Title: Giving up
Chapter: 11
Rating: PG
Summary: Luke and Noah share a moment
Characters: Luke, Noah, Kevin and Casey
Genre: Drama, AU
Warnings:
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Slowly Luke and Noah become closer over the next couple of weeks, but Noah could still feel that Luke kept him at least at arm's length all the time. He wanted desperately to get closer to the blond, he was slowly falling for him but he sensed that Luke wasn't ready for anything more than friends.
To Luke everything was still a mystery; Noah would smile at Luke every time he saw him. He would always sit next to Luke and whenever they had to work together in groups, he and Noah would always team up and work together.
But secretly it both scared Luke and gave him a warm feeling in his gut. It was nice to feel wanted, to feel that there was actually someone who wanted to spend time with him. But at the same time it scared Luke shitless, because at some point he knew that Noah, just like everyone else, would tire of him and leave him. Because if there was one thing that Luke had learned in his life, was to trust no one and that everyone leaves.
He found himself waiting for Noah every day, trying desperately to ignore the voice echoing in his head, screaming that Noah would soon find out the truth and leave him like everyone else.
Noah walked into the classroom and wasn´t surprised to see Luke sitting there, nibbling at toast bread while he was trying to get done with his homework. He didn´t even look up when Noah sat down next to him, he simply just kept working on his homework.
"Hi," Noah said softly and looked at Luke's profile and he couldn't help but smile a little. He saw Luke looking at him from the corner of his eyes, and he smiled even bigger. "Hi," Luke said and went back to his homework. Noah could feel an itch in his fingers, to take Luke in his arms and kiss him silly.
"What are you working on?" Noah asked as he leaned a little closer to Luke. He saw Luke unconsciously lean a little closer to Noah also. "Math," Luke said and scribbled something down in his work book. Noah just smiled as he leaned back in his seat and looked at Luke as he continued to work.
After Emma's death it was clear to Luke that he was alone, there was nobody he could talk to and nobody to help him. Help him against the bullies that seemed determinate to make his life a living hell. A week after Emma's death the bullying had begun.
Out of nowhere to large hands were placed on his shoulders and he was thrown into his looker, head first, making him seeing stars. Before he'd have a chance to react he was twisted around and an angry face where within an inch of his face. Luke could the hatred and distaste in them and he glanced down to the ground.
"It's about time you learned your place," a deep voice grumbled in his ear, sending shivers down his spine. "You're nothing and it's about time, you started acting like it." Luke held his breath as he felt the hands letting go and he slumped down to the floor, watching a pair of feet walk away, he didn't dare look up to see who they belonged to.
The bell rang, indicating that school was over for the day, and Luke quickly packed his backpack. He was already late for his shift at the dinner. He could feel Noah following him out into the parking lot and over to his car.
"Luke," Noah began and put a hand on his left arm, making Luke freeze in his tracks. Luke could feel the electricity cursing through his body, emitting from where Noah's hand rested on his arm. The feelings tugged at his heartstring, causing a feeling, which had been buried since his grandmother's death, to run through his body. But then a wave of freight ran over him, and he turned toward Noah, yanking his arm away from Noah.
"Leave me alone," he yelled at Noah before he climbed into his truck. As Luke looked up into the rearview mirror as he drove out of the parking lot, he hoped that Noah hadn't noticed the tears in his eyes. The last thing he saw was Kevin and Casey making their way over to Noah.
Finally letting the tears fall, a sense of serenity washed over him. If he could just make it through this last year of high school he could leave this h'ellhole and he would never look back.
