Hi Guys!
I hope everyone has successfully survived the exams. I just finished the last one yesterday and I so need a few days off... Unfortunately, I have to work, so it won't happen anytime soon.
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Angry Kurt was scary. Angry pregnant Kurt was something Blaine would never learn how to deal with. He had hoped that they would be able to speak about their misunderstanding the next day but Kurt was still angry with him and gave Blaine no chance to discuss the previous night. He simply got ready for work without a word, helped Elyse, gave her breakfast and then left with her, completely ignoring Blaine. That was definitely too much for such a little mistake. Okay, maybe Blaine should have come home earlier the previous night. He should have called his husband to tell him where he had been. He should have told him about Tony, so Kurt wouldn't have come to the conclusion that Blaine cheated on him. That was clearly his fault. But how could Kurt think that he would cheat on him? He loved his husband and he would never do that to him again, especially now that he was pregnant with his twins.
Blaine kept thinking about his family while he was at work. He knew what his parents would tell him and although he didn't like thinking about it, especially the fact that his father could be right about anything at all, he knew that some of his thoughts about the importance of family were right. Maybe his dad was an asshole but he could have been a great dad in theory. Blaine was responsible for four more people and although it was scary, it was still right. Kurt had already enough on his plate, he had a stressful job, he was pregnant with twins and he still tried to be a good father and husband. Blaine had believed that it was exactly what he did, too, but if he was perfectly honest with himself, he knew that it wasn't right. He had told Kurt so many times not to work too much but they both knew that they were only able to live such a comfortable life because of Kurt's job. Blaine was nobody, just a music teacher who had fun with four other guys twice a week, calling themselves a band. But Blaine knew that their band had no future. It was exactly what it meant for him and the other members: a nice free time activity that helped them relax after long days at work. They would never become professionals and they would never get money from their music.
Which meant Blaine had to find another job. Either a part-time job after work or a completely different one that paid better. He couldn't let Kurt do the hard job alone. His pregnancy would just get harder with time, he would surely need to rest more and the stress wasn't good for him and the babies. And then he didn't think about their future. With three kids, life would be a lot more complicated. Who knew if they could both work when one of their children would surely be sick all the time, when they had to cook and shop for so many people, not to mention clean up after them... That was impossible to manage when they both spent their days away from home and it wasn't what his family deserved. He had to do something about it.
So he did what he believed would solve his problem: he called Cooper. Maybe it was a mistake but Cooper had connections and he would surely have an idea how Blaine could get a job that paid well enough to take care of such a big family.
"You are already late" Cooper said as he picked up his phone.
"Is that a new line you need to practice?" Blaine frowned. Cooper usually talked like this when he had a new role.
"Great, right? Do I sound like the serious, old-fashioned uncle?" Cooper asked. Blaine could practically hear him smile.
"Uhm... Yeah? I mean, I have no idea..."
"I know what you've done" Cooper said, his voice back to that fake monotone one from earlier.
"What?" Blaine asked in concern.
"Mom told me everything" Cooper answered.
Oh... That wasn't such a big surprise. It wasn't like Blaine had asked his mother to keep it secret, so...
"So you know about the twins" Blaine said.
"Yes, Blainey, although I have to tell you how disappointed I am" Cooper said.
"Sure" Blaine said easily. "Listen, Coop, you know how much I love to help you with your roles but I'm calling for another reason this time."
"Blaine, I already know about your kids..."
"And not because I want to tell you about the twins" Blaine continued. "I need your help."
"Help?" Cooper asked in surprise.
"Yes" Blaine nodded.
"You cheated on him again, right?" Cooper asked. "Look, baby bro, I love you but I won't help you hide your secret affair from your husband..."
"I didn't cheat on Kurt" Blaine gasped. "No, I just... Look, I know it's my job to take care of my family. I'm responsible for them. I can't let Kurt do the hard job alone, especially now that he's carrying our twins."
"You sound awfully like Dad" Cooper said.
"So that's why I'm calling" Blaine said, ignoring Cooper's comment. "My teacher job isn't enough. I need something else that pays better."
"Uhm... And you think I could get you a better one?" Cooper asked.
"Well, with your connections..."
"I don't know" Cooper sighed. "I mean, yeah, I might get a few roles for myself, but do you have any idea how hard I work for them?"
"You only fuck the right girls for those roles" Blaine pointed out.
"It's a hard job, Blaine" Cooper said. "Picking out the right girls, taking them out for dinner..."
"I'm your only brother" Blaine said quietly. "Please. I need an extra job or something that pays better. You don't want your future nieces or nephews to starve, right?"
"That's so not fair" Cooper sighed. "Fine. I will see what I can do."
