Hey! I'm sorry the last chapter ended so sadly! :'(
But do not fear! It's not the end yet, there is still time to make things right. :p
I'm sad yet happy to say that Not Who I Expected is nearing it's end! (Happy because we've come this far) :D
This is possibly the second-last chapter or maybe the third-last if I want to make a '6 months later' type thing…
'Thank you' to everyone who commented! (Now there's over 1 page of comments. I may seem a bit sad but it made me really happy :'( - tears of joy.) Thanks to everyone who has continued to read Not Who I Expected. :D
Betty69Blue- Thanks for your comment! I agree with you about Rosalie. I hate it when people do stuff like this just because they can.
Arisbella805- Thanks for the comment! I feel bad for Bella too, I tried to make her seem like the victim as much as possible (even though she really is…)
Soccerislife08- Thank you for the comment!I will make Bella talk to Rosalie as soon as I can!
Rides the beast- Thanks for the comment! I know what you mean. If it was me in her situation I would try my best to forget about him but sometimes it's more difficult than it sounds, you know?
-Sure I Am
Disclaimer: I don't own Twilight
Chapter 12- Sometimes you can't help but laugh when what you want to do the most is cry
I didn't want to go outside but promised Angela. I hadn't been in the mood to do much lately. We'd be meeting up with Ben and his friends (but without Mike this time, Ben realised Mike was creepy) at Ben's house.
Right now I'm on the bus on the way to Ben's with Angela, Daisy and Leila. I think things are going well between Angela and Ben. She made me go to her place early to help her get ready and choose what to wear. She's already asked me a few times if her hair's messed up. I don't see how it could be; her hair's the type that only moves out of place in a hurricane.
Daisy and Leila are also looking forward to seeing the guys. Things were also going well for them in their love lives. Of course, Ben invited someone else in Mike's place so that I wouldn't feel left out at all. I know I should feel excited, but I don't. I don't think I've really properly smiled since I saw Edward and Rosalie together on that swing. We're supposed to see each other again soon but I've not replied yet, I got the message yesterday:
Hey :p
We're planning a meet-up for the weekend after the next. Can you make it on Saturday or Sunday?
Tell me when you can! :D
Love you lots,
-Alice ;) xxxxx
I don't know if I can take much more of Edward and Rosalie. I haven't asked Alice about her feelings with Rosalie and Jasper yet, though. I know she'll just deny anything I say about her feelings for him.
"It's the next one," says Angela, checking out her hair in the reflection of the window.
"Oh! Let's play 'Chicken'!" says Leila excitedly.
"What's 'Chicken'?" asks Daisy.
"When you're on the bus and you have to get off, the last person to stand up wins," says Leila.
"But what if no one stands up and you stay on the bus forever?" asks Daisy.
"Well that's not going to happen, is it?" says Leila. "There's always a place where the bus finally stops and everyone has to get off. You're not going to be able to stay on it forever."
The bus stopped and the doors opened with a beeping noise.
"Okay! Let's start!" said the excited Leila.
We all waited until the other passengers had made their way off the bus. Angela was the first to stand up and make a dash for the doors; she didn't want to miss seeing Ben. Daisy followed soon after. Leila and I were the last ones, Leila probably because she was determined to win. I didn't really care too much, I was a seat closer than her to the doors so I'd get off the bus before her even if she stood up first. Leila finally gave up and we only just made it off the bus in time before the doors closed. Angela didn't look amused when the doors only just closed behind us.
We soon arrived at Ben's house and were invited inside by his mother. We made our way upstairs, to the living room.
"Jacob?" I said, surprised to see him standing next to Ben.
"Bella!" said Jacob, smiling. "It's good to see you again."
Ben, Angela, Daisy and Leila looked at us blankly.
"Right, sorry! We've met before. It was when I went with my friends form my old school to get a Halloween costume," I explained.
"Yep, she almost passed out when I jumped out on her in the store."
"It wasn't only that! You were also wearing a mask."
