I wish I own this anime...But no such luck...Okay people..This is the last part.. Sorry for the long wait, I was busy with my trials exam...Please excuse me for my lousy grammar and enjoy this little story of mine!!
You're everything, I'm nothing, and together we're something.
It was raining. It was raining really hard. Splitter and splatter, splitter and splatter. The sound of Heaven's tears hit the earth in a melancholy tune. I stood there alone. Under the great gray sky, the tears hit me, drenching me to the skin. My black shirt and white tight pants clung to me like a second skin. I felt cold.
Suddenly, I saw a figure not too far away from me. It looked like a girl with pretty long black hair… No, wait, I squinted at the figure that stood alone there. It was a guy; he was too tall to be a girl. His hair was tied up in a high pony tail with a long sword hung by his hips.
Who is he?
He was looking up at the sky, letting the rain hit his tall lanky body. I took a step forward to have a closer look. He had these beautiful mesmerizing midnight blue eyes that held nothing but sadness and coldness. Why?
"Yuu." My mouth called out a name towards that figure. What? Yuu? Who's that? Do I know him?
My legs took a step forward. Why? Why is my heart beat increasing?
"Yuu." My mouth called again, this time in desperation. The figure stood there unmoving. Maybe he didn't hear my mouth's call, but why is my mouth acting on its own? Shouldn't you listen to me? Your brain?
My legs took a few more steps towards the tall figure. Now, I could make out that his had this face that looked like an angel. A fallen angel with pale milky skin and full lips that were set in a straight line. He looked beautiful. His coat, it was long and black. There was an odd yet familiar white crest on his left chest. He was wearing leather boots. Everything looked so familiar but why did he felt so far away?
My hand reached out in front of me to him. Great, now even my hand is disobeying me. I got close enough to feel the warmth of his body. Yes. There is no mistake. It certainly felt familiar, but my dear heart, why are you hurting?
Suddenly he started to walk away, as though he didn't see me, as though he couldn't hear my calls, as though he didn't know me. His long drenched coat waved behind him with his every step.
"No, wait!" my mouth called out, my half-gloved hand tried to grab his shoulder but he was getting far away. My body that felt it doesn't belongs to me started moving towards that figure called 'Yuu'.
"Yuu!" my mouth called again, desperation in my voice. I started running. Under the heavy misty rain I ran towards that figure but the distance between us seems to grow larger and larger. I ran and ran till me legs gave off beneath me but my hand; it was still reaching out to him. My dear heart, why are you bleeding?
"Yuu! Don't go!" my mouth called out brokenly in a voice I don't recognize anymore. The figure disappeared in the darkness of rain. Yes. He's gone. His back walking away from me was a vivid image that kept appearing in my mind.
A lump formed in my throat. Tears stung my lids and welled behind my eyes. Without realizing, it slipped and fell down my cheeks mingling with the rain.
"Yuu…" my mouth whispered as I knelt on the cold wet grounds crying brokenly. My dear heart, did you just break in there?
My brain suddenly jumped back to life, back to reality. I struggled in my sleep and snapped my eyes open. Tears slipped down from the corners of my eyes. I stared up at the dimly lit ceiling, for a moment, all I heard was my own irregular breathing.
It was only a dream.
I reached out a hand to wipe away my tears with my brain sending messages to me, telling me that my head hurts. My lips were dry and capped. Not to mention I feel weak and dizzy and I've only just woke up! I looked around and my brain told me I was lying on a bed in the infirmary. So I wasn't dead huh? I looked down at my right hand, the one hand that I use to write. It was bandaged with clean white cloth, stained a little with my blood.
I sighed. How long have I been asleep? My emerald green eyes traveled around the dark room and stopped at a clock by my bedside. 5.38 am.
Memories flashed back as I tore my gaze from the clock back to the white ceiling. I messed up big time. Old panda will certainly fire me from being his apprentice. I sighed. I hate my life.
"Yuu." I called out his name, hoping and wishing with all my heart I could see him once more. I gaze at the side of my bed, every time I'm hurt or sick or anything, Yuu will be right there by my bedside when I wake up. Always. Oh, how I missed those lovely long black hair that sometimes appeared dark blue under the moonlight and those soulful deep sapphire eyes that showed so much love for me and only me.
