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Chapter 11
Grissom got home late. He needed a drink. Sara called him and left a voicemail saying that she took her stuff and got a hotel. He walked into his home to find it empty. Even Terri wasn't around. He felt lonely and didn't like the solitude that he had placed around himself. He downed a couple shots of whiskey and laid on the couch, thinking.
Why did she have to change her mind so much or was it just him?
Why did he have to leave that night? Why couldn't he stay?
'There were complications,' he told himself. 'There were always complications.'
She had a fiancé, and…. a kid.
His drunken mind was telling him to steal her away from them, but he knew the reality of it. Sara was a mother and soon to be a wife.
He fell asleep after his brain couldn't take it anymore. Teri came out of the shadows and tucked in her husband. She had seen Grissom and Sara leave her lecture. She talked to Grissom about it, but he just pushed it aside. He said it was nothing. She knew he loved Sara.
All Teri wanted was for Grissom to love her and she wasn't going to lose him. She knew there were going to be problems though. She needed to make sure he was with her forever. She needed to get rid of Sara.
Grissom woke with a start that night. His head hurt from a hangover. He had to get to work. He saw Teri in kitchen making him food.
"Hey, babe. I made you some food before you leave for work!" she smiled while putting the plates on the table.
"Thanks, I'm going to take a shower real quick." he told her getting up from the couch. As the warm water hit him, he started thinking again. He put on some clothes and went back into the kitchen.
"Teri," he called pausing. " I need to tell you something."
"I do too." she replied, sitting down at the table. Being the gentlemen that he was he let her go first.
"Ok, Gil I know we have had our ups and downs. I love you and I want you to make a decision. Me or Sara?" she softly asked; fear could be heard in her voice scared, if he wouldn't choose her.
He was silent thinking over the information. She knew.
"Teri.. I…" he closed his mouth.
"Tell me after you think!" she interjected not letting him finish and walking out the door. He was dumbfounded by Teri's words. He had never seen her like this.
He wasn't sure if he could choose. He didn't want Sara or Teri to get hurt. He just stood there, too shocked to follow her.
As Sara was walking out of her hotel, she was surprised to find Teri standing in front of her.
"Um, hi..." she uttered in shock.
"Hello, Sara. Was there a reason you left so early?" she curiously asked.
"Your husband and I aren't getting along right now."
"Oh, I'm sorry." she apologized.
Teri was faking it. It was part of her plan. She needed for Sara to trust her if it was going to work.
"No, it's ok. I have just been really stressed and busy these past few days." she divulged.
"I know what you mean. I've been so busy with the baby coming and all." Teri responded, barely suppressing her smugness as she watched the reaction on Sara's face.
"Baby?"
"Hasn't Gil told you?" she asked innocently.
Her plan was working. She knew Sara wasn't a bad person and wouldn't do anything stupid with Grissom and run away. Sara would leave by herself.
"No, he hasn't." she staggered a few feet backwards.
"He was so happy when he found out that I was carrying his child," she grinned. "We have been planning since last month."
"Teri…I have to go...um….congratulations." Sara told her walking away as quickly as she could. She needed to get away. How could Grissom not tell her? Did he think he could get away with it? She didn't know what to do anymore.
When Grissom arrived at work, he was greeted with a large pile of papers and several new cases. On top of all that, Sara decided to show up. He really wasn't in the mood to talk to her, but he lead her to his office anyways.
"What can I do for you, Ms. Sidle?" He asked as the door closed behind them.
"I came to apologize for my actions the other day," she admitted looking at her feet.
He nodded wearily, unsure of how to respond. All he wanted to do was kiss her and make her his, but he held back.
"Sometimes people say things they don't mean," she told him giving him a chance to leave.
"I still love you. The question is…do you love me?" He was finally on the receiving end waiting for her answer. It would make him or break him. He felt a margarine start to come on.
"I…," there were a million things going through her head. Sara couldn't leave Ryan. He was a good father. She had so many problems with Ryan, emotionally, but she knew that he loved her. Teri was pregnant. How could she make him leave his family for her?
"I would give up everything to be with you. I know you would too. I would get a divorce. I would be a father to your child. I want to be with you," he reassured her, becoming desperate.
She was shocked. How could he leave his child to be with her?
"Everything has changed," she notified him. He was having a child, and she couldn't let him run off with her.
"Even the fact that you look back at the past and regret it everyday?" he reasoned with her looking her in the eyes.
He let out a sigh. This wasn't working for him. His head felt like it was getting pounded into the wall and his heart was beating at a rate unknown to man.
She moved to pass him, but he grabbed her and swung her around so she faced him.
She struggled, but Grissom took her other arm and held her firmly.
"Sara, please just listen to me..."
"Gil let me go, like you did before!"
"No."
Sara struggled a little more, but Grissom wouldn't loosen his grip on her. Sara had forgotten just how strong he could be.
"Grissom...let...me...go!"
He cringed at her use of his surname but stood firm. "Not until you hear me out Sara. Now listen to me!"
She stopped her movement and looked down at her feet.
"Sara look at me."
She didn't. What did this man want from her?
"Sara...Please!"
Slowly raising her head, her eyes met his. It actually shocked her when she saw the look of sorrow on his face and even more so the love behind it.
"Look I am so sorry. You have to believe me. Please. I shouldn't have done what I did. I shouldn't have left you that night, and it almost killed me to do so. I shouldn't have done a lot of things. I'm still paying everyday for the mistake I made that day, but I do know that I love you, Sara Sidle."
He swallowed hard.
"So you think that night was a mistake?" She questioned, tears now running down her face.
"I didn't want you to get hurt. I...I...just can't stand the thought of hurting you again. I left because I thought I would keep disappointing you. I tried so hard to be the right guy for you."
Grissom's eyes filled with tears. Sara was lost for words, she was still hurt, but his plea hit her hard.
Grissom released his grip.
"You never had to try," she told him sadly.
"I want you to look me in the eye and tell me you don't love me," he pleaded from her to tell him stepping forward and taking her face in his hands.
A few seconds went by.
"I don't love you," she whispered. He felt like she had stabbed him in the heart. He staggered backwards.
"I don't love you either!" he responded, almost yelling.
She felt tears start to flood down her face. She loved him. Sara could feel her heart breaking and she couldn't take it anymore. She turned away from him and left the room. She knew that letting him go was the best thing she could do for both of them.
Crushed, he sat down and attempted to calm himself. Suddenly though, he felt a sharp pain from his heart. He grabbed his chest and fell to the floor, convulsing.
"Gil, we have a case!" Brass shouted from the other side of the door.
All Grissom could do was try desperately to breathe in and out.
"Gil are you there?" Brass asked when he didn't get an answer.
He opened the door to find his dear friend on the floor. He quickly ran and kneeled down beside his friend to see what was wrong. He tried to hold his friend's head from hitting the floor.
"WE NEED AN AMBULANCE!" Brass shouted at the top of his lungs.
"Gil try to breath," Brass exclaimed. He couldn't lose his friend.
Grissom could hear shouting and his vision was staring to blur. He could tell people were starting to rush around him. He saw Catherine and the rest of his co-workers surround him. He could feel himself being lifted on a stretcher. Some of medics were asking him questions, but it was only whit noise to his ears. He felt like his heart was about to explode. He saw his parents in heaven. He tried to grab at them, but his vision switched to his Sara. Then he blacked out.
