. I pushed Chad off of me. As I sprang loose and headed for my sanctuary, I turned around suddenly, and whisper-shouted to Chad, who was still looking at me with a knowing-smirk on his face, "Piss-off DiMera!", I then turned right back around and headed out of the cafeteria.
(Will's POV)
Lunch time came around and we all met up at our usual table with the exception of Alex.
"Where's Alex?", I turned and asked Joey as he took a seat at the end of the table.
"I don't know. He's probably going to be very busy with prom coming up."
"Yeah, I guess you're right", I said as I looked over at Sonny who was eating his fries, dipping each one in ketchup and licking it off before putting the whole thinking in his mouth. Who knew that eating fries could be so damn sexy?
"Do you have any idea how sexy you are when you're eating fries like that?", I stated, making Sonny raise an eyebrow.
"I'm just eating, Will. Nothing sexy about enjoying my meal."
"Says the man who's been licking the ketchup off his fries for the last ten minutes", I chuckled. Sonny clearly doesn't have any idea what the hell he's doing to me.
"I just really like ketchup. That's all", he answered innocently, as he took another fry from his plate and dipped it in ketchup and smirked.
"Well in that case, If I were to cover my mouth in ketchup, would you come and lick it off like that?", I winked as I leaned forward and captured his lips.
"Will...", he breathed out, totally surprised by my aggressiveness.
"Hum, I think that I'm really beginning to love ketchup", I smiled into the kiss and slowly pulled away.
"Yuck!", Joey hissed, "You two need to get a room!"
"Yeah, yeah. So we've been told!", I said to Joey before whispering to Sonny, "There's something that I have to do after school. Would you mind catching a ride with Joey today?", I asked him, hoping that he wouldn't be to disappointed.
"Can I come with you?", he asked and I could see that he wasn't happy about not being able to ride with me later.
"Not today, babe. This is something that I have to do by myself. But I promise that as soon as I'm done, I'll come over and we can spend some alone time together, okay?"
"Just you and me?", he sheepishly asked.
I nodded, "Just you and me, Son."
"Okay then I guess it's alright then."
I gave him a kiss, "I love you Sonny."
(Will's POV)
After class, I waited outside Sonny's class room for him to finish picking up his things so that I could walk him over to meet up with Alex and Joey who were both staying behind to work on some crucial details about the upcoming prom.
When Sonny saw me standing there waiting for him next to his class room, he smiled hard and ran right over to me.
"Hey there handsome…ready for me to walk you over to see Alex and Joey?", I asked Sonny as I placed a small kiss on his forehead.
Sonny smiled and shook his head.
"Want to know something?", I asked and looked over at him as we walked together, "I can't wait to spend some alone time with you later."
Sonny blushed and turned a deep shade of red.
"Not that kind of alone time you horn-dog. I have a surprise for you later", I teased.
"A surprise", he asked, "For me?"
"Or course it's for you. Who else would I give it too?"
He smiled and looked excited, "Is that why you're leaving without me?"
"Well, yes and no. Like I said before…I have a few things to do, but I'll be back by the time you're done here with Alex and Jo", I reassured him.
"Okay, I can't wait to spend some alone time with you either, Will", he said and gave me a sexy look, "And I do mean…that…kind of alone time."
"Oh, you naughty boy!", now I'm the one who was blushing, "Well, here's Alex and Joey's home room. Guess I'll see you later, okay?"
I leaned in, kissing him firmly on the lips.
Sonny moaned lightly, "I'll see you later, Will."
After leaving Sonny with Alex and Joey, I hurried over to my car and drove off to my first destination: The jewelry store. I walked in and I was greeted by a nice young woman by the name of Julia, "Hello, sir. My name is Julia. How can I help you today?", she offered.
"Hi, I'm Will. I'm actually here to pick up my class ring and I was also looking to purchase a gold chain for my partner."
