Soooo... I hope you all had a nice weekend :-)
we did, it looked finally like spring here :-), I love sunshine... :-)))
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I have had pretty a bad talk with my best friend so I needed some distraction, so here is the next chapter...
anyway enjoy the chapter and have some nice Monday :-))))
A/N as usually I don´t own anything of the Twilight but right now I would need my personal Carlisle to give some kind of comfort :-))))))))))))
CH 12
Carlisle was watching Ellen as she was falling asleep and caressed her hair, he was surprised what she asked him to do. But he couldn´t resist, he didn´t want to, he desperately wanted to hold her and when she asked him….. it was a dream come true. She was sleeping in his arms comfortably and he couldn´t move his eyes off her. He studied every line of her face, everything. He was holding her for the whole night, he didn´t want to leave. He did that when Patty began to wake up. He didn´t want the child to know something. It would be inappropriate right now. Ellen asked him to hold her for a while, and he was at her for the whole night. He just couldn´t resist and leave earlier than it was necessary.
Ellen was woken up by Patricia. She didn´t know how it was possible but she could still feel Carlisle´s scent. And she really liked it. It worked and calmed her immediately. The girls had shower, changed the dresses, packed the clothing and Ellen led Patty to the restaurant. They could see Alice, Bella and Rose waiting for them. Alice winked: „ Did you have a good night sleep?" Patty agreed and so did Ellen. But she couldn´t get rid of the feeling that Alice knows more than she says. The way she looked at Ellen. She seemed to be pleased. Patty finished her breakfast, Ellen just drank coffee. She was not in the mood to eat something, she already wanted to be at home again.
Ellen took the bag in one hand and Patty ran next to her. Outside there were already men outside the cars, waiting for the girls to arrive. Ellen greeted them, Patricia asked: „ Uncle Edward, can I go with you again?" Edward turned around to see the little girl:" Of course you can, princess….. I will be delighted to have two beauties in my car." He helped her into the child car seat and they drove.
Ellen went to Carlisle who was already holding her the door of his car. When they were on the highway she talked: „ I wanted to thank you… for yesterday… and I understand that it was too…daring to ask you for something like that…." He shook the head: „ No, it was ok for me…..truly, I am glad that it helped you…." If she only knew that she fulfilled his wish with her beg. He caressed her hand: „ Really, Ellen, it´s ok, don´t worry…. I don´t think anything bad…why should I?" Ellen stared, he just replied to all her feelings and was as if he could read her thoughts. But she knew it was nonsense. Carlisle isn´t a mind reader. If she only knew that through the bond between them he was suddenly able to understand her feelings better. She thought about him and was persuaded that he just wanted to calm her and knew exactly what to say. She looked at him, he was just a friend for her, but more and more she was sure that any other friend would never do the things that Carlisle does. And she admired him for that. He deserved somebody nice and not to look back to some married unhappy woman. She wished him all the happiness in the world.
Few hours later both cars arrived in front of their home. Ellen thanked them for everything and together with Patty they left in their house.
It was just Sunday and Ellen knew that she would have to clean up properly because they were gone for the whole weekend. She was still in a good mood. Yesterday night was a completely new experience to her. The moments spent in Carlisle´s arms gave her much strength that anything. She was now able to face the whole world. While Patricia was playing with her little Bella doll, Ellen was cleaning the whole house. But this time she was in a very cheerful mood singing songs and trying to have everything done in few hours. When she finished, she prepared the dinner for her daughter and then after shower Patty headed in the bed.
Ellen reminded of her cell phone. She completely forgot about it. She looked at the display and the ring tone was still off yet from Friday school. She could see 10 missed calls from Derek´s cell phone. Then she reminded of her bad feelings. She knew he would call. But why now? Why does he have to destroys her beautiful weekend? She was in such good mood. Suddenly she felt desperate. What will he say? He tries to call her for two days and she never replies.
With bad feeling in her stomach she dialed back his number. He picked up angrily and said: „ Ellen? What happened? Why don´t you answer my phone?" She replied: „ Hi, Derek, I apologise, me and Patricia went to the amusement park. But I forgot my cell phone at home. We arrived back today."
