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Disclaimer: Is Lee getting chased by Seme's that want him as their Uke? No? Then I don't own Naruto.

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Title: Angel or Devil

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It had been a months since meeting most of the main members of the Akatsuki. Lee enjoyed it for the most part though for the time he'd stayed there, Hidan and Sasori were kind of...creepy or just odd. They both loved to stare at him and though Hidan seemed to like to try and get him mad again, Sasori was quiet and sometimes followed him places.

He did meet Sasori during a rather private moment.

Lee walked through the halls, trying to find Itachi. He hummed under his breath, stepping lightly and sometimes twirling around to the beat of the song in his head. He giggled to himself as the shadows in the hall seemed to come alive and join him. He spread his arms out, momentarily forgetting what he was doing and bowed to the shadows like a dancer before going onto the tips of his toes to twirl again.

He continued to hum, a little louder now as the music in his head grew louder. In his cracked and almost broken mind, he saw figures come from the shadows. They were familiar in a way he couldn't place but one with an almost pineapple hair style came towards him and reached out to dance with him. The figure was only slightly taller than him and Lee felt really happy for some reason.

His smile grew when two more shadows came, one with spiky hair, his height as well. The other was much taller and seemed to have no hair at all. Of course the figures looked like shadows so that was really all Lee had to differentiate them.

He danced with them, happiness growing as well as a strange hollow feeling in his chest.

Then he stopped, unable to move anymore. Lee's eyes focused sharply and he felt scared until he saw Sasori. Then Lee frowned, the man wasn't touching him, nothing was, yet Lee still couldn't move. Then Sasori lifted his hand and his fingers moved then Lee was moving without his own input.

"Lee-chan..." Sasori said with that same smile on his face that made Lee feel so odd that first day.

"Sasori-kun? Are you controlling me?" Lee asked

"Yes, isn't it wonderful?" Sasori said with that same smile, "You respond quite beautifully to me. Your dancing was nice to watch, but I thought this would be better."

He twitched his fingers and Lee began to dance again. Lee smiled, not really minding.

"If I am to dance, will you not join me?" Lee asked, feeling a little less lonely now though he missed the shadow figures that looked so familiar.

"Hm..." Sasori stared for a bit longer, manipulating Lee's body in ways that made Sasori want to touch even if he wouldn't be able to feel it. Finally, he stepped closer and was about to put a hand on Lee when he had to move back to dodge a thrown kunai.

"Dammit Sasori!" Kisame said, growling as he stomped over, "Stop trying to collect Lee!"

Lee giggled and relaxed his body as the chakra strings broke. He darted towards Sasori and hugged the man, thanking him quietly, before running over to Kisame and asking the shark man where Itachi was. He found it funny that Sasori continued to stare at him as Kisame took him away.

Then there was that rather frustrating time with Hidan...

Lee stretched in the training area before working on his flexibility. He did a few flips and handstands then jumped as high as he could into the air without chakra -which was actually very high, much higher than normal ninja could-. He spun his body around and landed on his hands before bending his elbows and shooting himself back into the air to flip more.

He liked doing it, it made him feel like he was flying.

Then, he felt a disturbance and automatically grabbed the kunai that had been thrown at him and sent them right back even faster. There was a clang then familiar laughter.

"Hello Hidan-kun." Lee said as he opened his eyes, landing on the ground quietly, "I would enjoy it if you didn't try to get my clothes dirty."

"Like I fucking care." Hidan said, "I want to see that expression again. I'm going to make you fight me again, bitch."

"Must you?" Lee said with a sigh then finally gave in. He began lifting his sweater dress to take it off and felt his cheeks burn as he heard Hidan whistle at him. He shoved his 'dress' back down and glared from under his bangs, "Hidan-kun!"

"What, Bitch? You've got a good body and I've got eyes." Hidan grinned, enjoying Lee's flustered anger. Making Lee angry had quickly become the highlight of his time at the Akatsuki base.

"Be serious please! If you wish to fight with me then stop lying!" Lee bit out without even knowing why. It felt like...a part of him was honestly hurt. His eyes widened under his bangs and he touched his fingertips to his lips.

"Why...why did I say that?" Lee muttered to himself then clenched his fist as he felt irrationally angry. Unfamiliar shadow figures danced at the edges of his vision and it looked as if they were laughing at him. Lee grit his teeth and glared.

"The hell are you on about?" Hidan frowned

"Hidan-san..."