"Oh, I see. Well, you came to the right place. I have a very wide selection of Gold chains that just came in a few days ago. Let me get the out for you so you can look them over."
"Thanks, I really appreciate that, Julia."
"Follow me", she gestured and brought me over to the counter where the chains are located, "Here, you will find our 14", 16" and 18" white gold and regular gold chains."
I smiled as I looked each and every one of them over until one specific chain caught my eye, "What about this one?", I ask, "Is this one for sale?"
"It is actually. This is a 14" gold chain with Silver embellishments."
"I've never seen anything like it before", I said to the nice woman behind the counter.
"Well. That's because it's one of a kind. You see, the owner here made this chain for his son a few years ago. However, his son preferred a longer type chain, so he decided to put this baby up for sale last week."
"How much?", I asked.
"It's a little expensive."
"The price tag doesn't matter. This is the one I want for Sonny", I said as I handed her over my credit card.
"Well, I'll have to say your made an impeccable choice Mr. Horton. Sonny's a very lucky guy. Let me wrap this up for you and get your ring from out back."
"Thanks!"
I walked out of the jewelry shop feeling happy and content with my purchase. I couldn't wait to give Sonny this necklace. It was very unique, just like he was, so it was a clear choice that this was indeed the perfect one for him. I placed the chain inside my coat pocket and hurried on over to my car.
Now there was only one more thing left to do on my list and it was the one thing that I've dreaded all day, "It's now or never, Horton!", I said to myself as I drove on over to Mr. Kiriakis' law office down town.
"Can I help you sir?", I woman asked politely as I walked into the office.
"Uh, yeah. I...I'm...", I stuttered before speaking clearly, "I'm here to see Mr. Kiriakis. I don't have an appointment or anything. It's a personal matter actually", I explained.
"Alright young man, What's your name?", again, she asked politely.
"William Horton."
"Okay, let me just message Mr. Kiriakis quickly to see if he has time to meet up with you, okay? It shouldn't be long. Have a seat while you're waiting!"
"Thanks."
I could hear my heart pounding inside my chest as Mr. Kiriakis's secretary messaged him while I waited.
It was the longest five minutes of my life!
"Mr. Kiriakis is ready for you", I heard the woman say as she got up from behind her desk and lead me on over to his office.
"Okay, thank you", I said feeling rather nervous. And that's just putting it mildly.
As walked into the office, I saw Mr. Kiriakis was sitting on the edge of his desk eagerly waiting for me, "Hello Will, I would ask you how you are, but you look like you are going to burst if you don't get out the words that you need to, so let's forgo the niceties and you can just breathe and tell me what is on your mind."
I didn't know whether I should sit or stand, because it really didn't matter actually. However, I preferred standing. Guess it's better if I have to make a run for it if it comes to that, after Mr. Kiriakis hears what I have to ask him, "I prefer to stand, sir", I said as I shook my hands a few times, because I was beginning to lose the sensation in them which was probably because by my hyperventilating.
I took a deep breath and cut right to the chase, "Sir, I would like your permission to take Sonny to the prom."
Mr. Kiriakis laughed, and I didn't know how to take it. Was it a good sign? Or was it maybe a laugh that indicated something more; something like 'if you hurt my son in any way I'm going to kill you' kind of laugh, "You wanted to ask me for permission to take Sonny to the prom? Is that all? Did you ask him?"
"Sir, No…I haven't asked Sonny to the prom yet…not officially. I wanted your permission first. You see sir, I am not just asking because it's prom. It's what prom usually implies sir. I mean…after prom… usually…sir..."
Mr. Kiriakis's face became more serious, "Will, are you asking me what I think you are asking me? Because…I am not sure if I am comfortable with this."
