Ugh!
I am writing this author's note after four attempts of uploading this chapter! It's why it took a little longer to be posted.
Stupid… unreliable… internet connection! Any way fourth time's the charm!
Any who, this chapter finally actually has a bit of M in it. "Yes! Finally!" I hear some of you say. Not too much, but I couldn't put in under any other rating. Even though the actual "act" -lol- isn't in this chapter, it is enough to earn it's rating haha ; )
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Disclaimer: I don't own Twilight.
Chapter 12: The Move
Two and a half hours later we were still packing up.
We were vampires! A simple job like this wasn't suppose to take this long.
I had long ago packed up the few possessions I held in the house, and was now waiting anxiously for the other's to do the same…
'Others' probably wasn't the right word……. 'Jasper' was.
It wasn't unreasonable. Jasper was the one driving with me, I had every right to wish he would hurry up more than the rest… or at least that's what I was trying to convince myself. Truthfully I couldn't wait to be alone in the car with him. No more whispering below vampire senses, no more hiding. I could put up the block between Alice's vision and us, then we could do what we please.
A chill ran through my spine at this thought. But it wasn't caused by just the prospect of finally being able to be.. Uh.. 'physical' with Jasper, but rather the notion that now we could talk about what ever we pleased, we wouldn't have to censor our conversations, always living in fear that the wrong thing might slip out.
Two smooth, marble arms wrapped around my waist from behind me -and for a split second I imagined they were Jasper's.
"I have to go now, love." Came Edward's soft voice in my ear.
I nodded, still not facing him.
When he didn't say anything, I assumed he hadn't seen my nod and so I voiced my answer.
"…Okay then," I whispered in false depression, sending him a wave of concern to add credibility.
He kissed from my neck to my ear lobe, then spun me around and kissed me on my lips. For the second time since my change, I was incredibly grateful that Jasper was not anywhere near.
He pulled away from my lips and rested his forehead against mine.
"Seven days." He breathed out in a solemn tone. "I shall count down the minutes till I'm back in your arms…"
I nodded again, not able to trust my own voice. Little did Edward know that when he returned, he'd wish he never had. Jasper and I would tell them after seven days, and in doing so; break more than one heart.
He closed his eyes and just stood there, holding me and breathing in deeply.
It occurred to me how greatly these seven days differed in meaning to the both of us. For Edward, it was hell on earth. For me, it was paradise. Not because of Edward's absence per se, but rather it meant a little more privacy for Jasper and I. An old saying my mother use to say came to mind; One man's hell is another man's heaven. How fitting it was for our current situation.
Edward's emotions were so depressing that I immediately felt terrible for wishing he would leave. However, underneath the many sad emotions that were orbiting around him, there was one that confused me. It was relief.
Why was Edward relieved?
Before I had time to ponder the question further, Edward snapped his eyelids open so that he was staring me in the face.
I stumbled back from the shock, far from Edward's arms.
"Sorry… I didn't mean to frighten you," He said, moving closer to me again. "Carlisle was talking to me through his mind. He says we've got to go…"
"Okay!" I said -a little too eagerly. Edward looked at me confused, but didn't press the issue.
"I'll call as soon as we land," he said kissing me again. "Don't worry, I'll be back before you've really even settled into the new place…" He said walking towards Carlisle's car. "I love you."
I couldn't do it. I couldn't say what he wanted to hear. How could I tell him that I loved him now, then in a week's time break his heart? It was cruel and unnecessary to give him false hope.
"Safe flight," I replied, blowing a kiss, and praying to god he wouldn't wonder why I hadn't returned his words.
I watched as the beautiful Mercedes slipped from the drive way like a shadow, and disappeared onto the road.
Like clock work, Jasper stepped down the stairs at that exact moment, smiling a huge warm smile that made my knees wobble. I took special care to notice that the first few buttons of his shirt had popped open, and I could see in plain view his perfect marble chest. He was wearing his sleeves rolled up, so I could see every little bite mark on his arms -They didn't detract from his beauty in the slightest. In fact if anything, they enhanced it. They made him look real and durable, not like a china doll that could break at any moment.
"Well… I have finally sorted through every tiny piece of junk I accumulated over the years. I'm all packed up!" He said, making the smile even larger.
"Really? I mean you're serious, we're free to go? ….Just you and me.. Together?"
"Well we could invite Emmett if you're that desperate," He laughed out.
"Oh shut up," I replied, punching him playfully on the arm. "Let me just grab my stuff."
"Oh no, no, no!" He said, chucking me over his shoulder and laughing, "We're leaving all that for the movers remember? It's just you, me and the big, open road.
As he moved us towards the living room, we came across Esme and Alice.
"Give each other a break, you'll wear him out soon Bella!" Alice said laughing.
Jasper immediately set me down on the ground softly. Although what we were doing could be considered sibling playfulness, it was better not to incense Alice's already pricked suspicion.
"So you two had better be off then, the movers will be here soon," Esme said, moving another handful of boxes to the corner of the room.
Jasper and I both nodded to her.
"We'll call when we arrive, to see where you're at." I said kissing her on the cheek.
"Jazzy?" Alice asked in a meek, soft voice. "Can I have a kiss goodbye?"
My heart sunk to the bottom of my chest as I continued talking to Esme, trying to distract myself.
It didn't work. I could hear Alice moan into his mouth. It was almost as if she were trying to hurt me, as if some part of her already knew about Jasper and I. I felt Jasper send me a wave of guilt, but I didn't blame him. Just one day ago the roles had been reversed, and it was Edward kissing me. I thought about taking a leaf from Jasper's book and breaking some furniture, but everything was already bubble wrapped.