I missed how he would hold my hand when I have nightmares and I missed the way he always say I'm a wimp even though he didn't really mean it. Yes. That's Yuu. The man I had fallen head over hells with, there will be no other person in this whole lousy wide world can ever replaced him. Nobody is as arrogant and aggressive as he is. Nobody is as beautiful as he is. Nobody is as sharp and strong as he is. Nobody is as soft and gentle as he is.
I love him so much.
Tears stung my lids and welled behind my eyes again at my thoughts. I rolled sideways and pulled my blanket up to my head when tears started to fall.
The next time my eyes crack open again, I squinted under the bright sun light from the window and saw a ring of face surrounding me. Leenale looked worried. Miranda looked anxious. Marie looked calm. Bookman looked empty (as always). Two nurse blushed when I caught them starring at me from the foot of my bed. Head nurse looked doubtful. Krory, Komui and Allen looked so tragic, I snapped at them.
"I'm not lying in my coffin you know." Everyone's face relaxed with relieve at my comment.
"How are you Lavi?" Leenale asked frowning worriedly. I smiled.
"Much better."
"Finally you're awake. We were so worried about you." Allen said smiling weakly.
Komui and Jerry started to cry behind their hands. I laughed at them.
"Come on, don't cry. I'm fine aren't I?" I reached out my hands to touch their fore arms. Both of them looked down at me stunned.
"I'm sorry Lavi," Komui mumbled, looking remorse.
I shook my head and smiled.
"Don't be, it's not your fault." I said sincerely. His lips started trembling and he flung his whole body onto me hugging me close crying into my shoulder. I laughed at the older Chinese man.
"Don't be a baby." I patted his back and everyone else laughed when a red faced Leenale tried to pull his wailing brother away from me.
Everyone was silent for a few comfortable minutes.
"How long have I been asleep?" I asked scratching my messy red hair.
"Two weeks," Allen replied flatly.
"What?!" I sat up on my bed. "Two weeks? Impossible!"
"Nonsense." The head nursed smacked Allen's head with her clip board.
"Oww!" Allen yelp rubbing his head.
"You were unconscious only for three days." Head nurse informed grimly and I sighed with relieve.
"Lousy Moyashi." I muttered under my breath making sure he heard me.
"What?" he looked at me with feigned hurtful expression. I laughed at his expression. It really felt good to have true friends around me when I needed them.
"Thank you for being there for me." I whispered to them smiling sadly. "I'm really glad I have so many friends by my side." All of their faces clouded with emotions making my laugh. I spread my arms and yelled out,
"Group hug!" everyone laughed and complies but Bookman (obviously) and I nearly crushed under their embrace.
"I thought I'd lost you." Allen whispered into my left ear silently. I smiled in the sea of arms.
"Me too." I whispered and he frowned at me without saying another word.
"When can I get outta here?" I asked directing my question to the head nurse. She looked up from her work and looked thoughtful for a moment.
"In another three days, you need to rest. After all, you passed out because of fatigue and emotional breakdown." She shrugged. I swore everyone including me winced at the word 'emotionally breakdown' but nobody said anything about it. Nobody even bring up the little commotion I made, okay, maybe the big commotion. I found out I'd destroyed two corridors but no harm done, nobody's hurt but me and the walls and the floors.
After another hour, everyone left to do their work and the nurse gave me another injection of some sort of medicine that makes me sleep. Bookman stayed behind and I knew he got something to talk about.
He sat down on the chair beside my bed and starred at me for a long time.
"I'm sorry about what happened." I finally whispered apologizing. He continued to stare at me emptily and I ignored him, starting to drift off to another sleep.
"You passed." He said simply after awhile.
I gaze at him.
"Passed what?" I asked frowning.
"The test. You're an official bookman now." We were silent for a few minutes, letting the news sank slowly.
"But I lost control in the end." I said blankly, putting my mask on firmly again.
"I certainly didn't appreciate that part but the head of the clan was happy with the results you made for the past year so he passed you."
I snorted sarcastically.
