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Chapter 12

After an hour or two, when cas had calmed down and was ready to deal with the situation, he heard dean walk back to his room and close the door. Cas got out of his room and knocked on the door to dean's room.

'dean, can I talk to you?' no reply

'dean, we need to talk about it.' Long pause.

Dean unlocked the door and stuck his head out.

'yes cas, what do you want?'

'dean, you know what I want. I want you to talk to me about what happened down there like a grownup'

'Sam and dad came back early, Rufus had to leave for some work thing.'

'I'm not talking about them coming back earlier than planned. Dean, stop behaving like this! You know what I'm talking about. I'm talking about our kiss!'

Dean pulled cas into his room at these words and closed the door.

'what is wrong with you cas? are you insane? What if dad or Sam had heard you?'

'I don't care dean. We need to have this conversation, right now.'

'It was nothing okay? It just happened. I don't want to talk about it ever again! It didn't mean anything.'

'really? The kiss didn't mean anything? okay, what about you confessing that you are in love with me in front of ash? Was that something you said in the heat of the moment too?' said cas, getting annoyed at dean's behavior.

Dean was shocked at cas' words. How the hell did he know this?

'what?'

'I heard you and ash talking about this in the park yesterday and that's why I freaked out. But then I realized that I feel the same way, and now you are acting like an idiot! This is just as hard for me as it is for you dean. I'm new at this too. And I need to you be there with me. We can figure this out together. Just stay with me, okay?' cas extended his arm to reach dean but dean backed away. He saw red.

'you eavesdropped on me and ash talking?' asked dean, really angry and hurt.

'I wasn't eavesdropping. I just happened to be there and I overheard you guys. It doesn't matter dean. what matters is that I love you and I know you love me!'

But cas' reassurances had no affect on dean, who was really angry at cas.

'I think we've talked enough cas. I think I've made it clear that no matter what you heard me say yesterday, I am not in love with you now. I think you should leave. It's getting late. I have to go to sleep.'

Just because cas understood that dean didn't mean what he was saying and that he was just freaking out and that he'd come around eventually, didn't mean that dean's words didn't hurt him like hell.

'if that's what you believe dean, then I'll leave. Thank you for making it clear that there is nothing between us. Goodnight.'

With that cas left without a backward glance and as soon as dean heard the door of cas' room shut, he knew that he'd made the biggest mistake of his life!

Cas came to him room and instead of crying like he had done earlier this evening, made a plan that would force dean to admit his love for him. once his plan was in place, he slept peacefully.

Next morning when cas woke up, he stayed in bed till he heard the door to dean's room open. He jumped out of his own bed and ran towards the door and opened it just in time to "accidentally" bump into dean. dean, who was still half asleep, caught cas in his arms almost reflexly. And then, dean was not so asleep. Dean realized that both of them stood in the hallway, dean arms wrapped around cas' waist, in just their boxers. Dean, who usually slept like this was surprised to find cas in his boxers as cas always put on a robe or some cloths before he left his room. Cas' skin came in contact with dean's flesh, making the Goosebumps on dean's body, rise. Dean stared at cas, wide eyed, while cas pretended to rub his eyes sleepily. Then lifted his eyes slowly, and dean's cock twitched as soon as his eyes made contact with cas' blue eyes! Dean just stood there, holding cas, mesmerized and very turned on.

Just then, cas decided to regain his balance and stepped away from dean. dean was very embarrassed to find himself wanting more. Cas looked at dean, from head to toe. His eyes lingered at the tent forming in dean's boxers. He smirked and then left, leaving dean standing there, blushing.

Dean took a very long shower, a very long, cold shower and then came downstairs to have breakfast. Sam and john were still asleep as they were tired from yesterday's journey.

Cas was already at the dining table, now dressed in a pair of jeans that were tight in all the right places and a blue t-shirt which brought out the color in his eyes even more, if that was humanly possible.

Dean sat down opposite to cas, trying to avoid being rude by eating someplace else, even though he really wanted to. Cas sat there, licking nutella from the jar that was in front of him.

Dean poured himself some cereal and when he looked up, he couldn't look away. He stared as cas put his chocolate covered finger in his mouth and sucked on it, humming around his finger and making erotic sounds as he licked the tip. He continued to do this. He made slurping noises and a soft moan, now and then. He stuck out his tongue and licked the finger in a very slow teasing movement. Dean was past the point of caring if cas noticed that he was staring in a very impolite manner. Dean's jeans were growing tighter every second! He continued to stare and was saved when he heard a car honk outside.

