Okay so I know I'm a horrible person for leaving this story so long without an update. For those still reading, here is an update. This is a short chapter but I just wanted to get something up. Thank you so much if you are still reading and been with this story from the beginning, I'd love to hear from you :)

Shit. What the hell was I going to do. Freddie and I had an…intimate time in the hot tub last night.

"I peaked" he admitted under his breath. I was about to scold him when his lips met mine. This kiss felt different from the others we'd shared. It had more urgency behind it like…he couldn't get enough of me. And at the moment, I couldn't get enough of him. He pushed me back into the hot tub seat and kissed me deeper. He leaned in close to me and I felt all of him against me. Between my legs. My eyes widened as I realised what was poking me. He slipped his hands from my neck down my back toward my bikini bra strap. He started to pull the tie loosely. Not enough to undo it but enough to give me goosebumbs. His trailed down my back, brushing me with his fingertips. Immediately, despite being in a hot tub my whole body turned to ice. I couldn't process the nerves, the excitement, the need for him all at once. His fingers kept trailing down my back until it got to my bikini pant. I tensed up and couldn't control my breathing. I felt like darth fucking Vader. I couldn't handle this level of intimacy. Not yet. "Sam," he murmured, "are you okay?" he asked, continuing to kiss my neck. I nodded frantically, not knowing what else to do. He pulled away slightly, "No, you're not." He stated.
"I, um…I think I'm just going to go to bed. I'm getting tired." I gave as an excuse. I got out of the hot tub and grabbed my towel, not even caring that he could see me in my skimpy Carly suit.
"Sam, I-"
"Goodnight!" I called behind me as I practically ran into the house. Shit.

I couldn't believe I handled the situation like that. And now it was 2pm the next day and I hadn't even left my room in fear of running into him. Fuck. I picked up the phone dialling a number, not even caring about the phone bill. This is an emergency. After two rings the phone answered,
"Sam! How's everything there?! Is Freddie still treating you right? Has anything happened between you two?" I rolled my eyes,
"Hey Carls
" I Greeted,
"Yeah hi, so has anything happened between you two?!"
she asked again.
"Well, actually that's what I called to talk to you about"
"Oh my God, you're pregnant." She state
d, "I can't believe you, Sam! I packed you condoms for a reason and you just-"
"No, Carls! I'm not pregnant!"
I assured her, "I just wanted to talk to you about-You packed me condoms?" I asked,
"Yeah, in the bottom of the case, y'know you never know!"
I rolled my eyes again,
"Anyway Carls, I think…I think I'm falling for this guy"
I admitted. I could hear her gasp down the phone.
"I knew something would happen!" she exclaimed. "So what's the problem?" she asked. I sighed and explained the whole thing to her. The time I ended up sleeping in his bed, the time we kissed and last night in the hot tub. "Sam!" she exclaimed, "How could you leave him like that?!"
"I know, Carls! It's terrible, I just freaked out a little"
I admitted.
"I get it, Sam" she assured me, "I mean I did on my first time too" she admitted, "It's not easy dealing with all those emotions at one time. And you're a lot older than I was and you overthink everything" she laughed.
"Carly, please I need your advice, okay." I pleaded.
"Okay, sorry. So where is he now?" she asked
"I don't know" I replied, "I haven't been out of my room all day. And after last night, I'm not surprised he hasn't talked to me all day"
"Okay, Sam just have a chat with him. It sounds to me that you guys are pretty close. If you really think you're falling for him, if you can see a potential future then you need to have a talk with him" I sighed. I was afraid she'd say that.
"Okay, I just-What do I say?" I asked,
"Listen Sam, I gotta go, I've got a date" I rolled my eyes, "But just be honest with him, Start by telling him why you freaked out last night. He'll understand" she advised.
"Yeah hopefully. Thanks Carls have fun on your date"
"Let me know how it goes!"
she chirped before she hung up. I sighed and threw myself down on the bed. How the hell am I gonna bring this up with Freddie. Just then there was a knock at the door.

"Sam?" I heard Freddie's voice come through, "Can we talk about last night?" Well, that's a start.

Freddie was sitting opposite me on my bed, waiting for me to start talking. He waited patiently while I was trying to figure out what I wanted to say. He really seemed like he knew what he was doing last night. I mean he said he's been out with over 30 girls so he must have loads of experience. I wonder how much…experience he had with…that.
"Sam" he prompted, putting his hand on mine. I shook my thoughts off
"Right! Um…I wanted to tell you that…Okay well first I wanna say that last night…It was-I really-it was swell" I blurted out and immediately rolled my eyes at how stupid I sounded. He chuckled,
"Swell?" he asked through laughs. I laughed along with him.
"What I mean is" I continued, "I enjoyed myself" I admitted, "a lot" he smirked and I slapped him lightly on the arm. "I just haven't exactly told you everything about myself" he narrowed his gaze and moved himself closer to me.
"Sam what is it?" he asked. Okay, here goes.
"I'm a virgin!" I blurted out. His eyebrows raised at my sudden outburst.
"I thought-" he cleared his throat, "I thought you said you had a long term relationship?" he asked and I nodded.
"That's kinda…why he cheated on me." I told him, "I guess I wouldn't give him any so he got it elsewhere" I shrugged. I wasn't hung up on the relationship, I mean I was over it. Yeah, it sucked that he cheated on me but in a way I'm glad he did, so I didn't end up doing it with the wrong person.
"Wow, Sam I had no idea. I'm really sorry if I overstepped-"
"No, no, no!" I stopped him. "I just wanted you to know last night I just…I just got scared is all. I've never been that close to someone before" I admitted, "I just didn't know how to handle it. I know it sounds stupid." I shook my head. I must sound like a fucking idiot.
"Sam" he forced me to look up at him, "I'm really sorry. You didn't deserve that." He brought my hand up and kissed it. "From now on, we'll just…take it slow. Okay?" he asked and I nodded. He leaned in for a kiss and I wrapped my arms around his neck.
"Are you sure you don't mind?" I asked again, "About me being a …y'know" he shook his head.
"Of course not" he mumbled out against my neck, smothering it with kisses. He pulled away and looked into my eyes, "Just means I have a lot to teach you" he winked. I laughed as he pulled me in for another kiss.