"And look at the price I paid for this stupid test." I muttered under my breath and pulled my blanket higher up.
"I know I made you sacrifice a lot, but this is reality."
Don't talk to me about reality! You don't know anything! I wanted to snap at him but restrained myself I really don't have the energy to fight again.
The drugs were making me a little dizzy and my eyes started to feel really heavy.
"I hate you gramps." I muttered before closing my eyes so I didn't get to see his expression. There was a long silence until I heard him croaked.
"Me too, I'm sorry."
Yeah, you should be sorry for hurting me to a point of no return.
A love that will never die.
Winter went and spring came. Flowers bloom again but this year it was different. The sky had been crying everyday since the second week of the season, making it feel like autumn accept for the wilting bright flowers and leaves.
I stepped out of the Black Order towards the forest. Heavy raindrops hit me soaking me to the skin but I didn't care. Nothing really mattered anymore anyway. Since I was discharged, I returned back to normal, well, that was just me wearing my lousy happy façade and of course nobody saw through so it doesn't really matter I guess
I had been like a living dead for the past few weeks. All I ever did was to sit around and mope in my room or the library since gramps went for a mission a couple of days after that and I had nothing to do. When it's time to face the world, I would pull my mask out and slip it on firmly and I'm ready to go again.
My flaming wet hair sticks to my face in a dull red instead of a healthy flame like usual. I walked casually under the trees towards a certain garden somewhere quite deep in the forest.
A gust of lonely wind blew making me shiver with cold. I gaze up at the pouring sky and remembered my little dream.
"Yuu," I whispered his name, hoping the wind could tell him just how much I love him. It had been exactly over a year already. This stubborn heart of mine is still waiting for him.
I arrived at the little garden. All the lovely flowers that Yuu used to grow were wilting (did I mention that Yuu's secret hobby is gardening?). Stalks of red roses were plant right next to a bed of violets. I smiled at the sight.
"Roses are red, Violets are blue, sugar is sweet, so is Yuu." I smiled sadly at the silly riddle that signifies us. Yuu is blue, I am red and he is sweet.
I bend down to peer at the flowers then gaze up at the pouring sky.
"Stop crying will you? The flowers are dying." I asked the sky and it only rained harder.
"I was just asking." I muttered under my breath scowling. I sat down crossed leg in front of Yuu's flowers. They looked so lifeless and dull. Just like my life.
My brain wondered back to the first time I met Yuu. It was so long ago yet it felt like it was just a couple of days ago. I remembered how he hated me that time. I remembered the first time I ran to him when I had a nightmares; he kicked me out and nearly killed me for being so annoying but let me stay for the night in the end. I smiled when I remembered how Yuu said I was a wimp for crying.
Ever since then we grew close. It was when we were just seventeen years old I finally realized I'd fallen in love with him. The look in his eyes when I told him the news and how warm it felt when he kissed me that night in the infirmary.
The scent of Yuu was always sweet and comfortable, even when he sweats. I especially love his hair when he sleeps; it looked like someone had accidentally spilled ink onto his pillow and those lovely midnight blue eyes fringed with long dark lashes. Even though he rarely shows his concern, I can certainly feel it just how much he cared for me.
I bit my lower lip in anger and sadness and frustration as I remembered the pain, loneliness, agony I'd went through when he is not here. I love him so much.
I looked down at my hands, suddenly felt an urge to cry. Tears welled behind my eyes and rolled down mingling with the rain so nobody could make out I was crying.
Under the rain, I sat there in front of the flowers sobbing silently. For my broken heart, for my Yuu.
"You know," I whispered to the flowers. "Life is really unfair. Including yours."
I paused for a moment.
"My life used to be a simple one. My job is to witness and write down history. I was a puppet without feelings controlled by strings. It wasn't until I met him; he melted my hard cold heart and taught me what love really meant. But… who knew love could hurt so much."
"You know," I smiled at the memory. "Once when we were fifteen, I covered myself with red paint and laid on my room's floor playing dead when I knew he would come to look for me. You should have seen the look on his face. Priceless. He was so shocked, he cried out my name."
I made a face at the next memory.