"Oh boy!", I thought to myself as I became flustered by what Mr. Kiriakis was implying. However, I stood tall and told him exactly what I came here to say, "Mr. Kiriakis…I am not asking for your permission to have sex with Sonny. That is an issue that he and I have to work out for ourselves…I know that I haven't known your son for very long sir…But I love him. I want to spend time with him…and if we decide to take our relationship to the next level…If we both consent…If we both want this…I just need to know that you will be okay with the result. That you won't hate your son or me for wanting to feel close to one another…"
Suddenly, there was an awkward silence in the room, and I could see that Mr. Kiriakis needed some reassurance that I would never hurt his son. So, I continued, "Sir…that is why I came to you. Sonny is a guy…a teenager…but he is also different. I need to know that he understands…but I also have this desire of closeness sir…I want to make sure Sonny understands things and that he is safe. I don't want to take advantage of him…of his innocence."
Mr. Kiriakis genuinely smiled, "Will, thank you for coming here. Thank you for talking to me about this so frankly. I know that this could not be easy for you. But you did the right thing. I'll make sure Sonny is aware of things. You needn't be afraid that you are taking advantage of him. It actually makes me less worried because now I know that you will stop yourself…there will be things you won't do…at least not too fast…just because of this love you have and the fear that you'll hurt him. I am very proud of you Will."
I inhale and exhale profoundly in relief, "Thank you, Sir. You have no idea what you're approval means to me. Thank you, sir."
"Don't mention it, son. So, will I be seeing you later on at the estate?", he asked with smiled.
I smiled, "Yes, I'm meeting Sonny over there as soon as I'm done here", I informed him.
"Alright then, off you go", Mr. Kiriakis waved me off.
"Yeah, okay. Bye Mr. Kiriakis, sir", I said as I rushed out to door to meet up with Sonny.
This when far better than I ever imagined it would. Now with Mr. Kiriakis's approval, I can finally ask Sonny to go to prom with me, and who knows…maybe I'll be lucky enough for him to say yes!
(Justin's POV)
I was finishing up an e-mail to a client when I received a very curious internal I.M. from my receptionist, "Mr. K. a rather good-looking young man by the name of William Horton would like to see you. He Does NOT have an appointment: Personal matter. I can fit him in for 10 minutes if you like."
This message intrigued me greatly. I became very curious to find out why Will Horton would be coming to my office. Will had stressed that it was a personal matter. So I surmised that Will wasn't in trouble; and that it was probably about Jackson…Sonny…boy, I am really going to have to get used to that. I instructed my receptionist to give me five minutes to finish things up and then to let William Horton into my office.
I finished up and then, as I heard the receptionist tell Will to walk through, I stood up from behind my rather imposing mahogany desk and walked to the front. I then sat on the edge of the front of the desk, trying to look and act calm and interested.
I watched Will stroll into the office looking rather nervous, but also very determined. I had made the right decision. Whatever will wanted to discuss, it was better to be less formal; the kid looked like he was about to faint.
I couldn't help but smile. Obviously Will Horton had something very personal to discuss and I couldn't help but feel a little tinge of pride at his resolve and courage. I resolved to make this as easy on Will as I could manage. I gestured for Will to sit of the chair near the desk, and I greeted him as warmly as I thought was appropriate, "Hello Will, I would ask you how you are, but you look like you are going to burst if you don't get out the words that you need to, so let's forgo the niceties and you can just breathe and tell me what is on your mind."
I had to stifle a laugh. The poor kid was standing in front of the chair debating whether to sit or not. He fidgeted with his hands. His cheeks were getting redder by the second. He finally said, "I prefer to stand, sir."
I simply nodded. I saw him shake his hands , breathe deeply and then say, "Sir, I would like your permission to take Sonny to the prom."
This time I did laugh, I couldn't help myself. After a little chuckle and seeing Will's eyes widen with adolescent incredulity, I stopped, cocked my head and said, in as sincere and calm voice as I could muster, "You wanted to ask me for permission to take Sonny to the prom? Is that all? Did you ask him?"