"Thank you" Blaine said gladly. "I knew I could trust you."
"It doesn't mean I can help. I can only promise you to try" Cooper said.
"That's enough for me" Blaine said.
~ o ~
Kurt had an especially bad day. Not only because of his fight with Blaine the previous night that hadn't allowed him any sleep but also because it was the first day he felt how hard this pregnancy was going to be. He had felt horrible since that morning. He was tired and hungry but he couldn't eat anything because he was scared of throwing up. Just when he had hoped that morning sickness would avoid him this time... Things didn't get any better later. He bought himself cookies and orange juice because they usually helped, but it seemed like it didn't work this time. He felt nauseous the whole morning and it just got worse when he had to sit in a room with his co-workers who were all drinking coffee. That horrible smell made Kurt feel worse than ever.
And then there was the pain. His back hurt, just like his abdomen, he could barely sit but it was uncomfortable to stand, too. He had no idea how he would go through this pregnancy without being able to rest in every single hour. He wanted to sleep or at least lie down a bit, just to allow his body some rest. And it was just the first trimester. Once the twins started growing, it would be a lot harder. They would kick and move all the time and they would be so heavy... It had been hard to carry Elyse alone and now he had two babies growing inside of him.
He knew the solution, of course. He could have asked Isabelle for help, he would have gotten someone to help him, so he would have been able to finish his work in time and rest more. But it would also mean having Tony around and that was the last thing Kurt wanted. That guy was creepy. Not only because he clearly wanted Kurt's job but also because Kurt felt something more in the air. He had no idea what Tony's true intention was but the way he watched Kurt when he believed the man didn't pay attention... It was scary.
So Kurt pressed his lips together and didn't let anyone see how very tired he was. He could do this. He had wanted to become an actor once, he had a lot of practice. He could smile even if it hurt and he could do his job better than anyone else.
He did it. He managed to stay on his feet the whole day, he managed to do his job without throwing up and noone, not even Tony could see how he really felt. He was satisfied when he finally left work that afternoon. It wasn't that hard after all. He survived this day, he would survive another one. And the next one. Right until he went into labour. Because that was what he needed to do to save his job.
He wasn't a workaholic. He loved his family and would have been the luckiest person to finally have some time off to spend quality time with his daughter and husband. He would have loved to stay home for months just to take care of the kids, cook and clean up. Maybe it was boring for most people but Kurt would definitely enjoy that time with his family. He wasn't sure if he could allow that for himself this time. His job was at risk and he had to keep it or get a better one soon because they needed money more than ever and as much as he hated to admit it, Blaine's salary wasn't enough for anything. Especially if he was right about Blaine the previous night...
Kurt sighed and pushed the thought of his husband cheating on him to the back of his mind. He couldn't trust his emotions when he was pregnant. Maybe there was a good explanation for Blaine's absence the previous night... Maybe he had had a good reason to have coffee with another man who was surely hot and wasn't pregnant with twins...
Kurt really tried to keep himself together but as soon as he walked through their front door, he lost it. He couldn't get the image of Blaine cheating on him out of his head. It wasn't like it hadn't happened before. Blaine had needed about two weeks of loneliness to end up in another man's arms. What if he panicked, he wasn't ready for their twins and it would happen again? Would Kurt be a single parent? Would he be left alone to raise his three kids alone? It would destroy him. Not because he wasn't ready for the twins but because he loved Blaine so much and he wouldn't survive if he lost him.
Kurt was sobbing as he slowly walked to the couch. He was so scared of the future. He was scared of losing Blaine, he was scared of being the one who destroyed their family because Blaine would surely blame him and Elyse would blame him, too, for not being able to keep her father and he would blame himself for doing this to his children...
"Kurt?"
Kurt wiped his face and forced out a small smile as he turned to greet his family. Well, his daughter. He was still angry with Blaine, no matter how hard he tried to hide it. He really did, but as he looked at Blaine and remembered that he had chosen another guy over his family, he couldn't not be angry with him. Those stupid pregnancy hormones...
"Papa!" Elyse shouted as Blaine put her down and she rushed to her father.
"Hey, sweetie" Kurt smiled at the little girl and lifted her up to sit in his lap.
"Be careful" Blaine said. "You shouldn't lift her alone, she is too heavy for that. What if something happens to the twins?"
"Well, you weren't that worried yesterday when you left me all alone with her" Kurt said before he could stop himself.
"Look, I'm really sorry for that..."
"You should be" Kurt muttered and turned back to Elyse. So much for making things right with Blaine. He just couldn't forget the previous night. It was still painful to think about it.
Blaine sighed and seemingly decided to leave Kurt alone until he calmed down. He shook his head and walked into the bathroom. When the door was closed behind him, Kurt started crying again, unable to stop himself.
