Chapter 11
Miley.
I'd gone with red.
I didn't care what Selena wanted, I was going to Teen Choice and I was wearing a red dress because it was what I wanted. I sat in the car alongside Liam who gave me a huge smile, we were going as friends nothing more and I'd made it clear that was all it was, plus Liam had a new girlfriend who lived in Australia which helped. I nervously played with my dress, I hadn't really spoken to anyone the last week and instead I'd thrown myself head first into work, making up for all the sick days and ones I'd skipped for the sake of it.
"Don't be worried, you're going to be fine." Liam whispered as I nodded.
I looked at his smiling face and nodded, I was really happy he'd suggested to come with me. "I hope so, I just really don't want to have to deal with Nick's tribute. I don't want to see the lame montage they've made or Selena standing on the stage as his girlfriend." I whispered as Liam grabbed my hands giving me a weak smile,
"I understand Miley, this is hard but I know you can do it. While everyone watches the montage and feels sorry for Selena you'll always know inside that in heaven he's thinking about you not her. Don't let anyone get you down tonight, this is your time to shine and no one can ruin that." Liam whispered as I nodded looking at him, god why hadn't I gone to him sooner? So what if he was my ex boyfriend, he was a really close best friend and never had he once judged the decisions I made.
"Thanks Liam."
"No problem and it's the truth Miley, Nick may be dead but his love for you will never be."
I smiled looking out the window thinking about Nick, we were back on track again and as guilty as I felt I knew for the time being I'd made the right decision. Telling Nick I kissed Joe would tear him apart especially seeing as Liam was back in the picture, I just didn't want Nick to have any extra stress right now. I hadn't spoken to Joe since that morning and tonight I was more nervous about seeing him then the whole awards and paparazzi put together. It was so awkward afterward and I really hoped we could go back to normal…However I doubted that was possible now, a kiss was just one kiss but when it came to Hollywood it just changed everything.
"Keep that smile on your face and you'll be fine." Liam stated just as the car pulled up and I looked at him giving a nod, I could do this. I'd walked along the red carpet hundreds of times before, this was just another one and I shouldn't be worried, after all I was a natural at this...or so I'd been told.
"Let's do this." I whispered.
The door opened and I climbed out smiling at my manager,
"Hey Miles, okay do what you want, keep interviews brief with the normal responses. I'll point out the significant interviews you must do, but the rest is up to you." She stated and I nodded as Liam stepped out from behind me.
"Same for you." Liam's manager stated giving us a smile.
"Okay go for it guys, remember only say what you need to and nothing more. And if they try to somehow make a relationship out of you two, make sure you kill any possible rumors of it okay?" My manager added as I rolled my eyes.
"Got it."
"Good luck."
"Thanks, lets to this Miles."
I smiled at Liam who took my hand and we headed off walking through a bunch of managers and publicists all standing back.
Then we hit the screaming, I turned looking at the fans smiling away happily while I saw almost all of their mouth drops when they saw Liam. "Wow looks like we're going to be headlining some gossip magazines, this is the biggest scandal since we broke up." Liam joked as I laughed looking at him. "I can see it now Miley back with Aussie heart throb, the sexy Liam..."
"You're being self centered again."
Liam laughed and nodded, "Okay how about flawlessly, talented Miley back with Aussie heart throb, the sexy Liam?"
"I'm liking it."
I smiled at him and he grinned back at me, it was good to have someone who made me smile.
I headed over to the fans and started signing dozens of bits of paper while Liam trailed behind me, I took a couple of photos with fans and Liam even offered to take a few for them. We ended up leaving after a good twenty minutes and I was already exhausted as we moved onto part two of the red carpet, the interviews. Straight away I noticed the presence of the familiar faces, but one caught my attention more then any of them.
Selena.
She stood with Danielle and Kevin, but I could just tell by their faces, their was still tension between everyone. I smiled giving a wave at Danielle who looked at me grinning and then saw Liam…her mouth dropped. Then Kevin's which lead to Selena spotting us and I knew all hell had broken loose. Within seconds I could see Selena about to explode and I looked back to Liam who stared now just as nervous as I felt…
"She looks pissed, extremely pissed." Liam whispered.
"I know, that's why I didn't want come!" I muttered raising my eyebrows.
"Come on,"
Liam took my hand and pulled me past the three of them heading over towards an interview. I moved forward looking at the woman who held a microphone out in front of me, "Hey Miley, you're looking gorgeous! So tell us are you and Liam back together again? Is he your date tonight? Because you two are looking very adorable with each other."