"Though he gave me a real hard punch when he found out it was all a joke. But that shows he cares for me right?" I asked the flowers but only silence answered me.
The wind blew, I shivered again.
"But all was too far away now. He is so out of reach. If only I could hold him in my arms once again so I could tell him…" I choke on my words with tears.
"Tell him what?"
"Just how much I love him." I said without thinking through my sobs.
My angel came back to me.
I blanched when I realized what I'd just said and that voice, it sounded so familiar.
"Lavi," the voice said from behind me.
My whole body went rigid when I recognized that voice. My breath turned short and irregular as I slowly stood up.
It can't be. This voice, no, it can't be.
I turned around and my heart stopped beating. It was Yuu. My Yuu. Standing right before me looking as beautiful as ever. My brain was sending messages to me telling me it's not a dream this time. It's really him right there in front of me in flesh and blood.
My eyes took all his information in. Those lovely sapphire blue eyes, that perfect straight nose, those gorgeous long black hairs that was tied up in a high pony tail. That smirk on his face. Unmistakable, it really was Yuu.
I stood there starring at him stunned and speechless. Emotions swelled in me making me wanna burst. My intestines tied themselves into knots making my stomach churned. Is this really happening? Is the person I love really right in front of me? Or is it because I finally got schizophrenia?
I watched him took a few steps towards me until we were just a foot away. I gazed at him in confusion. I thought he couldn't come back? Is this a dream? If this is a dream, please don't ever wake me up again.
"Lavi," his low voice called out my name and made my heart skipped a beat. I looked at him deeply in the eyes, tears welled behind my own.
"Yuu," his name escaped from my lips and tears started to roll like rivers down my cheeks. Slowly, two cold familiar pale hands touched my face so lightly and wiped away the tears. My heart started to jerk funnily.
"I'm back like I promised." He whispered. I closed my eyes and bit my lip from crying. Reaching out my hands to touch his cheeks and hair so gently as if he would break, I lost control and started to cry brokenly.
My arms circled him around that familiar small waist and pulled him into my chest hugging him tightly.
"Yuu…" I whispered crying into his already drenched shoulders taking in that same sweet smell of his that I could never get tired off. "What took you so long?"
"I'm sorry." He muttered and hugged me back circling his arms tightly around me.
"I'm so sorry." His low voice whispered over and over again in a soft tune he would never use for anyone else but me.
"I missed you so much." I said brokenly.
"Me too." I pulled away a little just enough to look him and saw tears falling from his eyes, mingling with the rain. My Yuu had never looked prettier.
"One year." I said pressing me forehead onto his and cupped his soft pale face in my hands.
"I waited so long for you? Is this a dream?" my voice was shaky and he shook his head violently against mine.
"No, this is not a dream you idiot." He whispered assuring me.
We stood there under the rain crying our eyes out. My love came back to me. Yuu came back to me to gently take away my pain.
"I saw what happened." He whispered to me, our forehead still leaning on each other.
"What?" I gazed deep into his sad cold blue eyes.
"The little commotion you made."
"How?" I asked but he bit his lip and gripped a fistful of my shirt on my left chest.
"I saw everything through Timcanpy. How you tried to kill Bookman and wrecked two whole corridors. I saw how you shouted and screamed and how they tried to stop you." His dark fringe hung in wet strings just below his brows as tears rolled down his eyes. It was the first time I'd ever seen him cry and I'm the source of his sadness.
Damn Allen his golem.
"Don't cry Yuu. It's nothing. I'm fine now." I tried to assure him and pulled him back to a bone crushing hug.
"What matters the most now is you're right here by me. That's all I need." I said into his hair. Yes, all I need is Yuu to be right here by me. Nothing else mattered at all.
"I love you." A voice whispered into my ear. I froze.
"I love you so much, Lavi." His voice was barely audible but my trained ears caught his words. How could I miss it?
I pulled away and looked at him deeply in the eyes. All my emotions were bare for him to see.
Slowly, carefully, I cradled him in my arms and inched close until our lips met. A sudden warmth hit me, a warmth I could never get enough of. He was taken aback for a moment by my sudden action but kissed back softly.