"Papa?" Elyse asked in concern.
"I'm fine, honey" Kurt reassured her. He didn't want to scare his daughter. It was going to be fine. Once he was able to think rationally, he would talk this through with Blaine. Everything would be fine, he had to believe it.
~ o ~
Blaine was getting concerned. Kurt still didn't talk to him or when he did, he couldn't miss pointing out that Blaine had spent an evening with another guy, choosing him over his family. It was insane. Okay, he knew what he had done wrong, that he should have told Tony to fuck off and leave him alone but it was too late to change things. Besides, he had just tried to be nice. Kurt always told him to be nice to people, especially when they helped them out. He had owed Tony that much and it wasn't like he had cheated on his husband... It was just an innocent coffee. But he could tell Kurt anything, he didn't seem like he believed Blaine.
Blaine was about to have a heated conversation with his husband because he couldn't stand this anymore, pregnancy or not, but when he walked into the bedroom to talk to Kurt, he found him lying in the bed, crying. Blaine's frustration disappeared within a blink and he rushed to Kurt's side to check on him.
"Are you alright?" Blaine asked.
"I am" Kurt nodded, although he couldn't stop crying.
"What's wrong, honey?" Blaine asked. Kurt was certainly not fine.
"I hate being pregnant" Kurt admitted. "I just want to get over with it. I'm so tired and frustrated and... God, I hate crying."
"Just a few more months" Blaine smirked.
"I want to punch you so badly" Kurt said as he looked at his husband and realised that Blaine found the situation quite funny.
"I know" Blaine laughed, squeezing Kurt's hand. "We will get over this, together. Just like the first time. It can't be worse, right?"
"I'm not sure" Kurt muttered. "It would certainly help if you didn't go out with other guys anymore."
Blaine took a deep breath before replying. He knew he had to be careful with his words when Kurt was so sensitive.
"First of all, it didn't mean anything. I love you and I would never do that to you" Blaine said carefully. "And I promise I won't have coffee with any male but you. I will quit the band if that's what you want."
"God, no, Blaine" Kurt said quickly. "I don't want you to quit."
"That's great, because I have some good news" Blaine smiled. "Brendon knows someone who knows someone... you get it. So we are going to play in a small club next Saturday."
"That's amazing, Blaine!" Kurt said happily.
"It's not much but..."
"Your first concert" Kurt sighed. "This is a great opportunity. I'm sure people will love you."
"And I was hoping that my amazing husband would be there, too" Blaine said hesitantly. "If it's not too much, of course."
"Why would it be?" Kurt frowned.
"I don't know... Maybe because you are pregnant with twins?" Blaine asked.
"Ah, it's nothing" Kurt waved easily. "I will be there. I have to see you perform."
Blaine smiled. He wasn't sure how long he would be able to play in the band and he wanted Kurt to see him at least once.
"I can't wait for next week" Kurt said excitedly.
"This is just a concert, Kurt" Blaine reminded him.
"Your concert, you mean" Kurt said. "And it's ultrasound week as well."
"Oh, right" Blaine nodded, remembering their appointment.
"Will you come with me?" Kurt asked.
"Of course. I would never miss an opportunity to see our kids" Blaine said. "And maybe we will find out their gender."
"We have to" Kurt said. "If we have boys this time, we have to buy a lot of things for them. I need time to find the perfect clothes..."
"We have a lot of time for that" Blaine reassured him. "We could take a trip to the mall after the ultrasound, though. I can't wait to buy a few clothes."
"Me neither" Kurt smiled. That was exactly what Blaine wanted, seeing his husband happy again.
"I would also like to go out with you. On a date" Blaine said slowly. "You know, we're gonna have three kids soon, I'm not sure when we will be able to have some alone time again."
"What about Elyse?" Kurt asked.
"Mom is more than happy to spend some time with her" Blaine said.
"I don't know" Kurt said hesitantly. "Shouldn't we bring her, too? She can't come with us to the club anyway. I don't want her to feel like we leave her out of everything."
"Kurt, you know what dinners are like when she comes with us..."
Kurt silenced Blaine with one look.
"Family dinner is it then" Blaine nodded. "Amazing."
"Don't look at me like this. We will spend the whole Saturday night without her" Kurt said.
"And we will make sure to have some alone time. We need that, Kurt" Blaine said.
"Fine" Kurt rolled his eyes. "If you will be good."
"I'm always good" Blaine smiled and pulled his husband into his arms to kiss him. They were finally back to normal, even if Blaine was worried that things wouldn't stay like this too long. But it was just the matter of time and everything would be easier. They only had to survive a few more months...