"San?"

"I believe I wish to hurt you extremely badly right now." Lee whispered, his voice cold and a little frightening

"That's what I'm talking about!" Hidan grinned at Lee's tone, "Come on, give me what you promised!" His eyes were wide with excitement then Lee vanished and next thing Hidan knew, he was crashing into a wall, feeling like his ribs just broke. He laughed and got up eagerly, hissing out a pleased 'Yes'.

Then he was running at Lee and their fight began, his blood rushing like Jashin himself was blessing this fight.

Lee liked Deidara a lot though!

Lee yawned as he walked into the main room where everyone could 'hang out' if they wished. It slightly felt too early but Lee woke up anyway. He was reluctant to leave Itachi's bed but he wanted to make breakfast for the one he cared so much about.

Blond hair peeking out from the end of the couch made Lee pause and he walked over. A small smile quirked his lips as he found himself staring down at a slumbering Deidara. The man looked so comfy that Lee felt sleepy again.

Lee shook his head then prepared to go to the kitchen once more but caught sight of Deidara's hands. Interest perked inside him and Lee was already walking around the couch to kneel next to the ex-Iwa ninja. Lee lightly poked Deidara's hand and the man woke up immediately, his hand reaching Lee's neck without a thought.

"Dei-kun." Lee said and the hand stopped before it could close around his throat.

Deidara blinked then looked at Lee with slightly wide eyes. He closed them and put his hand on his face instead, sighing, "Lee...really?"

"What?"

"What are you doing?"

"I wanted to see your hands again, Dei-kun..." Lee said, slightly pouting.

"Ah, my ha- Dei-kun?!" Deidara suddenly sputtered, shooting up.

Lee leaned back slightly so he wouldn't get hit then giggled. Deidara was so funny! "That is your name Dei-kun."

"How the- why- arg!" Deidara scrubbed at his face then said, "When did I become D-...Dei-kun?"

"When I decided that I liked you a lot." Lee said with no hint of shame. Then he smiled and crawled onto the couch. Deidara stared at him oddly, his face turning red. Still, Lee continued to smile and said, "I want to hug you now. After I do that, may I look at your hands again?"

Deidara couldn't even say anything. He just groaned and closed his eyes as he fell back onto his back. He mumbled something that Lee couldn't hear but the boy took it as an agreement anyway and laid on Deidara to hug him. He took a long moment to nuzzle the blond as well.

and Kakuzu was kind in an odd but likable way.

Lee saw Kakuzu's door cracked open and couldn't help his curiosity as he took a peek inside. He smiled as he saw a man inside but for a moment, he was confused. The man wasn't dressed like Kakuzu. He skin was revealed, tan and stitched, and he had long black hair to his shoulders. It didn't look like Kakuzu, only because the Kakuzu he knew always kept covered. Then, the man's head snapped up and Lee was staring into green eyes against a red background.

Lee gasped and smiled widely. He pushed the door open and said, "Kakuzu-kun!"

Kakuzu raised an eyebrow before saying, "Lee."

Lee bounced in place until Kakuzu sighed and told him to come in already but not to touch anything. Lee grinned widely and ran in -taking a moment to close the door behind him-. He knelt right beside where Kakuzu sat and looked on the table.

"Counting money?" Lee questioned then looked up at the older man, "You really like money, do you not, Kakuzu-kun?"

"I love money. Money is everything and even hell runs on money." Kakuzu said as he continued to count the money.

Lee stared up at Kakuzu with wide eyes then looked down at the money. Then, he got out his coin purse and took out his money then put it on the table and pushed it towards the uncounted pile. He looked up at Kakuzu and smiled at him.

Kakuzu blinked and stared at the new money then turned his eyes onto Lee. His lips quirked and Lee felt his heart skip for a moment but it was forgotten as a large tan hand rested on his head.

"Good kid." Kakuzu said, petting Lee's head.

Lee's smile widened and he made happy noises. He tilted his head into the touch and almost whined when Kakuzu took his hand away. Then he just scooted closer and rested his head against Kakuzu's knee. He closed his eyes, enjoying the sound of Kakuzu doing one of the things he liked.

He fell asleep without realizing it.

When he next woke, he was in his own bed, under the covers.

But of course he loved Itachi the most out of everyone.

It was happening again. It seemed to be happening more and more lately. Shadowed figures came into his vision as he sat on the raised wooden patio that led outside. The whole area was blocked off, under a genjutsu that hid what the hideout truly was.