He was silent and tried to reply in calm. Ellen knew him and this meant only one thing. He must have been pretty angry. He said: „OK, I wanted just to tell you that in a week or two I will be at home….." She wanted to be happy, but she couldn´t. She pretended: „ That is nice, we look forward to seeing you…" He commented: „You don´t sound too persuasive?"
She asked: „ Oh really?... you know that we love to see you…. It´s been a long time….since….we talked…..as before…." He finished: „ If my plan works, then we will finally be rich….you will have as much money as you always wanted…" Ellen didn´t know what to say: „ Derek, please, be careful, I don´t want something to happen to you…" He got angry: „ What do you think of me? You don´t trust me?" She replied: „ Yes, I do…I´m just worried about you…you´re my husband…."
He replied: „You should keep the house clean till I arrive. And…..Ellen….. I warn you, no male visitors in our house…I´ll find out if you obeyed me…" She replied silently: „ yes, you know I wouldn´t cheat…." He replied: „ I am just assuring myself. You know that I would punish you for that…. I hope you realise that…Bye…"
He hang up and she sat in tears. He got her again down. All her good resolutions were gone. Till now she was so satisfied. Why does this man have to destroy her again? Why did he change so much? She loves him after all. She is willing to forgive him the two slapping but why does he have to humiliate her so much? She was becoming better with the help of the Cullens and her online friend and now Derek comes and destroys everything. She will be alone again as she was before she met the Cullens. This was also one of the things she worried about. She looked at her laptop. She wanted to go online but she realised that it is Sunday and her friend is usually at work during the weekends so she just took the shower and headed to bed.
During the week Ellen was talking to Carlisle had no idea that he is the online LonesomeOldMan34 and he was hesitating how to tell her. For two days they were still talking during the evenings and she absolutely had no idea who he is. He could only feel that she trusts the online person. This was pretty hard to him. He desperately wanted Ellen to know. He didn´t want to fool her. It just wasn´t fair.
On Wednesday night he decided that he will reveal himself. He wanted to be sincere. This cannot go on like this. He didn´t want her to suspect him that he knew for the whole time. He had no idea that Ellen is bit less talkative. She was still down from Derek´s call. She told nothing about the phone call to Carlisle.
He called her on Tuesday and she couldn´t tell him the truth. She was worried she would break down and he would come over. She was really scared Derek would appear and make her life hard. She didn´t want him to meet Carlisle in their house. She believe that would be the end. She didn´t want to destroy the marriage. He would certainly accuse her of everything. Nobody would believe her and the most she worried that Derek could fulfill his threats and gain the custody over Patricia. And she feared this the most. He is a rich business man, he knows how to deal with things his way.
On Thursday they talked again. Carlisle decided that this was the best time. He should make it easy to Ellen to realise. One of her today´s question was very easy to use for his intentions.
LonelyLullaby28: „ And how was your weekend? Did you have a nice time?"
LonesomeOldMan34: „ Yes, wonderful, my whole family went in the amusement park in ….. and we took our friend with her small daughter and we really enjoyed ourselves. The little one loved the Cinderella show….I bought her the tiara and she was the happiest child I have ever seen…."
He waited for the answer to take longer and his assumptions were correct.
Ellen was looking in her laptop, reading it again and again. She was shocked from what she read on the screen. This person, the man who called her Lilly, certainly must have been Carlisle. He described everything they just did together on Saturday with Patricia.
No, it cannot be possible. It can be anybody….. there isn´t a huge possibility to meet a close friend in some chatroom. No, no, no …definitely not….
Then she read it again. She wanted to run away, she had absolutely no idea that she was talking to Carlisle.
Suddenly it all began to make sense. His weekend´s were full of work therefore he couldn´t be online at nights. This was the same with Carlisle, he had the ER shifts.
Why didn´t he say anything about chatting? Or make some hint? Perhaps he also had no idea that his „Lilly" is actually Ellen. She never thought about this possibility. She could feel tears in her eyes. This realisation got her weak. For the whole weeks she has been talking to her dearest Carlisle….. she still couldn´t believe it all. It was just too much. The online friend and Carlisle were the one. That idea was hard to get used to first, but she was glad that it was him. She regarded him as a very good friend and now this prove it too.
She realised that she hasn´t replied anything for few minutes and. He knew that she needed to process this and gave her as much time as she needed.
