Ch11-Black Sheep
It was Monday morning, and Gina bounced down the stairs ready to go to school. She was really nervous about talking to Connor. It just suddenly hit her like a ton of bricks. She and Connor would be better off as just friends. A part of her would always love him though. That dream and that she took a look in the mirror made her realize she didn't like who she became and she wanted to go back to her old self. No matter how much she loved a guy, she wouldn't let anyone come in between her and her father who she loved more than life itself. She felt that right now the only man she wanted in her life was her daddy.
She was going through her back pack to make sure she had everything when Bo walked out of the kitchen.
"Don't you want something to eat before you go?"
"No thanks Uncle Bo. They are serving free bagels this morning. I guess I am a little nervous too about talking to Connor. I just want to tell him and get it over with." Bo kissed the top of her head.
"You are doing the right thing Gina Beana. Now remember. Right home after school to do homework."
"I promise. I'll see you later." She waved good bye and walked out the door. Bo was so glad to have his normal God child almost back.
Gina walked into school and went to her locker. She put a few things away and then went to go see if Connor registered before the bell rang. She was disappointed to see that he hadn't. Did he change his mind?
She didn't see him all day and she was beginning to worry. She didn't watch where she was going and bumped into somebody and her books went flying. She picked them up off the ground and looked to see who she bumped into.
"Oh hi Justin. I'm sorry I wasn't watching where I was going." Justin Long was her friend.
"Its ok. I'm actually glad I bumped into you. I have no plans Friday night and was just wondering if you wanted to hang out. Maybe go to a movie or something." She answered him.
"Can I let you know sometime this week? I am staying with my Uncle Bo right now and I have to double check with him. I'll call you though ok? Right now I have to go check on Connor. He kind of broke up with me."
"I'm sorry to hear that Gina. You let me know if theres anything I can do for you."
"Thanks Justin bye." She walked out the door and Justin thought to himself: Its about time."
Gina walked in the house where Hope was sitting on the couch with Cierra.
"So how did things go with Connor today? Are you ok?"
"He never showed up Aunt Hope. I'm kind of worried." The doorbell rang and Gina went to go answer it. It was Mimi.
"Hey Mimi. Whats up? Come on in." Mimi walked in and Gina closed the door.
"Gina I am really sorry that things didn't work out with you and Connor. I know you two cared about each other very much. I have to run, but he asked me to give this to you. Of course I yelled at him for not talking to you himself, but I guess you can understand why. Let me know if you need anything." She handed Gina the note and left. Gina sat down on the couch next to Hope and opened the letter.
"So what does it say?" Gina began to read out loud.
Dear Gina,
I'm sorry I couldn't talk to you in person, but I guess you know why. I know you are wondering why I didn't show up at school today. I am on a plane as you read this to Arizona to stay with my aunt and uncle to clear my head. I need to get my priorities straight.
Just remember a part of me will always love you, but its for the best. We just weren't meant to be together. Honestly I grew tired of having to compete with your father, but I guess I can understand where hes coming from. You have my email address you can email me day and night. I'll miss you.
Connor.
Gina folded the letter and started to cry. Hope put Cierra in the play pen and put her arms around Gina. They didn't say a word they just sat there like that. Gina pulled away.
"Aunt Hope, I am going upstairs. I need to email Connor in private."
"Of course honey you let me know if you need anything." Gina wiped her eyes and walked upstairs.
She turned her lap top on and went to her email. She clicked on Connors name and began to type:
Dear Connor,
I got your letter. I was quite worried when you didn't show up at school today. I hope everything works out for you in Arizona. I have to tell you something. Even though you told me the other night we needed our space, I was going to tell you today that I wasn't going to get back together with you.
Remember that a part of me will always love you, but I took a look in the mirror and I didn't like who I was. I also had a dream that set me straight. Yes I know sounds corny but its true. I realize that I missed who I was. I missed being my fathers good little girl. I decided that no matter how much I love
somebody, my father will always come first to me. That doesn't mean that I will never get married, but I decided I wasn't going to let somebody come between us. I hope you understand. I realized that right no w the only man I want in my life is my daddy. Once again good luck.
Gina.
She signed off and closed her lap top. She actually felt kind of better. She picked up the phone and dialed. She was ready to go home.