I could see it wasn't all. I wasn't sure what else there could be, but Will's lips twitched just a little, his cheeks got even redder; and in my vast experience as a lawyer I can only describe the look in his eyes as 'guilty'. I waited patiently.
Eventually Will spoke, "Sir, No…I haven't asked Sonny to the prom yet…not officially. I wanted your permission first. You see sir, I am not just asking because it's prom. It's what prom usually implies sir. I mean…after prom… usually…sir..."
I was taken a little aback by that. Was Will actually asking me what I thought he was? I never thought that I would have one of my son's potential love interests come to me to ask permission to start something…to be intimate. To be truly honest, up until a few days ago, I never thought Jackson would ever have a potential love interest. But Will seems to be an extremely responsible person and Jackson (Sonny…I have to start remembering to refer to him as Sonny) was a very special person too. My instinct was to be a protective father and not give my blessing. But that would be unfair to my son. He was technically old enough to make these kinds of decisions on his own. But I still felt that I should say something, "Will, are you asking me what I think you are asking me? Because…I am not sure if I am comfortable with this."
I could see Will become slightly flustered. But his body straightened and his facial features hardened (just a little) and his blushing diminished, "Mr. Kiriakis…I am not asking for your permission to have sex with Sonny. That is an issue that he and I have to work out for ourselves…I know that I haven't known your son for very long sir…But I love him. I want to spend time with him…and if we decide to take our relationship to the next level…If we both consent…If we both want this…I just need to know that you will be okay with the result. That you won't hate your son or me for wanting to feel close to one another…"
I knew that Will was right. A couple should have the right to make these kinds of decisions for themselves. Will and Sonny were both old enough. But Sonny had just come out of his shell. His perceptions were different from most people. I would need to know that Sonny understood what the implications of certain actions would be. I told this to Will. And to my surprise Will simply nodded his head and agreed, "Sir…that is why I came to you. Sonny is a guy…a teenager…but he is also different. I need to know that he understands…but I also have this desire of closeness sir…I want to make sure Sonny understands things and that he is safe. I don't want to take advantage of him…of his innocence."
Will's answer made me smile. I was very proud of him. This was a very selfless and mature way of thinking. I now feel that Will truly does love my son, "Will, thank you for coming here. Thank you for talking to me about this so frankly. I know that this could not be easy for you. But you did the right thing. I'll make sure Sonny is aware of things. You needn't be afraid that you are taking advantage of him. It actually makes me less worried because now I know that you
will stop yourself…there will be things you won't do…at least not too fast…just because of this love you have and the fear that you'll hurt him. I am very proud of you Will."
I watched Will's features relax. He even smiled. I could see his stance change from being defensive to having more strength. What I said made him proud of himself. It is what I intended. We said our goodbyes and as I watched my youngest son's boyfriend walk out of him office it suddenly hit me. I was going to have to have 'the talk' with my youngest son. Something I didn't think would ever happen. I was ecstatic; but now, realization set in and thoughts of my having to have this talk with Sonny flooded my mind and feelings of dread and anxiety came over me. Great.
(Will's POV)
"Hi! Can I come in?", I asked as I walked into Sonny's room and kissed his cheek.
"You came back", he looked excited as he got up from his back and wrapped his arms tightly around me.
"I told you I would come back as soon as I was done with my errand", I informed him as I equality wrapped my arms around my boyfriends waist.
"I missed you, Will."
"I missed you too, babe. So, much", I said to him and kissed him softly, "So, do you want to talk about what happened today at school?", I ask, curious about what set him off.
He took a deep breath and sat down on his bed and shook his head, "No."
I slowly closed the space between us, and sat down beside of him, "Babe, if you don't tell me what had you so upset, maybe I can help you?"
His shoulders slumped and he sighed, "Not now Will", he said. I could tell he was holding back tears, so I wrapped my arms around his shoulders and pulled him closer into my chest.
He shrugged my arms off and stood up. He walked across the room and sat down in the recliner, facing away from me.
