He laid down a yellow rose with a ribbon tied around it. He then placed his hand on the coffin. "I'm going to miss you so much honey. I never imagined life would turn out this way without you. I can't even think how it will be without you... I am sorry that I failed you Adrian. I am sorry this happened." Bryan said as his tears continued to flow down in a steady stream. And then Bryan and the kids walked away.
"Wait! Come back! You didn't fail me, I failed you. Oh why can't I just get back to you." Adrian said as her family dissapears before her. And Adrian lays on the ground and then she hears footsteps and then a hand reaches out to her. Adrian takes the hand and stands up and she is looking straight into Amy's eyes.
"Amy." Adrian said as she hugged her.
"Adrian this is how this will turn out if you don't fight. Your family needs you so much. You need to fight." Amy said to her.
"I don't know how to fight." Adrian said in her tears.
"You do. The answers are inside of you. You have to just put the pieces together and make sense of where you are now and where you need to be. Otherwise Adrian things will get far worse than you ever thought. Your life will leave cracks that will break your family apart. Remember who are. Remember Adrian. Remember." Amy kept saying.
Then Adrian awoke to Ben shaking her. She could feel the sweat pouring down her face. And her heart was racing. Adrian looked over and saw a worried look on his face. "I'm alright. I think." Adrian said trying to convince them both.
"You were crying and screaming. You called out Amy's name. Do you want me to see if she is awake?" Ben asked her as he tried to calm Adrian down.
"No... oh no. I must have been dreaming again. The memories are just so crazy. I sometimes just get so confused at figuring out if they are real or they aren't real. I guess I still get overwhelmed by it all. I'll be alright though. I didn't mean to wake you up. Go back to bed. I think I will just read my book for a while." Adrian said as she leaned over and turned her bedside lamp on and picked up the novel that was on her bedside.
"You sure?" Ben asked her.
"Yeah. I am just going to relax a little bit before I join you. Just a few minutes. I promise." Adrian said.
"Okay. I love you." Ben said and leaned over and kissed her forehead and then he laid back down and fell asleep quickly. Adrian opened the novel but couldn't concentrate on the book. So Adrian just stared off trying to put the pieces together but somehow it seemed like she was more confused than ever. How could she get out of here by remembering. She remembered everything. She just didn't understand how to figure this out. Eventually Adrian turned off her light and laid back down. She took a while to get comfortable with the baby pressing on her nerve it was hard but she finally got comfortable.
The next day Adrian decides to go see Bryan and try to figure out what was going on. So she got his address and she takes her car which was finally fixed after the car accident after the funeral. She drove around until she finally came upon a small but very nice home. She parked out front and then she picked up her purse and her keys and walked up to the front door. She knocked and then after a few seconds the door opened and their stood Susan. She was heavily pregnant.
"Can I help you miss?" Susan asked.
"Yes I wondering if I could see Bryan." Adrian finally found her voice and asked.
"Oh yes. Bryan." Susan yelled.
"I am sure he will be down. Oh your pregnant too." Susan said as she patted her very extended stomach.
"Yeah a little girl any day now." Adrian said.
"Yeah were having a boy and a girl. Twins! But we are excited." Susan says.
"Any names yet?" Susan asked.
"Um not sure yet." Adrian said.
"We finally settled on Natalie and Noah." Susan said with a huge smile on her face.
Adrian's eyes widened. "Well congrats." Adrian said as she tried ot smile as best as she could.
"Thank you. Oh here is Bryan. Nice to meet you miss." Susan said and walked away.
Bryan sees Adrian and he comes outside and closes the door behind him. He stares into Adrian's eyes. "What are you doing here Adrian?" Bryan finally said.
"I just wanted to talk with you and see how you are but I can leave your obviously upset." Adrian said as she begins to walk away and then Bryan reaches out and he touches Adrian's hands. And electric shock runs between them. Adrian and Bryan's eyes meet as this happens.
"Wait please." Bryan said and Adrian stopped and turned around.
"How are you?" Adrian asked finally.
"Alright, you?" Bryan asked.
"Okay." Adrian said.
"What happened to us Bryan?" Adrian said out loud.
"Adrian there isn't an us. I think you are a beautiful woman and your husband is very lucky." Bryan said.
"In another life we are and we have our children and we really loved one another and then I decided that taking my life was better for all of you. How could I do that?" Adrian said as she wiped away her tears.
"Adrian it will be okay." Bryan said as he tried to comfort her.
"I don't know if it ever will be Bryan. I hope so." Adrian said aloud and then the door opened and Susan came back out.
"Honey dinner is done. Why don't you invite you friend to eat with us we have plenty of food." Susan said and kissed his cheek.
"I will be right in." Bryan said as Susan walked back inside and closed the door behind her.
"I shouldn't have come. This was a mistake." Adrian said as she ran for her car. She pushed her alarm and her car unlocked. She got in and started the engine than drove off all crazy. Bryan watched in horror as she left. He ran inside to call Ricky and let him know what had happened.
Adrian kept driving as her tears kept blinding her and it started to rain and Adrian put her windshield wipers on but just as they started to clear away the rain drops a small child appeared in the road. So Adrian swerved quickly and her car ran off the road and into the ditch and Adrian hit her head on the steering wheel. She blacked out and she saw a bright white light and then she remembered nothing as everything went dark again.
Then she stood in a field and Ben was right next to her. He was holding her hand and he smiled over at her and she smiled back at him too. "I didn't want to die Adrian. I wanted us to be together for a lifetime. I guess it was a short lifetime. I always love you Adrian. Don't let Hope forget me. I want her to know about me. I know now what I have to do. I have to let you go so that you can move on. I have been holding onto you. I didn't want to let you go. But I am a part of your past and present awaits you. I love you so much Adrian. Don't forget to remember me. Remember." Ben said and he kissed her gently and then everything went dark again.
Then Adrian woke up to monitors beeping and someone calling her name. A guy's voice she thought. She knew that voice so well. Why couldn't she put a face to it? Then she knew it was Bryan he was calling out for her. And Adrian opened her eyes and she was staring into her husbands very worried and sad looking face. She reached up and gently stroked his cheek.
"Oh Thank God Adrian. I thought I had lost you. I love you honey." Bryan said as he leaned in and kissed her forehead. Adrian couldn't talk with the breathing tube down her throat but she could hold his hand and stare up at him. She had waited it seemed like an eternity to see him, but yet now she was incredibily sad that Ben wasn't here and he wasn't comforting her. And she knew that one part of her heart she had to let go of and the other she had to hold onto to. Even though it would break her heart to say a final goodbye to the one she loved so much. s