Bright sunlight shinned down on the clearing making it obvious that the shadows standing in it were only figments of his fractured mind.

How...funny...

Maybe he knew these figures, maybe they were part of a past he didn't remember anymore?

Lee smiled blankly, feeling a rush of irritation.

"Lee." Itachi's voice broke through his irritation and Lee slowly turned to look at the man.

"Itachi-kun..." Lee said with his same hollow smile.

Itachi stared at him for a long moment before suddenly sitting next to him. He reached out and brushed Lee's whitish grey bangs from his face, revealing his same colored eyes. He hummed and took Lee's chin into his hand and made the boy stare into his black eyes.

"What are you thinking...?" Itachi slowly said

The hollow smile fell and Lee stared right back. He reached up and touched his fingertips to Itachi's hand, immediately getting a read on everything...even emotions. He'd learned how to read Itachi long before but having that confirmation was special.

"Ita-kun..." Lee whispered; then he just stopped.

Itachi stayed silent, just waiting. He was rewarded when Lee began to speak again.

"There are days...when I know I am not alright." Lee finally said, "Most of the time I...I do not realize that I am crazy but then it will hit me out of nowhere. I am insane. My mind is broken and I do not think I can give away this damage."

Would he if he could?

"You are not." Itachi said, his thumb stroking the soft line of Lee's jaw.

"I am..." Lee said and his voice was slightly tight, "Ita-kun, I feel it. My mind is so close to being completely broken and I am scared. I see shadow figures of people I cannot remember. I cannot stand people touching me out of nowhere yet I am beyond touch starved that I want to scream. My mind pulls me in so many directions that I can barely tell what is up and what is down anymore."

Lee closed his glassy eyes and raised his other hand to curl both around Itachi's arm, "I...I only feel close to sane when I am with you..."

Itachi felt his breath catch and he stared at Lee with slightly wide eyes. Then, after a long moment, he took a deep breath and closed his eyes. He slowly leaned forward and pressed his forehead against Lee's. He heard Lee whimper and moved his hand, trailing his fingers over Lee's face until he was cupping Lee's cheek and his fingers were buried in his light grey hair.

Lee whimpered again and turned his head enough to press his lips against Itachi's palm without pulling away from where they were connected. His lips tingled at the touch and something warm spread through his stomach as he felt Itachi's breath shudder hotly against his cheek. Lee slowly opened his inverted eyes and stared at the blur of Itachi's closed eyes.

"Lee..." Itachi whispered only loud enough for the boy to hear and Lee felt his heart skip.

"If the price for your sanity...is to stay with me then..." Itachi slowly opened his eyes and gazed at Lee with an intensity that made Lee's mouth dry, "I will-"

"Hey Itachi-san, pup!" Kisame's voice broke their private moment and Lee almost whined when Itachi pulled away from him. His heart hurt.

Itachi continued to stare at him then suddenly, Lee felt softness against his revealed forehead. Lee's breath hitched and his wide eyes went glassy again with unshed tears. His heart pounded in his chest and he wanted to cry as Itachi kissed his forehead. Then the soft heat was gone.

"Hey guys, I finally found you!" Kisame said with a grin, not knowing what he'd just interrupted.

Everyone was so interesting and Lee honestly cared for them so very much -though there were two more in the main group but Itachi wouldn't let him meet Zetsu or Tobi-. It was slightly...scary. Lee worried if he'd lose his memories, would they even care? Would they not even try to find him, like the black figures in his head? Lee didn't even want to think of that, not when it made his heart hurt so bad.

Now it was time to travel again with Itachi and Kisame once more, something Lee was glad for. Pein had given them another assignment and now all he had to do was grab his coat from his room. The one he actually only used once -in the very beginning- as he secretly slept in Itachi's room instead.

Lee tossed and turned in his bed, whimpering as night terrors attacked his mind. Flashes of silver then rivers of red. Choking on his own life liquid, screaming till his voice cut out.

Pain

Pain

Pain

A sick smile and a touch that mocked a lovers.

"You ready to give in Lee-kun?"

Lee jolted awake, shooting up with his hand already in motion to claw into skin. He stared blindly into the darkness, panting, and his heart racing like he was moments from dying. His body shook and he slowly blinked before turning his eyes to his shaking hands.

He got up without another thought and walked without a clear destination. He stumbled his way to a door and opened it. His eyes landed on Itachi whose eyes were red and spinning.

