Stray
A FMA fanfiction
By: Something Dysfunctional
Chapter Eleven
Pairing: Roy/Ed
Disclaimer: You all know who owns "Fullmetal Alchemist"... Here's a story that I hope will make you all smile, drool, laugh, maybe cry, and giggle over in embarrassment. I dedicate this to everyone who is part of the Risembool Rangers and Miniskirt Army that secretly love the idea of Roy and Ed together and everyone else who believes in love- real love, no matter what the cost. This is set SOMEWHAT in the "Loveless" universe because... I like boys with cat-ears and the "FMA" universe because I LOVE the concept of alchemy and all it's wonders. That, and I found these ADORABLE pictures of Ed with cat ears in Roy's lap that I based this from . Review nicely and happy reading!
NOTE: I'm currently in Columbus, GA in a hotel room... waiting for my best friend's brother to OFFICIALLY graduate from the Army tomorrow, so, this chapter is going to be short. And like from the previous chapter on Ed's thoughts, this one is on Roy's. Sorry for a slow update, but I will make it up to you guys. PROMISE! :)
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When I was brought up, I was taught never to show weakness. I suppose that's why I enjoyed the Military so much when I enlisted as a State Alchemist. I enjoyed the political power when I was promoted, the organization of missions, the learning process. It was all one easy step for me.
Now, when it came to women in general...
I was like a god.
Not to brag, but it was true. One glance and a smirk; they were mine for the night. I never had a real relationship until after I graduated. I was drawn to Riza Hawkeye with her sharp attitude, silent statue, and the mentality of getting things done on time. Not to mention an excellent sharp-shooter. I had lost my ears and tail around the age of eighteen and I don't regret it. It was a learning process. With Riza, she had hers until the age of twenty-one. I didn't forcefully take her. She accepted it. It was a long period of being together when it... dissipated. She just didn't feel anything for me nor I her. Yet we remained close friends and co-workers. Partners. Standing silently side by side. I never felt love. Real love.
Until I saw that boy sitting on the slide that night.
That one night when I was walking.
The golden eyes he had held everything I wanted. True, he was young. And fiery with an attitude, but he showed softer sides that made me melt. He was almost perfect for me. I don't mind the automail. I don't really care for his past story. I adore his brother and have gladly taken him as a son to me. With Edward...
He is everything to me.
Those smiles, playful fingers, happy sighs, the endless talking at night when we fall to sleep, the embracing after making love...
I'm glad that I took him for me.
I was against it at first because I am so much older. But can you really fight against what your heart and mind tells you? I didn't. I fell harder for him, day by day. He lured me in with a grin, his eyes glinting, knowing that he had me.
But that's okay.
I wanted him to take me.
Now, I'm wondering... if I can do it. If I am worthy of his love.
"When that day comes, will you be strong enough to stand up and love that person? Can you love again? Your heart can't stay frozen forever. Want to know why? Because, that person might melt it and you can't freeze it back once it's thawed. They will become your life, your all. If that happens, Roy... listen to what I say now...
Love back."
Dammit, Riza.
I hate it when you're right.
But what have I done now? I think... I've broken him. I've hurt him... in a way that I can't explain. I want to go after him. It's raining outside. He was never one for being wet. I need closure. I need my golden-eyed love back.
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Like I said,
short.
But sweet.
---the moonlight carries the message of Love.---
Later Days...!
SD