Suddenly she moved back to the keyboard and wrote down one word. His real name: „ Carlisle? Is that you?"
He didn´t reply immediately but noticed that she added something. He felt they need to clarify everything.
Therefore he grabbed the cell phone and dialed her number. She looked at the watch and it was almost 10 PM. On the other hand she knew that it could be only one person calling. Carlisle. He probably wants to make this all clear.
She accepted the call: „ Oh, hi?...it is nice to hear you"
„Ellen…I…..I am sorry…. I don´t know how to explain it…."
Ellen wondered: „ Explain what? You couldn´t have known….I had no idea myself too…"
„Well, I have realised that Lilly is you when you talked about the ER and little Patty getting the baby doll. I didn´t believe it myself…..I thought that it isn´t possible…."
„Truly, when thinking about it, I am more than happy the person online is you…..it is nice to know that for the whole time I was chatting with someone I can trust…."
„Ellen, this means a lot for me…..thanks….. I hope you feel better…."
„Seems so….."
He asked: „ Did anything happen? With Derek?"
Silence…
He begged: „ Ellen, what happened? Talk to me please…."
She changed topic: „ Carlisle, could we talk about something else? I am not just in the best mood tonight…."
„Sure, I had to admit that I really liked our chat talks, I had never the opportunity to thank you. You helped me very much even though you have no idea about…."
Ellen remained silent and so he continued: „ You were here and listened when I felt down…..few weeks ago….. when I was after a painful divorce…."
He added: „ I think I could never go through the whole period without you listening to me….. therefore I am very thankful…. I don´t know what I would do without talking to you. I would go crazy yet with all kids around me…."
Ellen tried to smile: „ Thank you for saying that, you know you mean so much for me too. You are a true friend to me….. I am so glad that I have known you…and about the help, you help me all the time and I am delighted that I could be a little useful too….."
He laughed: „ Your and Patty´s presence in my life was the best thing that happened to me in the last months….."
She felt sorry that he is so far away, she wanted to touch his hand, but she knew it cannot be like that. They are friends, just friends, no matter how close they are.
She thanked Carlisle and he asked: „ When will you both come for visit?"
She laughed: „ Well,is the Saturday morning too soon?"
He replied immediately: „ Saturday morning sounds perfect…"
Ellen looked at the watch and asked: „ Would you mind if I went to bed? I am tired, this week has been pretty hard…." „Of course not, sleep tight and sweet dreams honey…"
They said good bye and hang up.
Ellen was in her bed thinking about everything and fell asleep suddenly. She liked fresh air in her bedroom and so she left the balcon door open a little bit.
She had no idea that the Cullens were taking turns in checking her during the night. After Carlisle hang up, he knew that he should go to make sure they are alright. He got to the window in her bedroom. She was so peacefully sleeping. He couldn´t stop himself, he opened the door silently and silently moved in the room. He sat down on the chair close to her bed and watched her sleeping. She was so beautiful as she slept. In few minutes she smiled to something in her dream. He desired to know what it was… He felt like some teenager in love but he couldn´t stop the crazy ideas coming out of his mind. Why does it have to be so complicated? She is his mate, he should go to her and kissed her the most passionately as he could but then he realised that he would make things worse. Ellen was faithful to her husband. And she wanted to stay with him for now. He shouldn´t be tempting her in order to make her do something against her mind. He was aware that she likes him a lot but he shouldn´t use her trust and friendship. He has to hold on, perhaps she might change her opinion someday… Now he has to be happy because of her presence. He cannot scare her. He couldn´t stand if she pulled off. He needs her in his life so badly.
He wanted to spend the whole night in her room watching her but suddenly he heard somebody saying: „ Carlisle….." He was out immediately and saw Jasper out there. Carlisle asked: „ You came to check?" He nodded: „ We promised Alice to come to check on her…and Edward claimed they were both sleeping. I had to idea to find you here….." His hand was in the hair: „ I ….I just….. I had to…." Jasper touched his shoulder: „ I know dad… but…she is still married…. I believe it must be hard for you…." Carlisle realised that it was wrong what he did. He used her opened window without her consent. It wasn´t fair. He should treat her right. This cannot happen again. He looked at Jasper who guessed his idea and smiled compassionately. He hid it well but he felt incredibly sorry for his father.