"Who says I was wearing a mask?"
We others stayed silent for a few more seconds.
"You know you just insulted yourself, right?" I asked.
"Yup, but it just seemed right to say," he said happily.
Seth and Eric arrived soon after. We played cheat, Cluedo and just talked for the rest of the day. I realised how great Jacob was. He broke the tension between us and made us laugh together, sometimes for minutes at a time. I realised it was the first time I laughed since seeing Edward. Edward. I felt a stabbing pain in my chest when I even said his name in my head.
I'm being so stupid. How can he have this effect on me when we barely even talk anymore? I should like someone else — someone who makes me feel special, wanted. I should like someone who makes me laugh the way Jacob does, who makes me feel happy to be with him. Someone who makes me feel warm and safe. I don't like Jacob in that way. I don't know what's wrong with me, I want to like Jacob instead but I can't. it's almost as if I'm aiming to hurt myself time after time again.
I laughed together with the others about something I hadn't heard, not wanting to stand out. My eyes started to tear up once again. I'm so tired of crying.
"I'm just going to use the bathroom," I said, dashing off. They'd only worry about me if they saw my red, blotchy eyes.
I rushed to the bathroom we'd passed earlier on the way to the garden, not bothering to lock the door. I leant against the sink, using my arms to support my weight. I barely noticed Angela opening the door and coming in. She walked over to me and wrapped her arms around me. I leant on her shoulder and hugged her back.
"This is ridiculous, Bella," said Angela in a soft voice. "You should just talk to them. You still haven't even asked her if she sent you the message. You should also talk to Edward, misunderstandings can happen so easily. I would know, I read so much shoujo manga."
I let out a small laugh and walked over to get some toilet paper to blow my nose. I didn't want snot going on the outfit Angela spent so long to choose.
"Just think about it, Bella," she continued. "What're you going to lose if you just talk to them? At the moment you don't have a particularly healthy relationship with them. It can only get better for you now. Even if it goes badly you still have me. Alice and Jasper aren't going to stop being your friend either."
"I know," I managed to say.
"Let's go back now, Ok?" said Angela kindly. "They'll get worried too. I don't think there's enough room in here for all of us."
"Ok," I nodded, smiling gently. "I'm just going to wash my face. I'll be there in a minute."
"See you then," she said, smiling before leaving the room.
I felt around in my pocket for my phone. I opened the last message from Alice and replied:
Saturday's good for me.
See you then xxx
I then put the mobile back in my pocket, looked at my reflection in the mirror and fixed my smudged eye shadow. I then took a deep breath and went back to my friends.
Thank you for reading! I hope you liked this chapter a little better than the last one. :D
Please continue to read it until the end! (which should be soon enough)
I've been thinking about my next Fanfic. I don't think I'll do another Twilight one for the moment but I was thinking about doing a Harry Potter one Maybe? I like the ScorpiusXRose Fanfics the most but I just think they'll be difficult to write…
I love writing stories. When I'm older I want to me a comic artist. Not only because I love drawing but also because I love writing. For me, It's the perfect job :D . I constantly think up new ideas for comics but they wouldn't work for Fanfics, I'm afraid :'( . Every night I write at least four lines of script for the comic I want to make when I'm skilled enough at drawing. I do this so that I keep myself inspired enough to never have writing block for it. I always write at least four lines without fail (other than if I'm at a sleepover or on a school trip). I've done this since I've started which was last October. I've already filled one and a half books with writing. I haven't shown anyone what I've written so far, no one thinks I'm as serious about becoming a comic artist as I really am. I've told my Mum but I don't think she has enough confidence in me so she always suggests other jobs to me which I have zero interest in. I want nothing else than to draw and come up with stories which make the reader happy, sad, excited or angry. I'm always the happiest when I'm reading, writing or drawing.
I hope you'll check out my Deviantart account. There's a link to it on my profile if you're interested.
Thank you for listening to (reading) my ramblings! ;D
-Sure I Am
