A/N: Wow I am so sorry for the lack of updates recently. I've been very busy with a lot of things but know that I have not forgotten about my stories and I will continue to update all of them. Sorry again and I hope you are all still there and please if you could leave a review giving me your support that would be great. Thanks! PS: this chapter will be in Sookie's point of view.
Disclaimer: I do not own any of these characters.
The window was surrounded by dust from lack of cleaning and I ran my fingers across the surface of it, feeling the coldness from outside hitting my fingers lightly. I shivered lightly as the coldness ran through my body as I sat there staring outside.
The trees seemed to cast shadows of darkness as they stood there tall with the top of each tree connecting to the other making an almost tunnel like appearance. The darkness grew lighter and lighter in the tunnel and I knew that the sun would be up soon and I felt the panic in me rise as I realized Eric was still not back.
I closed my eyes and reached into our bond and I knew he was close by. I sat still as I heard the door open and close gently. I felt Eric come by my side and put a hand on my shoulder. I shrugged him away and I could feel the hurt in him.
"The sun will be up soon." He stated and I nodded.
He sighed and I wish I could make him feel better but I just couldn't. The nightmares from the torture that was placed on me still haunted me and I wanted to be strong but I just couldn't.
"Please don't be hurt." I whispered to him.
He needed to know that I still loved him and I didn't blame him for anything that happened. I could feel his regret, his grief, and his sadness over everything that has happened and it broke my heart. I wanted to kiss him and hold him and tell him everything was alright but I wasn't even sure it was.
"How can I not be? The memories of what happened will always haunt me but it will haunt me even more if I find out that I lost you because of it." I felt the tears fall from my eyes as I turned around to face him.
For the past few days I have avoided any real visual contact with Eric and I now could finally see the toll all of this had on him. His eyes, which usually radiated a vibrant blue, were now a dull grey with red circles covering the rim of them. He seemed paler than usual and I knew he had not fed for a while. He actually looked his age and I could see all of his emotions displayed on his face.
I shakily put my hand up to his cheek and he bent his head into it.
"You haven't lost me." I told him and he opened his eyes and looked directly into mine as if he was staring into my soul.
"We must go to the bedroom; the sun will be up soon." He told me and I followed him as he connected my hand with his.
As we got into the room I walked over to the bed and got comfortable in the sheets. Eric stripped himself of his shirt and got into bed next to me.
As the silence filled the room I realized that I haven't really talked to Eric at all since the Russell thing happened. I was selfish to think that I was the only one affected by this. I may have been tortured but so was Eric and he had taken the responsibility to push aside his own feelings to ensure that my feelings were taken care of. He had to be strong and God dammit so was I.
It was like a light bulb went off inside my mind and I actually shot up. Eric stared at me with a weird expression and I knew he was looking into our bond and trying to decipher my feelings.
"This is what he wanted." I told him and Eric got up.
"What?"
"This is what Russell wanted. He wanted us to be broken." I put my hand through my hair and laid back onto the bed.
My emotions were running wild through me and I couldn't contain them. I felt silly but I could already feel the tears falling from my eyes.
"What are you thinking about?" Eric asked as he turned his body to me as he connected his hand with mine.
"I'm so sorry I've been so selfish." I cried and he got closer to me and held me.
"Please don't cry, you haven't been selfish." He told me softly and I could feel the love he was sending me through our bond.
"I have and I haven't been thinking about your feelings. You and I were in the same place that night and here I've been only thinking about myself. You haven't been allowed to let your feelings run their course, not like I have." He laughed gently.
"You shouldn't be concerned with that. A vampire feels much differently than a human does. I've had years of experience hiding my feelings"
"But that's the thing; you shouldn't have to do that with me. Besides that's a lie, I know you feel just like I do, I know you too well for you to tell me that. Plus I'm not human."
"But you have a human heart, a human soul." He said as he caressed my cheek.
"So do you, only one of those things just doesn't really beat anymore." He smiled and it looked good to see a little life come back to him.
"Sookie, I'm fine." I could see the lie behind his eyes and he knew I could.
"Don't lie to me. With me you don't have to lie." I kissed him gently and I realized this was the first time we have kissed in almost a week.
I could feel Eric start to relax a bit and I could feel the wall that was around him start to melt and he wrapped his arms around me a little tighter. The kiss was soft and sensual, yet it held a certain amount of possessiveness.
When I opened my eyes I could see blood tears begin to fall from his eyes and it reminded me of my dream after Godric had died.
"I thought I lost you." He told me and I could see the pain and grief in his eyes.
The last time I saw Eric this vulnerable was when he was under Antonia's spell and it reminded me of the man I fell in love with and the man I would always choose. He was the light at the end of my tunnel and I knew no matter what happened he would always be there to find me again.