Reluctantly Alice let go of Jasper as he pried himself from their embrace.
"Sorry Al, but we really should go… I can feel Bella's thirst waning." Jasper said, concocting a very valid lie.
Alice sighed loudly, "Okay then…. After all, we'll get to christen the new bedroom when we finally all get there." She said, giving him a wink.
Like hell you will! I wanted to shout. I needed to control my emotions, Jasper must have felt my strong jealousy and anger because he shot me an apologetic look.
"Alright let's go Bella," Jasper said, ushering me towards the garage. "We'll speak to you guys later. Bye Emmett and Rosalie, see you at the new house!" He shouted, although I was quite sure they would have heard it even if he had spoke it at a normal volume.
We walked hastily over to the Cullen's cars, but I stopped short when I noticed which car we would be driving.
"We're taking the Volvo? Edward's Volvo!?" I choked out.
"Yeah sorry.." Jasper replied, scratching his neck. "Since Edward's in Italy, there's no one to take his car…. So I volunteered us, on account of I only have my bike here."
I nodded, not really wanting to be difficult, as I sat in the passenger seat. Jasper closed my door for me, then in less than a second was sitting behind the wheel.
"You ready for this?" Jasper said raising his eyebrows.
I laughed at his expression.
"I've been waiting for this a long time.." I replied, raising my eyebrows too and building a strong barrier between Alice's vision and us.
He chuckled, then -without even looking ahead- managed to maneuver the car out of the garage and into the pouring rain outside. The rain seemed so fitting. It had poured for my arrival in Forks and now it was pouring for my departure. It was significant to me. As if the rain had marked my stay in Forks.
"You're happy." Jasper said, repeating the words from my first hunt, "Could I be so presumptuous to say it was your company that was having this affect on you?"
I laughed at him. "You need some new expressions!" He smiled at me.
"So…" I said, suddenly nervous as to what we would talk about. "We're going to be alone for a little while at the house.. What do you think we'll get up to?"
He turned to look at me and raised one eyebrow.
"Did you have something particular in mind?" He asked smiling, and sending me a wave of lust.
It had been a few minutes and already we had breeched this topic? Yes we were already out of Forks, but that was a given with the way Jasper, and vampires as a whole, liked to drive.
"Well I don't know… I was just thinking aloud," I said embarrassed and wishing I had never raised the topic. I started imagining what we could do, all the many wonderful things I had wanted to do for a while. I could touch him in ways I never had, better yet I could see his beautiful body again -and I wouldn't have to hide from embarrassment like last time.
Very soon the entire car was filled with a thick smog of lust and I found myself struggling to breath right. It was that damned circle of emotion between two empaths. Always being reflected and empowered of the other.
"How about some music?" I asked, trying to alleviate the crippling amount of lust.
I searched through Edward's mass of CD's, but finding nothing suitable I settled for the radio. As soon as I turned on the radio I wished I hadn't. Though I didn't know the name of the song, I had heard it before when I was human. Something about a man wanting to have sex with a lot of women. It was a crap song, but the lyrics were enough to push me over the edge. I slammed my hand against the radio, nearly breaking it, as I clenched my fists into the seat's fabric. Jasper pulled off the road into a small dirt track and suddenly turned off the car.
We sat in silence for a few moments, as the rain beat down relentlessly on the roof.
"Jasper… are you okay?" I asked tentatively.
He was hunched over the steering wheel and his breath was ragged and shallow. He turned to look at me, and I couldn't help it. I added another pound of lust to the already huge pile. I was abruptly pulled from my seat and straddled on Jasper's lap. He pushed his lips to mine as I gleefully returned the favor. I felt his tongue slide between my lips and I moaned at the sensation which only encouraged him more. His hands were everywhere, but it wasn't enough. I yanked my shirt over my head and his hands caressed the now available skin.
He pushed his body against mine and I could feel every inch of him -and I mean every inch of him. His lips slipped down my necks and over my chest causing me to buck against him, the feeling was unbelievable. He groaned into my skin and thrust his jean clad crutch against mine, causing me to hit the horn. Such an event may have been funny if we both weren't so driven by lust.
"Back…seat…now" Jasper struggled out.
I quickly complied and jumped off his lap and into the back seat. He followed soon after, removing his shirt and lying on top of me. I felt every stony muscle, now completely touchable. He slipped between my legs and I linked them together over his back. I couldn't believe how much I wanted him, I felt like I was literally going to explode.
"Bella, Bella, Bella," He said, repeating my name over and over against my skin. That was it, I couldn't stand any more waiting. I ripped open his jeans and moved my hands down to his pants.
"Wait, wait… Bella stop!" Jasper said, breathing erratically.
"What!? We're half naked, I have my hands down your pants and you want me to stop?!" I almost shouted at him.
"Well.. It's just… it may be stupid to you… but, I don't really want to make love to you for the first time in the back seat of your current husband's car…"
He's got a point, the lustful part of my brain spoke up.
What!? You're meant to be all for this, you're suppose to support this! I mentally shouted at myself.
But don't you want it to be special, this is Edward's car…
Ugh! I wanted to scream, I needed my release now, I couldn't wait till we found a bed. But looking into Jasper's eyes I knew I would not complain. He was an old fashioned boy, and I don't think he'd like it very much if I practically raped him.
I sighed loudly, "Fine… We'll wait."
He smiled and gave me one more kiss.
"Just think," he said smiling. "The sooner we get home the sooner-"
"Yeah, yeah," I said rolling my eyes and only making him smile larger.
"Hit the gas."
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