It was almost 11:00 when I heard the knock at the door. We were all tired after being up so late the night before. I had been awake for awhile but couldn't hear any noises from the bullpen so I had been reading A Catcher in the Rye quietly at my desk.

I didn't sleep well last night. It wasn't because of Donna, or Gorski, or even my colleague Jim. I am and will forever be my biggest demon. With my daughter asleep on the couch in my office and Vic asleep right outside the door all I could do was think how many times and in so many ways I've failed them.

When I opened the door I was surprised to find Jamie at the bottom of the steps. Jamie and I had a business relationship while my wife was alive. He provided her with comfort that the doctors could not and I had used him as an informant in the past on drug related issues. I don't recall if I had ever actually ordered a pizza from him for the sake of having pizza.

He stood at the door smiling.

"Hey Walt, someone ordered you a pizza." Jamie grinned.

I guess he found some humor in the delivery as well. I took the pizza from him and started to close the door when he stopped me.

"Uh, I know you're the law and all but you still have to pay for your pizza." He grinned again as he said it.

"Oh right, sorry. I reached in my pocket and pulled out a twenty. That should cover it right?" I had to ask since I never really order pizza.

"That's good Walt, have a good day." Jamie replied as he turned and left.

I left the door unlocked since the sun was up and soon the town square would be crawling with people enjoying the nice day after church services.

When I returned upstairs with the pizza I see that Cady has moved out into the bullpen and is now talking with Vic. I hope they are hungry and this will at least slow down some the questions I know they both would like to ask.

I assumed Henry or maybe even Lucian ordered the pizza. I sat it down on the desk Ferg has been using and smiled at the two women who paused their conversations when I walked in.

"Someone ordered us some pizza." I said and smiled slightly to ease some tension before retreating toward the reading room.

I shut the door behind me and stared at my reflection in the mirror. The lady who cut my hair a few days ago did a really nice job. It was probably past due. I think Vic noticed but if she did she didn't say anything. I know Cady noticed but with the information she learned last night about me dating someone new she probably wouldn't say anything either.

I started by splashing some cold water on my face. It felt good. My eyes still burned a little from not getting enough sleep but it would go away before long. I had lots to do today. I grabbed a clean hand towel to dry my face and proceeded to change into one of the department shirts I kept up here for emergencies.

"WALT!"

I hadn't finished buttoning my shirt when I heard Vic yell. She sounded worried. I rushed out the door and held my shirt together with a fist at the top.

"What? Is everything ok?" I asked very worried.

"Read this." Vic said shoving a folded piece of white paper in my direction.

I took it with my left hand while still clutching my shirt closed with my right. I thumbed it open and read:

Sheriff Longmire,

I'm sorry I had to interrupt your evening but there is something you need to know about Dr. Monaghan.

After I drove Vic and Sean away from the house I stopped at your truck. I'm sure Vic has told you this. She left to go find you and I started walking back down the highway towards where I left my car earlier that day.

When I arrived at my car one of your deputies was waiting on me. I was sure he was going to arrest me but he didn't. He asked me a ton of questions about Vic and her past. I answered them vaguely. Vic is better off with you. I told him only some of what happened and mostly just what you can find in the papers anyway. He suggested that I talk to someone. A professional. He acted like he was my brother, a fellow cop, and he cared so I considered it. He gave me a business card for his mom and assured me she was very professional and could help with the loss of my partner and the loss of Vic.

At first I started seeing her because it kept me close to Durant. I kept hoping Vic might call or something would happen. Dr. Donna Sue Monaghan at first seemed very professional and helpful but then I started noticing how all of her questions were details about Vic or you and not really much about the suicide of my partner. I started to get suspicious.

One day she had an emergency and left me in her office so I decided to do some investigating of my own. I found her recorder for her notes after patient sessions. At least that's what I thought it was going to be. I found hours upon hours of notes detailing accusations of improper procedures and wrongful practices that she believes you are guilty of that lead up to her son's and ex-husband's death.

Her recorder is in her travel bag that is hopefully still in your cabin.

I didn't hurt her but she knows that I know now.

Protect your own.

I toss the note on the desk next to the pizza box, turn my back to Vic and Cady who are still staring at me, let go of my shirt to fish my keys out of my pocket and mumble "I've got to go." as I walk towards the door.

"No! You aren't going out there alone." Vic was the first one to make an objection.

I turned to face Vic while I scrambled to finish buttoning my shirt. I looked up to meet her gaze and said "I'll be fine."

"Fuck you Walt. I'm going. If you find that recorder you can't do it alone or they will argue you planted it." Vic had a good point.

"Someone needs to stay with Cady." I didn't want her left alone and I don't want her going out to the cabin either.

"Dad, I can help if you will just include me. Vic told me someone brought a wrongful death claim against you because of Branch. I need to go home and get my computer so I can start filing paperwork against it." Cady pleaded her case.

"I'll take her to her house." the voice of Ferg came up from behind me. "And stay with her until you are back." I hadn't heard him come in the door.

Ferg was really starting to step up and I respected that.

I can't argue or delegate my way out of this one. They all have valid points and there is no way around it. I've got to get back in the truck with Vic for a long drive out to my cabin.