"I love you so much, you will never lose me." I kissed him again and the kiss was more desperate this time.
This was the first time we were both going through our feelings and emotions. I was lost these past couple of days but it took me to realize that so was Eric to get me out of my funk.
This is what it really meant to love someone.
"I wish I could stay up with you." He whispered to me and I smiled.
"Go to sleep, I'll still be here when you wake up." I kissed both of his cheeks, like the dream, and I kissed one soft kiss on his lips.
He got comfortable, still holding me, and I felt his part of the bond go dark. I knew he was dead for the day and I laid there staring at him.
I took a sigh of relief as I felt more like myself and I knew my own tiredness was about to get to me.
I closed my eyes and let sleep take over me.
….
I opened my eyes and I was on the ground of a forest with snow all around me. The snow wasn't cold and I realized I was dressed in goddess like attire.
"Hello?" My voiced echoed throughout the snow covered trees.
"What a waste." A female voice spoke firmly and I looked all around me to find the source of the voice.
It sounded familiar, but not in a good way.
"Where are you!" I yelled as I realized whose voice it was.
"Here my dear." I looked to the other end of the forest and saw Mab step out.
"What the fuck do you want!" I screamed at her.
Everything was her fault and my rage coursed through me.
"I want you dead but it seems we all don't get what we want." She walked closer to me and I held my hand in front of me.
"Stay back."
"You can't hurt me." She smiled as she continued to get closer to me.
Her beauty began to fade away and she began to look like the monster she was.
"Leave me alone!" I yelled at her as I tried to summon up my powers but I found I couldn't.
Fear was starting to seep into me as she presented a knife from her pocket and smiled devilishly at me.
I felt like I was in a Freddy Krueger movie and the only thing left for me to do was run.
I ran away from her with all of my might and tried looking for a place to hide.
"No place to hide." I heard her voice all around me.
I ran faster and I tripped over a stick in the ground. I heard her coming closer to me and I closed my eyes in fear until I felt a soft hand on my shoulder.
"No need to fear, come with me." I opened my eyes and saw a man with jet black hair and ocean like blue eyes.
"Who are you?" I asked him as he helped me up.
"Family." He smiled and it clicked in my head.
"Your Niall." I said in disbelief and he winked at me.
"Come now." He grabbed my hand and when I opened my eyes we were in a cave like area.
"Where are we?" I asked as I looked around.
"My prison." He told me grimly.
"Prison, why did you take us here?"
"Surprisingly, it's the last place she would look for you." He laughed and sat down on the ground.
"How did you get out of here?"
"I like her to think she has the power so when the time comes for a revolution she won't expect it. I am the most powerful creature in this realm and if she thinks otherwise then pride has truly become her sin." He smiled widely at me showing me his brilliantly white teeth.
"How did I get here though?"
"You aren't really here, your subconscious is. Your body is still next to your bonded but your spirit is here. It was the only way she could get you without your friends meddling in."
"How come she never did it before?" I asked.
"Wasn't smart enough most likely."
"How do I know she won't do it again?" He shrugged.
"You don't," he paused, "not without my help at least."
He got up and grabbed a bracelet dangling from the wall.
"Wear this at all times and she won't be able to get into your head." He gave it to me and reached into his pocket.
He handed me another one, "This one is for your bonded, just in case. I have one and so does Amelia." He smiled.
"How do you know it works?"
"Because my magic never fails. Go back and be safe, we will be in touch." He winked at me once more and when I opened my eyes I was back in bed with Eric.
When I looked at my wrist the bracelet was there and when I looked over at Eric's the bracelet was also there.
"Well I'll be damned." I said softly to myself.
The fear of still having the fairies after me still coursed through me and now I knew I really needed to get over the Russell incident. The feelings still haunted me but I knew that I was stronger than all of this. I needed to pull myself together not just for Eric but for myself.
I needed to prove everyone wrong about me; I needed to show everyone I wasn't the damsel in distress but that I was the hero.
I looked over to Eric and I smiled at him, we would take this one day at a time and we would both become stronger from all of this.
I kissed him on the cheek again and I lay there, continuing to heal myself, continuing to get stronger.
A/N: How did you guys like it? Please review and tell me you are all still here reading the story. Also it looks like we aren't really done with the fairies yet hmmm… Oh and quick song suggestions this chapter was inspired by the song "Aurora" by Lapush, mainly for the part when Eric and Sookie talk to each other. Another song suggestions, and I know I don't really do this, is "Not in love" by Crystal Castles which I have been obsessed with because I feel it describes Sookie and Eric's relationship very well. Give them a try! Please review!