"...Lee?" Itachi said, voice tinted with confusion as he lowered the kunai in his hand and deactivated his sharingan.

Lee walked inside and closed the door behind him. He made his way to the bed and silently crawled onto it before curling against Itachi's side.

Itachi stared at Lee the entire time. Then he noticed how badly Lee was shaking as he pressed against his side. He slowly lay down, letting Lee tremble against him then sighed. He could already guess it was a nightmare, most likely of the time he'd been tortured.

And it was his fault...he'd been the one to push Sasuke down that path...but that had never been the path that he wanted for his otouto.

Itachi closed his eyes for a moment before opening them. His sight was a constant reminder of what Lee had done for him. For so long, he had been practically blind when not using his sharingan. Another constant reminder was the lack of pain and sickness that he'd carried for so long.

Lee healed it all...

Lee who was tortured because of his little brother.

Itachi turned and did the only thing he could. He wrapped his arms around Lee and pulled him close after pulling the covers over them both. He felt Lee tense and just whispered one word.

"Sleep."

Lee relaxed in his grip and Itachi felt a warm wetness spread on his shirt. He held Lee closer, not saying even one word about the tears.

-It was a good thing considering he thought someone had gone into his room the first night after he left-

"Where are you going, un?" Deidara said from his spot on the couch as Lee ran by.

Lee stumbled as he tried to stop then giggled, "Itachi-kun and Kisame-kun got a mission! I am coming along!"

"Leader gave you the mission as well, un?"

"..." Lee tilted his head, still smiling, "It does not matter if he did. I am still going."

Deidara chuckled and waved his hand, "Yeah, yeah. I swear, Kisame's right about calling you pup, un."

Lee pouted and ran over to Deidara quickly. He leapt over the couch and landed on Deidara without a thought, making the man choke in surprise and blush hard, "I do not know how long I will be gone so do not miss me too much okay?"

Deidara scoffed even with his red face, "Y-yeah right. W-who'd miss a brat like you, un."

Lee smiled anyway and said, "I will be sure to bring you back more clay. Do not die on a mission before I come back, okay?"

"Tch, like I would." Deidara said, heart pounding in his chest. Then he put his hand on Lee's head and made the boy look at him. He glared and said, "Don't you dare be an idiot and die, un."

"But I thought Hidan was the idiot here?" Lee said

Deidara blinked then slapped a hand over his face, snickering, "Yeah. Still, don't be like him, un."

Lee smiled warmly and suddenly hugged Deidara. He pressed his cheek against the older man's and said, "I will miss you Deidara-kun."

Deidara's heart stuttered in his chest and he froze in indecision before suddenly hugging Lee tightly. Lee felt so small against him that it honestly kind of worried him.

'Damn, that bastard Uchiha better make sure Lee doesn't die, un!' Deidara thought to himself then his heart skipped and he felt a rush of heat as Lee mewled happily into his ear.

'Shit, un.' Deidara thought, quickly taking Lee off his lap.

"Protect yourself." Deidara said, both because he felt like he needed to remind Lee and also because he had to think about something else.

"Do not worry, I will. I do not desire death anymore."

"And it better fucking stay that way, un."

Lee giggled and suddenly leaned forward, kissing Deidara's cheek, making the man freeze.

"Thank you Dei-kun." Lee whispered warmly

"Lee! Come on, we're gonna leave without you!" Kisame called out from what Lee guessed was the front entrance.

Lee's eyes widened and he quickly hopped off Deidara's legs, leaving the completely red man there, still frozen.

"No! Do not leave me! I am coming!" Lee shouted, running towards where he heard the voice. He grinned widely when he saw the shark man and quickly jumped onto him. Kisame didn't even stumble and just chuckled, curling one arm under Lee so he had a 'seat'.

"You are very mean, Kisa-kun!" Lee said, pouting.

"Sure sure, Pup. Don't get your fur in a twist."

"Kisa-kun!"

Kisame laughed.

"Kisame, Lee." Itachi greeted as he came upon them.

Lee gave Kisame an indignant look, "You said you two would leave without me! Ita-kun was not even here!"

Itachi sighed as Kisame only laughed more.

Lee huffed and turned his attention onto Itachi instead. He smiled warmly at the man, saying, "Hello, Ita-kun. What will we be doing for our mission?"

"..." Itachi actually seemed reluctant to tell him but it came out anyway, "We will be going after the Kyuubi."

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