"He is my date." I stated smiling at Liam who was doing a different interview, he gave me a smirk back as I turned looking at the woman. "But no we aren't dating, this is purely a friendship relationship. Supposedly he's got a very hot Aussie chick back home."
"And are you going to be part of the memorial tonight?" She asked,
I kept my smile but felt the dread within, "No I'm not, I'm happy they're doing it though. It will be great to honor Nick here seeing as all the guys did so well at these awards."
"Thanks Miley."
"Thanks."
I went to move onto the next interview only for someone to clutch my waist tightly yanking me away from the media line. I turned surprised at the tight grip to see Joe staring at me looking really pissed off, he pulled me through the crowed to the back where I was faced with the entire group minus Selena thankfully. I stopped looking at all of them giving a smile,
"So I decided to come, and wear a red dress. You guys all look great!" I stated encouragingly,
They all just stared at me with the same horrified expression, I frowned looking away from them, where was Liam when I needed him?
"Liam? Really?" Demi hissed at me.
"What? He's my friend okay." I responded annoyed looking back at them, "Liam makes me smile and reminds me of the past, good times in the past. It's just one night guys, we aren't dating or anything I just needed a helping hand and Liam took it on."
"And we couldn't?" Joe asked pissed off.
"No," I muttered shaking my head, "Not after you kissed me."
Joe just stared at me devastated as I scanned the rest of them, they all looked at me like I was some cheating, back stabbing bitch. I rolled my eyes shaking my head looking at them all frustrated, if only they knew that Nick had approved this whole thing. Selena suddenly walked over and looked at me up and down flicking her hair giving me a look, oh shit.
"Nice, bring your new boyfriend to your dead one's memorial. That's classy Miley, then again you've never really been smart in your stupid actions." Selena spat and I looked at everyone else waiting for them to defend me.
But no one did. They all looked at me like I was the liar.
"He's not my boyfriend."
"You sure about that?" Joe hissed.
I stared at Joe frowning, why were they making such a big deal out of it?
"I am sure because at least he's one friend I can depend on not to use me. Just like you did Joe," I hissed instantly seeing the guilt cover his face,
"Miley I think you should just go." Demi whispered,
I stared at her really hurt, she was dismissing me? Demi honestly thought I'd just move onto Liam like this?
"Have a good night then." I whispered looking at them, "And I won't bother interrupting any of you again, because clearly you don't believe a word I just said. I don't care what you think of me, because I know things you will never know, and in the end at least I'm happy. And I hope you guys are too."
I saw all of their eyes look up and I felt someone grab my hand,
"Come on Miles, photos and then we can chill inside." Liam stated giving me a smile as he nodded at the group, "Good seeing you guys have a good night. I hope you win the awards you're up for."
I smiled at how nice Liam was to everyone, and we both turned away as he gave me a look,
"You okay? That looked intense."
"Oh it was, I think I just lost all the support I had." I whispered disappointed.
Demi.
Friendship in this business was questionable,
Sure you could be friends with the opposite sex but the speculation was always there and tonight it was proof that there was more then one meaning to the word "friend." I looked across at Miley who was laughing happily with Liam, honestly I was so relieved to see her so laid back and relaxed but at the same time I was so scared. Miley never bounced back from relationships this quickly, especially not the ones with Nick and it made me concerned of what exactly her mental state was right now.
"I can't believe this." Joe hissed alongside me shaking his head, "I can't believe after everything she'd run back to fucking Liam! I mean what is she thinking? How can he possibly understand better then we can? I'm Nick's brother and sure I kissed her but that was a mistake, I thought I could apologize to her but she's completely ignoring me and is never home…I bet she's with him. Maybe they moved in together? I just don't understand."
"Neither do I, and I don't think she does either."
"It doesn't make sense, if she's so head over heels for Nick why would she turn around and go back to her ex boyfriend?" Danielle whispered as I shrugged watching Miley and Liam laughing away together.
"Maybe they aren't dating?" Kevin muttered.
We all turned staring at him and he shrugged, "Look Miley is a complete mess, no point denying that but she's a smart girl. If she wants to date Liam then let her, if he makes her happy and some how helps mend the pain Nick's caused then let him. Because face it, it's not like any of us have made her laugh like that," Kevin stated deadly serious as I shook my head.
"It just didn't seem right, what she said…" Joe muttered.
"About knowing something we all didn't?"