But there was a problem. Dean was very hard by this time and he couldn't get up and walk to the door. He didn't want cas and Bella to see the problem he was having.

'cas, can you tell Bella that I'd be out in a second? I just need to get some books from my room.' Said dean.

Cas understood what was happening and went outside and smirked as he walked towards the front door... his plan was working like a charm!

As soon as cas left, dean tried to think of dead rabbits… bloody dead rabbits. Even though it was slow, but the gory pictures in his mind did the trick and he calmed down. He slung his bag over his shoulder and exited the house. He walked towards the car to find cas bent over, elbows resting on the rolled down window of the car, hips sticking out, head halfway inside the window cavity. Cas was talking to Bella. Cas moved is hips as on purpose, pretending like he was shifting his weight from one foot to the other. The movement caught dean's eyes and he was stuck. He couldn't look away! Damn that oh-so-sexy ass!

Dean walked closer, trying to listen to what cas and Bella were talking about. Bella was laughing in that high pitched tone again, twirling a lock of her hair around her finger as she talked.

'maybe we can meet up after school today and I can show you around. You don't have to get bored, you know. I promise I'll make it worth your while.' Said Bella and then she winked at cas.

'maybe instead of going out, you can come home after school, and I'll make it worth your while. Dean's given me a tour of the town anyway, and trust me, I can make your visit much more interesting than the tour!' said cas, in a flirty, sexy tone. He brushed his fingers against Bella's arm on purpose which made Bella blush. Dean watched all this. His ears grew really hot all of a sudden. He felt this huge wave of anger pass through his whole body. He wanted to punch cas in the face and then smash him into the wall and when cas was all needy and in pain, kiss the hell out of him, that too in front of Bella, so that she gets the message loud and clear!

Wait! What? What the hell is he thinking? Dean opened the door on his side, and pushed cas off his balance a little, and got inside the car.

'move already Bella. I asked you to give me a ride because I don't want to be late to school. What's the point of riding with you, if I'm late anyway?' said dean in a very angry tone.

'geez! Relax dean. we won't be late. See you later cas!' said Bella and blew cas a kiss as the car started moving.

Dean was so mad at cas! what the hell was he thinking? Dean knew now that cas had done all this on purpose. The boxer shorts, the chocolate licking, the flirting. It was all cas' way of getting back at dean. and dean deserved it. He knew he was being a jerk. He knew that no good was coming from what he was doing. But his dad and Sam had arrived in the middle of his very first and very hot gay make out session and then cas told him that he knew that dean loved him. all this was too much for dean. yes, he did love cas, but that didn't mean he was ready to shout it to the world. He was scared and confused and he didn't know how to go about this. He knew that he wasn't being fair to cas in the midst of his confusion, but it's not like he was doing it on purpose.

Dean just needed some time to figure this out. Figure out how to tell his family and friends. He had to get used to the idea of getting labeled for the rest of his life if he did come out. He wasn't even sure if he was gay for all men or was it just cas. he just needed time to sort this out for himself before he dragged cas into it. He needed time, and cas wasn't helping. It was "hard" enough to be around him, living in the same house, but now that he was acting all sexy, dean wasn't sure if he could hold it in any longer.

Dean decided to do the one thing that he could. Talk to ash. He told ash everything that had happened and everything that was going through his mind.

'dean, how your friends and family react is a secondary thing. What's important is how you feel about cas. and as far as I know, you friends and family won't be as freaked out as you are. But that's not the point. The point is, you are making things far too complicated. People aren't labeling you, you are labeling yourself. You don't have to think whether you are gay or bi or if it's just cas. all you need to think about it is that you love this guy and you are losing him over a stupid freak out. Stop over thinking things. You were always the 'shoot first, ask questions later' kind of guy. Now is the time to think less and do whatever feels right.'

Ash's words got to dean and he realized that he was in fact acting kind of stupid. He didn't have to figure out all the things right now. All he knew was that he loved cas, and that cas made him feel happy and that he wasn't ready to give up on them. And he sure as hell didn't want Bella in the picture! Cas was his, and he was going to get him!