For those of you who are confused this chapter takes place before last chapter, And most of the idea's were given to me by Crexis The Purple Macaw and I have to thank him for all the great suggestions.


"Home sweet home, I guess" Crexis said a bit depressed as he spotted his small tree in the Amazon rainforest, he landed in the small hollow and took a deep breath, Crexis closed his eyes only fort them to dart open again, he started to breathe heavily. It seemed like every time he closed his eyes he saw a scientist looming over him, Crexis shivered at the thought. My life is terrible he thought as he slumped down in his nest, No friends, no family, no nothing. Crexis hadn't lived a happy life, it wasn't all fun and games like other kids, it was pain, despair, and sorrow, no one could or would understand. No one felt the syringes being jabbed into them, no one felt the pain from various tests, and no one was treated with cruelty, no they had parents who were guardian angels for their kids. Bits and Pieces of Crexis' past came back to him, the custodian... the internet... the labs...the needles... and the pain, every now and then Crexis could feel the multiple syringe wounds pulse into his blood, they were a painful burden of his past, and he hated it. Crexis sat there, a word hung on his beak but he couldn't spit it out, as if on que a pulse went through his body causing him to blurt the word out, "Custodian!" he shouted, Crexis winced at the word, He knew what it was like, he tried to help, but he always got caught. "It's not fair!" he yelled stamping his talon on the ground, "Why! Huh! Why me!" he shouted hoping someone would give him the answer.

Another Pulse.

Crexis' Journal entry 1-In Crexis' POV

I could see Gulio being punched continuously, and it was all because of him, Gulio told me the truth "There are no other Purple Spix Macaws, you're the only one, I'm sorry Crexis. Every one here was lying to you" Gulio's words hung like a fish-hook in my mind, by the look of shock on my face Gulio could tell I wasn't taking it well. "Crexis I'm sorry, I can't imagine how you feel right now" Gulio said trying to comfort me, before he could say anything else I flew back into the aviary to console with my pain. I didn't even notice it but I started to sing the song "Alone" by Heart that I Heard Gulio listening to yesterday on his Walkman as he sweeped the floors.

I hear the ticking of the clock, I'm lying here the room's pitch dark

I wonder where you are tonight, no answer on your telephone

And the night goes by so very slow, Oh I hope that it wont end though

Alone

I finished one verse until I saw a flock of birds, Blue Macaws to be exact, from what I could see there were two birds who looked unusual, one a Red Crested Cardinal and a Yellow Canary with a bottle cap on his head, they were trying desperately to keep a Toco Toucan airborne as he was drifting off to sleep, and then there were five blue macaws in flight, two adults and three kids. I leaned over the edge of the window-sill and let out an exasperated sigh, "I wish I could be free like you guys", to my surprise one of them heard me, it was the chubbier one who flew to the window-sill, "Hello?" she called out looking around the area, "Is someone there? Hello?" she called out again, I hid behind a box near the window-sill, she was a girl after all and I've never talked to a girl, but the most important thing was that she was a stranger. "Carla!? Where'd you go?!" a very concerned father yelled, "Maybe she gotten eaten by an Anaconda!" the youngest of the family said trying to sound as dramatic as possible, "Tiago! Stop it!" the father scolded, "Sorry Dad, I thought I heard someone!" Carla yelled back, "You're probably just tired come on" the father yelled back, I peeked around the corner of the box to get a glance at her face, "Wow" I sighed. The rest of the night I couldn't stop thinking about the girl named Carla. I think she was around my age, which is early pre-teen. Why cant I stop thinking about her? In my mind a word comes up "Cute". but why? She is the first female macaw I have ever seen. You know what journal? I've had enough! I am not going to give up or give in any longer! I want freedom! I want to belong! I wanna sing and dance and be like any other macaw!

That's it! I leave tomorrow morning, No exceptions, Humans, why did I ever think that I could trust them. I was so naive, so stupid.