"Yeah." Joe whispered as I frowned,
"It's like she's dating him to take the attention away from Nick and her. I feel like we've all missed something huge and she knows what's going on." I whispered seriously and turned to see Joe agreeing but the other two looking at me like I'd been hit on the head with a rock.
"Shit Selena's come, shut up act natural." Joe muttered.
Selena sat down beside Danielle as I bit my lip, she didn't regret what she'd said to Miley but the only reason she was acting like this was because Sel was upset. Selena was still mourning and I knew that she would never have said that to Miley if she was rationally thinking, it seemed both girls at the moment weren't giving anything a second thought and just acting on what they thought was best at the time. I gave a sigh, what were we supposed to do? God I needed Nick right now to sort out all of our problems…
The lights dimmed and I turned my attention to the awards,
"Here we go…" Joe muttered.
Justin Biebler opened and he was the host tonight. The whole thing got under way pretty quickly as awards started to be handed out to all the winners, Joe and Kevin got an awards along with Selena who was now back to speaking which was fantastic to actually have a conversation with her. It was good to see the smiles on their faces as they accepted their awards and all three of them thanked Nick, which made me smile. At times I could just imagine how proud Nick would be of not just his brothers but all of us,
"It's time." Kevin muttered as we came to a quick break,
We all stood up and headed backstage, Joe had invited me to come up on stage seeing as I didn't really want to be left alone. I gave Joe an encouraging smile, as he looked at me nervous, "I feel like this is my first acceptance speech all over again, I'm that nervous." Joe muttered and I just gave a weak laugh rubbing his arm gently,
"It'll be fine, Nick will be watching out for you I promise."
The lights changed color and we all watched as Alyson Stooner, who we had personally chosen to speak walk out onto the stage as the crowed started clapping. The audience slowly died down and Alyson's smile dropped a little, but I knew she had the confidence to do this. "This year we aren't just here to hand out awards, but also here to remember someone who we lost. Nick may have lost his life but for all of us here, he'll never be gone because his memory will last through his music and tonight we pay tribute to the amazing musician that I was lucky enough to call one of my friends. Nick Jonas everyone…" She announced,
The crowed was deadly silent as the footage began to run of the film and photos we had of our good times with Nick. An acoustic mix of a few of the guys songs played in the background as we all stood on watching the footage, hearts breaking that this should never have happened he should have been here today. I felt the tears come to my eyes as I watched the photos go by, photos that held so many memories that I would never forget. After a view minutes though it was finally over and it was our time to face the crowed,
"Please welcome Kevin Jonas, Joe Jonas, Danielle Jonas, Demi Lovata and Selena Gomaz to accept three awards on the behave of Nick." Alyson announced,
The crowed roared and I let a tear roll down my face, I had to be strong for Nick.
Joe stepped out and we all trailed after him, the audience screamed in appreciation but it didn't make me feel any better. Joe walked up to the microphone as Kevin, Danielle and Selena accepted each of Nick's awards and I stood by trying to hold it together.
"Nick would have really appreciated these awards and thank you so much for all the support all the fans and everyone has given us. Nick's memory will live on and none of us will ever forget how much of an impact he had on all our lives, especially those of our family, his girlfriend…Selena and his many best friends. Thank you so much." Joe stated with confidence.
The crowed went mad, but I noticed Joe's stumble over the words at girlfriend. We turned and quickly left the stage so relieved that we'd all done it, instantly Joe broke into tears and within second I had pulled him into a hug. Soon everyone was crying and hugs became the best option to try and calm those who had cracked under all the pressure…
"And the winner for best female movie actress is MILEY CIRUS,"
I turned around with everyone else watching from side stage, tears still in my eyes.
With in seconds Miley walked up, and accepted her award grinning. We all held our breath waiting for the acceptance speech, would she mention Nick or not?
"Thank you so much for this everyone, it means so much to me. And I had a whole speech planned out, but I'm not going to say it because there is only one thing I want to thank tonight and it's the most important thing in my life right now..." Miley stated.
I turned looking at Joe whose eyes widened,
"And that is Post it notes, because over the last couple of months I think they've kept me sane in this mad and crazy world." Miley stated and with that turned around, my mouth dropped in complete confusion.
"Oh my god she's gone mental." Kevin hissed as I nodded.
What the hell was going on inside her head?
A/N- First up I'm going to say Merry Christmas everyone! Thanks for the reviews and I know this wasn't a great Niley chapter but the next few are going to be drama packed I promise! Someone's life is going to be put seriously in danger :P Anyway I hope you have a great Christmas and Santa comes to you :D xxxx