"Okay, you're mad. Can you tell me why?"
Sonny crossed his arms over his chest and harumphed. He puffed his cheeks out and stared at the wall.
I let out a loud sigh as I stood up to walk to his chair. I sank down to my knees in front of him and took both of his beautifully crafted hands in mine and said, "Sonny? Sonny please look at me."
He shook his head, "Please?", I ask.
He sighs and turns his head and looks at me but still refuses to make eye contact with me. I miss those chocolate brown's looking at me.
"Why are you mad at me babe?", I ask again, "What did I do that upset you so much? Please tell me so that I can promise to never do it again. I hate you being this upset, and I hate me for being the one that did it."
"Don't...", Sonny started but stopped. I wasn't sure what he was telling me not to do, so I sat there letting him get his mind wrapped around his thoughts.
"Don't hate you. I'm just mad at you", he said and looked away again. I followed his gaze and saw that he was looking at a photo sitting beside of the television. I stood up and walked to the photo, realizing it was one that Joey had taken earlier in the month, of all four of us at lunch. I smiled as I picked up the picture frame and walked back over to Sonny's chair.
"Do you remember this day?", I ask.
Sonny nodded his head, "Yes, I was so happy because it was the day you told me you wanted to be my boyfriend", Sonny said with a sad smile, "I'm not so happy any more."
"Can you please tell me why so that I can fix this?", I ask again, tears threaten to fall from my eyes.
"You told Gabi you would take her to the prom!", his shout startled me out of my reverie. What was he talking about?
"No I didn't babe. Is that what you thought I was saying?", I slowly came back to his chair and rested my hands on his knees, "Because it wasn't. Gabi and I are friends. We've been friends for a long time. I just didn't know how to tell her that I wasn't available and not embarrass her in front of the school", I paused to see if he was following where I was going with this, "So, to be tactful, I said I would think about it. She's known me long enough to know that means no", I said with a small chuckle. I didn't want him to think that I was laughing at him.
"So, so you don't want to go with her?"
My heart dropped at that. This boy sounded like a 5-year-old little boy, asking his mommy to spend time with him.
"Sonny, you're the only one that I want to take to prom. I haven't asked you yet because we haven't really had a lot of time to speak privately", I said, raising one hand up to cup Sonny's rosy pink cheek, "I was hoping that you would do me the honor of being my prom date?"
Sonny's eyes got really wide and bright, "Really?", he asked. I wasn't sure if he was shocked or relieved that I asked him.
"Yes babe, really. The school already knows we're dating, thanks to your misunderstanding today", I said and ruffled his hair a bit. He blushes under my touch.
"I love when you do that."
"Do what?", he asks, tilting his head to the side trying to understand what I'm meaning.
"Blush. You're so sexy when you blush", I leaned forward and whispered into his ear, "Sonny, remember this always. I love you. I love you more than there are grains of sand. I love you more than there are stars in the sky. I love you more than there are words in every language put together. I will always want you by my side. Please don't ever doubt that", I give him a small peck on his nose.
I leaned back a bit and pulled out of my pocket the gold chain that I purchased earlier from the jewelry store and slid my class ring on it as a pendant. I handed it over to Sonny and waited for his reaction.
"Will...You want me to have your ring?", he asked as the tears fall from his eyes.
"Yes, Sonny. I want you to wear my ring so that everyone knows that you're mine and no one else's."
I took the necklace back from his hand and placed it round his neck and kissed him softly on the lips, "I love you, Sonny."
"I love you too, Will. I'm sorry for yelling earlier", he said wrapping his arms around my neck.
"It's okay, babe. Now do we have a date or what?"
"It's a date", he said with the biggest smile I think I've ever seen in my life. I know that things will never be easy for us, but I hope to make things easier for him. Some day, we will be accepted and he will be happy, I just pray to God that I can be the rock he needs.
To Be Continued...OXO