Journal entry 1 ends

Crexis looked up from his journal, he sighed sadly, "Why?" he asked himself, "Why is my life a living hell?" Outside of the hollow, a branch snapped, Crexis was caught of guard and jumped out of the nest and looked outside, he was half shocked and half relieved to see who caused the branch to snap, Carla. "Hey" Crexis said a bit mad that she had snuck up on him, "Hey. Do you mind if I come in?" she asked, "Actually I do mind" Crexis replied grumpily, "Well to late, I'm already here" Carla said as she looked around the hollow, "So you live here" she said looking confused, "Yeah, why?" Crexis asked returning the confused look, "I thought you said that you lived with your parents" Carla said eyeing a bag in the corner, "I do" Crexis said, "Then why is there only one nest?" Carla asked hoping to get a truthful answer, Crexis didn't want to admit it, but Carla had talked him into a corner. "Um... there Uh... on vacation" Crexis lied, "So they left a teenager all by himself in the Amazon jungle" Carla confirmed, "Yeah, they did cuz they know that I'm responsible" Crexis said, "Pfft, You gotta learn to lie better" Carla stated, "Just tell me the truth" Crexis looked at her with an unsure expression, "You wouldn't understand" he said promptly, "Yes I will" Carla said pleadingly, "Fine" Crexis grumbled.

Over the next hour, Crexis told Carla his story, he was tested, experimented, abused, lied to. He told her about Gulio and how caring he was. Crexis looked over to Carla who had tears in her eye's, "I'm... I'm sorry, I had no idea" Carla said wiping her eye's, "Why are you crying?" Crexis asked confused, "Didn't you hear yourself! Nobody helped you, they lied to you, the abused you!" Carla said between sobs, "Hmph, stupid" Crexis grumbled, "Hey! Never make fun of a girl when she's sad!" Carla yelled aggressively, "Sorry" he mumbled. "Why didn't you tell us?" Carla asked, "I didn't think you'd understand" Crexis replied, "Well I don't know what it's like to be tested on, but I do know what it's like to feel different" Carla said putting a wing on Crexis' shoulder. "Really? What do you mean?" Crexis asked perplexed, "I was made fun of as a chick for being chubby, and everyone ganged up on me" Carla said, Crexis saw that her expression saddened, "Sorry I didn't mean to bring up bad memories" Crexis apologized, "Ha! They're nothing compared to yours" Carla said trying to cheer the two of them up. Crexis looked outside, it was getting dark, "Hey Carla, it's getting dark and I think you should go home." Crexis stated looking out of the hollow, "Yeah I guess you're right" Carla said looking outside, "Come with me" she said, "What?" Go where?" Crexis asked, "To my place, don't be an old fart living by yourself, live with us. Please?" Carla pleaded, "I don't know" Crexis said unsure of what to do, "Well you didn't say 'No' so you basically said 'Yes'!" Carla exclaimed. "Ugh... Fine" Crexis agreed in defeat.

Carla and Crexis were almost there when they flew across Roberto, Eduardo, and Mimi, "What the-" Roberto said, he didn't believe his eye's, the omen was true, the purple macaw is real! "Carla get away from it!" Eduardo yelled reaching out to pull Carla away from Crexis, "Hey stop it!" Carla yelled as Eduardo pulled on her tail feathers, "Let her go!" Crexis shouted as he bit Eduardo's leg, not hard but hard enough to make him let go of Carla's tail feathers. As soon as Carla was free she looked at Eduardo with hate embedded in her pupil's. "Carla I-" Eduardo began, "No!" Carla shouted at him and flew off, "Carla wait!" Crexis yelled, but it was no use she was to far away, Damn it! Crexis yelled in his head, Eduardo shoved Crexis away from him causing Crexis to yelp in pain, Eduardo said nothing, he just glared at Crexis with hate, "What?! You caused this!" Crexis shouted as he flew after Carla.