I could sense his longing feelings on my lips. How I'd dream to kiss again once more just like this. His lips were soft and warm and tasted as sweet as best honey in the world.
He reached out his hands and touched my flaming red hair pulling me closer and deepened our kiss. This feeling in me, it felt like a volcano trying not to erupt. My bit his lower lip, asking for entry and he complied with no complains. My tongue explored his mouth, tasting his sweet taste like I just can't get enough.
He moaned a little as our tongue danced together danced in perfect rhythm. Slowly, the unbearable pain I felt in my chest eased. My broken heart started to mend, mitigating all the awful and painful feelings.
Tears made their way to my eyes and rolled down like rivers again. He licked them away.
"Don't be a wimp, stop crying." He said in a cold demeanor but his red swollen lips smiled at me. I grinned back and put my lips back right where they belonged on his.
"Why don't you guys just get a room." A loud childish voice suddenly said from behind us and Yuu groaned and pulled away to look who it was.
"Moyashi."
"Bakanda." They greeted each other. Almost everyone from the Black Order was standing not far away from us smiling under the rain. Komui, Jerry, Leenale, Miranda, Reever and many others were crying to see us.
I smiled widely at them and waved. I held Yuu's hand firmly in mine and looked at him deeply in the eyes.
"Welcome home Yuu." I smiled happily. A smile that reached my deep emerald green eyes and Yuu couldn't help but smile back making his whole face lit up beautifully.
"Group hug!" I yelled spreading my arms wide and everyone smiled and started to comply.
"Che, no way." Yuu spat moving away before anyone could touch him but I pulled him back.
"No getting away now Yuu." I smiled and he growled when a sea of arms pulled us into a bone crushing hug making me laugh. Yes, this funny warmth I felt in my chest was what people would call happiness. Suddenly everything felt right and I'm alive again.
I saw gramps standing outside the ring of crowd starring at me with a little light in his eyes. I smiled and walked up to him and gave the short old man a big hug.
"Thank you for bringing him back to me." I thanked him softly.
"Hmn," he answered patting my back softly.
"Just be happy lousy apprentice and stop causing troubles for me." he said pushing me away back towards Yuu and I only laughed.
I held Yuu's hand firmly in mine as we all made our back to Black Order. The place I call home. I glanced at my love from the corner of my eye and couldn't resist another kiss on the lips.
"Like I said, why don't you two just get a room?" Allen said rolling his stormy gray eyes at us.
"Che, you're just jealous." Yuu spat gripping my hand tightly.
Allen gasped.
"Bakanda!" he yelled but he wasn't listening anymore. He was looking at me. I smiled at him then at Allen.
"Tonight," I announced to him. "We'll be in his room." Allen blushed at my bold words and others only laughed.
"Who said you could come tonight?" He looked at me coldly and I smiled cheekily at him.
"Don't leave me again." I then whispered seriously. He stood there unmoving for a moment.
"I won't leave you again." He finally reluctantly spat. Yuu had not changed at all; he was soft only when we were alone.
"I love you so much, I won't let you go again." I said softly touching his long wet hair. He blushed and looked away muttering something like 'idiot' but I knew he felt the same way too.
Today he came back to me and took away all the pain I felt. I am so happy to be able to kiss him and hold him in my arms once again. This is only our first test and we had passed. I'm sure there will be more to come in the future but I'm sure and confident we could overcome it as long as we have each other. Nothing will stop us from loving each other. There will be no obstacles we couldn't overcome...
My name is Lavi, his name is Yuu and we are eighteen. I am a bookman with commitments, he is an exorcist with burdens. Our hearts were once hard and cold but somehow, somewhere along the way we fell in love and this is the only beginning of our story.
Finally it's finished...I'm sorry if the ending is not very satisfying.. I'm not really good at happy endings...I hope you all enjoyed this story and thank you so much for reading... Leave a comment if you want even if it's a criticism..
If you feel kinda depressed right now like me..(since the happy ending was not great)... Go check out my other story(same pairing) with a tragic ending called "Smile Only When You Mean It"...I'm sure all the depressed people who wants a little cry will like that story...
Here's the link : .net/s/4985018/1/Smile_Only_When_You_Mean_It
Enjoy!
